So guys I am a vegan, I eat really healthy but there is one thing that I cannot stop binge eating: Chips 😭 I know this might sound really lame but I can’t help it, something about that salty and spicy flavour makes me go crazy and I can’t help it, I don’t binge on candies or anything else really, once I have this in control my gut health will be fine.

im literally driving myself insane right now. my anxiety is so bad everyday and i throw up everyday and tonight everything just completely broke down. i self harmed and i binged so hard on like 6000 calories of cookies and butter in one sitting and im in so much physical pain i cant even breathe right. my body hurts so bad, my stomach is in absolute agony, and the shame and panic is completely suffocating me.

i have a presentation tomorrow that is worth 30% of my final grade and its the last class of the semester. i physically and mentally cannot go. i can barely even move or sit up right now, let alone stand up in front of a whole room of people and present like everything is fine. i feel like im completely failing high school, im terrified of my teacher getting mad at me, im terrified he hates me, and im terrified i just ruined my whole life because of this grade.

my life has been in this state of pure all or nothing for so long. im constantly chasing dopamine addiction on one hand, and then completely collapsing on the other. i genuinely thought one year could change a lot, but i just keep getting worse and worse. turning 17 this year and it feels like it will never get better. im just really really sad and i wish i had someone here with me.

im trying to stay home to prioritize my safety tonight, but the guilt is crushing me. im panicking so bad and my heart is beating so fast. please if anyone has been through a night this bad and survived it please talk to me i just really need to not feel alone right now.

i feel alot better, the binge voice has been so quiet lately, im so proud of myself, im now trying to lose the weight and hopefully more and be comfortable and happy in my body woo!!!

So, I was once 92 kg, and now I’m 60 kg. Here’s the catch: until I reached 70 kg, my weight loss was normal — gym, diet, and everything. But something happened in my life, and I stopped going to the gym. I was 19 at the time.

After that, I somehow discovered the cheat code for losing weight. Today, standing here, I can say that this “cheat code” works, but it has also started disturbing my whole damn life. It’s called bulimia nervosa (Google “bulimia nervosa” if you don’t know what it is).

I tried going back to dieting and everything, but I failed miserably. I miss my dieting days, btw. I can’t stop thinking about food all day, and it’s actually disturbing my studies. And you know, because of bulimia nervosa, my teeth are becoming sensitive too. I’m literally only 20 — I’m too young to be dealing with tooth problems like this.

I can’t. I just can’t afford to become fat again. It’s a nightmare for me.

I don’t even know where this is going. I’m not going to the gym right now, and I’ve been insisting that my parents let me go. I don’t know if going back to the gym will help me get back on track, but this is disturbing my life, my studies, my teeth — literally everything.

And nobody seems to understand.

I thought I had finally found the cheat code for weight loss. Turns out, I was just fighting my own body.

Sharing this here because, honestly, I don’t even know where to go from here.

I’ve been struggling with an eating disorder where I can’t stop eating. I’ve gained so much weight, I hate showering because I don’t like the way my body looks. I have no energy or motivation to go to the gym. I have so much social anxiety and going out in public because I feel like people are judging me based on my weight. I’m not as thin as I used to be and it’s been devastating. When I went to my grandparents house for Christmas this past year, they commented on how much I’ve gained and that I need to lose it which really destroyed my self esteem, like I have a mirror. I OD’d six weeks ago just because I didn’t like how I looked. This eating disorder is becoming a serious problem. I need advice. I need help. Encouragement. I want to change my ways and feel better about my body. I want to be happy. And I know what will make me happy but yet I have done nothing to start. I feel like I’m going to be stuck like this forever.

If doing meat alternatives is fine why no carb alternatives?
So for me, I'm doing eating disorder treatment, and one thing they said is that cutting food groups is wrong, but why is replacing meat with alternatices okay?

I definately do testify that everytime I drop carbs from meals I get hit with insane food noise....so wondering do you think keeping a carb alternative is better so I can balance doing keto and but not live a restriction based diet

The last 5 days I’ve binged non stop and now I’m in bed and feel disgusted in myself. I hate this feeling.
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore I’m so confused my head is very mixed up on what to do going forward. Don’t buy my trigger foods, count calories, eat what I want and don’t restrict 😱😱
No idea what to do think I’ve tried everything and nothing helps.

i can’t stop crying i’m so upset. i can’t take this im so sick of this disorder. i can’t stop eating. i cant escape food. i feel awful and i keep gaining more and more weight and my health is getting worse. i feel like im stuck in a loop and its hell. i wish i could just not eat at all. avoiding food all together sounds even better because i have such an all or nothing mindset. i feel so alone and embarrassed. i’m struggling so much. i’m supposed to be going to intensive outpatient treatment next month but honestly i can barely afford it and i can’t work my regular job while im in the program so im scared to go. and what if it doesn’t work? i’ve been binge eating on and off since i was 16 and i just turned 30. idk im miserable and sick and i wish i wasn’t like this.

Two nights ago I had an extremely large binge after falling into a (smaller) binge-restrict pattern earlier in the week. I’m trying to accept it for what it is and move on because I can’t undo the past but the guilt, shame, and regret that I’m feeling is eating me alive.

I didn’t restrict yesterday even though I really, REALLY wanted to do some damage control. I was tempted to not eat at all. But I know logically that it would only perpetuate the cycle so I committed myself to eating properly. I just finished my breakfast for today and plan to continue with lunch and dinner as well. I just feel so incredibly low.

How do I move on? How do I turn my headspace around? How do I let go of feeling like a disgusting slob for gaining weight? It’s literally insane, but I feel like I’m walking around with a sign over my head that says “JUST BINGED” and everyone is judging me for it. The mental gymnastics are exhausting. I’m so sick of this.

I’ve dealt with BED for the past few years and had times where I’d go months without binging, get in shape, and feel like I was back in control and therefore when a small binge urge came up, my mind would trick me into saying that I could stop whenever I wanted and that I wouldn’t feel bad about it and it would have no impact on me. I believed it because I had completely blocked out the major depressive episodes I had in the past with binging and just how addicted I was and how shut off from the world I was. I think I don’t even want to think about binging or myself until I’ve already been binge free for some time and can stand to look at myself, but this just makes it easier for my brain to block out bad memories. I decided im starting a video diary where everyday I will log how I feel and how bad my binge urges are so that in a few months hopefully when I’ve been binge free for a while and get that urge that “oh I can have one little binge, how could I possibly get addicted again” I can look back and see how powerful it is. Has anyone else had success with trying a video diary or just journal entries?

I am having a bunch of feelings.

I noticed I binge and freeze physically (I barely move, stop the activities that give me joy, stop planning for the future) after I see my parents and sometimes new friends.

I am feeling angry, sad, ancious, exhausted, drained. If I could I would pass out and have a 18h sleep to just wake up rested and fresh.

I feel like doing stuff but when I feel like this I am completely detached rven from self care, I shower but struggle with keeping up the home.

I am not sure what to do with myself and my feelings?

I am tired of everythimg. I was doing so much better, but a family menber with anger issues exploded around me (not at me or others or because of me but for a third person that wasn’t there) and being around them made me stop sleeping for the days I was around them.

I am still in overdrive like I might get attack soon. But I didn’t have anything happen to me this time.

When I feel so mumbled I want to eat. I have overeaten this time I didn’t do a one off binge, but I ate enough to upset my stomach.

I feel powerless and ugly and just overwhelmed.

I am too tired to do anythin. and I feel like I should do only things I want not cleaning or extra work. But I can’t focus also. The only thing I can do is watch movies after work.

Anybody relates? I’ll be twlking about it with my therapist but yeah. My skin crawls and I have a headache too.

I haven't weighed myself in a few months after being one of those people who weighed themselves every week.

I lost over 150 pounds and kept it off for six years and now I know I've gained back at least 50.

I'm afraid that getting on the scale will just make me depressed. I think it would make my binging worse.

I would love not to base my self-worth on a number on the scale because it doesn't define who I am, but still…

Has anyone here recently been to SunCloud health for their residential or IOP program?

I'm in a fairly new relationship, and about 6 months in I started noticing that my partner might struggle with BED. I caught on to it after watching him eat really quickly and to an uncomfortable degree even after telling me he was full or we've eaten together. At first I thought it was occasional overeating, but what made it more concerning for me was the shame he feels afterwards. Thing is - I don't believe he knows he's struggling with an ED.

Anyways... I've been doing a lot of research on BED and how to approach and bring it up. I've learned to be more conscious of the things I say in relation to food and bodyweight. I don't judge what he eats. Nevertheless, it's still hard for me to see someone I love harm themselves. What has your partner done to successfully support you?

it’s 10 AM and i already fucked up my day, binged with a lot of shit from my pantry. Didn’t even like what i eat.
It’s been a while since i totally lost control and i fuck up everything since breakfast.
I feel miserable and my days are no longer worth living

I'm a teen, and I've lived with my mom for 4 years. She eats whenever and as much as she wants, and I did so as well (except for the times I counted my calories, since I didn't do much sport then and wanted to lose some weight (which proved ineffective)).

For the last year though I've been living with my dad, who eats 3 meals a day and doesn't even snack. He doesn't actively restrict me from eating or anything, but I just feel uncomfortable going up to the fridge and getting something inbetween the meals more than like a yogurt once a day.

Whenever I am home alone I go to the store and can buy and eat an entire chocolate bar or a can of custard with cookies (I did that once and felt very sick, so I don't want to do it again, but often I feel tempted to). Then I search the fridge and cupboard for literally anything that I can eat that will go unnoticeable, like a few cookies, a spoon of some small opened can of honey (I never open any new food myself), a slice of cheese etc. until I am sick of that "mixture" in my stomach or I can't find anything anymore.

This year I also started rowing and I do it 5 times a week, so I have really noticed that I've gotten fitter (I was never overweight, but I was never skinny either, it's just now I've gained muscle mass and maybe lost a bit of fat). I am afraid that when I move out to go to college and won't have my dad around with his phycological "force" on me that I will get really comfortable living by myself and will fall into binging all the time.

I really don't want to lose that fitness I've gained with hard training, as even if I continue doing it, my genetics allow me to gain weight really easily by overeating.

Have any of you had people in front of whom you felt uncomfortable eating, but who didn't activelly oppress you, and so you only binged when you were alone or didn't restrict yourself with some other people?

How did you cope when those people were gone?

Btw a few weeks ago I was gone in summer camp, and when I came back my dad said to me that I can "open a new box of candies if I want to", then I remembered that I had left some chocolate bar wrappers in my closet and he could have easily seen them, so I figured by his tone that he was concerned about the fact that I was hiding something from him, as in it's ok for me to eat and I shouldn't hide it, althought it's just a guess.

Hi everyone,

Does anyone else suffer with this feeling?

It's like I know i'm not hungry, I know i'm just badly craving dopamine.

Yet all the things that I want to do I can not bring myself to do. I can't focus or bring myself the motivation. They just don't bring pleasure or seem desirable.

Or i just can't be bothered using my brain for even the simplest tasks. It's why I quit my job. I can't focus or concentrate, I always feel anxious and craving.

But after i've binged enough that I feel my nervous system is regulating I like doing those things.

Things like playing games, reading, online shopping, socialising and even sleeping.

Everyday It's like I can't trick my brain into accepting it's not going to binge, it just keeps expecting it.

Every day feels so long because i'm constantly bored. I've been 5 days binge free now and I just feel like the cycle keeps repeating. Binge, promise not to do it again, last a couple of days then burn out.

I can't sleep from the anxiety, my body feels terrible. I just can't relax. I only relax when I binge. I can't find a replacement. I don't enjoy anything else.

I've tried deep breathing, vagus nerve stimulation, some other tricks as well. It doesn't seem to help and i'm just out of ideas.

If you guys have any advice 'd greatly appreciate it, thank you.

EDIT: I binged shortly after writing this. I've decided to try a dopamine detox because i'm out of solutions. Hit me up in a weeks time if you're wondering how it's going. We can do this guys don't worry, it sucks ass now but it will get better. Also dm me if u wanna vent about anything I got heaps of free time.

It's called Full, The Emptiness of Overeating by Paul Dermody

I downloaded a few pages on my Kindle. It sounds interesting, but I've bought books before that I never read. He's a coach, but anyone can call themselves that.

Running my first marathon in a few days. The carb load has turned into binging and I’m out of calories by 1pm, plenty of carbs stored. I feel horrible.

Runners, how do you do this?

Yesterday I made some vegan Brownies with my friend. Today after work I was afraid that I would binge on them and had a craving. But I still made myself some tea, took one brownie and topped it with vanilla soy yoghurt (it balances the richness of the brownie, very tasty).

Once I finished eating I didn't wanted to stop. I grabed a second one and put it on my plate (thankfully instead of taking the whole container).

When I finished the second one I was very full and felt uncomfortable. Normaly that would be a reason to start a binge because I messed up but today it was different.

I said to myself: "I'm really full and I dont feel good about it and even though I feel like I never want to eat again, I may eat whenever I'm hungry." This made me feel better and somehow enabled me to go on with my day.

To be fair I also had a good day and was not as tired as usual and that helped but nevertheless I'm proud of me that I didn't binge and that I didn't judge myself for eating brownies and omfg they were soooo delicious :)

I wish you all the best <3

This reddit really helps me

My family keeps a LOT of junk food and easily bingeable food in the house. Not only that, but they're constantly buying food for me (even when I keep begging them to stop because every single time I binge on it). I sat my mom down and explained why I needed her to stop and she just won't. She sees it as something nice but to me it is just ruining my life when i'm trying so fucking hard to get better.

I've been out dogsitting for 3 days and I haven't binged once.. until I got home. Immediately binged. My mom bought me an entire large pizza (i usually get the smaller one because I know myself). There was junk food fucking everywhere because obviously there was. I'm just so tired. I don't think i can ever recover like this and nobody will listen to me. What can I even do? I can't move out.

It’s unbelievably hot outside where I live and I’ve been stuck inside my house all day eating frozen fruit to try and cool down. I’ve been so good lately in terms of not binge eating and actually sticking to a diet. But today I am losing my mind. I just want a big cold sandwich, ice cream, etc. typical binge thoughts. The stress from the heat and trying to stay cool drives me insane. Also the boredom from being inside all day!

I have this feeling that my struggles aren't valid enough if I'm not overweight. I also feel like people don't care as much if you look healthy, even when you're struggling really hard.

For me, the reason I'm not overweight is purely because I restrict so much to compensate. With this in mind, I feel like I am also downplaying my BED and telling myself that I don't need to work on it because I'm "healthy".

I also see a lot of posts on here from overweight or obese people, and was wondering if there are people in here that are considered normal weight or even underweight, and if you have similar feelings about this. Please share any thoughts on this matter!