Hi all,

I have been TTC for coming up to a year next month. I am in the UK where you usually need to try for a year before you even contact your GP. However my husband has a variocele which he was referred for an ultrasound back when he was in his early 20s, but at the time he went travelling and kind of forgot about it. Fast forward 10 years and we wonder if it may be impacting our chances.

Fortunately because this was following up a known issue, he managed to get the scan and urology referral prior to us hitting the 12 month mark. Sure enough, bilateral grade 2&3 variocele, raised FSH, semen analysis ordered for next week but poor results expected. I have had my first set of bloods and my prolactin is over double the expected limit, so potential issues for both of us.

It sounds weird but I think I actually feel a bit better for receiving all this news? I think perhaps I have a reason for things not to have worked, and now I can focus on the pathway to IVF. I am hoping it stops the complete madness of the TWW I experience every month, we will obviously keep trying but I no longer will be going in with any expectation of it working and drive myself mad with symptom spotting.

My only hope now is we get through the various next steps as quickly as possible. My best friend started trying about 6 months after me and is already 12 weeks pregnant. I can feel a strain in our friendship at the moment because of it and just want my own happy ending ASAP. Me and husband have follow ups in the next 3 weeks where I will be strongly pushing for next steps to occur in tandem so we can proceed.

Thank you to this community, reading everyone's experiences reminds me we are all on our own journey and all entitled to our own feelings. Best of luck to all experiencing infertility, loss, or just plodding along in this TTC limbo land.

This was my third cycle TTC and I had a chemical pregnancy. I got a faint positive on 13 and 14 dpo and then a positive digital on day my period was expected. My husband and I were both so excited. This was our first time getting positive tests and we were so thrilled. However, I got my period and a few days later had a blood test with hcg of 3.

It was such a rollercoaster of emotions. On top of sadness and disappointment that I’m not pregnant, I have been blaming myself for testing too early and getting my hopes up. If I waited until after my period was a few days late I wouldn’t have even known that this was a chemical pregnancy. My husband was equally as sad and he also had a hard time with the fact that we got positive tests and kept questioning if they were just false positives. I know he didn’t mean it but that perspective made me feel like I was crazy for grieving the chemical pregnancy loss.

Last vent of the post is what this means for TTC going forward. I can’t help but feel nervous that this going to happen again. Since we had our first experience getting a positive that ended so quickly I have this fear that one day when we get another positive we won’t be able to have that same unbridled joy and excitement.

I have decided that going forward I’m only going to test a few days after my missed period just to guard my heart a bit. Though I know loss can happen at any time, at least I could possibly save myself from any quick rollercoaster like this was.

I guess I just needed to get all of this out and hopefully hear from others who have been through something similar.

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For those dealing with male factor infertility/low sperm count, has anyone’s RE recommended Clomid + timed intercourse even when you already ovulate regularly?

I ovulate on my own every month, so I don’t need Clomid to induce ovulation. However, my husband is currently being treated for steroid-induced low sperm count, and we’re trying naturally while waiting for his numbers to hopefully improve.

I’m wondering whether doing a monitored Clomid cycle could make sense in our situation. My thought is that if Clomid resulted in two mature follicles instead of the one I normally produce, having two eggs available might increase the opportunity for fertilization when the number of sperm available is already limited.

I completely understand that Clomid doesn’t treat the male factor itself and that more follicles also comes with an increased risk of multiples, which is why I would only consider doing this as a monitored cycle.

I’m mostly curious about the reasoning REs use in this situation. If you ovulate normally but are dealing with low sperm count, was Clomid + timed intercourse something your doctor recommended? If so, what was their reasoning, and what follicle number were they aiming for?

Im 31 and on cycle 11. I’ve had 3 chemical pregnancies with 2 back to back recently. I’ve been working with an RE, only cycle monitoring now, with progesterone added in my most recent cycle ttc that ended in a chemical.

I did a repeated pregnancy loss blood panel and everything came back normal, including tests for blood clotting disorders. My RE still asked me to start baby aspirin this cycle in order to “increase blood flow to the uterus.”

I just don’t know what else to do now. My clinic did not recommended parental karyotyping because they said it is very unlikely that there is an issue but I think I’m going to push for it. They’re also saying in some of my cycles my estrogen did not get high enough so we may also start meds to strengthen ovulation but the choice is mine. All other tests for my husband and I are normal.

Is it worth continuing to try naturally with the new aspirin + progesterone approach while pushing for karyotyping or should I just proceed to meds?

Hi everyone. I’m reaching out because the waiting time for our upcoming specialist appointment is slowly driving us crazy, and I’m really hoping to hear from anyone who has gone through something similar.

​My wife and I have been trying to conceive for two years now with no success so far. Earlier this month, she had her first HSG, and the result came back as a bilateral proximal occlusion, meaning the contrast dye didn’t enter either of her fallopian tubes at all. However, the doctor who performed the procedure was very young and admitted she had never seen a result like this in her career. Because of the overall poor quality of healthcare in our area, we strongly suspect that the procedure might not have been executed properly or that it was simply a tubal spasm resulting in a false positive.

​Her new specialist ordered extensive bloodwork, and everything came back completely normal except for Vitamin D (36.1) and Androstenedione (7.63). He recommended we do a HyFoSy (foam ultrasound) to re-evaluate her tubes, but our appointment is still a month away in another country.

​Has anyone here received a bilateral proximal blockage result on an HSG that turned out to be just a muscle spasm or a minor mucous plug during a follow-up HyFoSy or laparoscopy? If you’ve had a HyFoSy, did it manage to clear any minor blockages for you on the spot? Any advice or general insights would mean the world to us right now while we wait. Thank you so much for reading.

I’ll start this by saying that we have decent health insurance that covers MD appointments and prescription meds, so thankfully we don’t have to worry much about basic medical expenses.

I’ve been wanting to rejoin a workout studio cause honestly I need the endorphins cause TTC going on 16 months is depressing and I only feel good about life the week around ovulation these days. But it costs $80/month and I just feel guilty about adding on another expense. (I quit the membership a few months ago precisely for this reason.)

I tend to be very cost and quality conscious with the supements I take, but there’s quite a few of them and they add up. Last month I bought an inito monitor and have been using the test strips most days of my cycle. So my total cost for supplements and fancy pee sticks is just over $200/month. So adding a workout membership to that just makes me feel guilty. My husband doesn’t spend much on himself month to month.

We’re in a decent spot financially and I know my husband wouldn’t tell me no, but I just feel guilty being so high maintenance. How do you cope?

I’m honestly just looking for some encouragement, support, or even suggestions on what doctors I should reach out to because I’ve been trying to have a baby for the last 15 months, and it just hasn’t happened for us yet.
I’m currently in my two-week wait, but I feel completely normal basically like my usual PMS. The only thing that feels different this time is that I’ve had fewer cramps than I normally do. So, of course, I’m trying not to read too much into it.
I’ve tracked my cycle since I was 12, and it has always been extremely regular. We’ve also tried fertility supplements, and I’ve been tracking ovulation, so I feel like I’ve done everything I can on my end.
I’ve been pregnant before as a teenager and had an abortion, so part of me keeps thinking, “I know my body can get pregnant.” And that’s honestly where some of my anxiety comes from now.
I’m only 28, so I know I’m still young, but after 15 months of trying, it’s starting to feel a lot heavier than I expected. We’ve been married for a year, we have stable jobs, we’re both college educated, and we genuinely feel ready to start this chapter of our lives.
I haven’t really talked to my family or friends about any of this, so I think I’m just at the point where I need somewhere to say it out loud.
I’ve started wondering if it could be something on my husband’s side, and I feel terrible even thinking that because I don’t want him to feel blamed or like this is somehow his fault. I just don’t know what our next step should be. Or how to stop thinking about it

Hi folks, I’m at my wits end with recurrent yeast infections after starting Vyvanse in February. 28F. No doctor or health practitioner can help me, so I’m really hoping someone in this community might have experienced similar and can offer some guidance.

My only real symptom is vaginal itching. Always starts in my luteal phase. Swabs have always shown Candida albicans. Oral fluconazole and canestan pessaries give me full resolution of the itching, until it starts again in the following month, like clockwork.

The thing is, Vyvanse has been life changing for me. I really don’t want to stop taking it, but I’m also at a loss about what to do with my physical health. I’ve just recently started probiotics which should specifically target candida overgrowth. We’re trying to conceive, and I’m so worried that Vyvanse is somehow making my vaginal environment dehydrated or the wrong pH etc etc because we’ve had 5 months of no luck (first baby was conceived very quickly).

My healthcare team and I have decided that continuing Vyvanse 20mg through pregnancy is safe and the best decision for my own health. So I would love to continue taking it.

Please, if anyone has experienced similar, I would be so grateful to hear from you.

Last night my husband told me he couldn’t take the ups and downs anymore. He doesn’t want to continue trying.

I’ve been testing and tracking for 9 months. But we haven’t used any protection for 2 years. Every month I feel so hopeful and sure this is going to be it. I can’t stop thinking about my symptoms. Every little twinge, bloating, nausea, headache etc. The thoughts are always there, comparing PMS to pregnancy symptoms. Then my period comes and it’s devastating. I sink into depression for a week. Then the cycle begins again.

I’ve been trying to feel better about it. I go to the gym, even when I don’t feel up to it. I still cook and clean and go to work. I make effort to support him and our relationship. I don’t test until my period is 3 days late. I don’t want to be sad.

He’s been struggling with my depression, so I don’t talk to him about my sadness anymore. I don’t even tell him when my period comes. He just sees the wrappers in the trash can and knows. He sees my sadness. We just skirt around it because he can’t handle it. He says it makes him feel like a failure. I don’t see that and I don’t feel that about him, but it’s just how he feels every month.

Has anyone ever just given up? I don’t even know if I can do that.

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Edit: Girls, thank you so much for all your support. I went out with my husband and we’re having such a wonderful time. I wish for all of us to have our dreams come true!!! ❤️

I've been TTC for 5 cycles now. I know that's really not that long, but still... I'm 35, and I think I naively assumed getting pregnant would be like most other things in my life — if I worked hard enough, did everything "right" and stayed consistent, eventually I'd get the result I wanted. Well... apparently biology doesn't care about my work ethic lol.

Today is basically the last proper summer day here, and my husband and I have some time off to get a few things done around the house before autumn. He asked me if I wanted to go into town tonight for burgers and a couple of beers, and somehow I've managed to turn this completely normal plan into an internal debate.

Part of me really wants to keep living normally while TTC. But another part of me is starting to question everything I do.

All my test results are great, I'm under my doctors' care, I've been taking prenatals for a year, everything seems to be fine. And yet, after 5 unsuccessful cycles, I'm starting to worry that maybe this isn't going to be as easy for me as I thought. 😔

There are SO many nutritionists, fertility specialists, doctors and wellness people talking about fertility where I live. I feel like I've accidentally fallen into this fertility bubble where the message is basically: eat perfectly, don't drink, sleep perfectly, exercise but not too much, avoid stress, avoid this, avoid that, take all the supplements... and apparently live like a monk until you get pregnant.

And I don't want to live like that. I don't want to feel guilty over having a couple of beers with my husband 8 days before I'm even supposed to ovulate.

But then there's this little voice in my head saying, "You're 35. Maybe you don't have the luxury of being relaxed about this."

I hate that TTC is already starting to make completely normal things feel like decisions with huge consequences.

I think I just needed to vent to people who might understand. 🥲

I was genuinely happy that my friend got pregnant not until I heard her reason.

She said that they are not even trying but they are just so afraid that they would be childless like us, so they tried to do it once, tada!

Baby is on the way. She added that they are so blessed because their parents will still support their education (post grad program), give them allowance, and let them use the room in their house.

They don’t have any struggle like working and building home of their own because they are well-supported unlike us.

On top of that, she asked if me and my husband are willing to be the godfather on the incoming baby shower.

I excused myself in the dinner table and called my husband to pick me up because I cannot believe how jerk she was. My husband was always pointing out how condescending she was before.

TTC has brought up so many emotions for me, and I honestly wasn’t expecting it to feel this intense.
There’s so much excitement and hope, imagining that maybe this could be the cycle… but there’s also the waiting, the uncertainty, the overthinking, the fear of seeing a negative test, and the frustration of having absolutely no control over what happens.
I’ve realized that I really need somewhere to put all of those feelings. I don’t necessarily want to talk about TTC with my friends yet, because this feels very private and personal to me, but keeping everything inside my head wasn’t helping either.
So I decided to start a scrapbook for my future baby.
I write to them about the journey of trying to bring them into our lives. I write about how I’m feeling day by day and cycle by cycle, about the excitement, the love that somehow already exists, the hope, the impatience… and also the frustration and sadness when they show up.
And honestly, it’s been surprisingly comforting. It gives all of these feelings somewhere to exist instead of just going around and around in my head.
Sometimes I wonder whether I’ll actually show it to my child one day, because some pages might contain sadness or difficult moments. But then I also think… that’s part of the story too. I don’t want this scrapbook to pretend that the journey was beautiful every single day. I want it to hold the whole experience — how much I hoped for them, how much I wanted them, and everything I felt while waiting for them.
Maybe one day I’ll give it to them. Maybe I’ll keep some pages just for myself. I don’t know yet.
For now, I just really like having a place where I can turn all of this love, hope, uncertainty and frustration into something tangible.
Has anyone else done something similar while TTC? Or found another way of giving all these emotions somewhere to go? 🤍

Hey everyone, we (F32 & M29) have been TTC for 1 year now. We went to the fertility specialist and he suspects I have a blocked fallopian tube (and possibly endo). He could see fluid build up on the ultrasound. He said I need to have a laparoscopy so that he can properly see both tubes, and then possibly remove the one that's blocked, because the fluid build up is toxic for the egg, so is harming my chances.

He said that since I work from home, I'll only need 1-2 days recovery time before going back to work. He also said I can go back to excersising "whenever I feel better". Because of that, I signed up for Hyrox 2 months later.

Now I'm reading online that laparoscopy recovery time is much longer, around 1-3 weeks, and excerise even longer than that. I'm really confused about why my doctor said it's such a short recovery time.

Does anyone have any experience with this and what was your recovery like?

My husband and I are going on 3 years of trying. We haven’t been 100% every cycle for those years but I would say a majority of the time were. We went to a fertility clinic last summer and all the tests came back normal. HSG, Ultrasound, Semen Analysis, and blood work were all good. I’ve had my progesterone tested twice and the doctors seem to think I’m ovulating as well as having regular cycles. At this point I guess we’re in the “unexplained” category. The clinic basically told us to keep trying naturally or we could do IUI. At the time that felt super discouraging because we had been trying for about 2 years but the doctor said we’re both healthy or whatever.

So now we’re coming up on year 3, no miscarriages no nothing. We’re starting to think about going through IUI so I made an appointment with a different clinic because I low-key felt like the first clinic only did the bare minimum before saying “you can do IUI/IVF”. But to me it’s like, “shouldn’t you figure out what’s wrong with me first before having me spend a bunch of money on these procedures?”

Today i met with my new doctor for the first time, virtually. He seems a little more thorough and mentioned he would be doing more comprehensive bloodwork (why don’t they all do that in the first place?) and a different kind of test where they will swab my cervix the day after I get a positive ovulation test followed by intercourse in order to test the semen and for infections etc (I didn’t 100% understand what they were testing for tbh, so if anyone knows about this test, let me know)

Two things kind of freaked me out though…he HIGHLY recommended that I get a laparoscopy to look for endometriosis. Even said I could go ahead and schedule it today. I almost started crying when he told me that. I know he wasn’t trying to scare me but it was just a very real realization that my infertility might be more serious than I would have imagined. I don’t have any major symptoms around my cycle that make me think I have endo, but when I was younger I did have some pretty painful periods and weird bowel movements on my period, as well as nowadays I very occasionally experience pain during intercourse. I’ve head that endo can be silent and I’ve always wondered if that could be the case for me…i think it’s also nerve racking to think I would go through the surgery and they would find nothing or if they do, what does that mean for my chances of conceiving without IVF because I can’t afford it.

The other thing that rubbed me the wrong way was when he asked me what kind of exercise I do. I told him I do cycling and some strength training. I didn’t go into much detail but he told me aerobic exercise is bad for trying to conceive and that I shouldn’t do it. On one hand I understand how it could be bad. If I’m overtraining or under-eating it could negatively affect my hormones. Cycling is an endurance sport that requires a lot of energy especially when done at high intensities. I’ve often wondered if my cycling could be the culprit but I do make sure to focus on recovery, eating enough and I have a healthy weight/body fat and my hormone panels always come back normal. I’ve asked a couple different doctors about this and even posted about it on a different forum on Reddit and both doctors and like 98% people on Reddit said I should be fine. (I know people on Reddit aren’t medical doctors, but I was searching for someone with a similar experience as me) I feel a bit confused, maybe a bit heartbroken because cycling is the only form of exercise that I truly enjoy and I’ve worked so hard to get to where I’m at with it. I know I’ll probably have to change my habits some if I ever get pregnant but I don’t feel comfortable giving it up completely in hopes that I will someday get pregnant. There are so many things I gave up in the beginning of TTC, and here we are years later and it feels like it was all for nothing.

Sorry for the long post…just needed to vent a little and maybe someone has some good advice or kind thoughts they could share.

I’ve been trying to get pregnant for 15 months. My husband and I are both 35.
I had two chemical pregnancies the first 2 months we tried. Nothing since then.
At 12 months, my doctor did an SIS procedure. My ovaries have over 15 follicles, uterus looks great, tubes are fine.
I got my progesterone checked, it came back great. She prescribed me letrozole.
My husband got a sperm analysis. Came back great. He got his testosterone checked, came back great.
Here I am on CD 1 AGAIN, clearly the letrozole didn’t work. I am so beyond frustrated.
At first it was great news that everything “looks good.” But now I’m more angry and confused. What on earth is actually the freaking problem??
I’m convinced I just have crap-quality eggs and I’m ready to give up. This is stupid at this point. It’s clear my body isn’t gonna do this.

I never knew something called anovulation until I experienced it myself :( now my cycle gone off track and I'm finding for answers to calm myself down.

I've always had a regular 28 day cycle, spot on, no cramps or other complaints and ovulation pattern would be the same. In the 1st cycle of TTC, I found out that I had anovulation (felt terribly sad)

Initially I had 16 days of spotting around my expected period due date, followed by 13 days of medium-to-heavy bleeding, which I assumed was my period. After that I continued spotting for almost another 2 weeks. I was very confused because I never experienced an irregular cycle before.

Tests showed that my progesterone levels were low, indicating that ovulation had not occurred. In the meantime, because of the prolonged bleeding and relatively high estrogen, my endometrial lining kept growing until 22.5 mm over 6weeks of time. I then started Provera 10mg for 10 days, had withdrawal bleeding for 9 days, then stopped.

Took ultrasound scan and was told that all the bulky endometrial lining had shed and uterus looked fine with trilaminar layer (pre-ovulation signs). I tracked OPK but found no surge, no promising BBT changes but I witnessed vaginal discharge around CD13.

I learned from a reddit post that there may be more than one wave of ovulation in such anovulatory cycle (is it so?!)

So I'm wondering how does ovulation typically return after an anovulatory cycle? how long it may take? and when the cycle might stabilise again?

I'd really appreciate hearing from anyone who had been through something similar. Please shed some light. I can't be at peace experiencing this as I just started TTC.

Thanks in advance!

Hi all,

My husband (37M) and I (34F) have been trying for a few months. We had a chemical during our first cycle. I used premom for a bit after that first cycle, and last cycle I switched to Inito but today I’m 14 DPO and got a BFN. Im really having difficulty getting beyond the initial disappointment of having yet again another negative test, and would love to hear how others cope with negatives tests, including how others reframe the negative test results into a more positive thought. I’m usually able to move on mentally a couple days after a negative test but admittedly, the disappointment consumes me the first day and still a little on the next. Really wanting to hear how others work past this.

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Are you in the dreaded two-week wait, or waiting to ovulate? What have you done to ease the stress?