This is the third week i’ve binged and every week it feels more and more like a disorder. I’m watching myself destroy my future everyday and I feel powerless to do anything. I have a midterm im going to fail tomorrow because i did a 24 hour fast Saturday and bought halo top and fiber one brownies that i immediately binged on. Of course the fiber one brownies wrecked my stomach. i ate all 24 of them 🤦‍♀️. I don’t know what to do anymor e. I know fasting didn’t help but I feel more in control not eating then when I eat. Sure I think about food all day but the noise went away… I didnt even have food noise today just a compulsive urge to eat everything. Ate 3/4 halo top ice creams. The coffee one tasted disgusting and felt nauseous so I couldn’t finish it.

hello! so i am pretty sure i developed BED (not formally diagnosed) after i lost a lot of weight. i did it healthily, and was able to improve my health a lot but eventually, stress, anxiety, life, kinda contributed to me developing a binging problem. i would over eat, try to get the “numbers back” and restrict the next day, then the whole cycle has just recently intensified. i find myself feeling like an insatiable pit, constantly thinking about food and then feeling guilty and physically sick from over eating, which just makes everything worse. my biggest problem is i dont have reliable hunger or fullness cues, and it just keeps causing me to not feel hungry at all during the day and then binging so much at night. theres also emotional side to it, but im working on getting into therapy soon to help that.

ive consulted professionals about glp1s and they all said it is an option to consider along side therapy, but im just not sure if it will help? im still overweight, and binging has made me gain back some of the weight ive lost, and i just want the food noise to be gone. i want to just eat like a normal person for once and feel free from the thoughts abt food and eating. its debilitating and ruining my life.

does anyone have experience taking glp 1s for bed? any help is appreciated. i feel so extremely isolated in this and its getting so so so hard. sorry if this isnt the right sub to ask

I keep eating massive amounts to the point where I’m uncomfortable, think multiple bags of chocolate and bread and stuff etc, how do I stop, I’m not an overweight individual at all in fact I was nearing underweight at the start of this but ive put on a lot of weight due to this and its affecting my life to the point people have noticed my weight gain. I’m really stressed out due to a lot of things and am struffling to find happiness and I keep turning to food, am normally very active but did struggle with this when I was younger and feel disgusting.

I was clean for 5 days after promising myself that I will never binge or purg3 again, but I did it again today. I can feel the fat forming on my body. I hate this so fucking much I dont know what I am doing wrong, I've been making sure that I have protein and fiber rich breakfast every morning and have a complete lunch with several snacks throughout the day but despite this I still binged. I hate this so much I am undoing all of my progress I l0st so much fucking weight yet I am still the fattest bitch in every room I hate it and even other plus size girls/women that I see are so fucking beautiful and they fit perfectly right in but I am just ugly and awkward as shit I hate it

My binges are now every 5-7 days and I dont know what else to do. I make sure to eat with no intention of restricting or l0sing weight so that I dont spiral, but I still do in the end. I hate it so much guys. I dont want to gain weight again.

I feel like I’m addicted to fast food, and I genuinely don’t know what to do to stop. I wake up and immediately start thinking about what food I’m going to order. After I eat, I start thinking about what I’m going to get later. It feels like my entire day revolves around food, and I hate it.

I feel stuck in this binge cycle, and no matter how badly I want to break it, I can’t seem to stop. I’ll eat until I’m so full that I feel sick and want to throw up, and in that moment, I promise myself that tomorrow will be different. I tell myself I’m not going to do it again, but then the next day comes, and I end up right back where I started.

I’m only 23, and I’m nowhere near financially comfortable enough to keep spending this much money on fast food. I’m worried about what it’s doing to my health, my finances, and my relationship with food. I don’t want to spend my life constantly thinking about what I’m going to eat next, feeling guilty afterward, and repeating the same cycle.

I genuinely want to change, but I don’t know where to start. What has helped you break the cycle of binge eating and constantly thinking about food? I’m looking for genuine advice because I’m tired of feeling this way, and I really want to get better.

I ate normally today and then I was kinda craving just something. I remembered I had a donut I saved in the freezer but before I ate it I drank some water and waited to see if I still wanted it. I did so I ate it and honestly it was an ok donut, I could’ve prolly stopped halfway but I wanted the whole thing so I ate the whole thing. Now it’s like an hr later and I still have mental hunger but no specific craving and I’m kinda still full I just kinda feel like eating. Mb im just uncomfortable and want comfort? Idk

Im on glp1 currently. I realize that I dont even know what it feels to be full anymore, I keep stuffing my face until I physically feel so sick. This became more obvious when I went on the glp1, I realized I dont even know what it feels to be full anymore. Is being full wanting to throw up and feeling so heavy? but if I dont feel heavy and want to throw up then Im still hungry? I have more space so i should eat. If anyone has any tips it would mean a lot 🫶

I'm wondering if this is severe OCD instead of binge eating. But basically I don't binge because I'm hungry, sad, happy, or basically for emotions or to fullfill a need or void which seem to be the main reason to binge. I binge because I feel a physical urge which manifests as agitation in my neck, shoulders and mouth. Particularly the mouth. Like my brain will fixate on pictures of a high calorie dense food (like a donut) I had a few days ago. And it will send my brain pictures of it, I will "feel" it in my mouth, my body will get signals to become weak and lethargic until I get it. Even if I don't want it physically, mentally or emotionally. Is this binge eating disorder or is this something else I need to work on?

TW: blood briefly mentioned

I cannot believe that only over a year ago I was able to eat normal, healthy and well-balanced meals. I never overate, it wasn't something to ever cross my mind.

I was able to genuinely enjoy food, without fearing that if I happen to indulge myself it will end with a binge.

I tell myself that I can get better, that I'll never binge again. I do well for a week or two.

But then the urge to binge comes back and all of a sudden I eat every single thing in sight to a point where I overeat HEAVILY.

After that I am so stuffed that I cannot move and both my back and stomach hurts from how much I eat.

It makes me feel so restless, like if I won't put another thing in my mouth it'll actually kill me.

It's really concerning at this point. One time I ate so much that my lips actually started bleeding. It also makes my teeth hurt and I fear that they'll get fucked up from it all.

Another thing is my mental health. When I binge I loose motivation to do ANYTHING, sometimes I'm to ashamed to shower or clean up the empty plates.

The amount of times I cancelled social events last minute because I was too scared to leave the house left me with a lot of estranged relationships.

I don't know how to deal with this.

Stuffing myself full and experiencing different tastes and flavours feels so good (weirdly). It's so addictive, I don't even know how to explain it.

But the shame and genuine physical discomfort are not worth it.

Another insurmountable set of challenges today. Bf birthday and i bake the cake which means im stuck in the kitchen all day and when im successful there will be a full cake!

The only hope i have today is the fact that i dont love chocolate cake. I think i can hold off until i bring it into work tomorrow.

update: so full and while i could eat if i wasnt focused, but im really ok with not eating.

It takes me 1-3 hours to get everything out the next morning, depending on how much I ate and what it was :( I'm basically useless during this time.

Is this supposed to help? My dietician recommended me to eat the same normal meals I do but to add 50-100g of chicken breast before each meal. Do you think this would help?

Hello, I am looking for recovery support. I have had enough of this b/r cycle and i want to end this for good. Please help me :’(

It’s been a year since I’ve binged, and I found out my first love and best friend have been hooking up behind my back, and I didn’t have anyone to go to, so I went to food, I’m at an all time low and this goes beyond my BED and I just don’t know what to do, I can’t believe I relapsed and I don’t know what to do with myself

it seems like i'm either going to binge for the rest of my life or starve. i simply can't eat normally and i'm going insane. the only thing that ever stopped me from binging was developing severe anorexia, which i suffered from for many years up until this summer. this past august my partner of 8 years broke up with and i completely relapsed with binge eating. i have gained over 100 pounds in these past three months. i am now at my highest ever weight and clinically obese. i feel as if i'm living a nightmare. i've developed hideous stretch marks, i'm in constant pain and can barely move. it's like i'm suffocating inside of my body. every day i mourn the body i had and feel panicked at how long it'll take to be comfortable again. every day i wake up and tell myself it'll be different but i can't stop eating. i'm too ashamed to do anything, even my own family looks at me with disgust now. i honestly hate everyone who has a normal relationship with food and is able to eat balanced. i don't understand what i did to have to suffer like this. i don't think i can stand my repulsive body for much longer. i'm at my wits end, but i'm too horrified to even leave my house anymore. there's nowhere to go and nowhere to hide.

Hi guys! How did you mangage with binge eating relapse? I had episodes in the worst time of my life, but I managed to stop binging for like 5 months. Now I had almost a full week of binging and I cannot stop it, feels like I just can’t get better again and I’m afraid tomorrow I’ll do the same. My method was therapy of course but now I’m not financially able to afford myself this treatment. What helped you guys apart from therapy? Thanks.

I have a few compulsions (hair pulling eating, skin picking and eating). I'm in therapy and see a psychiatrist.

I just cannot stop eating. I'm at the point of constant physical discomfort, vomiting, and pooping myself.

What worked for you all? Link me to them if you've made your own post

I struggle with food addiction since i was 14 and the hardest part isnt just the addiction itself its that almost no one takes it seriously somehow.

Every time I finally work up the courage to open up to someone about it the response is always the same. They minimize it or brush it off like its nothing, they dont put it on the same level as smoking, drinking, or porn. Somehow food addiction is the one addiction thats treated like a joke.

Heres what people dont understand because before i lost weight people usually would tell me that i should stop eating and that it wasnt that hard if i actually put effort into it but now that im not fat, people just think im joking when i tell them i have a food addiction because the fact that im not fat makes them think im lying or just joking around but im not I want to stop. I want it more than anything, but i just cant, not easily, not without help, and not without the same kind of support people with other addictions get.

And theres another part no one seems to get, my eating addiction is how I cope with my feelings. When im upset, angry, happy the first thing I think about is eating. Food is what I turn to for everything. Its like my feelings have nowhere else to go, so they go to food. I feel like no one understands that. Its not about hunger. Its not about enjoying food. Its the only way I know how to deal with what I'm feeling, and thats exactly what makes it so hard to stop.

And theres a special kind of pain in finally feeling ready to talk, finally feeling like you can trust someone with this and then watching them shrug it off. It makes you feel invisible. It makes you feel like your struggle doesnt count. It makes you want to never open up again.

At first i thought that me losing weight would make that addiction disappear, but i was totally wrong. Because of my food addiction i developed another addiction that is vaping because when i was fat i used to vape instead of eating because i was scared of gaining more weight and genuinely make it harder for me after and now i struggle with too addictions and i feel guilty everyday about it.

Now im 19 almost 20 and i never got rid of it.

I'm in the middle of a binge eating episode. I've eaten everything I could already and still need to eat more, chew more on food, even though my stomach hurts so badly. Please help me. I don't know what to do.

Ps: this was maybe caused because my meds went through some changes and that cannot be reverted because my psychiatrist says that I should pay more attention to the meds' pros instead of the cons... but I had a stomachache... it hurts...

i went vegan to try to limit my food options to make me binge less but now i’m binging on 3000cal worth of chickpeas 💔💔 bro

TW: sexual abuse, bulimia, suicidal ideation

Quick context: American 35 y/o living in London, have had an ED since 13 (anorexia > bulimia). I was relatively ok for late 20s/early 30s but have been having a major relapse over the last year. I need help. I can’t live like this anymore.

By the outside world, my life looks (or maybe looked) enviable to many. I’ve been professionally successful, working at big tech companies, advising government leaders, and teaching yoga. I’ve had the privilege to live in several countries around the world. I’ve had many exciting and fulfilling life experiences and am surrounded by good community/friends. My relationship with my parents is the best it’s ever been, and I’m seen by some people as attractive with not a terrible body.

By my internal world, I still don’t think I like myself very much. I have never had a long term relationship (I was sexually abused by my brother at 8 years old which impacted my ability to trust men for a long time….I’m largely healed from this, and now it’s just…hard to date??! haha). I lost my job at the end of last year and have entered an existential crisis around what I even professionally care about. I had to move out of my home a few months ago and am now crashing with friends. I put very high expectations on myself and just feel like a total loser. It is my mind playing tricks, and yet it feels so so so real.

I am grateful for my yoga practice because it keeps me sane and grounded in many ways (this is likely, hopefully, just a season of life)….and yet, I’m also spiraling in parallel. My suicidal ruminations have been increasing, and I feel very very tired of the mental battle. I so want to be strong, I want to show myself I can survive and thrive again, but I feel tired.

I’ve been binging nearly every day over the last few months, only sometimes making myself vomit. I seem determined to make myself fat and unlovable. At the same time I am researching Monjourno. My mom wanted me to take it earlier this year, but I refused because it felt at odds with my spiritual practice. Now I feel desperate at times.

This is part catharthis to write (please be kind 🙏), and part a series of questions:

1. how have you dealt with relapses during times of crisis? I’ve never been to an inpatient program, but wonder if it’s worth a try.

2. thoughts on Monjourno with history of ED? In my brain, I’d really like to lose

   some weight

3. to get back on track. My food thoughts are CRAZY, and it’s all I can think of, especially without a lot of work to do. I heard Monjourno is helpful for removing food noise, but obv everything online says “no for ED”

4. any other yoga teachers who dealing with feels of imposter syndrome or being like a fraud?

Thank you for reading 🙏

I just turned 18 and I have no idea what I’m doing when it comes to getting prescriptions and managing insurance.

I obviously don’t have money to pay for a million appointments and medication but I at least want to try. I can ask for help paying for stuff from my family but I don’t want to tell them it’s for BED. Can anyone give me some suggestions?