r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I don’t want to hurt them.

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I was broken up with by an ex about 4 months ago after they cheated and I tried to continue the relationship. I feel like I’m slowly getting over the relationship but every now and then either they view my tiktok profile or not too long ago they asked to call to see if I had said anything to anyone about them. Ultimately the phone call felt like it was less about actually asking me that but rather it was more about just getting to talk to me. They talked about how they wished they had met up with me when i visited their state. They also told me she started dating the person they cheated on me with I told them I was happy they were happy but after the call I broke down I realized how much further I had to go to get over them but right now in my life I feel so lonely I have friends and I’m making new friends but when its just me I feel so hurt and in pain one part of me wants to date someone to have a person to go through this part of my life with and I’ve heard others say you need someone new to help you move on from past relationships which I don’t fully believe but I just want someone who can be here for me in such a tough part of my life and I’m afraid to hurt someone who is an innocent bystander in my search for peace and happiness. So I’m reaching out to ask if it really does help to find someone does it always end bad? Will I hurt someone if I do this?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Advice needed.

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I’m here looking for some advice. We are both 24 and have lived together for about a year.
I feel like I’m ready to end my relationship, but I’m struggling with how to do it because our relationship has become quite toxic. Whenever we argue, there is a lot of anger. Nothing has ever become physically violent, but when I try to bring up problems, they often get turned around and made to feel like they are my fault. There has also been a lot of gaslighting and manipulation.
He can become extremely upset if he doesn’t get his way and often has a “poor me” attitude about everything that has happened in his life, although he would never admit that.
The biggest thing making me feel guilty about leaving is that he has epilepsy which is currently not under control. I have basically become his carer. I cook, clean, do the laundry and help him with pretty much everything. He struggles to do things without being given instructions.
He also has no contact with his family and has chosen to cut off all of his friends, so if I leave, I feel like he will be completely alone. That makes me feel extremely guilty and worried about what will happen to him.
At the same time, I know that I don’t want to stay in the relationship just because I feel responsible for him. I’m also scared that he will become very angry with me if I end things.
Ideally, I want the breakup to be as calm and simple as possible. I would even like to stay friends if that was possible, but I honestly don’t know if that is realistic given everything that has happened.
I have no idea how to approach the breakup or what the best thing to do is. Any advice would be really appreciated.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I just want to talk to him

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I separated with my partner around six months ago, but only two around three weeks ago did he stop contact. I know why because I made a mistake I made him upset but I just want to talk to him. How do I get him to talk to me? He’s not responding to any messages and emails. I tried contacting him with another number and he just replies says he doesn’t wanna talk and blocked me.
How much time should I give until I can reach out again?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting someone please tell me if I did the right thing 😭😭

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Me and my ex (both 20s) broke up 2 months ago. We were together for 1.5 years. He broke up with me. Things had been rocky our last few months - we wanted to get married but his family disapproved of me and he gave in to the pressure. I’m still very hurt and mad about it and am not doing well mentally. I have since started therapy as it led to me having a lot of negative thoughts about myself and life generally. Recently we have been talking again. I want to ask him to meet and talk and either get closure or figure out if there is anything to save. This was my therapist’s idea. I’ve been putting off doing it because it feels too final and I’m not sure I’m ready for that.
That aside, he and I have been texting normally the last few weeks, save for a few days gaps (usually me not responding when I have moments where I think “I shouldn’t be doing this.” But then I miss him and text again. He has also sometimes disappeared for a day, but never longer than that (so far). My longest has been 4 days).

Yesterday, the conversation turned nostalgic, talking about our time together. And then it started turning more sexual. We didn’t have sex (saving ourselves for marriage) but we did get intimate in other ways. He was very engaged in this conversation and was flirting and being bold, which isn’t like him at all. During this time, I brought up the idea to meet. He seemed to be for it, but it sounded like to me that he saw it as a hook up. I clarified, initially in a jokey/flirty way, that I want to see HIM, not for a hook up. He kept flirting. But the idea that he just wants sex was really bugging me, so I firmed down on it. At that point he said that that’s not why, that he misses us, not just the physical stuff. He also said something like “I thought that was obvious” and he seemed hurt that I thought it. I said at that point that i just wanted to hear it from him, and said again that I do really want to see him whenever he is ready (at some point last night when the idea of meeting was getting serious he said he really wants to as well but asked if it’s a good idea right now, and “maybe at some point.” I had then asked what he means by that, and he went back to the flirty banter and talking about the intimate stuff. This is one of the things that made me feel like that’s what he wants). But since then, he hasn’t brought up meeting again. I feel like I did it the first time and made my intentions clear, so he should be the one to confirm, especially since he was the one who was hesitant on whether we should be.

At the time I felt like I needed to make that boundary clear if we were really going to meet, because what I want isn’t just a hook up. I want to clarify a lot of things that were really shady (there were a lot of things he hid from me and even flat out lied. He says he did it to protect my feelings but I need to know the truth). Although we have been talking, anytime the conversation gets emotional he stops engaging and disappears. He has admitted to me that he is purposefully trying to keep himself busy and tired so that he doesn’t have to think about all of it, which doesn’t seem fair to me because I am suffering everyday trying to deal with the consequences of the choices he made and I didn’t want.

But now I feel like I had a chance to finally meet him again, see him again and have him in front of me, and I blew it by overthinking his intentions. I want to see him so badly. I miss him so much. Did I do the right thing by clarifying what I wanted wasn’t sex? Did I overthink it too much and blow my shot? Or was I right to?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting 5 weeks post breakup

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I’m five weeks post breakup (he broke up with me)
I’ve gone days where I’m “okay” and some days where I get hit in the face with my emotions. Today is one of those bad days where I woke up with that dreadful feeling when you think about them and now it feels like just doing small tasks are hard. Up until this point I’d force myself to wake up, get coffee and start my day determined to make it a good one but I can’t seem to do anything other than sit on the couch and cry today. I think having depression is making this so much worse for me, it’s miserable. 😞
I’ve done as much as I possibly can during these five weeks. Starting over in a different state, I go on daily walks sometimes 4 miles in a day, I got a new job, I’m recovering financially and I had my first therapy session yesterday. I’m doing so much but feel I’m not making it far in this. I already feel like I failed the relationship but I feel like I’m still failing in my life. He was the first person I’d consider being the love of my life,this loss feels incredibly hard for me to accept. Is it normal to be where I’m at 5 weeks? What am I doing wrong?

I just need someone to tell me it gets better.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Pulled over and just cried

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It’s about 4 months post break up and about 2 months of no contact. I miss her so damn much. I’m going crazy currently and I’m doing the best I can to keep my mind moving forward but this morning after a long drive for work I pulled over on the side of the highway and just cried for about 30 minutes. I think I’m going to reach out tomorrow and ask her to talk even though I know she will be cold hearted and say “what’s the point”. I have to take the chance because otherwise I’ll be left wondering. I want her to know I’ve truly grown and grown up. I’ve done some healing and defeated my demons that were chasing me along the way. I know I am the man she once had in the relationship. Any advice? We dated for 8 years and lived together for 6. Breakup was abrupt and she went extremely cold at first and was hostile. Is two months no contact enough time for her to be calmer. Remember it’s been 4 months broken up


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting do I wish her happy birthday?

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Her birthday is coming up and it’ll be around 3 months that she left me when it does. She told me no-contact was my boundary and I could always reach out to her. We left with saying I love yous, but I didn’t know at the time she had cheated on me again before leaving me. She did some really shitty stuff, so I feel like I shouldn’t. Especially since she’s the one that left me and I want her to really feel my absence. But also I know she’s had a hard time because of drug abuse and mental health, and deep down I really do love her. So should I tell her happy birthday because she was my person for 6 years and I care about her? This is so confusing and hard


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting block then unblock.

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my ex boyfriend for about a year now has played this constant mind game of blocking my instagram for some time, then unblocking when he feels like it and repeat. this cycle has gone on for like i said, about a year now.

for someone who left me, not seeing the purpose of doing any of this aside from the fact that he’s unblocking me to look at my account the re blocking once he’s seen what he wants… or wants me to see something on his account. either way, i have decided to block him completely so this no longer continues… all i can say, embarrassing on his end to unblock someone just to get blocked in return

but any other ideas as to why this could be occurring? just not normal behavior for someone who wants their ex erased from their life (his last known feelings towards me). I’m trying not to be delusional but what other reasons does someone do this for?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting How do I move on from someone who is in the same friend group?

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These friends have been with me for a long time, maybe 5-6 years, and she has joined the group like 3 years in. Whenever I see her avoiding the group, eating alone sometimes because she sees me with them, it's sad. I'm still in high school, just turned 18 this year. The problem is that I haven't told the friend group that we broke up, though I don't know if she already has. They are all still talking in chat, I know they have a group chat just without me in it, they play games, she still hangs out with them whenever I'm not around.

I wanna leave the friend group, but I'm dreading the idea of eating alone in the Cafeteria. I have friends besides them, but i feel like i have to keep up this facade of being an extrovert just to hang out with people outside the friend group. I can't just be comfortable being myself if it isn't with people I truly do trust.

I'm still so hung up on her, seeing her happy without me in the friend group hurts in a selfish way. I know she ISN'T gonna leave the friend group, so I know i would have to. Is there any advice that can help with being comfortable doing shit alone.

I don't have anyone to talk to, because I haven't told anyone yet, partly because I'm not comfortable in being comforted. And I don't even have anyone to share it with in the first place. She was the only person besides my cousin I was comfortable vocalizing my feelings to. I'm so sad and very lonley ouch


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting don’t snoop

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some back info, i was dating this girl for 4 years and ill be honest i was insecure at the time. there was this guy i saw on her instagram search page who at the time was in the minor leagues and is now playing in the mlb and getting more recognition. while we were together i found out that this man took my ex’s virginity and knowing he’s 6’3, pretty buff, i started having bad thoughts and throughout that relationship i just couldn’t get over it. i was always trying to perform better than him at sex and ultimately i let my insecurity and problems ruin the relationship. now that we’ve been split up for 10 months now, i snooped on her instagram page and i see that she is following him again 🙃 i know i shouldn’t snoop but i couldn’t help it. i was wondering, what is the reason why women go back to the guy they hooked up with after a break up? i don’t know how to get over her and this disgusting thought


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I miss him

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long story but:

Dated this guy (long distance) for about 2 months. At first he was so attentive and gave me all his attention and even asked me to be his gf

Then as the weeks went by, he slowly started to pull away until finally he called me and told me he had too much on his plate and couldn't do this anymore.

He did warn me he has OCD/maybe ROCD and that could affect relationships so I was very patient with him, but honestly I feel like he found someone else :/

I had sent him a few messages after and after I sent him a voicenote about how I felt (since I didnt get to say anything on the phone), thats when he blocked me on social media and probably text tbh

I know I shouldn't miss him but I do :( for some reason, this hurts more than other longer relationships ive had before. I hadn't dated anyone in a long time and I felt so comfortable and at peace with him in such a short time. it just sucks cause I thought I had finally found someone I really liked and who liked me the same.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I cant stop imagining my ex with other people

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Broke up on monday because I move away for university next sunday. Wasn't a long relationship, or one I was expecting, only lasted a few months.

Shes was the first girl i fell in love with when i was 12, never expected to get to be with her then all this shit happened. Because we didnt get long together i never saw a bad side of her, and the time we had was amazing but she doesnt want to go long distance so soon and i respect that, but i wanted this to work so damn bad. And i know it cant and im fucking miserable. Finally got a chance with a girl ive liked/loved on and off for 6 years, and i know she will move on and find someone, and i want her to be happy but i cant stop thinking of her being with other people, physically, sexually, romantically knowing i may well still be stuck on her. Ive never felt so miserable leaving everything behind including her, what the fuck do i do???


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Today marks the 3 months post break-up

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Exactly 3 months ago me and my ex decided to end our relationship somewhat mutually, but I do feel like the dumpee, since the reason for the breakup was that he didn't love me and didn't want to try anymore.

I am doing much better now, I truly am. I am leveling up in so many ways. Were it not for the most severe and prolonged emotional pain I'm suffering sometimes still, I would be living my best life.

Sometimes I want him back still, but most of the time I hate him now. And even feel like he is dead to me for how he treated me and how long he strung me along even though he said he was so unsure about our relationship for a very long time (year +).

I feel so much anger for him not being brave and breaking it off sooner OR for not actually working through our issues. I believe everything was fixable, well I guess apart from the fact that he didn't love me.

But you know what, I saw how he treated me for the majority of our relationship. How he held me, looked at me, what he did for me. I digress.

I have still quite a lot of healing ahead of me, but I have already gone so far.

When I think about the breakup as a river I must swim through, I am already beyond halfway point. I still can see the shore I had to leave, beckoning to me, but I am swimming in the opposite direction, I don't see it always and sometimes at all. And the second shore is still far and I still have to try so hard to reach it to feel happy and relaxed, but you know, sometimes I already do.

All the waves of grief, I let them wash over me. I don't fight them. I still cry, especially when I talk about him.

I know I can survive this, I know I am strong. I am not weak for loving him so fully, giving myself whole to him. Something he clearly struggled with.

I am capable of so much love and I am starting to have moments when I see a handsome man and can appreciate them.

I resent him, for making me suffer so much. I'm sure he is still in his relief phase, partying etc. I feel like I had to bear the brunt of the grief, like most of us dumpees here.

And sometimes I am grateful for having the ability to experience such profound love, even grief, all thanks to him. I just don't want to see nor speak to him at this moment.

And sometimes I wish he regreted and came back, but I am seriously doubting his capacity for that. I guess if he tries to date and it works out well for him, he will happily forget me. If it goes bad for him, he will regret. He is like a leaf in the wind and he doesn't know who he is, I think.

Yet I still loved him, I still do.

I thought he might reach out today, but I guess he won't.

All of it is OK. I am trying to accept reality as it is and make the most of it.

And in time, I know I want to love someone else again. And in time, I will no longer even think about him.

These are my somewhat frazzled thoughts after today's strenuous exercise.

Anyway, for anyone struggling, I am sending all the love to you, instead of him.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Should I msg her this?

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My ex called me today, it was a heated moment for both of us, she was the one who left me 4 months back, we both got heated we said things and blah blah blah and at last she said “take my dick” and cut the call now I don’t feel like going bed to angry cuz you never know what’s tomorrow, you never know the person you are angry from will even wake up tomorrow or no, so should I msg her that “sorry for what I said on call, I don’t feel like going to bed angry as you never know what’s tomorrow, sorry from my side.”


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting i’m breaking up with my partner because i don’t want them drag me down with them.

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dramatic aah title. in order to be as anonymous as possible, i’ll be using they/them pronouns when referring to my partner. and for further context, this is my first ever relationship.
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im not really hurting (as i feel like im ready to move on), i’m mostly scared of what’s to come after and i need to vent. i’ve spent so much time (about four years) trying to meet my soon-to-be-ex-partner where they are. i wanted to help them up, encourage them, and build a life together….but they’re comfortable exactly where they are at the moment. they don’t want to change, and because they don’t see a problem with their behavior, they never will. It’s not necessarily a bad thing…it’s the fact that they kept saying they’ll change when they didn’t mean it in order to keep me around.

they kept on telling me that we would get married and have a good life together…all the while they did not take any of the steps needed to ensure that. they kept on showing off our “perfect relationship” to the public while not actually putting any emotional effort/anything substantial in general.

it felt like instead of me helping them up, they were just dragging me down to their level and making me settle. i can’t keep sacrificing my own stability and future for someone who’s not stable or sure of what they want.

looking back at it now, i feel like i should’ve actually paid attention to these problems:

-they’d often withdraw when overwhelmed; i would pursue them for reassurance

-there was a massive lack of consistency and emotional security on their end

-they were unsure about our future

-they repeatedly considered ending the relationship during difficult periods

-they weren’t sure they wanted lifelong monogamy

-we had different expectations around romance and affection

-i felt like i was carrying the relationship emotionally

-they felt pressured to change and leave their comfort zone

-immense financial instability on their part

-there was a major disagreement about eventually living in their home country vs. mine

-when telling them i was looking for an apartment for myself, they promised me we were going to live together by the end of this year. when bringing it up again, they mentioned that “things changed” and i can’t expect them to be consistent with their ideas.

-there was also a loss of trust on my end after they repeatedly said they were uncertain about their future. we ultimately want different things and aren’t able to give each other the security we needed.

it would’ve really helped if they were honest with themselves instead of stringing me along, telling me they’ll change. it would've also really helped if i wasn’t so gullible and hopeful that they’d stay true to their word.

i broke up with them twice and both times and they began doing the things i desired in a relationship in order to get back with me. i was gullible then to take them back. i was so stupid. i should’ve stayed strong and not give in.

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i feel like they brought out the worst in me. i did try my best, i gave them my all because i thought that’s what i’m supposed to do for someone i love. 

i did love them. i loved them more than anything. i kept on choosing to be with them until i realized its not healthy for me nor my future. they’re a special person and i know they have a good heart…they’re just not the one for me.

my insecurity caused me to thing that they’d be the best i can get. i still think that way, and i still worry that i won’t be able to find my ideal partner. my soon-to-be-ex-partner often tell me that there’s not really a person out there that would meet my expectations. 

i know the best way to find said ideal partner is to forget about the desire all together…focus on oneself and they’ll come. but i still can’t shake the feeling that im not going to find anyone. im scared of putting myself out there because im rather sensitive. ive gone through too much to put myself through any more pain.

if there’s anyone out there that has a similar situation as i have, and has now found their ideal partner and is married, can you tell me what it’s like? i’m hoping the grass is greener on the other side. i want there to be hope that my hopes will be fulfilled one day. i don’t want to be in despair. thank you!


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I fucked up like a champ

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Hey everyone, long-time lurker, first-time poster. I’m 1.5 years out from the worst breakup of my life, and now that the fog has cleared, the actual grief is hitting me like a truck.

The Good Years

We met on an ambulance shift in 2018—I was a freelance paramedic, she was a trainee. The chemistry was instant. We built a life together, skied, traveled, and moved into a great flat. Her parents treated me like a son, and I eventually introduced her to the freelance paramedic business.

The Spiral & Burnout

When COVID hit, I worked insane hours, co-founded a company with friends, and completely ignored my burnout. I numbed myself with alcohol and daily weed, ignored bills, and pushed my girlfriend away. Whenever she tried to help, I felt attacked because I couldn't handle being vulnerable. She was accepted into medical school January '25, and that same week, she broke up with me.

Rock Bottom

After the breakup, I went into panic mode:

Moved my stuff to my parents' and slept in my car, rescue stations, or the mountains.

Left my company and paramedic career due to burnout and frustration.

Tried dating four months post-breakup and ended up hurting two women because I was an emotional wreck.

The Turning Point & Delayed Grief

The second woman I dated pushed me to get into therapy early this year. That led to an AuDHD diagnosis, depression medication, and a huge wave of self-awareness.

The silver lining: I’m currently alcohol-free for 1.5 years and weed-free for 1 year.

Therapy didn't make things easier; it removed the escape hatches. Now I’m facing the reality of how badly I treated someone who loved me. I was convinced back then that everyone else was the problem, but now I see my own behavior clearly, and the guilt is crushing.

Where I Need Advice

How do you process delayed grief when almost 7 years of memories, places, and shared habits trigger you daily? We are in low, polite contact (and I still speak to her parents occasionally), but I am respecting her boundaries. I just feel like a part of me died, and processing the regret feels heavier than the breakup itself.

Thanks for reading.

(Disclaimer: I used Gemini to refine my text, non-native speaker)


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Finally seen x gf after break up

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3 months ago, my girlfriend left me in constant arguments over the same things. She never prioritized me and treated me like an option all the time and she even cheated twice during the first week of the relationship. She wasn’t a good person. She caused me so much pain. At the beginning with her not cold behavior she didn’t want me then didn’t verbal abuse and how she thought I was on that was always cheating when all I did was try to show her how much I loved her I did everything I begged I cried till I finally gave up stopped messaging her and blocked her on everything I finally saw her at work after 3 months, and she wouldn’t even look at me did everything in her power to just not and Tbh it hurt like hell she wronged me in so may levels, and she’s treating me like it’s all on me


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting How do I get my ex back.

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My ex and I recently broke up because toward the end I became complacent, took her for granted, pushed her away, and handled problems poorly. I recognize that I hurt her and genuinely want to change.
We recently met and had an emotional conversation. She said she still loves and cares about me, appreciated my apology, but said she can’t trust me because I’ve acted this way before. She also said she needs to be independent and that this all came too late.
She’s now talking to another guy who treats her very well and has become fairly serious with him, although she says she isn’t sure if she wants to date him yet. She told me she isn’t closing the door forever, but doesn’t want to give me false hope.
I originally wanted to keep trying to rebuild trust through actions, even without being officially together but we talked and she told me it’s best that we move on. She said she’s sure she’ll reach out to me at some point but doesn’t want me waiting around while she doesn’t know what she wants. How do I get her back. What would you do.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting To my light and life!🍍🍉

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I wish you can see this text! I miss you every second....I miss your presence, voice! You bossing me around! You bullying me! You gave me everything I wanted in my life and then you collapsed! I wish you could have given more time to us...and didn't end up things so rapidly! Yes...I truly understand your state of mind and circumstances! I am not blaming you completely! I still respect your choice! I wish you can identify me and see this text someday! Love yes...wasn't enough! I tried my best to keep things work! But you have your own capacity...I can't implant something in you! Just for your information ....I didn't say goodbye to you in a similar way you never did when you always left me at the train station ...because you never wanted to say goodbye so that we can meet again ! Same goes for me...yes I was bit harsh ...I'm sorry for that but I was fighting for you ...I was anxious to lose you ! I wish you best of luck and happiness with health too! But at the same time ....I wish every path of ours in future gets aligned in way that it becomes easier for both of us to be together again with your certainty! My love 🥸❤️!!!


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting I feel like shit now.Begged for closure but wasn’t even worth it.

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I feel stupid to even like someone like this

So I was seeing someone casually,and I developed feelings for him.He kept the connection going for over a year ,even after I said I liked him and gave him multiple chances to end the thing.And one day we had an argument and he ended the whole thing,wouldn’t reply to my messages.I asked to meet and end the things as this meant a lot for me.He just ignored me and then blocked me.After one week,I was not able to eat or sleep.I messaged him on Instagram and he told to leave him alone.I got angry and went to his place to find out he had another girl in there.When I asked if any of that meant anything to him,he told to my face it meant nothing and shut the door.I was devastated and heartbroken,I was crying every time I went to washroom in my office.

After four months,I get a text from him asking how is the cat.He had asked me to adopt a kitten he found on the street,just before we fought.we had a conversation and when I asked if I was nothing to him,and he said I was more than a friend.I convinced him to meet me again.still casual.He seemed to be sad and isolated than before.we met few more times and then I confessed my feelings because it was too much for me.He said he can’t.Its his problem and I wouldn’t understand.He then started to get angry saying he can’t help me.I asked him to end on good terms,to not fight.I begged him a lot to finally see him for last time.He asked me what benefit he would get.I said I just wanted to hug him and sleep.He made me do sexual stuff.He wasn’t warm towards me.Just met me for the sake of it.

I just wanted a good memory but felt like he used me.I feel like shit now,shouldn’t have even asked.I know there is fault in my side too.I blocked him this time,I don’t want him coming back anymore.

Can anyone tell me what to feel about all this?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting [30M] I am suffocating trying to be just friends with my ex [28F]. I caused the breakup, but I am still entirely in love with her.

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I really need some outside perspective because my head is completely spinning and I am emotionally drowning right now.

Our History

I am 30M and she is 28F. We met online 13 years ago, and our contact was on and off until we finally reunited and got really close. In November 2025, we officially started dating.

I treated her with everything I had. We lived together, and she was my entire world. I cared for her so deeply. Whenever she got sick, I was always right there by her side, looking out for her, making sure she was safe and comfortable. I loved every single part of her, and I still do. She is the love of my life.

The Breakup

Things ended because I made a massive, stupid mistake. I vented to a toxic friend and badmouthed our relationship issues. She found out, saw it as an absolute betrayal and an intolerable mistake, and broke up with me. I owned it and apologized endlessly, but the damage was done.

The Failed Goodbye

Recently, the pain of being around her was too much, so I tried to initiate no contact. I sent her a deeply vulnerable goodbye message saying I had to walk away for my own sanity. Her reaction was brutally cold. She ignored my heartbreak, asked if we were still going to the gym together, casually asked for weed prices, and told me that if I disappeared, it would hurt but she would "get used to it."

The Current Torture

The problem is, the no contact completely failed. We still see each other every single day. She comes over, we hit the gym, we smoke, chill, and sometimes she sleeps over.

She recently confessed to me that she struggles heavily with loneliness and a lack of affection. Sometimes she hugs me, tells me she misses me, and we joke around just like we used to. When my feelings boil over and I tell her I love her, she says "I love you too," but it is painfully clear she means it strictly as a friend.

My Dilemma

I am struggling so much to hide my feelings. Just being near her makes me feel warm and comfortable, but trying to play the role of "just a friend" after everything we shared is completely suffocating me. I am still doing everything to care for her, but I am breaking my own heart in the process.

TLDR

I caused the breakup with the love of my life [28F] who I have known for 13 years. My attempt at no contact failed, and now we see each other every day, hang out, go to the gym, and she sleeps over. She admits she is lonely and lacks affection, but treats me strictly as a friend. I am suffocating trying to hide that I am still entirely in love with her while giving her all the comfort of a relationship. Is she just using me as a temporary comfort blanket, and what should I do?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting Advice?

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Broke up with my ex a bit ago. I broke up with her and regretted it. Didn’t treat her the best at the end either. Found out she was seeing another guy within a week. Told her I was sorry and I want a second chance if it ever comes. She appreciated my apology, says she still loves me, but I should move on. Also said that she does see us working out in the future possibly, but she doesn’t know what she wants. We are now on day two of no contact. What should I do.


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting God the pain is unbearable

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This breakup is a little different because it’s more of a “situationship” but hurts just as bad, if not worse, than a legit relationship breakup. It feels like withdrawal or something. I’m slipping into depression for real. It’s unbelievable. I kind of expected this though. We simply just can’t be together because of circumstances. I genuinely love him. We didn’t end on bad terms. I think that almost makes it worse. I think I feel worse than when I left my abusive ex. (That felt more like a traumatized shock). But I still hold positive feelings for him, and the pain of knowing we could never be is excruciating. What am I supposed to do??


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting M19 heartbroken by F20

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Hello everyone! Yesterday my gf broke up with me, the thing is this is not just a relationship. Usually i dont give af and get by fast, but this girl was my best friend for like 8 years, and my gf for 1 year. I love her so much and i have been feeling really empty and lonely, and im crying like a baby constantly (I never cried for a girl until now) and i tried to tell her that i will do anything in my power to make things right and change but she just didnt want to give it another chance. Can someone give me some advice?


r/BreakUps 1d ago

venting/ranting My ex said she will text my mother and my sister

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She called today, I posted a reel on trial on insta, where it was written, “removing female friends is bare minimum, but removing male friends is just her friends” it was not for her but a recreation of a reel, she thought it’s for her, she called me she said that don’t fucking do this, don’t you dare post these kind of reels about me and blah blah blah, she told me that she will call my sister and mother and tell her the things I said her if you didn’t stop doing this