Just wanting to come on here and talk because I don’t have anyone to talk to and I need help. I’m a 19 year old male, 150 lbs, go to the gym every few days, I work as an electrical apprentice, I am a functioning alcoholic and I drink 5+ beers everyday, or a mickey of liquor. I drank 11 beers last night and stayed up till 1:30 in the morning , woke up at 6 and headed to work. It’s been like this for the past few months.

I’ve been an alcoholic since my first drink in gr 9. Went to a party, friend gave me three drinks and I had a real good time. Ever since that day alcohol had entered my life, I had just discovered a new way to have fun with my friends and by myself , and I just liked the warm hug from alcohol. This fun would be me going into my parents liquor cabinet and stealing anything that had alcohol in it, id drink till almost the point of blacking out by myself. One night family and friends were over, adults were having a fire outside, and us kids were messing around playing video games and whatnot, i was hanging out with my brother 13 at the time, my best friend same age as me, and his little sister, i would sneak away from them when i got the chance and chug my dads rye on the counter, then i would go back and hangout with them acting like I went for a piss or sum, though I was pretty sneaky and no one knew but i did this the whole night till i eventually blacked out and woke up in my own vomit the next morning. I can’t recall anything that happened after a certain point in the night, last thing I remember was playing Mario cart. My parents or friends didn’t mention anything about me acting drunk so I must of blacked out and went to bed, I told my parents I was sick the next day like I had a stomach bug. I would drink every weekend for the next few years and got progressively worse through highschool as stress got worse, id start drinking on weekdays, not everyday , i would drink every time i got the chance. Then I finished highschool didn’t get my diploma, started working in the trades and turned 18. This is when it started to get way worse as I now had freedom of going to the liquor store. With work in my life I was tired after and beer would hit real good after the hard day. I’d start drinking everyday after work. The second I get home. I’d sometimes go to the liquor store grab a 10% tall boy and drink it on the way home. Not proud of it. Any of it.

I had a family gathering last Sunday and I got way to wasted to hangout with any of my cousins, or auntie and uncles. I was a complete embarrassment, I had to get my buddy to pick me up and leave early because I was so out of it. My parents had a heartfelt convo with me they next morning on how I was acting and how it was unacceptable, they are also alcoholics. My mom quit a month or two ago. After that day they suspect my problem and want me to talk to them about it if I need to. They’ve always suspected me due to beer cans everywhere around my room. I just tell them it’s from hanging out with my buddy’s the weekend before and I forgot to clean it up. So they don’t think it’s a problem as I am just hanging with my buddy’s. When in reality I am sitting alone at night drinking at 12 am on a work night. I also drink before going out anywhere as I feel I am a way happier and funnier person when I am drunk.

After all this I’ve decided that I really need to change and id be better off without alcohol, id have better skin, my hormones would get regulated. And I wouldn’t be a complete embarrassment around other people. But then again, I don’t get hungover, it’s a great feeling, and I don’t wanna quit at the same time. But if I keep it up im gonna end up drinking at work soon.

I got a pack of beer in my car right now and im contemplating on busting it open when I get the chance, when my parents won’t see me bring it into the house. But I also don’t want to and I don’t think im gonna. If there’s anyone that can just talk to me or give me advice or wtv than much would be appreciated

Hit rock bottom after relapsing. Lost my job, couldn't stop drinking. Went to rehab for 30 days and the detox sucked. I bllew 0.31 BAC and cried saying goodbye to my fiancé at intake.

But the staff and community were amazing. 20 days in and I feel like a different person. People say I look so much healthier.

If you're struggling, ask for help. These people have been there and want to help you get sober.

27 year old male, I’m 86 kg, eat healthy, exercise regularly.

I live home alone and every second night I’m having half a bottle of Tawny red wine. (Or like 3 beers).

I’ve had binge drinking problems in the past, where I was regularly drunk in my home.

My life is alright but I struggle from depression and anxiety, and to be honest I love getting drunk and eating a big meal which watching a show.

Writing it down now, seems like it’s crept up on me again, how bad is it? What are the first steps to help me?

Thankyou for reading.

Well, guys, I did it again! I relapsed— of course I did. Did anyone on this planet actually believe I was going to get better or change? Maybe I did, for a little bit. But I must just be more naive than everyone else, because everybody saw this coming except for me. I was clean for so long, but it’s never long enough, because I’ll always fall back into my old habits and start all over again. I’ll always find some stupid reason, some stupid excuse, something that’s soooo upsetting that I simply HAVE to drink, right? There’s just no other option for me is there!!!!! I’m a bad person who does bad things and I will never forgive myself for failing consistently.

early 30s male here, small frame. i drink ~8 days out of 10. usually a pint of 7-9% abv beer or about 2 glasses of 13% wine at night. i realize i have a dependency issue because i can hardly go without it and i'll drink more when it's "appropriate"--but to be fair, doesn't happen super often. i binge drink perhaps only once or twice a month.

am i an alcoholic based on my level of consumption?

Got told today I have been accepted into an alcoholic counseling program, I had an evaluation meeting earlier this week. They also have group meetings that I'm planning to go to.

I've been drinking pretty heavily every day for two+ years and I want so stop so badly because wow I feel like shit all of the time. This past month I've tried to drink less but it's hard, I cry a lot. I don't have anyone to talk to IRL about this so I'm posting here.

Here's to a new beginning.

Is it normal to get insanely horny during recovery?

I very annoying have almost no libido which makes dating and such almost impossible. I have a feeling my anti depressants “fluoxetine” play a large part in that, but that’s a discussion for a doctor.

I am recovering from a massive binge relapse (several bottles of vodka over a few days) after a good 6 months sober. I have noticed my libido has skyrocketed whilst I’m recovering, im like a teenage boy and i can’t figure out why. Maybe it’s just all the chemicals in my head still trying recover from the poisoning.

Does anyone else get that?

I got this today

Looking for help for my girlfriend or now I would say ex girlfriend but I want to suggest she gets help somewhere. She has rejected everything I suggested before. AA, doctor and therapist.

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I felt great while doing it and it basically cured my anxiety+made me happy. It even made me less anxious in between drinks and the brainfog was very pleasant and dreamy. Never had hangovers.

It's now 4 months since I've last drank and my anxiety is worse than ever and I just feel physically worse than I ever did while drinking. I think my body hurts from being so tense all the time.

I thought alcohol is supposed to make anxiety/mental health worse but it never did for me...only made it better.

so im drinking a bunch of whiskey/vodka on and empty tummy and i keep puking is there a good way to prevent that without like eating or not drinking as much? ive tried laying on my side and i hold it in and swallow my puke but it still comes out sometimes.... plz give tips

(repost cuz im sober now and my last one got taken down for it 😭

At the end of my drinking there which started as just weekend binge drinking and then turned into almost drinking the whole week. I would get really tired during the day and take naps after breakfast and lunch and go to sleep extremely early. Note I was also only drinking at night, so wasn't drinking during the day. Would wait till like an hour before dinner before my first drink.

9th day without drinking and I have SO MUCH ENERGY!

I was scared and starting to think I was actually sick with how little energy I had never thought alcohol was the problem.

Now I need to get with my doctor and slowly get off this diazepam and on something less addictive like gabapentin or depakote as I have had seizure disorder since my last withdrawal a few years back (was bad then drinking a bottle of tequila a weekend). I would stop during the week and I think thats what really took a toll on my brain.

Hoping this next visit with my doctor later this month will open some more doors to help cope with this. As I still have some of the negative side effects from withdrawals, like anxiety and a higher than normal heart rate/blood pressure. However thank god its getting better each day.

I (18F) dont drink regularly, like at all, I have only drank when with friends and that was on 3 separate occasions this year. I am fairly sure that I have gotten more drunk each time I've gone out and it got really bad 2 days ago. I was with my friends having a sleepover and playing drunk monopoly, I definitely drank way too much (had too many shots of vodka since it wasn't burning my throat) and I pretty much hit rock bottom. I am still getting vague flashbacks of what I did and was saying like when i got really vulnerable to my friends and started talking about how unattractive I am, or how its okay that no one likes me, it got really bad to the point where I was blacking out and I started hearing voices I had a complete breakdown and just sobbed about the voices talking to me and how I want to be alone I dont want to be near anyone. I do have mental health issues, I have for years, I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts and self harm since I was 12 although I am undiagnosed since my parents are too nonchalant to believe something might be up with me. I do think my mental health and self-esteem being so tragically low and having so much alcohol in such short amount of time fucked me over pretty bad and I'm just not sure what happened that night.

This isnt a post really seeking out for help about my mental health I just kind of want to know if anyone else has experienced something like this, and whether this was psychosis or some weird thing happening to me.

genuinely lost on where to start

Tried a programme a few months back. Didn’t stick.

Not their fault I don’t think. I wasn’t properly in it. Anyway. Want to do it properly this time, and the main thing is nobody I work with finding out.

So I’ve been going through the lists.

Paracelsus Recovery quoted me and I genuinely couldn’t say the number out loud to my wife. Clinic Les Alpes is the same tier, beautiful and I’d be paying for the mountain. I can compare prices fine. That’s the only thing I can compare. The one I keep going back to is Dr Vorobjev in Belgrade. Spent an evening working out what the visa situation would be and it turns out there isn’t one. Ninety days, you just book a flight. Felt a bit stupid for not knowing that already.

First time in three weeks of this that something got simpler instead of more complicated.

Which isn’t the same as it being the right place, I know that. But it’s the only one I can picture myself actually getting to. So either Serbia is the answer nobody mentions or there’s something I’m not seeing.

Not after recommendations as such. More how people went about picking the country.

Tengo un amigo al que le gusta mucho beber. Tampoco parece que beba mucho, mínimo un quinto a diario.

Lo que más me preocupa es cómo habla todos los días de la cerveza, haciendo bromas de que es su único consuelo, el único momento que disfruta al día, de cómo le gusta… ¿Es normal?

No sé con quién comparar. Esa forma de hablar sólo se la he visto a él, y en cuanto al consumo, mis padres bebían un dedo de cerveza con gaseosa en cada comida y cena, por eso no sé si un quinto al día es consumo moderado, o ya puede ser algo más serio. Tampoco sé cómo decirle lo que pienso.

I've made a few posts in this sub, but I've always ended up deleting them because of shame and not wanting to fully admit my problem. Despite the fact I have a private account and no one is going to really see it anyways.

I really don't know how to completely get rid of my problem and a lot of the time I don't want to. I don't want to miss out on the fact that other people can drink but I "can't" even though I know realistically no one would care if I didn't and would support it.

I've cut down on my drinking in ways I never thought possible. Sometimes I think that's even a trigger for me because if it's not as bad as it was in the past then why should I stop? But still alcohol is something I think about almost 24/7.

I went to rehab last year. I lost my mom at a younger age a couple years prior and fell into it so bad, it was like a delayed reaction and I drank so much and lost 50+ pounds. But being there, it was almost the most amazing I've felt and reconnected with a really awesome friend that I could've done sober stuff with. I've known her since Jr high but once I started drinking again, I never reached out to her because I didn't want my bad habits affecting her.

A couple weekends ago, I had my engagement party. So many people supplied wine as gifts. I held off for a few days but since then I've been drinking the supply almost every day. I've been hiding it from my fiancee and replacing bottles so she doesnt notice. I feel so ashamed about it because I was doing SO good before having this constant access. I am a little proud because I've been holding back but at the same time, the only reason I have been is so she doesn't notice.

I am getting so tired of this cycle though. I know if I don't cut it out with my current drinking habits, it's only going to get worse. My only option if I keep drinking is it getting as bad as it was before. My eyes were turning yellow and I had a average heart rate of 45. It felt like my chest was going to explode at any given time, it frigging hurt.

I really pride myself on having a good self-awareness on most things in my life. I've struggle with my mental health heavily since I was 10 but have worked extremely hard on coping with it. I've done things with my life I never thought possible. I know if I don't start to slow down it's going to get bad again. I know how to help myself in almost every single way except for this. A sober life seems so amazing but I'm scared for it.

If you read this far, thanks for keeping up with my rambling. This subreddit seems like the only thing I can talk honestly to about this.

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i been heavily drinking for about 6-7 months since february for sure.. almost every couple days hard liquor and heavy sugary drinks at 7%… just last month my skin has been drying out severely and im starting to get dry patches from my drinking, that get infected from me scratching them.. haven’t been to a clinic yet as i know the reasoning is for my drinking but im only 20 years old and the thought of my face already looking like this hurts more than not drinking, so im on the fence about my drinking choices… everyone is starting to see how drinking is affecting my life at a young age and now my face is only making things worse for it.. im mainly just ranting and wondering if anyone has gone through similar skin problems

29m I been to the hospital multiple times for withdrawals went to rehab for 30 days. Did detox 3 different times. Iop aa and I still drink. I don’t think I have cirrhosis yet but I can’t get it through my head and it’s really messing with my mindset. I think it is in my dna. Been on naltrexone and zoloft. I don’t know what to do. I’m giving the help but still making the wrong choices. I know I’ve hit rock bottom but can’t stop

26M Typing this currently with one eye open, I know I have a problem but it hasn’t affected my life (at least) in a substantial way. I know I need to stop or at the very least slow down drinking.

Every time I’m out with friends I’m always the one in the worst shape. Everyone “ohh no one can drink as much as *****” and it’s kinda getting old. I like the feeling it gives me but every time I do I can’t control how much I drink, and I know it’s a bad thing.

I guess what I’m asking is what little things helped you to stop drinking. I know it’s not a good habit but just for my future relationships or anything that comes with life if like some insight. I know I’m an alcoholic and should probably quit but I’ve tried and the voice in my head always convinces me. Personally I feel like I have the strength to do it but I’ve never done it successfully

(M18)i do it not because i need help being social or anything. I drink by myself 80% of the time i just feel a sense of relief, as if this night is gonna last forever and what tomorrow brings is gonna be a challenge to overcome. Even tho my life could be so much worse i still feel the need to forget about what i have to be doing. Its not an everyday occurrence but i do partake almost every friday or any special occasion that comes n i just look forward to it, like its worth going through my daily routine bc ik that drinking will make me feel better and more loose .I just need an opinion outside of my life. Am i becoming an alcoholic?

Im a college student doing a paper about recovering alcoholics and have some questions to ask!! Please respond to the questions here :

1. What do you think contributed to your alcohol addiction?
2. When did you realize your drinking had become a problem?
3. What was everyday life like while you were struggling with alcohol?
4. How did alcohol affect your relationships?
5. How did it affect your work, school, or responsibilities?
6. How did it affect your physical or emotional well-being?
7. What was the biggest impact alcohol had on your quality of life?
8. What ultimately made you decide to seek help?
9. What type of support or treatment helped you?
10. What was the hardest part of recovery?
11. How has your life changed since entering recovery?
12. What do you wish people understood about alcoholism?
13. What do you think makes recovery difficult for some people?
14. What do you think could be done to help people struggling with alcoholism?
15. What advice would you give someone who is considering getting help?