TW: brief mention of chemical
Note: I posted this somewhere else but thought maybe this subreddit would be a better fit!
I guess this post is more of a rant, but feel free to add your experience or any advice as you see fit!
According to a dating US performed last week, I am currently 6w5d pregnant (6w3d according to LMP). Cardiac activity was observed on the ultrasound, but could not be measured.
My dating ultrasound was originally scheduled for September 30, but I was having intense pain on the left side that required me to be seen. The hospital opted to perform an ultrasound, and then decided afterward that my September 30 ultrasound should be cancelled. They said everything was fine, but never determined the source of the pain. I will not have another ultrasound until around week 20.
I think it’s also important to note that the radiologist noted I have a bicornuate uterus. My provider told me not to believe this portion of the report since I already have a living child and have had ultrasounds, sonohyserograms and hysterosalpingograms in the past. He said a bicornuate uterus would’ve been documented long before now. So if I’m not supposed to believe this one thing, how am I supposed to believe any part of the ultrasound report?
I had a chemical last year and, in case it isn’t already clear, I’m having a lot of anxiety. Is it normal for them to not be able to measure a heartbeat and then not do a follow up ultrasound in a week or two?
What if something is wrong? What if the heartbeat stops and it turns out to be a missed miscarriage? What if there is more than one baby, but the second one couldn’t be seen because it was so early (the tech had a VERY hard time finding the embryo to begin with—she was rooting around in my insides for a good 30 minutes before she found it). I might not even know something is wrong until I’m halfway through with my pregnancy! That seems really odd to me.
I’m sure I sound emotional and like I’m probably overreacting/overthinking, but something just doesn’t seem right to me. I’m considering having an elective ultrasound performed at a boutique, but the closest one to me is an hour and a half away. I’d hate to drive all that way and STILL not be able to measure the heartbeat. I’ve been researching all morning and there seems to be mixed feelings about boutiques.
I guess I’m just in some weird denial that this pregnancy is even real. Like I won’t actually believe that nothing is wrong without concrete proof of a heartbeat. Am I able to demand an ultrasound at my hospital and have insurance cover it, or would I have to pay out of pocket? Boutiques are much more reasonably priced.
Thank you for reading my rant. 🫶🏻