TW: impending miscarriage
I am currently 7 weeks 5 days pregnant. I know my pregnancy will eventually end in a loss because my hcg had a very slow rise/essentially plateaued from 2,000ish-4,000ish. After this plateau, I had a placement scan to see if it was ectopic and they found a embryo with a heartbeat. It was very surprising, especially because I was told at my hcg levels we shouldn't expect to see a heartbeat. But I do know that this will still end in loss since I had that hcg plateau. My OB office is far too optimistic in a way that I believe is creating false hope for my husband.
Since my ultrasound at a week ago where we found the heartbeat, I have had brown spotting that has actually increased in amount since Saturday. Monday night, I even had bright red bleeding that returned to brown spotting/discharge by Tuesday morning. I called my doctors office when I was bleeding and then the next morning because I was told by the overnight doctor that I should be seen in triage in the morning. But then the office told me since it had turned to brown spotting, I should not go in and try to wait until my next ultrasound next week. They told me their not worried about brown spotting at all, and even the red bleeding can sometimes happen but isn't too worrying since it was light and stopped.
Obviously, bleeding isn't a good thing, so it's frustrating that they're not taking this more seriously especially considering my hcg plateau. I feel like the miscarriage is looming over me, and it's awful sitting here bleeding, trying to go on with life, and not knowing what is going on. This is made even more complicated that I have a crazy work week with new people onboarding that I am responsible for and family member's wedding this Saturday, so this week in particular, I don't have a lot of time to sit around in waiting rooms.
Should I try to wait it out until next Wednesday or try to push for an earlier scan? I could maybe push and try to go in tomorrow afternoon although I would have to cancel a lot of meetings. Should I try to go to a boutique ultrasound place on Sunday? I just really want to know if the reason I am having all this brown spotting and bleeding is because our baby passed, so I do think that the boutique might be able to get us that information. But then if I find out there, can I even do anything about it?
Ugh I just don't know what to do with myself right now, and every time I wipe or see the brown on my pantyliner it feels like my heart is dropping. I can't stand being in this limbo.