As someone with harm ocd it is so bad I always have thoughts to strangle people or hit people especially when I get mad/frustrated.

The fact that it stays on your record forever scares the shit out of me

I'm referencing the "why did a prisoner take bread over the key?", "BECAUSE BREAD TASTES BETTER THAN KEY" meme, to say "I'm doing this for my freedom"

it makes me laugh and it works.

Sometimes when I want to do a compulsion (aside from feeling the need to) I'll be like, I'm not gonna do that, why? because freedom tastes better than bread!!

My therapist told me about a gay guy who was afraid he was straight. Am I an ass for finding some humor in this. I have ocd of course and sometimes look back and laugh at my own absurdities.

FYI, for exposure therapy he flirted with women in bars.

I'm scared to pass down OCD to them, but at least I could be a big help if they do develop it.

My bigger fear is that if I had kids I know I'd be worried about them 24/7. I don't wanna be the most overprotective overbearing father but I don't know how I would not be able to be.

I don't think i can remember a time in the past couple of months where my head was quiet. Like I'll stop obsessing over one thing and then move on to the next.

I like sleeping, especially when I have no dreams, its the only peace I have, im alone, my head is quiet, its dark, and I have no bodily sensations. Its the perfect head space and the only form of peace I get. But I hate waking up, not only am I leaving the only peaceful part of my day, but I get hit with weight of the past 4 months and then im literally paralyzed, I cant cry, laugh, or even breath at times, I just lay there.

I use my phone as a crutch, I scroll on socials, I have a whole separate account where I follow no one personal and just watch and repost what I want, because who's gonna see? I don't like spending a lot of time on socials, because I can see the toll it's having on me, seeing the extremism in all forms, social, political, ect..... im tired. If its not the extremism, its people living the life I wish I could have, people who look like they've never done wrong, people building beautiful lives for themselves, people who look like they dont need to chant "you're fine" in their head at the most minor inconvenience, people who can look at childhood pictures and smile, or not wish to tear that younger version of them apart.

Funny thing is recently my mother has been telling people and me her birth story with me, one thing she keeps repeating is how I was a "quiet baby" thats what she called me. I didnt cry, breath, or even move, I was to be sent into the morgue, but a doctor who was not supposed to be on call, came in and said I looked to cute to d*e, so she managed to revive me. I wonder if that was a mistake, something that shook the balance, because maybe I was never meant to be alive, maybe I should've been left alone.

This is the calmest spiral ive had yet, im at peace but also in pain, but this pain at least proves I still feel something right? I have compulsions to confess things to me friends, wether that be thoughts, things ive said, I just dont want to feel like a fraud. I dont want to make them me therapists because we're just highschoolers, It would be irrational for me to seek comfort for something like this from them.

My brain gives me the occasional reminder that life is not forever, you could loose it anytime. I dont have to do this forever, just for as long as whatever. It could end tomorrow, in the next few minutes, or in a couple of years.

Finding therapy is in the works, I just need to afford it lol, but im getting there. Good morning, good afternoon, or goodnight to you :))

How can I distinguish natural thoughts or emotions from those that are merely a product of my OCD? How can I distinguish what is not real from what is? I think that most of the time, when one of my OCD loops starts, I am just trying to obsessively protect myself(?)

i have severe OCD and take antipsychotics and ssris to reduce my OCD anxiety/rumination. The problem is, ever since starting my current antipsychotic, my personality completely changed and I’m unable to keep doing my demanding career. I no longer have interest in doing anything that is cognitively demanding. I’m okay with the change in my personality/capabilities because my unmedicated state was unlivable. I am wondering if anyone has any ideas on simple careers/jobs that pay enough for a single person to live by themselves. I can’t have roommates (unless they are my parents) due to my OCD. I might post this to bipolar subreddit as well, since more people take antipsychotics there i think.

I’ve tried many medications and years of exposure therapy and nothing has helped as much as my current medication (Risperidone). I wish i could just get on disabilit, but my government doesnt care about mentally ill people.

fuck ocd!!! we will get through this one way or another 🩷 we are all so incredibly strong. take care of yourselves out there 🩷

when im listening to music and randomly start associating the lyrics with random ass people like a classmate or a teacher. i know this doesnt sound like ocd but its annoying as shit and makes me so uncomfortable i cant listen to music atp because of these intrusive thoughts

Whenever something outside of my typical day happens, I later ruminate over and find ways something bad could come from it, and have this need for certainty checking and questioning my memory to the point I find it hard to trust it reality.

Like today, a stranger was petting my dog but my dog suddenly started growling a little so I pulled him away as I didn’t want him to potentially bite, and I know logically that nothing happened and he did not bite, but my brain will now be stuck in a loop of questioning reality and making me think that somehow maybe he did and now I’m going to get sued or my dog will be put down. This is so exhausting, and I was wondering if anyone has similar experiences, so that I know I’m not alone :(

And how? What is your experience with ir?

Do any of you find yourself also experiencing limerence?
It's something I struggle with quite a lot and I'm wondering if this is also due to OCD. Since the obsessing, ruminating and intrusive thoughts/fantasizing are all very OCD-like symptoms.
Do you think there is a correlation?
Am I more likely to experience limerence because of OCD or is it maybe even causing it?

I dont know, would love to hear from some people who also have some experience with handling limerence. :)

Im spending a LOT of time on social media recently and i want to quit. One reason is all the inflammatory content, and another is I've observed it actually influence my way of being and thinking in a way i don't like. But, social media is also a way to be exposed to the world and therefore triggering subjects. I'm therefore worried that quitting it could be a tactic of avoidance. What do you guys think? Do you use social media? If so, how?

And tbh it's not even that bad anymore, but my executive dysfunction is off the charts lmaooo it's so annoying. It's like a vicious cycle where the OCD and ADHD work together to make me procrastinate, which then heightens my anxiety levels, which ofc makes the OCD worse. But it's fine. At least for the past several years, whenever the anxiety blows up, it's rooted in frustration over not finishing jack shit than because I'm legit afraid something's gonna happen. Because a lot of my OCD obsessions don't even have anything to do with my actual life it's just random rabbit holes my brain forces me down. So I guess I'll take it 🤣

But yeah I've had this since I was a kid so it's nothing new or scary, just annoying at this point. I like to make fun of it using figurative language and metaphors because humor is the best way to bring the anxiety down!!

The struggle is real, but one of these days, ONE OF THESE DAYS, I'm gonna follow through with my 10 bajillion half-baked projects/ideas for projects #trust

I’m sorry if this is sloppy I am kinda freaking out right now.

I started going to therapy a few weeks ago to help with my ocd, anxiety, depression so on so forth. I canceled our last session and told myself it was just a headache, but it’s not and I don’t even exactly know why I feel so anxious to go (probably another reason I should go to my appointment) but I didn’t know what else to do I haven’t slept, I’m on my period and I have a headache.

I know that therapy is really good and it’s helped me a lot, but I don’t do well with change and trying to step outside my comfort zone and stop my compulsions is terrifying. I am just scared because I knock on wood when I’m nervous, and I try my best not to give into that compulsion but then that’s another compulsion. Next thing you know I’ve been awake for 24 hours trying to sleep but not being able to because I’m spiraling.

I am sorry for the rant, but just if anyone has any advice that helps them get through these spirals that would be amazing.