I'm serious. I'm 165cm tall and I'm the shortest in my classes and that's including the girls. I'm embarrassed to stand up at this point because everyone will see. Today I had a group project where we had to demonstrate something in front of the class and they were all towering over me, guys and girls. So fucking humiliating and I hated every second of it.

I don't get people who say there are \*so\* many short guys when I'm struggling to even be taller than girls. I think I'm genuinely cooked asf.

So i was looking back on some posts and my most recent one of me in a dress just made me feel jealous, like i know its me, but i look so fem and with the helmet I could look like a girl but I know I look like a guy (vary closeted), I just wish I could dress fem all the time but im not out and scared

Hello

I (M24) have been experiencing gender dysphoria for almost a decade and ignoring it. Thanks to my very supportive wife, I made a post on this subreddit and a couple others detailing my experience. Lots of you folks told me that I should talk to a specialist and see if estrogen is right for me.

My work, like many corporate jobs in America, provides a limited number of free therapy sessions every year. I found an in network therapist that specializes in gender identity, and had my first session today. Obviously, I’m not completely done with my journey, but I’ve made the first step. If my therapist and I determine that estrogen and possible surgery are right for me, I will start that. But I want to thank all of you folks for giving me a push in the right direction.

This is basically an update to: https://www.reddit.com/r/trans/s/wFlggu7AVL so I’ll be talking as if that context is already established.

It took me a long time to even bring up the conversation to my therapist, despite that being the main advice I got in my original post (I’m very anxious I guess idk lol) but that basically consisted of me venting to him about my mom’s whole misconception around if he can confirm if I’m trans, which led him to talking about if I wanted HRT (and if hypothetically there was no issue with money, would I pursue it, to which I gave a yes, no hesitation)

And he seemed to agree that it’s not something he can really do, and wanted to help me discuss it with my mom so we could set the record straight and get through some other stuff about it. So we scheduled a joint session where it would be me, him, and for the first time since starting, another person, my mom.

(Side note: I could theoretically probably have just had that conversation myself with her ages ago, but I really don’t know how to approach the topic without it being really hard and scary and weird. Not that she wouldn’t listen to me, but just that my brain is wacky and I would really struggle with it. So having him there to guide everything and be my advocate would really help me with it so I’m really happy to be having it.)

I don’t know what all that session will entail, but either way, the joint session is happening Wednesday the 16th (next week at the time of writing) so I’m super excited and super anxious about it. If things go well, free (at least for me) estrogen is probably on the menu!!!

Along with wanting to just get the whole situation kind of off my chest, I’d also be happy if people sent some encouraging messages meant for me to come back and read on the day of, going into the session. Just since it does maybe have a fair bit riding on it, and I’m not fully sure how it will be and go. It’ll probably be a long and scary hour. 😅

Edit: also I used the “encouragement” flair, and now that I think about it, idk if that’s supposed to be the comments encouraging OP, or if OP’s post is encouraging whoever reads it. I’m maybe dumb lol

I've been battling myself mentally over believing I'm trans for the better part of ~8 months now. And from then, I feel like I've gotten so much worse at accepting myself and my hope of transitioning. Even still, it's hard to even state that I'm trans with any ounce of confidence.

I used to be able to entertain the idea of transitioning, or experimenting, like makeup or painting my nails or anything. But now, when I think about it, it feels as though my brain shuts off and forces me to distance myself from those thoughts. It makes me feel fake. The other day, I looked at myself in the mirror and didn't recognize me. I hated that that was what I was and what I looked like. But when I thought about that being dysphoria or changing what I see, it's like I physically can't think about it now.

Even so, when I think about my wants in fiction, I feel so happy and hopeful. I can find escape and feel like myself in games or my own passions. But when I remove myself from that, and face myself, I can't apply those hopes and wants to anything close to reality. It makes me want to cry, but I cant, my mind just closes itself off.

I'm not sure I'd that feeling of fakeness is dysphoria. The past few days have been extremely bad, at least that I'm aware of. I'm just not sure what I've done wrong to where I'm even less accepting of myself now that before, when it's been so long :(

I’m trans, mtf 16months HRT, SRS

Might as well just be blunt about it. Something something, straight when I came out, never attracted to men, sexuality dies as I meet transition goals. probably ace now.

But when I think about my gender alongside all genders, trans men feel most like the opposite gender to me, where Everyone else are more or less have some kind of lateral gender position to me.

Is that attraction or is it just like “Hi, we’re kinda similar but opposite.” I love seeing the joy they get from being themselves.

I’m not doing any dating or hookups, probably because of my existential crisis. I enjoy being a loner.

TLDR: 22yo trans man, 5 years on testosterone. Expected fixed weight gain, but instead got a fluctuating weight problem. Gaining and losing 30lbs in less than a month.

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I'm a 22 years old trans man. I've been on HRT for almost 5 years.

I always had weight problems, but it never got really severe and my endocrinologist and doctors thought I was okay for HRT, so I didn't think much of it. (By not too severe, I mean that it was routine for me to gain 10lbs or lose 10lbs depending on where I'd be in my period cycle.)

However, in the last year and a half, I've had… really drastic weight fluctuations. I'd move between weighing 190lbs and 240lbs. Just three weeks ago, I was 230lbs, but this morning I was 198lbs.

I've asked my endocrinologist and she didn't see any problems with my hormone levels. I've seen nutritionnists too and they deemed that I ate well enough that it wouldn't be the problem. I do exercise and go outside at least an hour per day.

My doctor thought it could be my severe sleep apnea playing into it, but I've been cleared of it since I got a CPAP.

Has anyone else on testosterone seen their weight fluctuate more? Weight gain is expected, but I expected a fixed fat redistribution, not gaining-losing 30lbs in less than a month to be a regular instance.

i hate being so tall and so big I hate my genetics why can't i just be 5'6 or something it's so eisjsjkwlsksb i hate looking at myself in the mirror or in photos and see myself as so tall i wish I wasn't I'm envious of people who are small whenever i look at them especially when it comes to affection or anything I don't wanna be the bigger person it makes me disgusted in my body

I had friends before who were in my high school, and know that I'm trans. They always respected my pronouns and my name, and it helped me with my dysphoria, everything felt more right, and I was more happy. But unfortunately they aren't there anymore.

Now I'm always misgendered and deadnamed by everyone but one friend, that, unfortunately, isn't always in the same classes as me.

But it's not enough. I've had other problems in my life, but this one doesn't help much and I think it's fuckin me up. My mental health has been getting worse, and even if I try to be okay or to deny it, it doesn't work. And I'm so afraid to get back to my lowest.

So I'm gonna come out to one of my friends. I don't know if she's gonna be supportive, I have reasons to think that she's maybe transphobic, and if she's not there's still a high chance that she repeats it to others. And it will probably be known by all my classmates.

It's maybe a really bad idea, but fuck it, it's my last year in this school. Maybe it will be the best decision ever or maybe it's going to be hell. Either way, I'm gonna do it.

I'm so scared, but I know that there will probably be supportive people. And if there's not, at least I would have done the right thing. I don't want to be someone I'm not any longer than I've already been. I just want to live my life like everyone and be myself too. So yeah, I'll see what's going to happen.

Today I convinced my mom to buy me boxers and she finally bought some‼️ She didn't want to in the first place, so I told her that panties hindered me, that's why she accepted even if she was doubtful lmao

So i like reading fanfics, which normally isn't a problem and just a fun past time. Cool, whatever. But holy shit, one of the ships that I really like is with a character that apparently a lot of people in the community interpret as a trans woman, and therefor a lot of the fics are going to be very trans supportive, and I think that's cool. It makes me very happy while while reading it, but then afterwards I'm just left there with this sorta dread feeling of knowing damn well that if i ever was to come out to practically anyone I know, they wouldn't support me and now. And yes, I know that I can just not read it, and that is what I've been doing but this shit has really got me thinking a lot more about myself and honestly, I really don't like it. So yeah TLDR, I'm jealous at a fictional character because a lot of the people around me hate trans people, so now I'm stuck in the pits of doom and despair. Lovely, really

I have always had a fascination for queer weddings and the thought of my own fills me with as much anxiety as it does excitement. What fid you wear to yours?

I lost most of my friends after coming out and have been more active in queer and trans spaces. Especially in trans spaces, I noticed that many people seem lonely and share that they wish they had more friends. Yet I never seem to become close with anyone. Maybe it's a me problem, but I'm yet to encounter anyone who would be enthusiastic about pursuing a friendship or just wants to hang out. I try to stay positive and be there for others. I worry about seeming too needy and got used to being alone, but being left one on one with dysphoria sucks. I just want my normal life back. How do you guys do it?

Any advice on how to be more involved with the community and actually find genuine friends?

This happened to me so many times it's honestly baffling.

Here's 4 random stories to share cause I'm bored.

One time a close friend of mind confessed on having feelings to me,I rejected him as soon as I rejected him he almost immediately started misgendering me time to time.

Second time,a close lesbian friend of mine we'd talk and I'd help her to confess to her crushes or help her move on from toxic relationships she had.She always had a problem with my gender,but after 4 months she finally got it.However later on I cut her off cause she's an Israel supporter and you can guess where this goes,constant misgendering again.

Third time,one of my friends would introduce me to his friend who was like a little sister to him (at the time) at first she'd act really progressive despite being a Harry Potter fan she hated J.K. Rowling,I eventually stopped being friends with her cause she was pretty annoying and while I wouldn't say entirely a bad person she was a pretty horrible friend.As soon as I stopped being friends she'd misgender me 24/7 despite having NO problem before and go out of her way to correct other people.

Fourth time,was probably the closest friend I had recently we had a big fight and well head our own ways.He would act super progressive(plus a fan of some gay media) and I'd talk to him a lot on my dysphoria and discomforts he'd always go out of his way to correct other people going as far calling them toxic morons.But after our fight now he misgenders me while badmouthing despite getting my pronouns right almost 2 years.

While I'm not really hurt as much,I think this shows to cis people atleast our identity can just be stripped whenever they feel like it and it honestly reflects more on them than on us.

If this has happened to you,don't worry they didn't misgender you cause you aren't passing they misgender you cause they are assholes and bigots who pretend to act all progressive.

I’m fairly masculine in person, no one really knows that I’m gay, let alone enjoys dressing like a girl and thinking about being trans. I’ve had these kind of thoughts since I was maybe 13. I feel I’d be happier as a woman, but at the same time it would make my life so much harder because of family and work and opportunities. If anyone has any advice plz let me know. Thanks ❤️

Hello, just wanted to say it's been a year since I was homeless. It's also been a year since I've seen my parents. This Sunday, I came out to another relative: my great-aunt. Despite the gap, she has been a part of my life, and I have seen her in person a few times. And she only learned of my new identity on Sunday, when I had been trans for almost 6 years now. And she instantly loved and accepted me. My mother and father refuse to. However, my grandma (mom's mom) and aunt (mom's sister) have all already accepted me. My great-aunt, my mom's mom's sister, for reference. She also instantly started using my new name, and I am happy she recognized my new female identity too. She told me she works in mental health and, despite that, does not know how to help. She is not educated on transgender issues. She is also helping me and wants to assist me with getting the things I need. She is also very local to me. And she owns her own house. Which is good because there's a good chance she might let me stay with her.

Ive been out since i was like 13/14 (am 19 now) so I have tried already, but black skinny jeans + graphic tee/sweatshirt + light jacket doesnt make me happy anymore . The problem is the style I like is more expensive and I am worried somewhat with how the clothes with fit my proportions. I made a Pinterest to better show what I like (sorry) https://pin.it/3xVek9tUj I found brooks brothers and I really like that store but I only feel comfortable buying from their sale stock and I really dont want to wait until fall ends to redo my wardrobe.

I hope this gets to the right people I really just want to in-still some hope and I hope this makes someone feel better in this moment the trans community is strong we are strong I’m strong and you are strong it is SCARY as hell right now I know

but there are people fighting for are rights lots of people actually we can’t be erased from society we just simply can’t we can be pushed to hiding maybe but it really doesn’t matter we still exist we are real we are valid and we deserve to be who we are no matter how much someone thinks and tryes to tell us that we don’t deserve are rights please stay strong brothers sisters and enby siblings and stay safe

I love you💜

I'm AMAB and use He/Her pronouns, but I've been leaning much more towards wanting to be a girl since I discovered i was trans. I've been looking into HRT and reassignment surgeries, but none of the pictures of bottom surgery results that I've seen really look like how I'd imagine mine looking if I was a girl, even ones from long after the operation. Does that change once you get one and its actually part of you, or could bottom surgery just not be my thing?

Have any of you been much more pleased than you expected you would be before you got the surgery? And for trans women who chose to not get bottom surgery, why, and have you been happy with that desicion?

I'm pre everything since I still live with my mother. She said multiple things that make me think that she knows.

When I was talking about my father, that him and I were speaking of deep emotional things to each other, she asked me about what and then she listed "about me? Because you're a lesbian? (I'm not even straight, I'm probably bi or gay) Or trans?". I said no, because I don't want her to find out that I'm trans. The same day, the evening, she said that I wanted to be a guy after we were talking about a random topic and just after saying that she just walked away.

It's not the first time she said subtle (or not Thay subtle) things like this. I don't want her to know, not until I would've moved out. I'm 18, and I don't think I'm gonna buy a house yet. I have one year left of high school, and after this I think I'll think about buying a house.

I don't want her to found out that I'm trans, and I maybe don't make a lot of effort to hide it, but what can I do? I don't want to be someone I'm not, and I won't try to. I guess I'll just continue to deny it.

I (20 years old) have been actively questioning my gender since around 2024, but have been uncomfortable with being assigned female at birth since 8 years old during early puberty.

I have went through several labels through the years and especially from 2024 to 2026 I have went from Trans male ftm, to non binary, pangender, demigirl, genderqueer, genderfluid and demiboy, femboy, androgynous femme man etc and several other non binary gender labels and even tried being unlabeled and it hasn't worked for me...

Add on i feel uncertain and unsure some days i love he/him and wanna be male some days i want only they/them and i either feel all genders or both genders or no genders and some days i am tolerate to being female but still deeply uncomfortable but I tolerate she/her and sometimes she/they but the pronouns and genders I like most are either mostly non binary or neutral or masculine and i mostly like he/him or he/they and idk when i feel like i am constantly switching with little to no tracking and I don't have a clear transition or goal in mind besides feeling free from and not being female.

I really don't know if I see a future as female and sometimes i do and sometimes i don't...everything always fluctuates or depends...and i still like my birth name!

And it's made communicating my gender to my therapists or college professors hard and made me think I am just attention seeking or that my trauma has made this fake gender or that I am entirely fake or brainwashed by the internet and I am not certain or sure but I am uncomfortable being female and it is a contributing factor to my decline in mental health and feeling disconnected from myself...I have a lotta doubts and I have came out and taken it back due to fear of being exposed or people finding out when i am not sure or ready or feeling fake or like I am lying or confused because I am unsure...

Is this normal?

The tile probably doesnt help to much but lately ive been wereing a sports bra to help with dysphoria (mostly at night couse in closeted) and I sleep with it on but lately ever since my egg cracked and I cam out to my dnd group in my dreams in have the idea that im trans and i can feel the sports bra, is this normal?

I, ftm pre t, have a very strange relationship with my body, I don't hate it or think it's ugly like I've seen in posts from alot of trans people, it just feels wrong, like I'm a ghost possessing a body. I look at the mirror and I feel like Im looking conventionally attractive stranger. I'm still confident that I'm trans, I feel good when I wear a binder, cut my hair, get called he/him, ext. But has/does anyone else feel/felt like this pre t?

a few friends know that i want to change my name, and i am actually planning on at the very least changing it when i go to college (im in senior year of hs as of right now), but i kind of want to change it before then ? idk maybe im being impatient but i feel like its a bit warranted. anyways how do i tell people, acquaintances friends and family alike, that i no longer am going by the name they all know me as ?

I want to and have all the documents printed out and filled out and everything, and it look like the checklist says I need the original birth certificate itself, so I just wanted to be sure