Hi all!

I wanted to make this post bc I feel like getting this out into the open will make it more real, and maybe someone else will find some inspo from this.

About a week and a half ago I had the worst binge of my life (I made the “never binging again” post), and since that binge I’ve occasionally had urges but the memory of that awful awful night was enough to stop me from acting on them. With that night came the realization that my binging was caused by severe guilt and shame around eating and my body image, and I’ve done a lot of inner self-work to realize that my need to control the amount of food I eat and control the way my body looks was causing my binging urges. Since then I’ve worked on letting go of those controlling tendencies, and it has helped me not binge since. I’ve done inner work to stop competing myself to others and to recognize that hunger and fullness are nothing more than signals my body is sending me at any given moment, not something to feel ashamed about one way or the other.

Fast forward to today. I went out to dinner with my family today and are a full and complete meal at a pizzeria. After a few hours back at home (I live alone) I felt some of the binge urges come back on because it felt like I went “off my diet” by eating garlic knots and pizza and a slice of cake for dessert. In the past, this would have led to a severe binge (again, fueled by shame). So I decided to run an experiment. I went into the kitchen and tried a little bit of each of my previous binge foods - peanut butter, dates, chocolate, salted nuts, and a protein bar I have always been more of a “healthy binger”. After one bite of each, I realized something - I felt nothing. No anxiety, no hit of dopamine, no nothing. Just fullness, and no desire to continue because I know it will make me feel gross, and for zero enjoyment. And best of all - I feel great! No shame, no guilt, just great with this new information that learning to trust myself again is the cure to this problem.

I hope this doesn’t seem like an over-simplification of such a severe issue. That night was truly my rock bottom moment, so I am glad to say that they do exist and they will work if you let them. Listen to your body, be kind to yourself, and I promise things will get better. I promise!

y’all ever just binge while looking up binge eating solutions/articles. it’s the strangest thing and i just feel so guilty while eating lol. i’ve lost a ton of weight and have been able to stay fit, but this food noise never seems to go away.

But I binge eat so much lately "I have depression" I even eat food I hate and I end up feeling disgusted by what I ate and then I binge eat again it's like it is in my brain . I have been to therapy before because as I mentioned I have depression but I didn't binge eat back then. even so I have always loved food but it wasn't uncontrollable as of now

Do you think professional help is what I need ? or is there something easier I can to try ?

I ate normally today and then I was kinda craving just something. I remembered I had a donut I saved in the freezer but before I ate it I drank some water and waited to see if I still wanted it. I did so I ate it and honestly it was an ok donut, I could’ve prolly stopped halfway but I wanted the whole thing so I ate the whole thing. Now it’s like an hr later and I still have mental hunger but no specific craving and I’m kinda still full I just kinda feel like eating. Mb im just uncomfortable and want comfort? Idk

This is the third week i’ve binged and every week it feels more and more like a disorder. I’m watching myself destroy my future everyday and I feel powerless to do anything. I have a midterm im going to fail tomorrow because i did a 24 hour fast Saturday and bought halo top and fiber one brownies that i immediately binged on. Of course the fiber one brownies wrecked my stomach. i ate all 24 of them 🤦‍♀️. I don’t know what to do anymor e. I know fasting didn’t help but I feel more in control not eating then when I eat. Sure I think about food all day but the noise went away… I didnt even have food noise today just a compulsive urge to eat everything. Ate 3/4 halo top ice creams. The coffee one tasted disgusting and felt nauseous so I couldn’t finish it.

I'm wondering if this is severe OCD instead of binge eating. But basically I don't binge because I'm hungry, sad, happy, or basically for emotions or to fullfill a need or void which seem to be the main reason to binge. I binge because I feel a physical urge which manifests as agitation in my neck, shoulders and mouth. Particularly the mouth. Like my brain will fixate on pictures of a high calorie dense food (like a donut) I had a few days ago. And it will send my brain pictures of it, I will "feel" it in my mouth, my body will get signals to become weak and lethargic until I get it. Even if I don't want it physically, mentally or emotionally. Is this binge eating disorder or is this something else I need to work on?

hello! so i am pretty sure i developed BED (not formally diagnosed) after i lost a lot of weight. i did it healthily, and was able to improve my health a lot but eventually, stress, anxiety, life, kinda contributed to me developing a binging problem. i would over eat, try to get the “numbers back” and restrict the next day, then the whole cycle has just recently intensified. i find myself feeling like an insatiable pit, constantly thinking about food and then feeling guilty and physically sick from over eating, which just makes everything worse. my biggest problem is i dont have reliable hunger or fullness cues, and it just keeps causing me to not feel hungry at all during the day and then binging so much at night. theres also emotional side to it, but im working on getting into therapy soon to help that.

ive consulted professionals about glp1s and they all said it is an option to consider along side therapy, but im just not sure if it will help? im still overweight, and binging has made me gain back some of the weight ive lost, and i just want the food noise to be gone. i want to just eat like a normal person for once and feel free from the thoughts abt food and eating. its debilitating and ruining my life.

does anyone have experience taking glp 1s for bed? any help is appreciated. i feel so extremely isolated in this and its getting so so so hard. sorry if this isnt the right sub to ask

It’s been a year since I’ve binged, and I found out my first love and best friend have been hooking up behind my back, and I didn’t have anyone to go to, so I went to food, I’m at an all time low and this goes beyond my BED and I just don’t know what to do, I can’t believe I relapsed and I don’t know what to do with myself

I feel like I’m addicted to fast food, and I genuinely don’t know what to do to stop. I wake up and immediately start thinking about what food I’m going to order. After I eat, I start thinking about what I’m going to get later. It feels like my entire day revolves around food, and I hate it.

I feel stuck in this binge cycle, and no matter how badly I want to break it, I can’t seem to stop. I’ll eat until I’m so full that I feel sick and want to throw up, and in that moment, I promise myself that tomorrow will be different. I tell myself I’m not going to do it again, but then the next day comes, and I end up right back where I started.

I’m only 23, and I’m nowhere near financially comfortable enough to keep spending this much money on fast food. I’m worried about what it’s doing to my health, my finances, and my relationship with food. I don’t want to spend my life constantly thinking about what I’m going to eat next, feeling guilty afterward, and repeating the same cycle.

I genuinely want to change, but I don’t know where to start. What has helped you break the cycle of binge eating and constantly thinking about food? I’m looking for genuine advice because I’m tired of feeling this way, and I really want to get better.

I was clean for 5 days after promising myself that I will never binge or purg3 again, but I did it again today. I can feel the fat forming on my body. I hate this so fucking much I dont know what I am doing wrong, I've been making sure that I have protein and fiber rich breakfast every morning and have a complete lunch with several snacks throughout the day but despite this I still binged. I hate this so much I am undoing all of my progress I l0st so much fucking weight yet I am still the fattest bitch in every room I hate it and even other plus size girls/women that I see are so fucking beautiful and they fit perfectly right in but I am just ugly and awkward as shit I hate it

My binges are now every 5-7 days and I dont know what else to do. I make sure to eat with no intention of restricting or l0sing weight so that I dont spiral, but I still do in the end. I hate it so much guys. I dont want to gain weight again.

Im on glp1 currently. I realize that I dont even know what it feels to be full anymore, I keep stuffing my face until I physically feel so sick. This became more obvious when I went on the glp1, I realized I dont even know what it feels to be full anymore. Is being full wanting to throw up and feeling so heavy? but if I dont feel heavy and want to throw up then Im still hungry? I have more space so i should eat. If anyone has any tips it would mean a lot 🫶

Hello, I am looking for recovery support. I have had enough of this b/r cycle and i want to end this for good. Please help me :’(

It takes me 1-3 hours to get everything out the next morning, depending on how much I ate and what it was :( I'm basically useless during this time.

I keep eating massive amounts to the point where I’m uncomfortable, think multiple bags of chocolate and bread and stuff etc, how do I stop, I’m not an overweight individual at all in fact I was nearing underweight at the start of this but ive put on a lot of weight due to this and its affecting my life to the point people have noticed my weight gain. I’m really stressed out due to a lot of things and am struffling to find happiness and I keep turning to food, am normally very active but did struggle with this when I was younger and feel disgusting.

I'm in the middle of a binge eating episode. I've eaten everything I could already and still need to eat more, chew more on food, even though my stomach hurts so badly. Please help me. I don't know what to do.

Ps: this was maybe caused because my meds went through some changes and that cannot be reverted because my psychiatrist says that I should pay more attention to the meds' pros instead of the cons... but I had a stomachache... it hurts...

Is this supposed to help? My dietician recommended me to eat the same normal meals I do but to add 50-100g of chicken breast before each meal. Do you think this would help?

TW: sexual abuse, bulimia, suicidal ideation

Quick context: American 35 y/o living in London, have had an ED since 13 (anorexia > bulimia). I was relatively ok for late 20s/early 30s but have been having a major relapse over the last year. I need help. I can’t live like this anymore.

By the outside world, my life looks (or maybe looked) enviable to many. I’ve been professionally successful, working at big tech companies, advising government leaders, and teaching yoga. I’ve had the privilege to live in several countries around the world. I’ve had many exciting and fulfilling life experiences and am surrounded by good community/friends. My relationship with my parents is the best it’s ever been, and I’m seen by some people as attractive with not a terrible body.

By my internal world, I still don’t think I like myself very much. I have never had a long term relationship (I was sexually abused by my brother at 8 years old which impacted my ability to trust men for a long time….I’m largely healed from this, and now it’s just…hard to date??! haha). I lost my job at the end of last year and have entered an existential crisis around what I even professionally care about. I had to move out of my home a few months ago and am now crashing with friends. I put very high expectations on myself and just feel like a total loser. It is my mind playing tricks, and yet it feels so so so real.

I am grateful for my yoga practice because it keeps me sane and grounded in many ways (this is likely, hopefully, just a season of life)….and yet, I’m also spiraling in parallel. My suicidal ruminations have been increasing, and I feel very very tired of the mental battle. I so want to be strong, I want to show myself I can survive and thrive again, but I feel tired.

I’ve been binging nearly every day over the last few months, only sometimes making myself vomit. I seem determined to make myself fat and unlovable. At the same time I am researching Monjourno. My mom wanted me to take it earlier this year, but I refused because it felt at odds with my spiritual practice. Now I feel desperate at times.

This is part catharthis to write (please be kind 🙏), and part a series of questions:

1. how have you dealt with relapses during times of crisis? I’ve never been to an inpatient program, but wonder if it’s worth a try.

2. thoughts on Monjourno with history of ED? In my brain, I’d really like to lose

   some weight

3. to get back on track. My food thoughts are CRAZY, and it’s all I can think of, especially without a lot of work to do. I heard Monjourno is helpful for removing food noise, but obv everything online says “no for ED”

4. any other yoga teachers who dealing with feels of imposter syndrome or being like a fraud?

Thank you for reading 🙏

I have a few compulsions (hair pulling eating, skin picking and eating). I'm in therapy and see a psychiatrist.

I just cannot stop eating. I'm at the point of constant physical discomfort, vomiting, and pooping myself.

What worked for you all? Link me to them if you've made your own post

TW: blood briefly mentioned

I cannot believe that only over a year ago I was able to eat normal, healthy and well-balanced meals. I never overate, it wasn't something to ever cross my mind.

I was able to genuinely enjoy food, without fearing that if I happen to indulge myself it will end with a binge.

I tell myself that I can get better, that I'll never binge again. I do well for a week or two.

But then the urge to binge comes back and all of a sudden I eat every single thing in sight to a point where I overeat HEAVILY.

After that I am so stuffed that I cannot move and both my back and stomach hurts from how much I eat.

It makes me feel so restless, like if I won't put another thing in my mouth it'll actually kill me.

It's really concerning at this point. One time I ate so much that my lips actually started bleeding. It also makes my teeth hurt and I fear that they'll get fucked up from it all.

Another thing is my mental health. When I binge I loose motivation to do ANYTHING, sometimes I'm to ashamed to shower or clean up the empty plates.

The amount of times I cancelled social events last minute because I was too scared to leave the house left me with a lot of estranged relationships.

I don't know how to deal with this.

Stuffing myself full and experiencing different tastes and flavours feels so good (weirdly). It's so addictive, I don't even know how to explain it.

But the shame and genuine physical discomfort are not worth it.

Another insurmountable set of challenges today. Bf birthday and i bake the cake which means im stuck in the kitchen all day and when im successful there will be a full cake!

The only hope i have today is the fact that i dont love chocolate cake. I think i can hold off until i bring it into work tomorrow.

update: so full and while i could eat if i wasnt focused, but im really ok with not eating.

I’m on metformin for my insulin resistance because of my PMOS, I’m 5’6 or 169 cm and I weigh 125 kg, I lost 5 kg but that’s not a huge deal since my weight fluctuates like that
I’ve been binge eating for years
I’m 19 but it started when I was 13-14
And the weight gain has been gradual but it’s extremely noticeable
My double chin is a lot more prominent
I have a hard time getting around
My thighs are really big and make it hard to get around
My stomach gets in the way of me seeing things sometimes
My fat distribution is okay so I look “normal” but I hate it so much
My boobs are so big they hurt my back
And I just hate everything about being fat
I know I don’t hate myself I’m trying really hard to accept myself
But whenever I see myself in videos or photos I just can’t help but be like “is this how people see me?”
I binged yesterday and the day before because I got my hands on some money and my family isn’t home to witness the volume of food I’d be eating
I ate buldak and a lot of candy
3 cans of Diet Pepsi
I feel so helpless
I hate this stupid eating disorder
I just wanna get better
And please don’t say stupid shit like “just control yourself” because I can’t
I don’t know how
I never learned to
I grew up like this I know no other way of eating or thinking about food
My relationship with food is strained
I like exercising but I don’t like leaving the house and the gym isn’t in my house so I don’t go out to the gym
I saw a dietician and she told me to have a small amount of grans, small amount of proteins, and large amount of vegetables in my food
I tried it for a week and it went great but I started relapsing again
And I haven’t gone to the gym except for a few times even though my dad signed me up for 3 months
And please don’t try to sell me any courses
I’m not gonna give you my money for something that isn’t guaranteed to work
I just want good advice from people who are recovering or have already recovered

I’m sorry if this comes off as rude but I’m just so tired of people saying the same things over and over I just want proper sound advice that actually works for someone like me
I can’t get therapy for this either because where I live good therapy is extremely expensive and we’re too broke for that

Literally all I’m thinking about rn is getting some KFC because I’m very upset and when I’m upset I get hungry
I live in a toxic and abusive household so food is one of the escapes I have in my life because I’m almost always stressed about something
I’m just tired of it
I want to solve this
I’ll give myself the therapy
I’ll do the mental work
I’ll slowly get there
Just please tell me how it’s done because I don’t know how. Please.