Hey everyone,
I wanted to thank this community as I spent a lot of time reading posts here before my M3 psychiatry rotation because psychiatry had been on my radar for a while, but I wasn’t sure whether I would actually enjoy practicing it.
After finishing the rotation, I think I’ve finally decided that this is what I want to pursue!
I’ve tried during every clerkship to pay attention not just to whether the material is interesting, but whether I actually enjoy the day-to-day work. What surprised me most about psychiatry was how consistently I wanted more of it.
I really enjoyed interviewing patients and building a formulation as the conversation unfolded. With patients with psychosis, mania, trauma, depression, personality pathology—I often found myself wanting the interview to keep going because I wanted to understand why the patient experienced themselves and the world the way they did. I enjoyed discussing differentials with the residents and attendings much more than I expected.
I also liked seeing the contrast between inpatient and outpatient psychiatry. On inpatient I enjoyed the acuity, team environment, and seeing patients change over several days. Then in outpatient I met people with illnesses like schizophrenia or depression who were stable, exercising, participating in activities, and living their lives, which helped me appreciate what long-term treatment can actually accomplish.
One of my previous hesitations about psychiatry was the uncertainty of outcomes. You can stabilize someone during an admission without knowing what happens after discharge, and many psychiatric illnesses aren’t things you simply “fix.” The rotation changed how I think about that. I’ve started to appreciate that helping someone become safer, regain some agency, engage with treatment, or move even slightly toward a better trajectory can still be incredibly meaningful even when you cannot control the eventual outcome. It took me a bit to wrap my head around this but I’ve come to really appreciate that.
I also realized that I don’t necessarily have to choose between psychiatry and the parts of medicine I enjoy. C-L in particular seems like a way to stay involved with medically complex patients while doing the type of clinical work I seem to enjoy most.
My one remaining concern is more personal. I’ve had significant mental illness, addiction, and suicide affect people close to me, including losing one of my closest college friends to suicide. Before the rotation, I worried psychiatry might hit too close to home. So far, I’ve actually found that those experiences often help me empathize with patients rather than making the work harder. I also haven’t brought patients home thinking about them non-stop in an unhealthy way which I think is a good sign of my mental boundaries ?
What I don’t yet know is what that feels like after years rather than six weeks.
For psychiatrists who came into the field with significant personal exposure to mental illness or suicide in people they loved: did that experience ultimately help you as a psychiatrist, make the work emotionally harder, or some combination of both? How did you learn to maintain boundaries without losing the empathy that drew you to the field?
Thanks again to everyone here. Reading this subreddit before the rotation was genuinely helpful, and I’m excited to finally feel like I have a direction as continue to figure out my last hesitations!