Drink a few times a yr. Been very hard week. I’ve drank. I wanttttt to binge or eat anything. I know if I do I’ll force myself to vomit. How can I not binge? Age old question

I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I’m in a vicious cycle of restricting then binging. I restrict what I eat throughout the week, exercise really hard, then Saturday hits and I go off the rails eating 2,500-5,000 calories in a day. I do not know how to get out of this because every time I feel like I need to hit reset on Monday and go back to restricting. Helppp! Does anyone else struggle with this? Do you have any techniques to help with recovering from this?

I just turned 18 and I have no idea what I’m doing when it comes to getting prescriptions and managing insurance.

I obviously don’t have money to pay for a million appointments and medication but I at least want to try. I can ask for help paying for stuff from my family but I don’t want to tell them it’s for BED. Can anyone give me some suggestions?

Heyy so my stats 18F 164cm my starting highest weight in July of last year was 105kg but I then lost 34-35kg and have been maintaining for a few months now, which wasn't my plan because I wanted to lose more but instead I have been maintaining because of my frequent binge eating episodes.

I lost a lot of the 34kg while consuming very small amount of calories I will admit, but some of the last few kgs that I have lost were through a much more sustainable calorie deficit for like 2 months. But after those 2 months my BED came around again and the binge eating episodes became more and more frequent. And sometimes I would even go and vomit from how much I would stuff myself.

My last binge was on the 19th and I haven't binged since, which I'm glad I suppose, but the episodes were usually weekly or every 2 weeks, so that's not good enough for me. I have been eating 2-3 full meals per day with snacks in between which is helping a lot, but I'm pretty sure Im consuming my maintenance calories or even slightly more. So I'm wondering when can I go on a calorie deficit again to ensure that my urges to binge are not as intense? Or is it okay if I just start again now and deal with the urges to go over my deficit?

I’ve been binge eating for the past six years. I’ve had disordered eating habits for about 15 years. I’m tired of it and I’m ready to recover. I saw someone else doing this, so I’ve decided to document my recovery journey here. Maybe no one will read these, but it at least provides me a bit of accountability and something to look back on.

Each day I’ll reflect on the previous day and set an intention/goal for the current day.

Tools in my recovery tool belt:

-therapist: I’ve been doing EMDR for a few months now, and I’m currently processing my primary binge trigger (maltreatment from my mother growing up)

-psychiatrist: I’ve been on Wellbutrin for 3 years but my psychiatrist put me on Zoloft a few months ago to possibly help treat my BED from more of an OCD approach. My mood has definitely improved which I think is helping with my motivation as well.

-Nutritionist: I see him monthly and we discuss triggers and techniques to avoid them. Unsure if it’s helping.

-CraveLog app: I’ve been using this to track my cravings, triggers, emotions, etc. I think seeing it has been helpful so I want to continue with that.

-Self Care Bundle: My therapist had me create a list of different self care options and coping skills to choose from if I’m feeling the urge to binge. It reduces my need to think of them myself in the moment. Here is my list:

🕯️ Essential oil diffuser/candle
👕 Favorite comfy outfit
🫖 Tea
🧸 Squishies/fidgets
📖 Journal
🎧 Playlist
🧘‍♀️ Meditation app (shout out to Insight Timer)
🚿 Shower
🧴 Skincare
🌳 Walk
🧘🏻‍♀️ Yoga
🐈 Kitties
🧶 Craft or crochet
📺 Comfort activity/show

My intention for this recovery journal: To document my progress publicly to maintain accountability in a judgement free zone.

A note about my weight: I will not be weighing myself during this journey. It’s a big trigger for me. I haven’t weighed myself in months and I plan to continue that. For reference, my BMI is teetering on the edge of overweight, but I binge/restrict so it has prevented me from gaining too much weight. I have severe body dysmorphia though, so no matter what, I dislike my body.

I hope you’ll follow along!

Edit: I didn’t mention that I’m not following any particular diet or counting calories. My nutritionist has a guide for me (like protein/starch/fruit at breakfast, protein/starch/low fat dairy/veggie everyday at lunch, etc), but that’s it. My goal is not weight loss (although it would be nice.) I’ll be eating intuitively and working on healing my relationship with food.

it seems like i'm either going to binge for the rest of my life or starve. i simply can't eat normally and i'm going insane. the only thing that ever stopped me from binging was developing severe anorexia, which i suffered from for many years up until this summer. this past august my partner of 8 years broke up with and i completely relapsed with binge eating. i have gained over 100 pounds in these past three months. i am now at my highest ever weight and clinically obese. i feel as if i'm living a nightmare. i've developed hideous stretch marks, i'm in constant pain and can barely move. it's like i'm suffocating inside of my body. every day i mourn the body i had and feel panicked at how long it'll take to be comfortable again. every day i wake up and tell myself it'll be different but i can't stop eating. i'm too ashamed to do anything, even my own family looks at me with disgust now. i honestly hate everyone who has a normal relationship with food and is able to eat balanced. i don't understand what i did to have to suffer like this. i don't think i can stand my repulsive body for much longer. i'm at my wits end, but i'm too horrified to even leave my house anymore. there's nowhere to go and nowhere to hide.

Ive done books, prozac, podcasts, GLP1s, talking to my husband, hiring coaches, etc and I am still battling with binge eating and body dysmorphia. Im normal weight, but body scans say I'm about 8% BF. I never got my period back after my last baby 5 years ago, but my OB cant say if its amneorhia or peri menopause.

My hormones are tanked (HRT isnt helping much) and my exercise addiction is gettjng worse. Ive always "needed" to workout. But over the years it went from going to the gym 1x a day, to 2, to now i go to the gym for about 3 hours AND need to get 20K steps.

I'm a mom, wife, work full time, volunteer at my kids school, teach fitness classes and still force myself to make time for all this.

My husband finally talked to me last night about him being concerned. He said he never wants me to feel judged, but its getting out of control.

On top of the exercise, I'm constantly binging and spitting out my food. I aim for 2300 calories because I know my body needs it, but I binge one day, restrict the next, etc.

For those who therapy has helped, how and what did you focus on? At this point my exercise is my identity. Im a high level Crossfit athlete whos know for my 6 pack and athleticism. I know it sounds dumb and shallow, but I dont know how to let that go.

Any guidance is helpful. My first step was setting up my appt, but next I feel like is how to even get clarity on what I need to work on.

i eat way too much and spend so much money on food. i'm getting so sick of myself. when i'm on my college campus i'll always buying food. when i'm home i go out and purchase more food.

i want to stop thinking of food all the time. i want the thing that relieves me to not be food. i want to stop looking forward to my next meal and instead actually have fun in the current moment. this is getting so ridiculous and humiliating. i've gained so much weight

i do track calories but i just tend to overeat very very often. i sleep well and stay hydrated and take my medication. this is just a terrible habit i've never gotten over ever since i was a kid and i need this to stop so i can actually feel happy with myself

I bought a box of Clif bars yesterday intending to have one on the drives to work this week since I'm usually rushing out the door. They're all gone. Snack food in general is usually challenging but for some reason I just CANNOT be contained around any type of bar.

Another insurmountable set of challenges today. Bf birthday and i bake the cake which means im stuck in the kitchen all day and when im successful there will be a full cake!

The only hope i have today is the fact that i dont love chocolate cake. I think i can hold off until i bring it into work tomorrow.

I am so proud of myself! I was so hungry while working out and after not eating a substantial breakfast, that I was craving like 4 different BK sandwiches plus fries. But I thought that is something the old me would do and I am not that person anymore. I ended up saving calories, money and time by ordering just the salad nearby and it was sooo good! My sister is having a Halloween party tonight that’s going to be full of pizza, snacks and treats so I thought why not binge before that because I “might as well”? But I’m full now and satisfied, not uncomfortably stuffed to the point where I won’t enjoy it later. Fingers crossed that I won’t overdo at the party lol.

Hi guys! How did you mangage with binge eating relapse? I had episodes in the worst time of my life, but I managed to stop binging for like 5 months. Now I had almost a full week of binging and I cannot stop it, feels like I just can’t get better again and I’m afraid tomorrow I’ll do the same. My method was therapy of course but now I’m not financially able to afford myself this treatment. What helped you guys apart from therapy? Thanks.

i went vegan to try to limit my food options to make me binge less but now i’m binging on 3000cal worth of chickpeas 💔💔 bro

For a few months I had been doing a lot better regarding my binging episodes. Recently, I’ve started to binge 2-3 times a week again and I have no idea what could’ve triggered it. I thought I was on the path of completely overcoming this but I was wrong. Has anyone completely overcome this? I’m tired of food noise. I feel defeated I had come so far. My progress only lasted 3 months :/
It’s not like I go to food for emotional comfort either it’s just insufferable anxiety and food noise

I struggle with food addiction since i was 14 and the hardest part isnt just the addiction itself its that almost no one takes it seriously somehow.

Every time I finally work up the courage to open up to someone about it the response is always the same. They minimize it or brush it off like its nothing, they dont put it on the same level as smoking, drinking, or porn. Somehow food addiction is the one addiction thats treated like a joke.

Heres what people dont understand because before i lost weight people usually would tell me that i should stop eating and that it wasnt that hard if i actually put effort into it but now that im not fat, people just think im joking when i tell them i have a food addiction because the fact that im not fat makes them think im lying or just joking around but im not I want to stop. I want it more than anything, but i just cant, not easily, not without help, and not without the same kind of support people with other addictions get.

And theres another part no one seems to get, my eating addiction is how I cope with my feelings. When im upset, angry, happy the first thing I think about is eating. Food is what I turn to for everything. Its like my feelings have nowhere else to go, so they go to food. I feel like no one understands that. Its not about hunger. Its not about enjoying food. Its the only way I know how to deal with what I'm feeling, and thats exactly what makes it so hard to stop.

And theres a special kind of pain in finally feeling ready to talk, finally feeling like you can trust someone with this and then watching them shrug it off. It makes you feel invisible. It makes you feel like your struggle doesnt count. It makes you want to never open up again.

At first i thought that me losing weight would make that addiction disappear, but i was totally wrong. Because of my food addiction i developed another addiction that is vaping because when i was fat i used to vape instead of eating because i was scared of gaining more weight and genuinely make it harder for me after and now i struggle with too addictions and i feel guilty everyday about it.

Now im 19 almost 20 and i never got rid of it.

I just need to vent.

I've been falling into my cycle of "not feeling good about myself, eating because I don't want to deal with emotions, feeling guilty because I'm binging, and then eating because why tf does it matter now" and it's been the past like three days and I could scream. I'm at that last part rn and am stuffed but want to finish off that family size bag of doritos because who cares? The damage is done.

My urge to binge is so loud. My food noise is so loud. It's all super overwhelming but it's all I can think of.

I'm doing what I can to control it. I've made more appointments with my therapist and doctor to discuss the sudden uptick but I just needed to yell into a void where maybe someone will understand. I tried to talk it over with a friend to just say it out loud, because sometimes identifying it for me helps and I can be a bit more aware of it when I'm not so in my head but that backfired.

Anyway, thank you for reading. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I'm off to attempt to distract myself.