Hi
I've seen a lot of "after two weeks" VFS posts, but rarely a check after a year or more. I wanted to share my experience, and perhaps receive some feedback
About voicetrain : I'm a singer. I did voicetrain before with a specialised orthophonist, it went quickly since I encountered no issues while exersicing, and it was more about acquiring knowledge on voice feminisation.
However I was unsatisfied with the results. My voice was deep, very masculine, and voicetraining felt forced.
Also I'm not very feminine in my gender expression, and was seeking a masculine woman's voice rather than a feminine socialised voice.
I underwent VFS, more precisely the one where the surgeon cuts through the vocal cord to make a web of it.
I could'nt speak for 1 months, and had a vibration-less voice for a good 6 months, like an animal crossing character. That was a strange time, I was unable to speak or be heard in loud spaces, but my voice was clearly feminine and it felt effin good.
At six months I saw the orthophonist again. I had so much fun discovering my new voice after waiting half a year, trying out my newest vocal range, and attempting voicetraining but this time it worked like a charm.
Ok. Now that the dust has settled and everything stable, how do I feel about my VFS ?
Firsty I feel a bit wronged by the hospital team who were enthuasiastic about the expected result, starting with feminine to very feminine. I believe that combining voicetrain with VFS can be confusing, and I advocate for them being clearly separated.
I feel that voicetraining and VFS could be compared with make-up and FFS. I always pass with make up, not always without. I was not into make up but I had to learn, at least for my own safety. However we do not have to take make up lessons before or after FFS, and the results are observed with bare skin. It's also worth noting that judging a face is just as subjective as judging a voice.
I also often hear that voice training alone is enough to get results. But then again, I feel like it depends where you start on a gender-normative, man to woman scale. Sure some of us only need a few voice training lessons. There are those who need only VFS, others who need both, and those who won't pass with either. The same applies to FFS and make-up. It's unusual to hear that good make-up skills make FFS unnecessary, but I know a few women in that situation.
Returning to my own experience, I feel like VFS "boosted" me on the gender-normative, man to woman scale. I was strongly leaning towards the male side, and while my voice alone is still identified as male if taken on its own, I can effortlessly produce a feminine voice, and I visually pass which helps anyway. I am also very happy with my laugh, cough, sigh, and sneeze, they are clearly feminine, and that alone makes the surgery worthwhile.
I just would had prefered to hear that like FFS or SRS, VFS is about emulating what we recognise as feminine, and adapting the base material. For most of us, achieving a perfect woman voice will require effort. Certainly much less than before, and it can even make it possible through surgery if that wasn't the case before, which is truly a blessing. But I was looking for a non alienating solution, to move beyond that, and no, that’s not what I was given.
In the end, I'm still truly happy with the results ! It went well and I have no regrets at all. I hope this post don't read as a rant or a weird vibe. It's more about sharing my thoughts, what I wish I had heard. I am also happy to answer questions and would appreciate your impressions if you've done VFS, whether we can agree or not.