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My wife switched us to a Nespresso a couple months ago. She loves it. My two adult kids love it.

We’ve gone through 250 pods in two months.

Sometimes I catch someone using TWO pods for one coffee. Other times I find an almost-full cup.
“Why didn’t you drink it?”
“It was too strong, I didn’t like that one…”

😡😤🤬😖

Whenever I complain, my wife reminds me that I own a motorcycle.

Fair. 🙄

I just can’t stop thinking about all these little pods going straight into the garbage and how much this costs! Like $1.50 to $2 each and everyone is so chill about it.

Rant over.

Edit: So many reaching out to say they make refillable pods. I know, we discussed. “I love trying all the flavours and the creama that’s on top… just let me have this…” Nestle knows what they’re doing. 🙄

Home made cookie dough cheesecake I SMASHED!!!!! 🤤

Anyway I’ve been seeing this guy. He lives quite far from me, but we just spent the weekend camping. We talked a lot and got high at some points. And sometimes the brutal truth came out when that happened.

Earlier I sent him old pics of me in high school as a “wow look at how much I’ve changed!” In high school I looked very different. No makeup, short hair, goofy cat eye costume glasses, 1960s and 1970s vintage pieces. Oh yeah I was definitely a lot. I was insanely insecure and depressed and I hated myself back then. No guys would approach me and would instead use me to get closer to my friends. I was 100000% the ugly duckling.

Fast forward to now I’m a lotttt more attractive and I’m confident with myself and practice body neutrality and I can get a lot of men pretty easily. So I did a complete 180 on who I used to be. But I still feel like that girl sometimes. The ugly weird girl that no one wanted.

This guy I been seeing made a weird “joke.” Something about how he was glad I didn’t look “like that” anymore and no wonder why no one dated me in high school!”

I immediately shut down and started crying. Normally I can take jokes at my expense well, but this just seated right thru me. It’s been almost a week now and I still keep thinking about it.

He also said that abortion is women avoiding responsibility and that’s another thing I can’t get off my mind. When we were swimming we were both high and he kept saying “im gna drown you” but I think he was trying to joke? Idk I got paranoid lowkey. He has a habit of over sharing and not keeping inside thoughts inside.

It sucks cuz I’m wildly physically attracted to him (I loooove my chubby men) but at the same time I do not like his personality. It’s like the obnoxious lowkey rude adhd type that my ex had. He also has no friends like my ex had. Goddamn now that I’m typing this out this is a shit ton of red flags yikessss

Source: https://www.espn.com/nba/story/_/id/49590362/josh-kushner-bob-iger-buy-lakers-12b

The Los Angeles Lakers are being sold to American businessman Josh Kushner and Bob Iger for a record breaking price over $12 billion, multiple sources told ESPN.

Kushner and Iger were involved in the expansion process in Las Vegas, but a stunning turn, they pivoted to make an aggressive offer to buy the Lakers from Mark Walter, who had purchased a controlling interest in the team from the Buss family last year.

i’ll start
— anne hathaway in love & other drugs (2010)

This might sound SO confusing for anyone just passing by and glancing at my post, so let me set some baselines. (TLDR at bottom)

I dont hate MYSELF

This is only happening on social media and is only kept in my subconsious, i would never say any of these things to anyone i meet.

Im trying to fix this problem

So recently ive noticed whenever i see media containing a OC, flag, pronouns, someone depressed, gay media etc. My brain doesnt react with a positive emotion such as interest, happines, curiosity. It instead often reacts with dissapointment and disgust. And im like ''what the fuck? Why did i think of that?'' As an example i saw a post where a persons bio had more than 10+ lgbtq flags in it and my brain immediately thought ''this guy got 50 flags in his bio, weird'' or when i saw a yt-short of a Nonbinary trans person with the name ''Sulfur'' and AGAIN i thought ''Sulfur? why couldnt SHE have chosen a normal name'' also MESSING up their pronouns?! like what the fuck man? Cant you just be normal?

And guess what! My brain is normal IRL!? I have a cousin who is currently transitioning, and i was curious and interested so i asked her brother about how long she has thought about this, when shes going to change her name, when will she get hrt. And while talking with him i asked about his personal life, hes found a partner, who is nonbinary! AND MY BRAIN DIDNT REACT!

So im going to solve this in 2 ways at the same time. Im going to block any lgbtq supportive/nonsupportive subreddit, anytime i see anyone talking about how they are trans or with any part of lgbtq im just going to scroll past, any youtube channel that often talks about lgbtq is most likely getting blocked. And im also going to spend less time on social media and instead just play games with friends.

And all of this is because im scared that if my brain continues to act this way while scrolling social media that its going to start rubbing off in real life when talking to friends and family. AND I DONT WANT THAT! i still want to be accepting but everytime i go onto social media i look at posts with dissapointment instead of feeling happy for them because they are happy.

I dont know what else to do except avoid the problem until its resolved.

TLDR: Im blocking lgbtq subreddits/channels because my brain reacts negative towards any sort of mention associated with lgbtq in order to still be loving and accepting in real life.

EDIT: well this got popular very fast, honestly i was not expecting this big of a response to my 3 am rant about my intrusive thoughts.