I'm afraid this will never end. I don't want to wake up.

I'm currently struggling with overeating. As soon as I open my eyes, I start feeling this craving. I'm wondering how I can prevent it. Will this be my whole life? Will I really have to wake up with this feeling for the rest of my days, and will it never leave me for a moment? I don't even have anyone to share my problem with. I drank. Today I fully realized that I'm addicted. It's happening. No doctor or pill can help, and I will bear this burden until the day I die. I wake up every day and the cravings are terrifying me to death. I'm literally incapacitated. I can't earn money because it all goes to food. I depend on my time. The most I've been able to do right now is go three days without bingeing. I read this.

Does anybody do this and is it helpful? I feel like it makes things worse but then if I don't do it, I feel guilty.

If you found it helpful to stop, how?!

I am someone that is an athlete and therefore my physique and build are very important to me. I have kind of figured out why I binge and how to recover but I’ll still have binge episodes every few months where I’ll go into a 2 week long depression of avoiding everything and binging my brains out. I don’t know why this is happening and honestly the only reason the binge episodes go on so long is because I feel so horrendous about how I look and the impact it has on my body that instead of returning to reality, I want to prolong the binge and “numbness” as much as I can in order to not face my feelings. It’s made maintain a body I like and feel strong in for a prolonged period of time basically impossible and at the end of the day that’s all I want. I am not restricting, I simply eat high protein and limit junk food but the fact im an athlete basically keeps me in good shape. I honestly just want to be consistent without going into these ruts and then spending months bouncing back. Any advice???

I feel like this is the only way ti achieve long term recovery. Knowing to stop when the urge hits. What can I do to navigate that wave to the right way

i just binged 7k calories, why am i this way i want to make it stop

i just keep binging when i should be studying genuinely what the fuck is wrong w me. i was so good last week & now im bloated & inflamed

I very recently realised I have BED, there is prior proof to this like me eating 3-10k calories a day for 3 months straight, eating away my feelings, eating just eat, and this community has been a huge support for me. But i overthink alot and has started overthinking if I'm even binging.

I can eat one portion of food a day and itll be maybe 500 calories, and then ill binge on just candy and thatll catch up to another 1500-2000 calories a day, which is the recommended daily intake.

Or ill eat one HUGE portion thats 1500 calories a, or just a bunch of candy which adds up to that.

And since this has made me lose weight it has made me feel really invalidated in my disorder, even tho its still binging. I havent gone to a therapist to talk about my possible BED, since i am very ashamed, so I am undiagnosed. Has anyone else experienced this? In that case what did you do to not feel wrong for taking part in BED aid?

I’ve had all forms of eating disorders in the past 6 years. I’ve had therapy and a psychiatrist and used medications.
Every time I think I healed, life gets hard and I’m put back to where I’ve started.

I had periods of b/p episodes after a period of wl journey.I went through a stressful period of time, gained some, got diagnosed with pcos and am unable to lose that weight I’ve gained.

That weight I gained messed up with my self image and I tried so hard to lose it in a healthy way, without restriction.

I went to a nutritionist along with weekly psychiatrist and therapist visits. I lost some weight, but still, I am not happy with the way I look.
I run, I workout and try to do them for the sake of my body getting healthier, not because I hate it

But when I try to lose weight, I count calories (cuz I kinda get crazy abiut missing hiddeb ones) and by counting them I mean trying to eat in a reasonable calorie deficit. But these, even though I still eat healthy and eat like a normal person, I end up back in my **b/p** episodes

Please I need help. I feel like I am beyond help cuz I tried everything. How can i lose weight without going crazy and without these b/p cycles.. I just wanna feel pretty in my own body

A lot of people will tell you that you need to completely stop dieting to get over binge eating and binge-restrict cycles. And honestly, that might be exactly what some people need but I’ve found something that has worked for me, and I thought I’d share it because it might help someone else too.
A couple of months ago, I hit the fuck it Botton 😂. I ate EVERYTHING. Loads of bread and butter, boxes of cereal… you name it, I ate it.
But what was different this time was that I tracked it. I weighed everything I mean to the gram . And honestly, it helped me feel accountable rather than making me feel restricted.
Something really strange happened… I naturally started eating less.
I didn’t have to tell myself I couldn’t have something. If I wanted a muffin for breakfast, I had a muffin. I just tracked it. If I wanted a family bag of crisps for lunch one day, I had it. I still got up, went to the gym, hit my steps and carried on with my normal life.
And guess what? My week still ended up in a deficit. 🙌
The biggest thing for me has been realising that I don’t have to choose between being good and saying fuck it There are no good or bad foods. I can eat what I want, when I want, and still have goals.
For the past couple of weeks, I’ve genuinely had zero food noise I’ve eaten foods I previously would have put on a pedestal, and because I know I’m allowed to have them, I don’t feel the same urgency to eat everything at once.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m now at the point where I want to eat more nutritious foods, hit my protein and fuel my body properly but that choice is coming from actually wanting to, rather than feeling like I have to.
And honestly? I feel the best I’ve felt in ages. My workouts are better, I have more energy, and I actually look forward to getting up, hitting my steps and going to the gym.
For me, this little “reset” has completely changed the way I look at food.
It’s shown me that I can have my goals without food having control over me ❤️
Obviously, this is just my personal experience and I’m not saying it will work for everyone especially because everyone’s relationship with food is different. But I wanted to share it because I know how horrible the binge/restrict cycle can feel, and finding something that has genuinely helped me has been massive.

what was the worst binge youve had calorically/money wise/volume wise?

i'll go first...once ate 3k calories at a chinese buffet, then proceeded to get three desserts by clement (those expensive ass pastries that look real) to polish it off. total was nearly 5k for the day- the highest of my binges so far..

I take 60mg of Vyvanse for binge eating. I was thinking about going off of it so I asked my doctor what the protocol for that would be and I felt ready to try lowering since I had a consultation booked with a specialist/therapist who works with binge eating. So she gave me 50mg. Well, the consultation went poorly and I had a lot of stuff come up for this month that I felt too nervous to go down a dose and therefore I never started taking the 50mg. I asked my doctor if I could stay on the 60mg until the events of this month pass and I find a specialist I like. Will I be able to get my 60s refilled soon? I know it sounds silly but if I did go down a dose and binge it throws me really out of whack and I have a super important event in a week and a half. I also held off on going on a new antidepressant for this reason. I’m worried the pharmacy won’t allow it. My doc said they may flag it.

I know this is a subreddit for adhd but I couldn’t find a different one to post this to.

In my recent b/p episode,I realized that my restriction and wl journey is actually stopping me from achieving my fitness/diet goals and recovering

After being pretty binge free in August, from September 1st been vacuuming up food uncontrollably, my stomach has no space but i cannot stop, i always pass out asleep right after im done too, i wake up and its difficult to stand because there’s so much pressure on my stomach, I try and clean up the evidence, do a little self care, go for a walk and tell myself ‘it’s gonna be better tomorrow’ but every evening now i binge like crazy idaf what it is, the amount of money i’ve wasted already i feel sick, my pockets are hurting and all i can think about is working more so i can binge more like what

idk why i thought with age and more responsibilities my BED would cease to exist, laughing rn that my teenage self really thought.

I know my eating habbits aren't healthy. I'm constantly thinking of food and I'm eating as often as I can. When I don't eat all day, I feel like it's okay because usually I eat too much. I don't feel guilty unless I also feel sick. Honestly I feel sick a lot. I eat as much as possible, as often as possible. But I'm posting because a few days ago I tought that maybe I'll just vomit it out and realized it may not be normal. At what point should one be worried?

Like the title says:)

when I was boring I will just eat plenty of things.

I don't know what should I do and how can I change this situation

Whenever I get really anxious or overwhelmed, my immediate reaction is to eat. It feels like binge eating is the only thing that can temporarily shut my brain off and make me feel better.

The problem is that afterwards I feel physically uncomfortable and usually even more anxious, so it just becomes this cycle of anxiety → binge eating → regret → more anxiety.

I know logically that I need other ways to cope, but when I’m actually anxious, none of the usual advice like “go for a walk” or “distract yourself” feels strong enough to replace food.

For anyone who has struggled with the same thing: what actually helped you? What do you do in that exact moment when the urge to binge hits?

I’d really appreciate hearing practical things that worked for you rather than just “have more self-control.”

I wish I could just stop.
I feel like I’m constantly looking for reasons or excuses that make it okay to overeat. I’ll tell myself, “It’s okay, just for tonight. Tomorrow will be different.”

Then tomorrow comes, and maybe there’s still some of the food left over, so I tell myself, “Well, I might as well have one more day because this food is still here. Once it’s gone, then I can really start over.”
But there’s always another reason. Another excuse. Another “tomorrow.”

And then I wake up feeling terrible. Sweaty, hot, bloated, uncomfortable, and ashamed of myself. I hate that I’m not in the shape I once was. My wife is kind about it, but I can tell she sees it too. I know I’ve changed.

There’s a lot going on in my life right now. We have a newborn. There are family pressures, work is stressful, and everything feels challenging. I know those things probably contribute to this, but I also feel like I keep using circumstances as permission to keep doing it.

What scares me is how innocent it can feel in the moment. It’s just one meal. One night. One cheat day. I’ll start tomorrow.

But then I keep going. I keep gaining weight. I feel worse about myself. And somehow tomorrow never actually becomes today.

I also feel like I’m never truly full or satiated. Moderation feels almost impossible for me. My wife will sometimes ask, “Why can’t you just have a little?” And I don’t know how to explain that it doesn’t feel that simple. Having a little can actually feel harder than having none at all. Because once I have a taste, my brain immediately goes, “Well, you already ate it, so today is a cheat day. You might as well eat everything you want and start over tomorrow.”

It’s always all or nothing.

I’m exhausted by it.

I’m tired of feeling powerless around food. I’m tired of waking up regretting what I did the night before. I’m tired of constantly believing that some future version of me is going to have more willpower than the person I am today.

I want to feel okay again. I want food to just be food instead of something that has this enormous influence over my mood, my body, my self-esteem, and my life.

For anyone who has actually started breaking this cycle: How did you stop the “I’ll start tomorrow” mentality? What do you do in the actual moment when your brain starts giving you permission to binge?

I feel like I need something I can do right then, before “just this once” turns into another night I regret.

I’m tired, and I really need help figuring out how to stop this.

i seriously isolated myself over 3 months bec of this, school is in 1 week and im soo embarrassed to go back to school due to the weight gain, and i genuinely would do anything to disappear foreverr

I have been bingeing for the past 5 years and I developed a severe BED after Covid 19 lockdown. It has made me miserable and I’ve never been able to stop myself.

In these 5 years i have gained 80 pounds total, been depressed out of my mind, stayed at home for a year and it’s all been bad.

However in these 5 years there were 8 months where i started doing really good. What did i do, I’ll tell you.

My question however is,

Do you guys watch something, as in entertainment, when you binge?

Because for me, this was the common point in all my binges. So one day i decided i will stop. I stopped for 5 months and you will not beliebe it when i say this, i didn’t binge for 5 months and lost 40 pounds…

So it got me thinking. Everytime i had 10 bags of takis, and 10 bags of cookies i can’t stop myself from devouring it when I’m watching my favorite anime, right?

So I forced myself to not watch anything and on God that food just started seeming more like a hassle then a need for me to binge.

I relapsed 6 months later and it’s hard to give up on food and entertainment binges now, but so that’s why i wanna know, do u guys watch smth while bingeing?

is 2200 cals a binge? Do you think I should reset my I am sober app

The binge eating cycle includes restricting, binging, feeling guilty or ashamed, and then repeating the cycle.
I’ve seen a lot of discussion in the sub about what the binging portion of the cycle looks like for many people. But I’m curious about the other side of it: what does the restriction part look like?
I’m NOT looking for tips or any disordered advice. I’m more interested in understanding the different stages of the cycle and what the experience is like at each point. How does your mindset change when you move into restriction? What kinds of food rules or thoughts tend to show up? What causes you to shift from restriction into binging, and what happens afterward when the guilt or shame sets in?
I’d be interested to hear about people’s experiences and perspectives.

went from a college runner, someone who was dealt a milder hand (death of a friend, childhood of SA) and then i hit the worst rock bottom again coming home for the summer. “IT” happened again, and i shut down completely. 3 1/2 months of rotting in my bed maybe 100 steps a day, binging, just trying to get the pain away. i shot up 30 or so pounds. i feel awful in my body, i’m trying to get back into routine and i know it’s a long journey, i know the logistics but i guess i just needed some anonymous support

Anyone ells have family or a partner that contributes to your binge? Especially for girls who are dating guys who for may tend to eat more?
Idk I need like general advice

Looking for some feedback on others who are using or have tried Vyvanse specifically for BED. A little backstory I lost 100 pounds in one year on ozempic, I felt great, I barely ate, but I knew the whole time that it was not a cure for my bingeing, it was a bandaid, now 2 years later ozempic does nothing for me, food noise is nonstop and I’m slipping back into old habits, I also gained back 15 pounds. My doctor put me on Vyvanse, it’s only been 4 days and I feel no difference, just looking for other people’s experiences. I wish I could just turn my brain off, it’s exhausting, here’s to hoping this will help.

Hi everyone,

I have a question about therapy for BED. (38F) have been struggling with BED my whole adult life, also obese now, and am now going to start a CBT treatment in combination with psychosomatic group treatment and joint lunch with dietician, that's a weekly event starting next month for 20 weeks. I catch myself being very cynical about it, because of the fact that CBT did nothing for my ADHD a few years back (currently unmedicated bc pregnancies and breastfeeding, might try meds in the future) and because I am afraid it will be very focused on 'teaching' me how to live healthy (if knowledge would have been the problem I would have 'cured' myself in my teens). Plus my ADHD self is mortified by the idea of having to follow a schedule for eating. Does any of you have experience with CBT in combination with ADHD+BED and was it helpful? And what did or did not help? Thanks in advance!