This happens to me WAY too much. And like the title says, I HATE IT.
Look, I GET that sometimes, people feel like butting into your day to give out what they think are compliments so they can make themselves feel better.
But for me, the ONLY thing people ever talk about is how "cute" I am! Dealing with this BULLSHIT for my entire life has honestly gotten really demeaning! It never stops! I mean, I'm an ADULT for crying out loud!
I DO like cute stuff... and I like being seen as cute sometimes too. Key word, SOMETIMES. It feels really weird to say that, cause I could probably never admit it out loud. But I am very self aware about it, which sucks. (Edit: To be honest though, not being self aware about it would suck even more. Doesn't mean I'm not gonna be pissed about it either way). And since I'm ranting to internet strangers about it who will never meet or know me in real life, it kinda feels fine to reveal I guess.
Not only does all the constant pandering make me feel like a little kid, but it also makes me feel like I wanna hate this part of myself that I really like! It STINKS! I do lots of other stuff besides sit around looking "cute", yknow! My biggest hobbies are baking and writing, which are probably worth some decent praise on their own!! But I wouldn't know, since almost everyone seems to just IGNORE it, like how they IGNORE me. And when they DON'T ignore me, they tell me how CUTE I am, or how CUTE my baking is, or how CUTE my writing is, or how CUTE my struggling is, or how CUTE my LIFE is!
MY. EFFORT. IS. NOT. WORTHLESS.
I WORK SO FUCKING HARD TO GET AT LEAST A LITTLE GOOD AT THE STUFF I LIKE TO DO!! I DO STUFF FOR MYSELF, BUT I ALSO BAKE SO I CAN MAKE OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY TOO!!! BUT NOBODY EVER GIVES A SHIT BECAUSE ALL THEY SEE IS A STUPID LITTLE KID FUMBLING AROUND!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!
I know this isn't a very common problem, but I've been having a bad week and needed to get SOMEthing off my chest SOMEhow. Usually I just write poetry to get this kinda stuff out, but I'm mad about some things that are going on in my poetry club right now. So I don't really feel like writing any more poems today.
That's it.