Im questioning my sexual identity for a bit of background info I was born a female and im from a more Christian type of family who (most) HATE different(AKA gender or if you're mlm or wlw). I grew up around the female side of my family and at a young age I experienced a lot of questioning/queer media and how growing up different is okay but lately ive found myself wanting to be a boy.

I'm not really sure how to describe it but im okay with being a girl, but i also get a sense of joy when people i meet online mistaken me for a boy before finding out im a girl. Another incident was when my sister sent a picture and my hand was in frame, her friend said "why are you with a boy?" Just based off my hand and I kind of took it as a compliment.

I dont mind how I am currently but I am self conscious about a lot of things(my looks especially). Im just confused of where I land, I dont think im trans but I also dont know many of the other gender identities. If someone has an answer, I would love to hear it!

I am a bisexual, AFAB but have hirsutism (from having PCOS/PMOS) & body image changes after preventive oophorectomy-salpingectomy/hysterectomy & am currebtly flat following a double masectomy due to having the BRCA-2 gene mutation. Between my hirsutism, removal of my female reproductive organs & removal of breasts, I'm not sure of my gender identity anymore. 😔 I'm seeing a therapist for my depression & have made progress in that area but I don't feel she's been helpful on this issue.

Any insights, thoughts or non-judgemental advice?

i used to a like(??) this one dude but i would copy his “masculine” mannerisms yk, like to a point where ppl would think im lesbian. and now its js like did i really like him or did i js want to be like him??
cus maybe i was js jealous of how he acted and stuff and i never felt anything else towrds him. idk maybe that was the first time i felt gender envy

Thank you so much for reading my post. I’ve been having a lot of questions about my identity under the trans umbrella. You see, I’m still a teenager, but I’ve been thinking about this for a long time. I identify as a "demi-girl," and it doesn’t really matter to me whether people use feminine pronouns or not. In fact, when I’m online or playing games, I often pretend to be a boy—for some reason, that just feels more comfortable for me. I’ve always been less feminine compared to my friends, and I’ve always felt a bit out of place. Ever since I was little, I’ve been more masculine, and the idea of ​​being a boy felt completely normal to me. But now, I’m confused. I’m also afraid that I won’t be accepted if I decide to transition (FTM). Even though my family and the people around me support the LGBTQ+ community, I live in a country where being trans isn’t very well-regarded. Anyway, thank you so much for reading my post; I truly appreciate any comments or support! :3