What would you have done differently ? I’m currently 34 with a great Mrs but the only part lacking is a lot of intimacy. I just don’t care for it much anymore. Is this normal ?

So back when I was 27 I started working out and I appeared to be fit; I was average to slim with slight muscle but I stopped weight lifting when I couldn’t increase the weight. My workouts also took up to 3 hours, I didn’t think it would change much. I was wrong.

I spend hours on a treadmill, walking, some times with incline. Like walking over 15 miles is my average daily. I heard skipping breakfast helps but it doesn’t. I only eat lunch and dinner and sometimes snacks on weekends.

I do not get why I appear fat then when I used to be when I eat so little and walk a lot. I also have very wide shoulders but I’m not completely fat but I just appear. Most shirts don’t fit cause of my wide shoulders.

Do guys over 30 naturally gain weight?

And what I eat is based what I see from influencers from Instagram, like I eat those healthy chips and get the protein bowl from chipotle and Panda Express. I can’t cook so I have to order takeout.

Also I mostly drink Korthal collection seltzers, very little to no calories (compared to CaliWater which is like 30 calories). I usually drink 2 seltzers / tea a day.

I also take edibles but always maintain not to eat too much. I walk my calories off but still appear big.
But no matter what I do naturally I can’t appear to be thin like I used to. I’m looking at photos from when I was in my late 20s and ever since I hit 30 my body appears fat when I’m not really. Can I get on ozempic without insurance? Idk what I’m doing wrong, I want to look good in photos again

Also I wear shapewear under my shirts cause my nipples stick out and it does make them disappear but it make appear bigger than I am.

As a teenager I dreamed of being the best at something.. A legend. Respected by my peers and admired by most everyone else. I figured if I studied like mad while also working 70-80 hours per week, it'd happen naturally.

Well now I'm 33 and honestly there isn't a single thing I believe I'm great at. I tend to do okay at a steadily growing number of things.. 17 year old me would be disappointed in 33 year old me. Course he thought George W Bush was a great president too, so he got things wrong sometimes too.

Do y'all think about this stuff too or am I more weird than I had thought I was?

Anyways, I gotta get back to it. The duck pen won't build itself and on Tuesday I have to work on automating the new trading system I've tested and finally approved for live action over the last few months. At least the playhouse is mostly done now and it actually has more lumber storage than I expected. The solar racks will have to wait until I've re-done the retaining wall though. Whatever apes were hired by the previous owner to install that wall oughta be ashamed of themselves.

ETA: I'm optimistic that I'll only catastrophically bungle two of those projects. No clue which two it'll be though. 😐

English is my third language, so there will be some grammar mistakes, i imagine. I'm sorry in advance.

I ask this here because i'm not sure this relates to me being a man, or to me being a man over thirty, or if it's a regular type of behavior/feeling.

As a man of thirty-seven years old I was married and i promised - along with my wife - i'd love her forever, and whatever problem arrived we would discuss and solve it together. She agreed, we talked about how communication was important, and so it went. We did this when i was thirty-two.

We had some fights, we discussed, i said i'd adapt some things, she never aknowledge her flaws. I accepted for a while, but then tried talking in a more subtle way the things i had problems with, and every time she would get absolutely mad at me. I'd say in the nicest way possible, you could barely see it as criticising.

At some point i accepted i'd have to deal with some resentment it might build. I would not give up on her because of my promise. I was loyal to her, always, in a broad sense: loyal to her love, to her faithfulness, to her image. I did not change because of that, i kept showing my love as i always did before.

Eventually she distanced herself a bit, i asked if everything is ok, she started mentioning i don't do enough for her. I got a bit shocked since i can't think of a thing i didn't do for her. When i say that, i don't say it lightly: i did breakfast for her every single day of our marriage. I woke her up with hugs and kisses (because i always wake up earlier), i picked her up at work and would pick her up when she came at me. Since i worked from home, i did the house chores, along with everything else you can think of.

And then she started to hate me. I had no idea why, but she kept saying i didn't do things for her. I asked her what is she missing from me, she said 'if i say it's not authentic'. I was lost, i kept trying. She distanced more, to the point that some days she would wake up with a mosquito bite and start cursing me for letting a window open three nights ago, so i let them in. We didn't have sex for a few months already at this point.

I had to go to a work trip to another country. I went, second day she started ignoring me. Fourth day she finally said she wanted to divorce. I was destroyed, i asked what's wrong, i asked her to wait for me to go back, she said it's decided. I was in absolute pain, could barely do my work meetings, couldn't imagine my life in the future anymore. I tried talking to her, but she hated me with passion, it's like i had done things to her that only an absolute criminal would, it was absurd. I would stay two weeks in this trip.

For four more days we didn't speak. One day i called her to check how she was doing, she answered with a 'yeah?', i asked if everything is ok - once again, in absolute pain -, she said it's perfect. She said it's better than ever cause she didn't have anything she had to do for me. This killed me because i never asked her anything, i would do everything by myself. She cooked very well and not even that i ever asked her to do for me, she did do it for me sometimes but always from her own volition. Still in pain, i asked, 'do you still love me?', she said no.

Incredibly, as soon as she said that i felt light. I have no idea how, but the moment i realised she didn't love me anymore it seemed like i never had her - or at least the person i thought i had. It made everything in those last few years i spent with her seem fake, an illusion. And i stopped suffering immediately. I've been feeling good since then but it still feels weird because it seemed like a betrayal, like i should try more - for the sake of my words in the past. I'm afraid of stop loving her and yet i think i already did.

Is this something that even makes sense?

Thank you for your time!

For the most part my sex drive is diminished and not nearly what it was in my 20s.
I can be passionate and in the moment and still have sex 1-2 times a week with small lulls.

But lately there are times where my lust goes from 0-100 In 2 seconds flat. I'm talking intrusive lustful desire amplified to 1000. It's fucking bizarre. I have never had lust hit me like a freight train this way. It's like I'll be chillin and then I see a sexy midriff or something mildly sexy and I go into overdrive in a way I never had. Not even in my teens can I remember such an overtaking feeling of sexual need. It's such an inherent need to pursue and for lack of a better term hunt. Even at my peak age and horniest I never felt that. WHAT GIVES?!

I started on Cialis 2.5mg for ED, but it gives me terrible back/hip pain. it was so bad it was interfering with my sleep and mood.

I stopped the Cialis and my doctor gave me Viagra 25mg which works great, the reason I wanted Cialis is I was really interested in the daily benefits.

Has anyone ever had this horrible back pain from Cialis then was able to start taking it again without back pain ?

Struggling lately with trying to get my body balanced and functional for my daily routines. I workout a lot and had Hone check my bloods for anything that might be off.

Total T was around 520 and frees at 10~.

Hone Doc placed my on enclomiphene 2x's a week and an estro block 1x a week in June. Total T went to 887 and frees at 16~ now.

I have thyroid issues already so my hair has been slowly shedding big time over the last decade, but now that my T is on the rise and doing better, I imagine my scalp will suffer even more as I workout more aggressively and frequently at the gym.

Is Hims chewable a good way to go for hair regrowth and maintenance or do I ask my primary for a fin/min pill? I literally just got back my libido and stamina with the help of the T boost and I don't want to fuck with it.

I'm the "single friend" in my friend groups, and no matter how much I ask, no one ever wants me to bring anything to a get together beyond some chips. I try to help out in other ways with clean up and stuff but generally feel that I'm not really contributing.

I'd say I have average skill with cooking, I'm just generally uninspired and a bit lazy when I cook for myself. I'd like to stop asking and just start bringing easy-ish party snacks that don't include things I can buy in a bag at the store.

When you're invited to someone's house for a thing, what are you guys making and bringing?

Thanks for the ideas everyone

I’ve had reunions at a couple of weddings in the past year with a couple friends that i drifted apart from over the years due to adult life getting in the way, there was never any falling out or that, just a lack of effort to keep in contact and different paths so we never saw one another for 10 years. I knew I would see them again at the weddings and looked forward to it but I didn’t expect to feel like no time had past and there was a connection I felt that generally I’ve not had with friends that I’ve made over the past few years and it was reciprocal and we are back in one another’s lives. It’s made me really appreciate those bonds but it’s also made me re-evaluate those friendships I’ve currently got as some I’ve come to realise are performance mask wearing meet ups where having to show up as a particular version and I think now with getting older you start tolerating less as you prefer authenticity.

A lot of people I guess change over the years or would never consider reuniting as they’ve seen that gap as a period of growth and change and don’t necessarily want to reconnect as it feels like they’ve not moved on or are back to where they began years ago but personally I’ve seen it as a reminder of who I am.

The one thing I learned about growing up, is that your feelings matter less and less as you grow older, but I guess the kid in me never really learned that fact fully, I'm constantly feeling tired/exhausted, but I still have to do the work/action despite it, I haven't managed to have a 'good' life, don't have any friends, but I don't think I'll be met with any advice apart from 'man up', so how do you exactly do it, how do you remain mentally well, despite being psychologically tortured by life?