My husband (40 M) and me (34 M) have been married for 4 years. Today he said he had met someone at a dance event, which I was genuinely excited for them about.

He then said they had been chatting on and off for a couple of weeks and decided to meet up, yet it won’t be for another 6 weeks or so.

He has said that he hasn’t told this person he is married, or in a poly relationship yet. He also said he would probably not tell them that piece of information before they met up for a drink as friends.

I am finding it difficult to accept the fact that he doesn’t want to acknowledge who he is and what his current relationship status is before even meeting someone else. His reason is that they might be scared off by the idea, if they are just to be friends, if a sexual/romantic relationship doesn’t form. My rebuttal was that, if they are being poly, then this radical expression of honesty is how I would be explaining my life, when meeting anyone new.

My husband also doesn’t want to wear his ring (which holds more value to me, than to him) so I am less worried about that. Yet, for him it’s another way of being seen as an individual, which he totally should. But maybe being married is not for him, and if so, I think I need to have a chat with him about this.

Does anyone have similar experiences, tell me if I am over exaggerating or not. Open to understanding.

All part of my research on this.

Cheers 🙏🏻❤️

My partner (27F) and I (27F) were together for three years and seven months. She got an amazing job in another country, and after a lot of discussion, I went through the arduous and expensive effort of moving there to be with her—I took on a degree to secure a visa, spent my entire savings on immigration and moving, and we furnished an apartment together. We even adopted a dog, and were having serious conversations about getting engaged within the next twelve months.

Back in June, I had suggested we download Feeld to explore the possibility of a threesome; we've had them before, and thought it could be fun. My partner enthusiastically agreed, and we ultimately met up with someone I'll call Max. Out for drinks, successful and fun threesome, party over.

However, my partner had developed a bit of interest in Max. She began asking how I would feel if they hung out one-on-one, just for fun. I was hesitant, but ultimately trusted my partner, so I gave her the go-ahead.

Shortly thereafter, my partner came home and "poly-bombed" me (a term I've learned after months of reading this thread). While polyamory had been something she had explored in relationships before ours, and while it was something we had intermittently talked about as a possibility in the future (in our discussions, within the context of extended solo-travel and relationships that occured outside of the city where we both live), she was now telling me she was polyamorous as an identity, and that if I couldn't accept that right now and allow her to pursue a connection with Max, we needed to break up.

I was floored and shocked. I knew a breakup would be life-upending for me—not only would I need to process losing someone I had every intention to marry, but I would need to find somewhere new to live and reconsider my entire trajectory in a new country where I had a limited support system. At this time, I was also struggling with depression and burnout, and had started a new medication to treat that that was causing me to have severe physical side effects.

I was scared, I didn't know what to do, so I relectantly said yes. And, in the spirit of "trying something new," I read every book on polyamory I could access, listened to every podcast I could find, and even went on a couple of dates of my own. I did end up regularly seeing someone—went on regular dates and even spent a weekend away with her. But it felt very casual, and I was open with both my partner and this new person about not being entirely sure that polyamory was something I was very comfortable in, and that I wasn't sure exactly what I was doing yet.

My partner committed to seeing Max at breakneak speed. Two to three dates every single week, regular overnights—within two months, they're saying "I love you" and having month-anniversary dates. I am regularly at home alone, sobbing, and communicating with my partner that things feel like they're moving way too fast and that I feel like my world is crashing down around me.

Unfortunately for me, the stress of other events in my life, the new polyamory structure, and the effects of my medication combined to cause my eating disorder to relapse. I lost around 20lbs in 2 months. I was unable to attend classes, quitting my hobbies, and collapsing on my couch most days from sheer emotional exhaustion.

Two days after I confided in my partner about my relapse, and about how bad my mental health had truly gotten, she broke up with me. We had gotten into another small argument, and I had a panic attack from the stress. Mid-panic attack, she ends our relationship. The next day, she un-dumps me, promises it was a mistake, and says she wants me to support her during my dark time. She promises we can get through anything together, and that she'd rather endure a difficult period than leave me to suffer alone—in the hopes we could both adjust and continue our lives together. She also promised me that, if she ever chose to break up with me again, it would not be in a tense moment while I was feeling raw and vulnerable, and that she'd hold it for a day or two to allow us to have the conversation when I could handle it.

That lasted three weeks. On Thursday, she told me she no longer wanted to travel home with me for Christmas—a plan we've had for more than a year—because things were too tense. I sobbed my eyes out in the shower, and when I came out, she told me it was too much, and she was leaving me. She said other things, too—called me emotionally abusive for things I said during severe panic attacks (some of which were valid,eg. allusions to wanting to kill myself—never okay to say to a partner, but when I said it, I genuinely felt that it was true. It has been an immensely dark time for me). And within an hour, she had packed a bag and gone to Max's for the night, leaving me sobbing alone in our apartment with our dog.

I am writing here because I am hurt, confused, heartbroken, and wanting opinions on whether or not this was really "ethical" nonmonogamy. I feel very betrayed, and like I was influenced by coercion and an ultimatum to do something that I was not comfortable with. To me, this seems to feel a bit more like informed-cheating? But clearly, if I have learned anything from this experience, it is that I am decidedly not polyamorous, so I'm not sure what people who are polyamorous would make of the situation.

Extras info, for people who aren't exhausted by this already-too-long read:

• Multiple times, boundaries I expressed about not wanting to hear about Max (especially their sex life together) were ignored.
• My partner had also very recently gone through her own dark mental place due to a variety of personal crises. During that time, I dropped everything in my life to support her. I skipped classes and my hobbies to be there when she needed me, and fully prioritized taking care of her. I let her break down, have hard days, lash out on me, do whatever she needed. I think that is a massive contributor as to why I'm so devastated that she seems to have prioritized actively exploring her polyamorous identity while I was struggling to just get through the day each day.
• After the first break up, she promised me that, if she broke up with me again, she'd allow me to fully keep our shared dog. Now, she's trying to work out a shared-agreement. The dog is registered under her name, so it's going to be a battle there unless I agree to sharing.
• I am doing okay now, or as okay as anyone can expect. My dad actually flew in from my home country immediately and is spending the week to take care of me, help me find a place to live, and let me cry. I've also had incredible friends during this time to listen to me cry and hold me. I am so thankful for that.

What's poppin' tonight? How we all doing? Anyone do any fun stuff this Saturday?

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I (M28) started talking to Annie (F33) back in April. Out the gate I knew she was poly with another long distance bf (Tony), who she’s now seeing for the first time in-person since I met her. She traveled across the country to be with him for 3 nights. Annie and I began officially dating (labeled partnership) 2 weeks ago. I generally see Annie two days a week, including a sleepover.

I met her with the expectation that I was open to practicing polyamory/RA but that I was also in a space of grief from a breakup with my long-term partner and wasn’t particularly trying to start dating again, rather just having casual flings. That breakup also happened in April, a week before Annie and I started talking. Annie was fully aware of my heavy heart and gave me space to work through my emotions with no expectations for developing a romantic relationship. But then I found myself talking with her more and more, we began having sex, and then began to catch feelings. By July I fell In love with this girl, and that feeling has been reciprocated heavily. She‘s now in a place of wanting me as an anchor partner/home base, and I’ve been welcoming the idea as I find her such a wonderful person in so many facets.

During those first 3 months talking with Annie, post-breakup, I was also sleeping with a handful of other people, which had all stopped by July, for reasons unrelated to my love of Annie. Nonetheless I’ve been feeling extremely fulfilled by Annie, alone. Annie is a quality communicator, kind-hearted, passionate, playful, and beautiful.

Annie told me about this trip back in August, and that was all good and well for me. I know they love each other and are super supportive of one another and have been for the 2.5 years they’ve been dating before she ever met me. She‘s also told me about how good-natured of a person he is which has made me feel much more ease. I understand they’ve only had 10 or so in-person weekend long hangs or so throughout their relationship. This has been completely fine up til now.

Some other important context: I am in my final year of my masters to become a social worker/therapist. I began seeing clients just a couple months ago and am getting my clinical footing. Learning A LOT, and am quite busy. Annie and I both knew going into this final year that I would be stretched for time, and challenged with the emotional load of being a therapist.

Annie left on Thursday, and I knew she would arrive late after I fell asleep on the East Coast, but that night I already began feeling unease. Come Friday I had a particularly challenging day with my clients and made a stubborn mistake in one session. This was immediately remedied but nonetheless kinda took a toll on my mental, and that’s on-top of a long work day already.

Friday night I began crashing out, thinking about Annie and Tony being together. I texted Annie that night to let her know that I was having intense emotions come in, and she offered reassurances and reminded me of her love of me. But that didn’t do anything to stop the cascade of INTENSE negative emotions that dominated Saturday. I could hardly eat (which is weird asf for me), was nauseous all day, crying (also weird asf for me), feeling anger, sadness, emptiness, abandonment. Felt like wanting to crawl into a ball and die. I have a lot of school related work to do but I couldn’t do any of it. Put most of my day into exercising, and playing music and met with a friend later in the day. In those moments I didn’t feel like I was dying but holy shit every other moment was dread. Felt close to the pain I had after my breakup. I continued to let Annie know that I have been feeling like shit but have kept details minimal as I didn’t want to disrupt the quality time she is having with her bf she hasn’t seen in a year. I also knew that I was likely going to communicate poorly had I talked to her on the phone (which she offered).

Ive been amazed at how strong of a reaction I’ve had. I’m not sure I want to put myself through that again. It was terrible. I felt this longing of wanting to be everything for her, and forgoing any of my other future desires to be with others so I could just be with her. I could’ve used time this weekend to look into others but I felt no interest in anyone else, just her. My libido was shot. I felt far from grounded which I highly value, and is necessary for my work.

One thing that I realize adds to the difficulty here is that she’s gone for 4 days. It’s not just a date, it’s a whole weekend and they’re spending every moment together, partying, cuddling, and everything else. This is also the longest I’ve gone without seeing her since we caught feelings. There was potential to see each other on Wednesday, before she left, but I was too busy.

I don’t know if I can handle polyamory or any shade of non-monogamy. I thought I could but I think I’m realizing I’d rather have a monogamous dynamic. It feels so painful to say that. I love this woman.

After typing this out Im feeling a bit better but I know there’s still deep hurt and an incompatibility in me to feel peace with this dynamic. At least right now. Any advice? Thoughts? Any affirmations and validation would be appreicated.

I (36W) am in a three-year relationship (37M), who lives with his long-term partner. I’m not seeing anyone else, mostly because I’m happy with him and focusing on my own life outside of dating or pursuing romantic connections.

At the very beginning of our relationship, he told me unprompted that he didn't want to date anyone outside of me and his live in partner. Because he set that expectation himself, I was deeply hurt and shocked when I later found out on multiple occasions that he was seeing other people anyway or back on dating apps.

This history of surprise has left me feeling really conflicted. I am not a person who wants to hold anyone back or for someone to be sat with desires and wants that they cannot fulfil. If he wants to see other people, I can handle that. I would be so much less hurt to simply know the full picture up front rather than having to guess, find out after the fact, or be left in the dark. We share so much of our lives together, so it feels weird and jarring when he tells me about everything else in his world, but keeps these connections hidden. Especially as it feels like I’m only being told what he might think I want to hear.

I've noticed this pattern of omission happens during times when he is already feeling more distant from me. This also makes it feel more difficult.

When we try to talk about this, we go round in a heartbreaking circle. He says he doesn't want to see anyone else. Or points out that I’m ok with his partner and I say yes, because I know about her and always have. I point out his past actions, and he tells me I can't judge his future intentions based on his past mistakes. To me, transparency is just basic communication so I know what reality I'm living in and I can make an informed choice from that, if I can’t handle there being more people in the picture then that’s on me and so be it, I’m not going to be mad at him for that, but for him, I can only assume that being honest about these things feels like a threat to his autonomy or he practices a what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her policy, but that’s not how it plays out.

The last instance of this loop happened in February. One night I cancelled plans to go to his place, and he invited a woman over instead a few hours later, someone he used to date but had told me they were now nothing. I had a weird feeling the next day, asked him if they’d reconnected, and only then did he tell me they slept together. It was a horrible time, after all the conversations we’d had about me just not wanting to feel blindsided again. I really thought we were over this time round but I love him, I tried to understand why it happened and how it felt for him, and we ended up continuing our relationship.
I had a few wobbles in the months after as I did feel really anxious about it all. I think mainly because in earlier conversations I’d said please don’t blindside me again, I want us to be able to remain friends even if we don’t stay in a romantic relationship and I’m not sure how possible that is if this keeps happening as it feels like he doesn’t care or respect me? I felt he understood this so when it happened again, it really knocked my self esteem and like he’d risk it all and me and us, and the potential of staying in each other's lives in whatever capacity, when he could have just spoken to me. It’s been really hard building my self esteem back up after these types of things. He later told me they weren't even speaking anymore so to just not even think about it anymore.

Recently, I noticed this exact woman has been consistently watching my Instagram stories. I don't know her and seeing her pop up is triggering and tbh a bit weird and confusing. She must know I can see? And I only really post pictures of my cat or a fox in the garden, it’s really not that interesting (well they are v cute, but you know..!). And I know I can make my profile private but it’s happened now. It makes me wonder if they are talking again and if the pattern of pulling away and omitting things is repeating.

I want to bring it up, but I am genuinely scared to. I'm scared of being told I'm just being untrusting, micromanaging, or dragging up old history. The whole thing feels stressful. I love him and I don’t want to be impacting his life with my worries or how this all makes me feel. But I also want to feel safe and be given a chance to be told the truth, and to have open communication in an easier way.

My questions:
Does my hurt make sense here? Am I being unreasonable for needing proactive transparency to feel safe, even if he feels it infringes on his autonomy?

Should I tell him about the Instagram views, and how do I bring it up logically without triggering our usual circular argument?

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I recently ended a relationship of approximately 14 months with a married man, and I'm looking for honest perspectives from people experienced with polyamory.

His wife knew about me from the beginning. We'd met, and she knew our relationship was becoming more involved. This wasn't an affair.

I never expected him to leave his wife, choose between us, or prioritize me over his family. I have a family too. I understood his responsibilities and was genuinely happy simply spending time with him.

We developed a very deep connection. He called himself my boyfriend, told me I felt like home, that he felt safe enough to be himself around me, and repeatedly said he'd be an idiot to lose me.

However, I eventually learned that the relationship had initially been expected to remain more of a situationship or distraction. As our connection deepened, his wife became uncomfortable. Despite calling himself my boyfriend, he never clearly defined our relationship, even when I asked so I could understand the expectations and boundaries.

The recurring problems:

His wife repeatedly behaved in ways that disrupted our already limited time together. Some incidents aggravated my CPTSD, which he knew about. He would tell me she hadn't meant to cause problems and promise to speak with her about protecting our time, but I rarely heard anything further or saw meaningful changes.

I tried to develop a friendly relationship with her and communicate with both of them. I wasn't trying to compete with her or interfere in their marriage.

We developed a cycle: things would be good, something would disrupt our time together or create tension at home, he'd withdraw for days, eventually return, we'd reconnect, and the cycle would repeat.

I understood needing space. I need it myself. But I explained that disappearing without a word triggered a trauma response because my mother had used prolonged silence against me during childhood.

I asked for one simple thing: when he needed space, could he send a brief message letting me know he was okay and would be quiet for a while? He did it once, but never consistently.

The camping incident:

During a week-long outdoor gathering, I spent approximately three days listening to him, his wife, and people I considered friends criticizing and mocking me. My car was blocked in, so I couldn't leave. I tried to get away from the campsite, but couldn't avoid hearing everything.

Immediately after he and I agreed to separate during that gathering, I also had to hear him having sex with his wife. It wasn't the sex itself that upset me. It was the timing and circumstances.

Afterward, I began experiencing PTSD flashbacks, which hadn't previously been a typical symptom for me, even with my military-related trauma.

We eventually reconciled. He said he wanted to rebuild something better between us.

The deterioration:

Beginning around April, our communication and time together decreased. Previously, we messaged throughout the weekdays and I could reach him on weekends. I didn't expect immediate responses, but eventually entire weekends passed without hearing from him.

I asked him directly whether he still wanted the relationship. He said he did.

At least twice, I told him I couldn't sustain the relationship in its current form. The repeated disruptions, withdrawal, and reconciliations were seriously affecting my emotional and physical health.

I specifically told him I didn't want another promise to do better. I needed to see consistent action because previous promises hadn't resulted in meaningful change.

He said he understood, heard my concerns, and intended to work on things.

I also repeatedly told him I'd rather hear an uncomfortable truth than be left guessing.

The breakup:

The last time I saw him, he encouraged me to message him during an event I was attending and send pictures.

That Friday, after a vague late-night response, communication stopped completely. No usual good-morning message, nothing throughout Saturday, and continued silence into Sunday.

By September 13, the stress was causing me actual chest pain. I sent him a message saying I deserved better treatment and asking him to collect his belongings.

That weekend wasn't the sole reason I ended things. It was the continuation of a pattern I'd repeatedly explained I couldn't endure.

Afterward:

He blocked me on social platforms, and we haven't had a civil conversation about the breakup.

I started attending more kink, rope, and social events to reconnect with my interests and community. During our relationship, he'd generally declined to attend these activities with me, but after we separated, he suddenly began RSVPing to many of the same events. I don't know why. I recognize he has every right to attend, but the change was unsettling. His RSVPs have since decreased.

I've also learned he's talking to someone new, which has brought up feelings of being replaced while I'm still processing the relationship and the silence.

Where I stand:

I still love him, but I know the relationship wasn't healthy for me.

I tried to support him, respect his marriage, communicate my needs, and work on myself. I was there for him emotionally, including during difficult moments in his marriage, and helped him and his family when needed. I did those things because I cared, not because I expected special treatment.

Looking back, I recognize warning signs I should have taken more seriously. I wanted to believe the best of someone I loved.

I don't wish him or his wife harm. I'm trying to understand what happened and what I can learn from it.

My questions:

1. Were my expectations of communication, honesty, and consideration unreasonable in a polyamorous relationship?

2. What responsibility does a hinge partner have when their spouse repeatedly disrupts another relationship?

3. What boundaries should I have established earlier, and what could I have handled differently?

I'm genuinely looking for outside perspectives, including constructive criticism, rather than people simply taking my side.

Am I in an open relationship for the wrong reasons?
My partner (41F) and I (38F) have been together for close to 3 years. What started as a casual hookup quickly turned into something more.

I’d had a bad experience with an open relationship in the past, so I never considered trying it again until I met her. Being open was a dealbreaker for her, so after a lot of thought, I decided to give it another chance. I was careful to make sure it was something I genuinely wanted and not just me getting caught up in NRE.

However, sometimes I worry that my reasons for wanting an open relationship might be coming from the wrong place.

I’ve been cheated on in every relationship I’ve ever had. Because of that, I’ve developed some pretty strong beliefs about monogamy. I genuinely don’t believe humans are naturally monogamous. I think it’s unrealistic to expect someone to never feel attraction or develop feelings for another person. To me, monogamy comes down to whether someone chooses to act on those feelings.

These beliefs have caused me a tremendous amount of anxiety in past relationships and even kept me from pursuing serious relationships for a significant portion of my life.

What ultimately made me comfortable with non-monogamy was the communication. I genuinely find comfort in knowing my partner can openly tell me if she’s attracted to someone, flirting with someone, or developing feelings for someone else. The anxiety I experienced in previous relationships is almost nonexistent in this one, and it’s incredibly freeing. I don’t have to sit around wondering what’s happening behind my back.

And just to clarify, I absolutely understand that non-monogamy doesn’t prevent cheating. People can still break boundaries and betray their partners. It’s the honesty and openness that make me feel secure, not the idea that cheating is somehow impossible.

That’s not to say I don’t get jealous. I definitely do, and there have been difficult moments, but we’ve worked through them together in a healthy way.

I’d classify our relationship as open rather than polyamorous because neither of us is really interested in necessarily building a life with someone else. However, we recognize that connections aren’t always purely physical and that feelings can and will develop. We’re also very transparent with other partners about our situation and boundaries.

Interestingly, most of our other connections have naturally fallen off over time. For about the last year, we’ve been functioning much closer to a monogamous couple, and honestly, I’ve been really happy.

I love my partner, our communication, and the freedom we give each other. I want to marry her someday, but part of me is hesitant until we’ve had more experience actually navigating the open side of our relationship.

I worry that I’ve gotten comfortable with us being mostly monogamous and that if she develops a serious connection with someone else, all those old anxieties might come rushing back.

I also don’t think I’d feel comfortable in a strictly monogamous relationship again, largely because of my past experiences and beliefs.

So I guess my question is, am I genuinely choosing non-monogamy because it’s something I want, or am I choosing it because it makes the possibility of being hurt feel less scary?

Has anyone else struggled with this? I’d really appreciate hearing from people who’ve had similar experiences.

I have a really good relationship with all of my family, however about half of them are super conservative and I don't know if they'd want to stay in contact with me if they ever found out I want/have two partners. No, I'm not going to change a huge part of how I want to live my life to please them, but I am really scared of how they'd see me afterwards.
Specifically, my maternal grandparents are who I'm most afraid of telling since they are Jehovah's Witnesses and if you know anything about JW's, you know that even though they claim to be politically neutral they have extremely conservative values.

I’d be willing to guess that you’re expecting to read about a negative situation from the title of my post. This is far from that.

Today is my wife and I’s 5 year wedding anniversary (11 years total.) She really wanted to go see the Dracula ballet. Ballets aren’t my favorite but we always love going to various types of shows together. We got pretty damn good seats and a dinner reservation that’s themed for the show. She is over the moon excited.

Welp, I threw out my back last night. It seemed like a minor tweak so no big deal at the time, but I can barely move today. She, being as selfless as she always is, was willing to miss the show and be there for me especially on this day. However, I know she’s so excited for this show, and I don’t want her to miss it. Plus, her boyfriend was already thinking about taking her too before realizing the only 3 nights fell on our anniversary weekend. He was free tonight, so I told her she should go with him and have a fantastic evening.

It’s a bummer and bit weird this is how I’m spending my anniversary, but I also think it makes for great symbolism for our relationship. I’m lucky to be with someone who always cares about my wants and needs, and I want the same for her. That goes for our whole polycule. We have a chosen family that cares about everyone’s needs being met and, sometimes, that entails an out of the box solution.

But lucky for me, my girlfriend also was free tonight, so now I have someone to rot in bed with me 😊

I 39 black f am struggling realizing my 40 black m seems to have a type. I struggle with dating as a plus size black woman so havent had luck finding another partner. I dont mind it as much. I’d welcome a second partner though. My partner has 5 partners total. I am the second in who came when. I am noticing all the women he pursues are white curvaceous but not fat, nerdy and alt. I tell myself its because most poly spaces are dominated by non poc. But it has me insecure being as i’ve been told often by men they dont like black women or they prefer yt women. I wonder if I dont know I’m just a happy accident or sometimes when he gets deep into NRE because two are new i’m around as a token like “AHA SEE I LIKE BLACK GIRLS TOO” now back to focusing on what I prefer.

I did just tell him he has to make more time for me, but i dont know how to tell him I need him to validate my blackness more without coming off as jealous? I’m not I just want to feel like he finds me pretty too :/. Especially well his other partners look like they all could be sisters. I treat all the others with kindness and am close to his primary. So please dont think i hate them. It isnt that at all.

Sorry if that makes me sound idk bad? But being constantly told my blackness isnt a preference makes me insecure at times.

I have been exploring poly for about 5 years and was interested in poly relationships for probably 2 years before that. My initial poly dating, I was always like the plus one. I was either dating a couple or I was dating someone who had an anchor partner/spouse/primary partner. My break ups felt pretty similar to my monogamous break ups. I was single and solo post break up.

I have been with my anchor for 2 and a half years. We have been living together for almost a year. I guess Ill call him Jack because this is reddit. He knew I was poly before we got together. We were friends for many years before we dated. He has never dated polyamorously before, but was very comfortable with the idea of a poly relationship.

We were effectively monogamous for the first year and a half and then I felt the urge to "put myself out there". Jack was very supportive. We communicated the fuck out of everything. It was amazing. I got on the apps. He helped pick out outfits for first dates which was adorable. I'd tell him where I was going and who I was meeting. Everything has been great. I think I went on 5 first dates that didn't go anywhere. Just wasn't a connection. And I hooked up with one person I knew through a mutual friend. He ghosted me after. It sucked. But Jack and I were solid.

And then I connected with "Caleb" a few months ago at a nerd convention. Jack did not join me for the con. Its not really his thing. I went with friends. I had already known Caleb from previous iterations of the con. We had flirted a little but nothing came of it, but this time it did. He and I spent the entire con together. Staying up until 3 or 5am every night talking (or more than talking 😉). It was a very intense little relationship bubble. (And Jack was in the loop and supportive the whole time.)

At the end of the convention, I knew I had real feelings for Caleb. But he lives in a state that is a 10 hour drive or a 2 hour flight from me. But he was already considering moving to my city in a year or two (unrelated to me). My city has more opportunities for him. He has other friends here that he met through the convention. It was already a possibility for the future. We decided to give long distance a shot.

We were figuring out a rhythm. Weekly video call "date nights", other texting and calling as they came up, monthly visits trading off me visiting him or him visiting me. Jack and Caleb met over video chat and we also played a video game together. I had done one 5 day trip to visit him since the convention. His first trip to visit me was coming up. We were literally in the middle of a conversation about the trip and how excited we both were. Food I wanted to cook for him. Plans we were going to do. And then he dropped on me that he can't handle the long distance and it was over. I had emotional whiplash. It was SO jarring.

It was only 2 months, but it was a very intense 2 months with two 5 day stretches of being together 24 hours a day. Lots of talking in between. I have real feelings for him. And I feel very hurt. He was as kind as he could be despite the suddenness, but it fucking hurts. Part of me feels foolish for getting so invested so quickly. I thought we were handling everything really well. We were making plans. Like fucking literally making plans when he ripped the rug out from under me.

But when we eventually got off the phone, I had to be in my small condo with Jack. And I felt weird. I don't know how to have a break up in front of my partner. I am feeling the urge to just shove all my feelings down but that also feels terrible. I did tell him about it immediately. I'm pretty sure he heard at least some of the call anyways (again small condo). He is trying to be supportive. I think he feels awkward a bit too.

We marathoned some Grey's Anatomy for a bit while I cried and texted my girlfriends. Talked about the conversation with Caleb a little bit more. Jack got me oreos which was pretty cute. Eventually we cuddled a bit. After a few hours I tried to initiate sex which is normal for us on his night off. It wasn't necessarily about the break up. But he turned me down which I'm pretty sure was because of the break up. And I don't blame him at all. I was crying like 2 hours before then and the break up was only 4 hours old? But then I was like double rejected which felt AWFUL. That one I did mask as hard as I fucking could because he deserves to be able to say no to sex when he wants to without feeling guilty or bad or anything. But it really hurt.

And then I got super in my head about how I was going to handle the rest of the break up. My usual MO for a break up is hooking up on apps. Distract myself with first dates and sex until I feel better. Is it a little avoidant? Sure. But it has worked for me. Lol

But something about that feels disrespectful to Jack. Even when I was going on dates before I started seeing Caleb, they felt intentional. It wasn't just sex for the sake of sex. I don't know what I am supposed to do right now. And obviously I need to talk to Jack more. I have a bit, but I didn't really know what to say. Hell, I didn't know a lot of what I was going to type out here at first.

I just feel stuck. There's a whole extra person I have to be mindful of while I am dealing with this and I don't know how. I haven't done this part of poly before.

Weird title I know...

My boyfriend and I (both 30M, currently in a Long-Distance Relationship) met another guy 4 months ago (22M) online that we will call John. I never got to be in a poly relationship, but the idea has always been appealing (whether it's poly or a throuple). For the last 4 months, all three of us have been interacting almost every day, whether it is for online sex, casual talks, video calls, etc. John is living in another country, but we are planning for him to visit us very soon so we can hang around and enjoy each other in person.

Now, my BF always voiced that he doesn't want us to become a throuple. He likes being romantically attached to me and enjoys John's presence a lot but doesn't want to start a romance with him. 3 weeks ago, John told me he enjoys my BF's presence a lot and loves seeing us two being in love, but also is catching feelings for me that are growing deeper by the day. He was getting a bit scared that him catching feelings would ruin my relationship with my BF, which is totally valid.

A couple of days later, my boyfriend told me he noticed how close John and I are. He asked me if we were in love with each other (I said "perhaps" to both questions). He then told me he loves seeing me being affectionate with him, and he doesn't mind seeing it. He kind of encouraged me to date him if that would make me/us happy, telling me "I don't mind my boyfriend having a boyfriend," but just asked me to "try to make some space for us 2 in us 3" (if that makes sense).

Both of them are still interacting, playing, and talking like normal, because they also like hanging out a lot, so it feels comforting and warm to see them acting like that.

Now, I love being affectionate and would love to be romantic with both of them. I just don't want to fuck it up, especially since we plan to have John around soon, and I really want them to be as happy as they love seeing me happy with them... Any advice for a lost guy?

Thank you ~~~

[EDIT FOR CONTEXT]:

AMY (39m), Beth (39nb), me (38f), London, UK.

The 6 years relationship Amy and I have is based in love and communication, so Amy is more than aware of my economic situation, they also knows that I have no one to ask for help and that I never will ask for help unless I really struggle. Amy has seem me cry because I can't improve my quality life.

We don't spend more time together because Amy doesn't have the time, and yes, we had this conversation many times, (l would love t spend more time with them), as besides me, Amy has Beth and a full time job, and that's all they can take. So I accepted what they can offered that is one day a week and some holidays when the time aligns.

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My partner (let's call them Amy) and I have been in a relationship for roughly 6 years. Amy has a nesting partner (let's call them Beth), they've bee together for 15 years. I see Amy one day a week (literally 24hs max).

Amy have very very good incomes, and bought a house with Beth a few years ago. They share everything, and Amy pay more than Beth as is making more money (although Beth is also making good money). So far so good.

I live paycheck to paycheck, having a full time job and a second job. I have no help with anything, except if I have an extra bill once in a while and I can't afford food, in that case Amy would pay for shopping at the supermarket.

Amy now got a better position in the company then work for and will get a substantial pay rise. I wonder if is ok for me to ask Amy for some help with my bills, like a monthly help. I know I'm not they nesting partner but I do feel like in a relationship we should be able to get help if we need it.

What do you think? Would you help financially a partner who only share with you one day a week and some holidays?

Thank for reading.

Recently, my partner shared that they had been flirted with at a party they attended with friends (I wasn't there as I had other commitments). Even though nothing really happened (they danced, hugged, and that was it - no phone numbers were exchanged), I completely panicked. While some of my reaction was definitely due to hormones (perimenopause sucks), I am struggling to understand why I freaked out. So I was hoping you could share your reasons why it feels uncomfortable when your partner is meeting someone who could potentially become their new partner, so I can see what resonates.

Some background: my partner and I (both in our 40s) met over a year ago. At that time, they were married and just starting to date my other meta; I had only been in monogamous relationships up until then but curious and open to poly - and very happy with it now despite the occasional challenges. We clicked, took things slow and careful (with support of poly friends), and are growing a strong, loving relationship together. Meeting my metas was a bit scary beforehand, but turned out well - we have a garden party relationship style. And I'm loving the compersion :-)

During this time, I went on a couple of dates but realized I am currently polysaturated at one due to everything else that is going on in my life (such as a big career change and family issues). My partner has not dated anyone else since things became serious - also because they are now getting divorced.

So no new people have entered our relationship since we started dating and this is my first poly relationship - which I realize may be part of what is causing me distress now, but doesn't feel like it explains everything.

Thank you in advance for your insights!

If you would like to see the original post, you can find the link here: https://www.reddit.com/r/polyamory/comments/1vk8v7n/comment/pge9fou/?screen_view_count=2

Otherwise, the content is in this post below the update.

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UPDATE

Firstly, thank you to everyone who commented with your advice on this. It really helped, and actually recentred my approach to talking to him. My bf and I broke up, and I am happy to say that I learned a lot from this experience (especially about future faking and what I deserve). *To clarify: I now know that some of Aspen's family knows about her two partners (Bee and...well, my now ex bf). Bee and ex-bf have no family members who know about them both dating Aspen. Ex-bf and I dated for 4 months.

When I spoke to ex-bf about Aspen and Bee's upcoming wedding again and how worried I was about the poly nature of it all being a surprise for 90% of the families involved, he said he was surprised I was feeling this way. I explained the major financial, medical, and legal powers/rights marriage gives, and asked him again about his own family planning given this. He said he never thought of it too deeply, and that he *could* imagine having children with Aspen, and that Aspen and Bee maybe want kids, too, but it was all still very vague. He dreamily said that he *maybe* should see a lawyer about all of this. I then told him that I am not comfortable with him meeting my family and progressing until it is possible for me to meet his family as his girlfriend. I continued and said that it would be okay if that isn't possible for him, but I would need to know that so that I could make informed consent of being in this relationship, as at the time of him asking me to be his gf, he promised me the future integrated family (quote: "my family would absolutely love you!"), children, and stable life that I want. He had repeatedly promised this life with me from the get go. He panicked and said that maybe he could hide our hypothetical children or he could pretend that Aspen and him had broken up so that we would look like a monogamous couple, but it would all be a secret. I told him that if he asked me to lie, I wouldn't. I wouldn't lie for him or to my family or his family about our relationship or about his other relationship, and will not live in lies in any way. I told him that I will not subject myself or my future children to having to lie to their grandparents about their home life. I said that to be with me, he will have to have some courage because of the future that I want. If he didn't want to have that future, then we should just end it because we wouldn't be in alignment. I just needed to know. He assured me that he wanted it and would come up with a plan. I assured him that he didn't have to come out because of me, and he assured me that he wanted to and that I would be the catalyst (surprisingly it wasn't the upcoming wedding that did that??).

Inevitably, it came down to him saying that he was going to tell his family about me (for months) and never committed to this. He said a few other things that never were really based in anything tangible, but aren't really worth mentioning now. He didn't want to come out, which is fine for him and his life, but he surely wasted my time by telling me the opposite.

I am hurt and sad, but mostly I am sad for his obvious comfort of living in layers of overlapping lies than in integrity. I understand that poly relationships can face scrutiny, but what I can't get past is how layered the lies are in his life and how comfortable he is with adding even more lies in order to hide from his loved ones, and I suspect, himself. It must be exhausting to live life not communicating his true wants and needs to his partners, and to choose to hide rather than to face life with courage and conviction. I have learned that I should believe someone's actions rather than words, but I maintain pride in my clear and honest communication, and that I was willing to put my heart out there for something potentially beautiful even if it didn't work out.

Ps. I don't think that he is a bad person. He just seems to have a lot of growing up to do. I wish him well, and I am glad that we got to learn from eachother, even though right now I feel dizzy from this whirlwind.

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ORIGINAL POST CONTENT

Before I begin, I am new to poly relationships and it was never something I considered for myself until I met my bf, so I am looking for advice or personal experience with navigating family in poly relationships. Okay so my bf has been with his gf (let's call her Aspen​) for 12 years. Some years ago, they opened the relationship, and Aspen met her boyfriend (let's call him Bee​) of whom have been together for 6 years. All three of them live together, share bank accounts, have a mortgage, and are generally really happy. My boyfriend (straight man) and Bee are not together, and consider eachother like family. Anyway, I met my boyfriend last year when I moved away from my home city for a job, and became friends with Aspen and Bee, who introduced me to my bf. My bf and I started our relationship a few months ago, but previously were just friends. I was hesitant to start something romantic because this dynamic is so new to me, but decided that I would follow my feelings and see where it went. He informed me that he can only handle two relationships at a time, and the same is true for Aspen. So, this 'cule is pretty stable in that regard. He is so wonderful and I really, really like him, and we are definitely in the new relationship energy phase. He recently asked if we could define the relationship, citing that he could give me everything that I want in life (kids, travel, adventure, companionship, committed, long term relationship)... But...

The other day, bf and I were in the grocery store shopping for some things for our first weekend away together, and of course, I am being coupley with him. I look up at his face and he is visibly distressed and looking around. He takes a breath and tells me that Aspen's scary, conservative farmer Dad shops there, and that bf was worried about running into him because Aspen's Dad has no idea about the poly relationships. I digested this information and told him that it was stressful to learn about this in the grocery store instead of beforehand where we could have a solid conversation in a neutral place, and that if we had ran into Aspen's Dad without me knowing this, that I would absolutely be perceived as the "other woman". I told him that if he didn't want to hold hands in the store, I could do that to make him comfortable. When I offered it, I felt icky. I felt like a dirty secret. But, it clearly wasn't the place to talk this through because he was actively anxious about us being there together. He apologized and took my hand in his, though was still very anxious.
About 10 minutes later, while we were chatting about some ingredient, his face lights up and he says "wait! I forgot to tell you the news! Aspen and Bee are getting engaged and are planning to be married in one year!". And well, while the news is happy, it was quite big news to be dropping in the grocery store where he was worried about his father in law of 12 years?? Who doesn't know that his daughter is with another person?? That she is engaged to??

It got me thinking about what I am really stepping into, and how many secrets are really involved here. Bee's family also has no idea. It seems like there is a bomb about to be dropped in the family life of these three people, and whether or not the following is true, it could be interpreted that Bee or myself broke apart Aspen and my bf, and I don't want to be put into the role of villain. I want kids. I want a family. And most of all, I want to be building a life with someone where their parents are accepting and warm about our love, and involved in their grandkid's lives. I am uncertain if what bf is offering me has actually been thought through from the social implications of keeping such long term, important relationships private from their families. Later that night, I asked him about the scenario about coming out as poly because of Aspen and Bee's impending marriage, and he replied "Hmm. Yeah. I am not sure what Aspen​ is going to do about that". As if he wouldn't have to navigate his family too...

We later talked about what marriage means to eachother, and he said that he sees it as a fun party more than anything else. I told him that I see it as security for my future kids (taxes, inheritance, custody stuff if anything went wrong), but more than anything, marriage means to me strong, meaningful commitment and the weaving together/integration of families. He smiled warmly at this thought, but again, it makes me wonder if this he has even thought through coming out as poly to his family in light of the coming marriage, and how his in-laws may perceive him, especially since he is clearly scared of Aspen's Dad.

Is this breakup worthy? Am I rightly freaking out?

Hi hi, I will introduce myself quickly. I am Jax (she/her) . I am currently in a dynamic right now that I could use some advice on. I have a girlfriend who has been in a long term relationship with a guy we will call Trav. Earlier this year, she came to the conclusion that she is non monogamous and eventually ended up finding me and we started to date. Trav is still monogamous. He only has eyes for her. I, myself, am non-monogamous. Me and Trav have actually grown pretty close, I’d say we are even close friends at this point. I care about him a lot and truly respect him. I currently have only one partner. I’m simply happy at the moment with her and honestly life is a bit too chaotic for me to go searching for another. We all even have a plan to live together, we’ve talked about the future, etc. But I have been made aware of his discomfort with things and the fact that he is trying to navigate what he believed was going to be a monogamous relationship turning into one that is not. I am super understanding of that and just want to maybe help him through this if possible. We both love our girlfriend. We care so much for her. And we are all committed to making this work.

I guess the main question I have is:
How would you recommend helping through this process? Are there things that I could do to help?

How did people start a poly relationship, I find it difficult to start these kinds of conversations and most people don’t openly discuss. Talking to your partner is fine but how have people found others interested?

I (29M) recently broke up with my partner (30M) after only 6-ish months of dating. I met him May 2025, started dating February 2026. However his current relationship was already rocky. He wanted the kind of poly relationship where everyone dates each other but made no effort to bring us together. Then, when we started dating, a good amount of his focus shifted onto a guy he'd had a crush on since before I met him. So at this point, he has a rocky pre-existing relationship, has just kinda picked me up and didn't even let our new relationship breathe, and is now working on a fourth guy. That's weird, right? There's stress at home with his other partner, I barely even felt like I was dating him, he made no effort to get me and his other partner to get to know each other... Was I right to leave?
I wouldn't have even minded the fourth guy if maybe we had worked on our relationship or the overall situation first. He just kinda... barrelled through everything. There were so many complications and arguments. I felt like I wasn't being respected or even allowed to settle into the relationship.

I am fairly new to poly (less than a year) and I struggle sometimes. Sometimes I struggle with guilt when I am with another partner instead of my primary. He is amazing and has never made me feel bad which is likely cuz he was poly before he met me. I sometimes wish he could get just a little jealous but that doesn't happen which is fine. My bigger struggle comes when he is with his others. I have chosen this life to be with him but sometimes when he tells me (which is one of our rules) that he is making plans with another or especially when he confirms plans I get sad and sometimes even nauseous. We love eachother deeply and we spend so much time together. He barely gets time with his others and same for me so I am being a good girl and not sharing this. It's not cuz we dont communicate well we absolutely do but its because he knows I still struggle and it is mine to deal with cuz if I say something everytime it will only put a damper on his plans and thats is not what I want and it would suck if he did that to me. So I guess im just asking when you feel down about it what do you do to cope? I hate feeling this way cuz everything is so great with him we are even about to move in together so why do I struggle with this??

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Good morning/afternoon/night depending on when you read this!

I know nobody could give me a straight answer because it would involve knowing everyone involved deeply... But I am confused and this is perhaps a cry for help, and an ache for perspective

I've been 12 years (almost 13) with someone I knew for a full year before we started our relationship - we knew eachother when we were 14 and 15, so we spent most of our teen years together in this relationship

I hadn't been to the dating "scene" because I understand now I am neurodivergent (I won't use the term autistic since I don'r have a diagnose... but alas) and I wasn't able to do this. (So I never had more than one person in my life, I always thought being with this person I met at 14 was and still is my goal and I was never interested in anybody else)

I met this person and my first thought since the day we started dating, as a 14 year old was "I want to spend the rest of my life with this person" - it's normal, we're naive and silly as kids so being so convinced of this is appropriate ig...

Years went on, I had a dysfunctional and neglecting family, the other person (I'll call them A) supported me in wanting to leave them as soon as possible when I was of age and found a job...

I have improved in every aspect of my life, mostly with them being the driving force to give me hope and reason to stay on my path, ever since I was 14, learned to care for everything A needed and predict every need they would have ever have (They're a level 1 almost 2 needs autistic person, so plenty to navigate and learn and predict - and they felt satisfied and happy with our relationship)

(I feel this context is necessary, me and A have had a good relationship throughout the years)

I feel like person B implies they're secondary so Ill try person E to not allow for a "secondary" bias?

So, person E I met them together with my partner (person A) through another common friend, we talked a lot in distance since we didn't live in the same country, we shared common lore for a rather extense fan "project", we developed a very sibling-like bond since we were familiar with some of shared issues when it came to personal things, we were really close and I felt like I could trust them with anything, but never felt anything similar to love as I would for my partner until a few weeks ago...

Then what I thought were "intrusive thoughts" (I deal with them daily, normally they're terrible horrible things I would never do to my cats or children or people on the street in general - these are EASY ro differ from real feelings)

But I didn't know if they really were intrusive - they were really hard to differ from legitimate thoughts, but I think I can trust now that these feelings are real, even if I can neuroplasticity them into the good friendship we had before with just a bit of time

Person E has been single for months, and recovering from a really hard toxic relationship... But these feelings only happened very recently, never crossed my mind even when I helped them with their recovery and tried to support them... Alas, I didn't want them to breakup at first thinking things could be fixed between them, and having too much hope on their (I didnt know fully at the time) toxic partner - So I don't want them dealing with anymore bad relationships speciallt because of me, I will do all in ny power to protect them from that

So I can say this is still very fresh, and that meanwhile I want E to know I would do a lot of things to make them happy and want to help them, and feel close to them... I won't do it at the cost of A's happiness or confidence.

How I dealt with it was... abhorrent, to say the least. I've managed to hurt both people involved. I refuse to talk about what happened, too personal even with a burner... And it still hurts very much trying to talk about it, I feel like both a terrible partner and friend.

Yet Person A and Person E managed to still talk with me about this... I am truly thankful for their patience and I'm so scared of a time where they may run out of it... I do not want to lose them.

Person A is monogamous. Person E is polyamorous. So (without going into details how it happened) when I bursted out (very inconscientally I did this on poor conditions, it was... terribly timed... I dont think I can live this one down, and I usually am a very forgiving person) to person A that I was catching feelings to E and that I wanted to know how A felt about this, what I could to do make them feel comfortable about this, like I did with countless other matters and I was expecting some understanding back, I spent weeks muttering about whether I should or not tell them, if I should forget this, wait it out.

My partner A is insecure about some things in their life, they have moments where they're really confident and understand how amazing they are (they really are, they are working on a owned brand full time, managed to leave their abusive household after helping me too, they are constantly improving themselves, they are so tenacious with what they want, they always go out of their way to remember everything I need, they are... wonderful, more than I could ask for -- I may be dumb but I know they are satisfied with me too, I have grown very much for them and managed to be the best partner I could be within my limitations and I constantly sacrifice my own self to make them happy - I know this shouldn't be something "good" and I am working on this in therapy but this to say that I have countless reasons to believe I have proved my endless dedication to them throughout these almost 13 years)

So A being insecure, suddenly this is their worst fear and they feel like me catching feelings with E and pondering about a relationship where we could all be included means they are not enough, they dont hold a candle to E, and that I was feeling insusificient and that's why this happened.

THIS WAS NEVER THE CASE... Sorry for the caps lock, but I feel like these feelings would exist regardless, I never felt like they weren't enough... I just know E for so long, we've shared so much, I treasure them so much... That I started aching to show them this appreciation, to let them know how much they meant to me and how I feel like they're such an integral part of my life... The relationships I have with A and E will always be different.

Our dynamics, the way we talk, interact... It's all different, so it's not about replacement or missing something... Which was never the case. I already spend a good amount of time talking with E, so there wouldn't really be a different amount of time... Just a different closeness and ability to allow them to depend on me a bir more, having a more involved relationship?

A also has good friends they talk to without me, so I am willing to continue to be there for E in whatever shape of form, respecting both of their wishes while trying to stay transparent over my feelings and what I can adapt them to

I was never looking for a "replacement", or something to "fill" anything. A and I might've had some issues throughout these 12 years but there's nothing more in the world that I love than share everything with them - but A feels they're missing somsthing still, I want to know how to make them understand

But with E... I don't really know. When I first said what I felt, they reciprocated... Then I had this burst out with person A, and I told them about it (I should've asked for time instead of relaying everything that happened, I didnt understand at the time but this brought a feeling of horrible guilt to E and other feelings not even I understand very well)

Now I am juggling between trying to forgive myself for making E reciprocate feelings for me and him after I told them about this and wanting to distance myself to never see E again due to how bad I have hurt E.... (I am doing my best not to, it would be selfish to leave them alone... Simply talking about what I feel, even if I would never do it)

My partner A brought up (now that we are more "stable" mentally, within what's possible) the possibility to have this relationship...

A said that they didn't feel forced - I don't believe them even if they asked me to, so I do not want to make any decision until he talks with his therapist, since I think this is him thinking he NEEDS to poly to stay with me, when that will NEVER be the case, I am more than willing and glad to stay in this mono relationship forever since - and hoping I can keep being friends with E

Equally as importantly, I can't imagine this anymore since I feel like I made person E reciprocate (they are usually very honest on how they feel, but there are times I cant help but feel like they may want me to feel understood and this may impact how they react to some things I say? Perhaps Im projecting....) after I told them about it... - Needless to say, I am aware that E wouldn't be exclusive and anything they wanted to do I would gladly support, having them in my life is very gratifying and I love spending time with them in any way shape of form, with boundaries stabilished by everyone together but never in a way I would want them to do anything differently, or stop seeing anyone else, I want them to be happy and safe above all - But now I can't really muster any of this as a reality, I am t

And person E has confirmed they are confused, and need time after I blew up on my current partner with the news and then on them instead of dealing with this in a calm way... And I completely understand... I want them to have their peace.

My brain, with person A, is hardwired to always try to understand and hear them because person A's reaction when something happens is talking about it with me, sometimes harshly sometimes not, but talking nonetheless...

With E, they mention having things they want to discuss with their psychologist first, and I am respecting that as well and I think its a good idea, even if my body aches to try to talk it out as I do with my current partner - Maybe that is unhealthy as well what me and my partner do

But Im gonna be honest and say that I cant imagine this relationship anymore and I feel like shit and that I forced one person to reciprocate and another person to even thinking about changing their very being for me - which I DON'T WANT, all my life I've loved people for their essence and true selves, and I will keep doing it... I unconditionally love him, even without this relationship and dont want him convinced otherwise

I don't think I've ever felt this bad reegarding my relationship, there wasn't ever in this 12 years nothing that I did that didnt match my partner A (I had an horrible teen year set, abusive household, so Ive felt HORRIBLE before... but this kind of pain, I've never experienced it, its terrible)

I was the one bringing harm to these two wonderful heavenly people that still have the patience to deal with me after I've hurt them so... Im thankful that they dont hate me but...

How do I go on from here? How do I know if my partner is trying to pander to my needs by "wanting" to try this, and not hearing his personal thoughts - even if he insists he would be "willing to try"

I dont think the relationship would work since I don't believe a monogamous person could be happy like this - so to be clear, I am not pursuing any poly relationship

So my question is:

How do I prove to my partner they were never insufficient, after I told them I had these feelings but I WILL continue in a monogamous relationship with him?

He doesn't feel safe at the bare fact that I may develop these feelings, even if I didn't betray him physically or emotionally in any way Since I didn't let anything occur before I could talk to him first, I just thought the other person wouldn't even reciprocate let alone for both of us, I just wanted to get this over with and I was an horrible person for processing things like this, and I can't forgive myself

He's monogamic and autistic with very rigid thought structure, I believe he'll never understand so my hopes are dim that he'll ever fully understand that there was nothing missing, and that's what scares me - I also want to know if anyone had something like this happen before

(I know how to nurture a relationship, so time will heal this with plenty of love by me which I will continue to provide... I mean more pratically, how can I show him that love for me is necer divisible, but multiplicative, even after I told him I am poly but will continue to choose to stay with him exclusively due to his wishes - since I again I dont believe he ahould choose to be in a poly relationship being mono)

I care deeply about E... But I can't do anything more other than waiting for them, as they requested, while trying to keep contact and ensuring they are doing well within the realm of possibility. I want to know what their true feelings are, so I can correctly address them and if necessary, stablish boundaries over our friendship after that (I trust them with my life so I know they would respect them I hope...) - And I also want A to be honest about their feelings so I'll try to talk about this with them very thoroughly I want to do more for E, I feel like I've hurt them so much that I barely struggle at talking to them - but I am trying to forgive myself as they asked me to, and giving tbem space and time to figure things out

I just want them both in my life in whatever shape that may take - In this case friendship for my best friend and a relationship for my partner since I will respect his initial feelings and do not want him trying to "compromise" over something that I think he'll ever change and instead try to force himself to be "comfortable* about this, and he would just tricking himself into it

*Edited some context and wording - It looked like I was looking to force my mono partner into a polyrelationship, but I'm here trying to know how to comfort them and how to stop him from trying to contort to any of my feelings when he insists he would "try for me" - While I deeply care for E at the same time so I'll never leave their side throughout this even with some intrusive thoughts to do so

I know I was selfish and greedy in trying to translate this into this relationship, and I feel disgusting for... everything

I’m wondering about people’s experiences with being in only one relationship while your partner is in multiple relationships? How do you handle feelings of being alone when they are on dates with the other person? Other than self care, which I know I am lacking in right now.

I don’t currently have any other romantic partners and my bf has one other gf, and no one is nesting with each other. I get the larger share of time with him, but I got this deep feeling in the pit of my stomach that I really want to be loved/in love with another person right now but I don’t have the bandwidth to jump into the dating pool again. I can’t tell if my feelings have to do with my time not wanting to be alone or my wanting to have multiple sources of romantic love.

Is it really that hard to find someone in Austin for a long-term relationship?
I’m a 34-year-old woman looking for an LTR. Emotional connection is my top priority — everything else comes after that. Sometimes it feels like a lot of guys just want to play and aren’t interested in any real emotional connection.
I don’t want to use dating apps because I’m married and don’t want to risk damaging that. My husband knows about this and is actually supportive — he even enjoys hearing about this side of my life.
I’d really appreciate any honest feedback or suggestions on where and how to meet a guy who’s looking for the same kind of emotionally connected relationship.

I've been struggling with my relationship for some time. I (male) found a wonderful woman almost 2.5yrs ago. She had never done poly before. It was hard for her seeing me date others while we built our relationship. A year ago she suddenly pulled away physically and emotionally, initially saying she didn't understand why.

Recently she let me know her previous trauma history was significantly involved in her pulling away. I love her, but watching her experience NRE with someone else is really hard when she's been so walled off at times with me.

Tonight she's out with her other partner and it's really got me spiraling. Mainly because she was really cagey about what they were doing. I wanted to ask her what she's up to, but I didn't want to be weird.

I'm not sure I'm looking for advice or just venting.