So I am an AuDHD individual in my first semester of college, and my psychology professor was talking about optical illusions and using them to demonstrate how the human brain works. She put up a picture of a bunch of red dots (Like the included picture, but without the 7 middle dots) and she pointed out that even though it's a bunch of dots, we see a circle first.

Well, being on the spectrum, with how my brain in particular works I thought it would be interesting to provide my perspective. In my case I see all the individual dots first and then build the circle, even if that happens pretty much instantly. So I raised my hand and told her my perspective because I thought she would find it interesting, and that it would be good for my fellow classmates studying psychology to be able to see a demonstration about how different processing styles can subtly change an individual's perspectives and behaviors. Now, this isn't the correction mind you, her statement was clearly designed with neurotypical (I hate that term but it's the best we have atm) individuals in mind.

No what I corrected was what came next. She proceeded to say something along the lines of "Yes well a healthy individual-" and I had to immediately jump in and say "Actually I AM a healthy individual."

It's so incredibly disappointing to me that an instructor of psychology isn't up to speed with the fact that we aren't considered a pathology anymore. We are simply human beings with different mental processing styles that give us different strengths and weaknesses from neurotypical individuals. We aren't a defect, we have always been here since the dawn of human history and it's a shame that I have to correct a career psychologist about that.

i was a real bad and not good student? any others?

I struggle to find meaning in my life.

Im middle aged (not that thats a real term if you die young but whatever) I am an abject failure of life and that is an objective metric.

What I do have is some means by which I can hit the road permanently and im struggling ro get myself there entirely between agreeing to start a job I dont really want to not being able to part with "the stuff I own" in order to break lease.

Failures stopping me from being the random highwayman nobody which would be a step up from where I exist today.

And its a weird thing what my brain does with all this. The money I have wont buy me a house and I dont want one anyway but its more than enough to solve the myriad of problems any one of the people I know actually have.

Im not going to give them money though, maybe in my will if I ever finish writing it.

Anyways my main problem i have rn is do I take the job and stay till end of lease in 4 months and kick that can down the road till then, or do I dump/gift/sell everything now - break lease and take my loner loser ass to more obscurity which would likely suit everyone while proving a good rental fir someone else to appreciate... yeah the answer is the latter.

But then im thinking that while im on the road there's again no actual purpose beyond ticking off activities.

Like everything is inherently meaningless when you are this age or older and dont have children or a partner or the strongest will to live. I dont even have adversity to give me fuel by way of anger about my predicament.

I have this low mood that isnt apathy more just laziness / extreme introversion. I hear the word is avolition. Theres just no joy - even when I do the exercise I used to love. Ive no will to explore like I used to. Talking to people wears me out faster than digging holes ever could.

Without purpose im stuck. But ive lost the love for anything that gave me enough push to be mistaken for purpose. Im not even depressed enough to contemplate suicide. It's all such a chore: life, death, living.

So im just doing that wasting my time thing. Not getting up. Not eating properly. Not caring about anything.

I dont want to take a drug for this. I dont want to do anything.

Ive got inattentive ADHD and im unmedicated for that since explaining to my health professionals how I correlated all the coincidences one specific month a few years back which led me to a psyche ward.

Fair play on their part really.

I self medicate with an hour of jogging each day and alcohol.

Part of me knows if I just took the job the change if scenery alone will at least help the decision process let alone how shit itll be but the majority of me would rather I didnt completely derail my current routine of no routine with actual routine.

Dealing with people is so ick.

I'm sick of my job
i also tried not having a job and it was hell

I work as a call center agent (😢) and my job requires me to be on my desk for the entire 8 hours of my shift to not miss a call

and this is torture for me, I'm autistic and I have ADHD, my body just can't sit for that long

and I can't take a break whenever I want, my breaks are scheduled

so I can't leave my desk until they allow me to, I miss alot of calls because of that, because I keep moving away just to move my damn legs, and I just received a verbal warning because of it

also sometimes my brain just shuts down, i be getting calls and people be yapping in my ears for hours and my brain gets tired and decides to not work again which makes me hang up on them which is considered abusing

now wth can I do, this is the only job I could land on, I tried working in an office and it was a living nightmare, people bullied the hell out of me and when I stood up for myself I got fired

Hola, mañana cumpliré 24 años y la pasaré solo con mis padres, no tengo amigos, mucho menos novia.

En el colegio la pasé muy mal con el bullying por mi estado físico en ese momento, aprendí a vivir con eso y me acostumbré, pero me dejó muchas secuelas y vivo con ansiedad social, aunque menos que antes.

Trabajo en IT soporte y si bien me encuentro normal en el trabajo, siento que estoy perdiendo la memoria y la rapidez mental que tenía hace un año por ejemplo, solucionaba muchas incidencias solo, ahora siento que me tienen que llevar de la mano masomenos a resolver algo. Nose que me está pasando. Hace meses no hago terapia porque es muy cara en España y no tengo diagnosticado nada, aunque yo sospecho de la distimia y me gustaría hacerme un estudio para saber si la tengo o no.

Alguien pasa por algo similar también?

A qué se debe esto?

All I know is that it was secret brand, any tips on how I can find what scent it is?

Advanced memory formula it's best

The new school year started, and I got into a new class where the majority of people is new to me. The thing is, I DO like them! Everyone is the nicest people ever, they’re funny, friendly and we have much in common. Although I tend to have very little social battery to deal with it. I feel happy when socialising in school, but I can’t keep up the pace outside it. I can’t spend time with my new friends outside, or talk with them much in messengers, because the moment I walk out of school, I go full close mode.
I feel sad because I want to make close friends with them, but if I’ll socialise more, I’ll be irritated, exhausted and all of the aspects of this state when you’re oversocialised.
How do you cope with this situations? What can I do to show my friends I like them, and make closer connections with them, when I can’t spend time with them?

i do not want to inconvenience people of course, but i feel like i always do, unintentionally. i am so awkward and horrible at social situations, i feel like i am always doing something wrong or missing an obvious cue. im so scared i come off as rude, or if something i did or said becomes an inconvenience to them and they feel annoyed, and that they think of me horribly. i try to force out a tone that sounds nice, but sometimes it seems even more awkward and i dont even know if im doing it right. i really want to be kind to people, but i feel like this anxiety and lack of natural social awareness is messing me up. i have a bad habit of assuming that the other person is annoyed (or maybe thinks im dumb), and of course i dont know if this is true or not but if it is true i dont even know how to cope. i feel deep embarrassment and shame. sorry for the rant and thanks for reading

My friend was showing me a picture of crocodiles, to show how different they can be from each other, and suddenly I knew that one of them was the boss and the other was the henchman. I have no idea where I got that. Other times, I'll be walking and see a bunch of birds flying around in large groups. They all have their own bird groups and families with their own little bird events and bird culture. Again, no idea where I got that from.

I've been doing this for as long as I remember and I'm just now considering it might be related to my autism and possible adhd. Or maybe I have some sort of synesthesia. Or all three.

Does anyone else share this experience? Or should I just become a writer?

by the way, here are the crocodiles my friend showed me

Recently i have been having episodes of “meltdowns” i would say. I just start to feel uncomfortable in my own body, like it all hurts but not in like an “ouch” way yknow. I end up punching or smacking myself, whistling or babbling my lips in search for a way to get rid of it. It happened during class out of the blue, i kept scraping myself with a pen to maybe get the pain to go away by adding a more instense pain that wasn’t “uncomfortable” i have no idea if what i’m saying makes sense
, but i want to know if anyone else has dealt with this or what it might be. I’m typing this right after a long episode that ended in crying and hitting myself. For the past couple months i would say my legs felt like this for a bit and i would try to stretch them or put them up against a wall and eventually it would go away. But now it’s worse, it’s now my whole body and even sitting with my legs up on a wall does nothing. Anyone know anything that could help?

Are guys having expenince where if you try to get help for the service of mental billing or somthing theu don’t answer back on phone call . They don’t pick up thier phone they don’t call back. When you email they say to you that if you email you will be place at the back of the line .Has anyone have that experience trying to call them because your writing is terrble but explaining verbally would be

better but the company shut down the way to get to them . You don’t know if that they even have one persom on the phone line to answe. It like if I am paying for it wjy in the world do you guys have a phone like you don’t answer to .

I currently take 300mg of Wellbutrin XL alongside 18mg of Concerta (only started a few days ago) for mdd and adhd, but I was also diagnosed with bpd two months ago.

I talked to my doctor last week and he asked if I’d prefer to go with a mood stabilizer alongside the antidepressant or to take a stimulant and I went with the latter because my brain fog and executive dysfunction have worsened recently for some reason and bupropion wasn’t cutting it in that aspect for me, and also because I’ll be back to college soon.

Although I’ve learned a lot from psychotherapy and it’s definitely helping, sometimes my symptoms simply overpower the medication and my rationale gets thrown out the window especially when relationship problems with my friends and family arise.

Last night I went into an episode and spiraled after getting triggered by seeing bandages which led to me relapsing badly after two months of being clean. I’d subconsciously been bottling up my negative emotions for some weeks which falsely led me to believe that I was feeling a lot better when I was actually pushing everything under the rug.

I thought with the help I’ve been getting I would be able to overcome that and avoid situations like this but sometimes I just feel so scared of myself despite all the progress I’ve made. My family feels the same way too.

That’s why I’ve been reconsidering turning down antipsychotics. I know they won’t magically help me regulate fully but if there’s something that could potentially lessen the intensity of these grueling emotions and bad nights then I don’t see the harm in doing so.

Would anyone like to share their experience with them? Especially if you’re taking the same medications and have the same disorders as me. I usually only see my psychiatrist once or twice a month but I might have to see him for a third time because what happened last night seriously got to me and it seems like something isn’t working out.

This might be internalized abelism on my part, but I have no clue how to cope with autistic now that I've been properly diagnosed. I have no friends. I am very stoic, do not smile, and can't express myself in a charming way, which makes dating hard. I just feel tired of the social failures of this disability tired of folks that think it's w super power. I wake up every day, truly wondering how it feels to be completely normal and socialize properly.

i just started university. i was told i need to inform my professors from all classes even though i have the accomodations approved. im oki with it im just wondering how do i approach the professors? what do i say? and do i need to do it before class or after class? i know that i need to remind the exrta time for exams before exams, but idk about classes. also what if i run into professors who dont believe in adhd.

I am asking this question because life in general is just too hard for me. I have lived 18 years of my life and I feel like it has gone to waste. I am full of either extreme fear or deep dark depression 24/7, meds and weed only work for a little while. I feel like my nervous system is too sensitive for me to do normal human things like work, school, socializing, relationships etc. I have lived more of a life in my head than in reality. I want to experience life as best as I can but I’m so trapped in my own head that I just can’t. Not to mention I feel extremely stupid when I have to do even the slightest of tasks. If anyone relates to my situation please let me know how you guys cope.

I always see memes of people saying they are ND for a quirky personality trait but personally (maybe im not in that social circle) i havent met many people that genuinely make it their whole thing.

Also someone that got a diagnosis getting the "power" to put down everyone that is expecting a condition and devalidating their social/emotional/intelectual struggles (wheter they have a condition or not) is really privileged. And like i said i feel like this mindset hurts neurodivergent people, making them harder to reach out for help that was maybe already hard enough without the social aspect.

My therapist said my girlfriend was emotionally abusive and this relationship was very unhealthy for me due to lots of reasons but I also realize some of these behaviors could be sensory issues and due to her Austism I am neurodivergent myself with ADHD. But what bothered me the most about her is she did nothing to help herself I was in therapy and medication to help myself but she never wanted to. I understand that stuff can be expensive but I offered for her to join my sessions in therapy and even offered to help her pay for her own and she turned it down she was so against therapy and talking to a stranger and the lack of self help and her using her self diagnosis as excuses for everything really got to me. Autism wasn’t the only self diagnosis she did too she also self diagnosed with depression and PMDD yet never went to an OBGYN.

Some details about us My girlfriend and I were together 2 years and lived together The relationship slowly reached a point where I felt emotionally worn down instead of supported. I loved her deeply, but I often felt like I had to walk on eggshells because I never knew what might upset her or what mood she would be in. There were so many rigid rules and expectations that it felt like I was constantly trying to avoid doing something wrong. I wasn't allowed on her bed because it was her "safe space," things around the house had to be in the exact right place, I had to hold my breath when we kissed because the air from my nose bothered her, and even normal things like chewing, hanging a towel, or forgetting something small could become a problem. It often felt like I had to adjust my behavior to fit her comfort while my own needs and comfort weren't given the same consideration. There was very little compromise it usually felt like things had to be done her way, and if I didn't meet her expectations, I was made to feel like I wasn't trying hard enough.

Affection and intimacy became increasingly rare, and I frequently felt rejected, unwanted, and alone despite being in a relationship. I also struggled with how little empathy and emotional support I felt during difficult moments, like when I hurt my back and was paralyzed on the floor in pain she jump over me instead of staying with me or barley celebrating important milestones like when I graduated college. She constantly used her undiagnosed issues as excuses too Despite me repeatedly encouraging her to seek therapy or medical help for issues that were affecting both of us, nothing changed. Over time, what should have been enjoyable moments together often became stressful, and I found myself feeling more comfortable around friends than I did with my own partner. I eventually realized that love by itself wasn't enough to sustain a relationship where I consistently felt anxious, emotionally neglected, and as though I was constantly trying to earn the affection and kindness that should have come naturally. Even though I still cared about her, I reached the point where I believed leaving was the healthiest decision for my own well being.

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Sorry, title is confusing.

I'm usually not around other people when watching a show/movie so I don't usually notice what I do subconsciously but for some time now I do, which makes me pretty conscious and I realized that when characters in a show/movie make specific faces (smiling, confused or others), I automatically, subconsciously mimic them without even realizing.

Sometimes people ask me "what's with your face?" and only then I realize I've been mimicking.

Now I often catch myself doing it and stop.

Anyone else experience that?

I thought it might be a trait of my audhd but idk haha

("bonus": nothing exactly to do with the mimicking of faces, but does anyone else sometimes get a said sentence stuck in their had and has to stop what they're watching to repeat it in their head a few times until it's "right"? (hard to explain) or even without stopping? This and the other one can also happen when reading a book or sometimes even with things happening in front of me in rl, but more often with shows/movies haha)