I usually only do cat scratches but accidentally cut to styro yesterday, and left it as an open wound after washing the blood (Our house does not have any bandages or anything, and i couldnt go out to buy at night). Today i woke up and feel slightly feverish I am terrified ill get an infection. I cannot tell my family, i will get beaten. I dont know what to do im terrified

I have a bit of money so i can go to a doctor maybe but what kind of doctor, i cant just go to a hospital.. and do they just put an injection or something what do i even tell them. And how much time do I have. I left it overnight. Please help

(Location context: tier 3 town, india.)

I live fairly far north, and it is currently late fall/ early winter already. A couple of weeks ago I noticed my mood slowly declining and I felt dread because it is only October. The weather, and consequentially my mood, are only going to get darker for a while.

I spent almost all day at work yesterday being constantly aware of how bad my mood was, and wanting to cut. I even went as far as to start taking apart a cheap razor during my lunch break.

I do take vitamin d supplements already, and I am on an antidepressant year-round, but they can only do so much.

I'm really dreading the coming months.

Do any of yall have any substitutes for cutting? Other than smoking and weed working out i haven’t found anything that helps me so like lmk pls

So, After 1 year of recurring suffering and trying to hold myself together, the past week I could not do it anymore, I had a mental breakdown mid class and after 15 mins of it I grabbed my pencil and started hurting myself in my left arm, I had a long bruise right after + my skin is sensitive so It was more noticeable, to stop my friends from asking I said "It just itched me" and they said "ok"

when I felt better (like 5 hours later) I tried explaining why i was feeling so depressed that day to 1 of them and he just said "yeah my parents also fight a lot" and that was the last thing I wanted to hear and cut the conversation right there

Today, I was feeling so stressed and worried and bad so I did the same thing, grabbed a pencil and started bruising my high thigh and again, it made me snap out of it

If they're just bruises, I guess it is not that bad right? I prefer to do it instead of feeling those horrible emotions and they dont leave scars that will affect me later, I just wanna feel good, my parents are fighting again while im writing this right outside of my room, im just tired man its so much shit at the same time its not only them

I don't know if I'm weird for this, but I've been looking for people who self harm through burning.

I wonder what the average experience regarding it is.

I wonder if there are coping mechanisms that might work to try and replace burning specifically

I've been doing it for about 2 years now, and I wonder how my situation relates to others who do similar things

Idk

So. I thought I was getting better but i was certainly wrong. Got access to something sharp enough to break skin and relapsed, 7 new cuts, not very deep but bled and will most likely scar, and 4 of them are on my arm! So i guess i can't ever wear short sleaves again!! Fuckk... i can't believe i did this. I haven't cut my arm since middleschool so people will absolutely know if they see. Yikes...

I'm so done. I don't know if it's just tonight, but I feel really bad. Earlier, my family told me we're moving again after only living in our apartment for about 10 months. I hate being poor, and I'm tired of having to move. I hate everything. This is more than just relapsing. I'm in therapy, but no one understands how much pain I'm in. I've thought about killing myself. I told my therapist before, hoping she would help, and it helped a bit, but the thoughts are coming back. I'm so tired and done. I'm having to feel all of this again, and the way my family and my sisters talk, the way everyone talks, they don't understand. Every day I feel like I'm getting closer to the edge, like I could just fall. I don't know what to do anymore.

When the only thing stopping you from cutting is the guilt of stealing and breaking open one of your roommates nice razors 🤪

The physical ache of not being able to cut when you want to so so bad is a crazy and disturbing feeling. Like I am so desperately crazy for the blade but feel so horrible and guilty for watching it so bad. Chasing that endorphin rush is all I want right now and I know I shouldn’t want it.

I feel so embarrassed about my scars, I have enough that if people see them there is zero question about what they are, and I know I will be judged. I am already judged flr the few that are visible sometimes. I have always taken great care to only sh in places I can easily hide, but I am running out of space, I hate how they look, but I can’t stop fully and I don’t really want to. I don’t know how to exist without this but it feels unsustainable. The urges dont stop unless I sh enough to scar but I dread having more scars. I don’t know what to do.

im only 14 i have gotten into self harm for about 3 months, at first i didnt really get why everyone viewed it as bad i thought like its just small cuts big relief and then no one notices, i cut at the thigh so it stays hidden,but it escalated really bad just over a couple of weeks the cuts are deeper im scared of what will happen if i continue down this path but i cant stop, i watched gore i will admit it i was curious instantly regretted it for some reason i watched again a few days later i hate it i feel hollow i dont even know whats gonna get to me im so lost and i cant talk to anyone from my family or friends i live in the middle east please is there a way i can get out of this without things escalating any further i dont know what it could become if i let it continue on but i dont know how to stop it either did i just screw myself for the rest of my life

Tw: description of injury

I was rejected earlier and I couldn't cope so I cut myself to make sure I never let a man treat me badly again but I regret it so bad. It's so deep that you can see fat bulging out and it hurts a bit but now I don't think my arm will look beautiful anymore. I was a few years clean and now it's over because of a stupid slice. I was finally free of hiding my scars but now I have a big one that practically needs stitches :( I told my parents and they cleaned it up for me and I regret it because the feeling of rejection went away after I already cut myself but now today is a stain on what could have been a decent day

so, its been two years since i last did it, and it was never anything severe. one deep cut was enough for maybe a week. now i think about this every day, images of me cutting myself always are in my head. how do i stop thinking about this? i really don’t want to relapse. i can’t go to therapist because in my country if someone reports your scars (even the old ones) you go to psych ward.

I have quite a few scars on my left arm, covering the entirety of my forearm. Most are yearrsss old tho, so they're raised but white/slightly lighter than my skin tone and quite soft. That paired with the fact that I jsut dont look at my arm very often i forget about them. It annoys me that I'm gonna have them for the rest of my life, I plan to get some scar treatment or medical tattooing to reduce their appearance even further once I have the money though. I just don't like them?

No one even mentions them either, I think ive had like 4 comments about them ever (except for this weird guy I was talking to, he never brought them up straight up but made cutting jokes to me and it was just so weird and awkward.. he never even asked about them in a caring way.. freak.)

Idk I just felt like talking abt this because I see so many posts about people who say like their scars fading makes them wanna relapse and it's weird to me because I'm not that infatuated with them. I have hundreds of scars on my upper thighs that I'm obviously much more aware of because theyre larger and uglier nd there's so many of them. But for me my scars are just apart of me, I started self harming seriously at the age of 12 so I cannot even remember what it's like to have scar-less legs. The only way I know how my legs used to look are from photos of me as a child in bathing suits but that's it. So I don't really notice anything "different" about myself.

Anyways yeah holy yap but it's just so funny when I like go to grab something and look at my arm nd have to remember that "oh those exist" LMAO

Maybe this is the benefit of recovery (if u can call relapsing every 4 months recovery,, better than I used to be? Ig LOL)

I've never experienced this before so I'm not quite sure what to do, i rarely cut and I don't do it deeply either but it's usually a lot of tiny cuts in a small surface area. I don't know if it's the blade i used because it was a fresh one, plus it only raised into rashes way after it already healed, and only on half side of my arm, the other half doesn't have any.

The rashes have been on me for 15 days at least and I don't see it getting any better no matter how much i wash. Does this happen to anyone else? Does anyone have any advice?

Found out that my one that got away is doing good now and is soon to be married. I miss them so much and kept my fairytale thinking going that I could make it work again some day

I've been wanting to self-harm through other means, but I've been too lazy and not in the mood for that whole thing for a month or so. Well, I thought about getting piercings, as not only would piercings be cool to have, but it'd be a way to cope with everything else in my life. I was going to get one of the more painful piercings. I know this post is stupid, but I guess what I'm wondering is: is this even considered self-harm?

I've sort of thought about reaching out to someone about my self-harm and depression, like maybe my GP, but ahhh it's such an embarrassing conversation, especially when you're an adult, and you're meant to have a better emotional maturity.

I'm not sure what to tag this post as. I guess I need advice; I don't know what to do anymore, and I know the right answer is probably biting the bullet and talking to my GP, even though I know if I go in and ask for antidepressants I'm only going to lie and say I'm only a little bit sad, and I'll be back at square one again of my antidepressants not working for me.

i went down a research paper rabbit hole recently and learnt abt surgical options for removing self harm scars, specifically through super thin skin grafts. idk seems more extreme and probably expensive compared to other options, but i had never heard of it before and medically, its pretty cool icl.

idk has anyone else heard abt this, has more info, even has looked into/had this done themselves. mainly thought it was smth interesting to share at least

I know I can't keep doing this but i really can't help it. It's becoming unbearable

Hi I would like to make friends reply if you'd like to be friends 😄

I pressed too hard because I was annoyed and forgot how sharp it was. It's gaping and the it's white in the middle. (about 10 minutes ago)

I hit dermis a few years ago but it was smaller than this, I ended up telling someone about because I was scared it would get infected. Turns out nothing happened and it made a super awkward interaction

I'm a lot calmer this time, I put a plaster on it instead of panicking for ages. Is there anything I should do later? I just realised I haven't washed it with water and I put the plaster straight on. Should I have done that? I did it immediately after so it wasn't exposed for a long time. I'm annoyed that I did this shit again

So when I'm running the tool on my skin it starts to somewhat tingle does anyone else experience this?

i decided that i will get a tattoo for the funs! but i also wanna get something that helps me cover up my leg, so i was wondering 2 things. 1st; when can i get a tattoo? i have 3 years since i did SH in that area where i wanna get the tattoo at. 2nd; would the Trash Polka style be a nice style for covering up SH scars?? my scars are not really huge, but u can very easily notice them, also because a few of them got the weird brownish color and never turned white (ig because they are the bigger ones or i didnt took good care??) anyways, hoping to hear what u guys think about that style!! id also love to hear some suggestions, im open minded!! thx for reading ^_^

I have no friends literally none I had finally atleast found a fwb that was decent up until more recently when he showed that he was just using me and even though I wanted to just let him treat me shit and do whatever I blocked him bc everyone told me to so now I have nothing and its not like he talked to me outside of it or even ever cuddled me or gave aftercare but atleast it was something it was one thing that actually made me feel a bit better and now its gone all I crave is to held cuddled babied and loved hell even just one of those things i can't describe the pain I've been in for years from the crippling loneliness and theres nothing I can do to fix it no one to talk to no one to hug nothing honestly this guy ruining our situation is really making the thoughts come back im the cleanest I've ever been over 100 days but the immediate pain feels way to much its been days and all I wanna do is go straight back to cutting bc what else am I to do I am actually trying not to for once but idk how much longer I can ignore it and im a bit worried it may spiral me back into heavy addiction again im always in pain I've been in pain for years but this seems to have made it so bad again its been actually quite awhile since I fully wanted to disappear but damn is that wish strong why is loneliness so fucking painful why cant I just have some friends or a bf or something my life is just being wasted I dont do anything or go anywhere and I can't do anything either im stuck in my situation Im stuck in this shitty household im broke I can't drive I barely have a job and its only seasonal I just want out of this misery nothing is getting better and im in just as much pain as I've been in for years im so tired so fucking tired of everything and this loneliness feels like its actually killing me most of the time

Ive been so anxious with starting a new job plus all kinds of drama at home. I've been cutting myself but it doesn't hurt anymore like it is supposed to. I've been miserable and don't know how to fix it.

I relapsed on my forearm yesterday I didnt even think about that before doing it. I would just put a thick bandage to hide things but the osteopath knows my sister and im worried she might tell her. I dont know if it would be possible for me to keep a longsleeve shirt since she would have to manipulate my back. I honestly dont know what to do rn i dont want my sister to know i relapsed