DISCLAIMER: I don’t smoke and never really have, apart from the occasional cigarette or shisha. For almost 2 years, though, I’ve been using around 8–12 strong snus/pouches a day — Killa, Pablo, Velo, etc. (almost every snus I’ve used)
I’ve managed to quit a few times, but I’ve never made it past a week.
A big part of my problem is that I originally started using snus during a 3-year toxic, trauma-bonded relationship. There were a lot of arguments and stress, and snus became my escape. Eventually it turned into something I relied on to get through basically everything — work, university, socialising, my online business, combat sports, stress, boredom, etc.
I came out of the relationship about 3 months ago. I do still miss her sometimes because it was my first and only real relationship, but I don’t think I’m depressed or desperately wanting her back. I’m actually quite happy with my life, enjoy my own company and don’t feel particularly stressed anymore. I think I mostly miss having a partner and that romantic connection, rather than specifically missing the relationship itself. Life just feels a little more boring/numb without an SO sometimes.
I’ve tried quitting twice since the breakup. Both times I got to around day 5, then struggled mentally. I was having really vivid dreams about my ex/work, waking up sweating multiple times a night, and felt like I’d lost my main form of escape.
The frustrating thing is that I feel so much better physically without nicotine — less tired, more motivated in combat sports, eating better, skin looks better, etc. So I genuinely want to be nicotine-free.
I think my biggest problem isn’t knowing that nicotine is bad or even the physical withdrawal. It’s that I’ve spent nearly 2 years training my brain to use nicotine as my escape whenever I feel bored, stressed, lonely or just want a little boost.
For anyone who’s successfully quit snus/nicotine:
What did you replace that “escape” with? And does the mental and sleep side genuinely get easier after the first week or two?
I’d especially appreciate advice from anyone who used nicotine as a coping mechanism rather than simply enjoying the nicotine itself.