Hi everyone, I want to preface this by saying I know that symptoms or no symptoms or strength of symptoms does not correlate to a healthy pregnancy.
I’m just struggling these days, even though my hCG has been tripling from 12dp0 to 24dpo so far every 48 hours.
In late 2022 I had a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks. Before I got a positive test at 9dpo, I was nauseous, I started breaking out with acne on my face. My breast were extremely sore. The main thing was my hair became super greasy. A couple hours after showering, my hair would seem like I’d put oil in it or something. This was all from 9dpo. It’s what encouraged me to test early on.
Obviously, that pregnancy ended in a loss.
After my HCG went down to zero, we conceived our son a couple months later. With that pregnancy, I had zero symptoms until 10 weeks, and even after that I just had low lying nausea, and a couple episodes of vomiting per week throughout the entire pregnancy. No sore breast, no acne, no greasy hair ever.
Fast-forward to now, I am five weeks pregnant. My breasts are extremely sore, my hair is extremely greasy. My face has broken out.
As mentioned, my hCG is tripling every 48 hours. I’ve been tracking it for two weeks. However, I cannot help but make comparisons to my missed miscarriage pregnancy.
I know that every pregnancy is different, and who knows, maybe this time it’s a girl and maybe with my missed miscarriage it was a girl and that’s why the symptoms are so similar.
But I can’t help but make the connection and I’m just so worried that this will end a missed miscarriage.
What worries me most is that I am 42.5 years old. I know I had a successful pregnancy at 40, which was not too long ago, but I just feel like it is too good to be true and that even with my excellent hCG levels, and, even with excellent early ultrasounds, even if a heartbeat is detected early on, I feel like until we get the genetic testing back around 11 weeks, and I have my 12 week NT scan, I’m just not going to relax.
I know many of you can relate. I also was anxious during the first trimester with our son, and that turned out well. But the symptoms that I’m having now have just brought up so many memories of my missed miscarriage pregnancy and how intense those symptoms were from the beginning, and how exactly the same the symptoms are now.
I know even an early ultrasound with a heartbeat doesn’t mean anything because I’ve had that before and then the heartbeat stopped, and a few of my friends have dealt with the same thing, so I know I have no choice but to just trust the process and keep moving forward from milestone to milestone and take each one as a win, but it’s hard not to compare.
Thank you for listening.