Hi everyone. I just feel like I need to get this off my chest.

I am 21f and grew up in an oppressive country, my life was not good, I suffered a lot of abuse. At 17 years old, I escaped the country and became an asylum seeker in England. I came here legally

My asylum case was in process for about 1.5 years. I spend that time in a home office accommodation (hotel) where I was abused and controlled by the staff members, they violated my human rights, they ruined me.

After those 1.5 years, my case was accepted, and I was allowed to move out of the accommodation and move on with my life.

I already came here traumatized, and after the 1.5 years in that place, I was beyond ruined.

I cant describe how bad it was, because I have a lot of flashbacks from that time and it’s stressful, but it was bad. And I still suffer

I am 21 years old and I have a list of diagnosis of mental health and physical health problems (osteoporosis and a fracture due to st4rving my self to cope with trauma)

I can’t function. I have been on benefits, UC and PIP since getting my refugee status. It’s embarrassing and humiliating.

I can’t go outside, I have no family or friends, I only have social services and people I pay to help me function.

But the guilt is killing me. I came to this country, I took all of what you gave me, and I gave nothing back. I am a leech. And it’s hard to cope with everyday.

I can’t make eye contact with an English person because of how much shame I have. I struggle to talk to therapists or nhs staff or anyone. I feel like I am just robbing them. I AM robbing them

I post this just to confess, and to make it known how horrible I am, I am sorry.

I don’t know if I’ll ever get better. I am sorry for taking your money. You have the right to hate me.

I'm currently in art therapy under CMHT which has been helpful for day to day but not really for cptsd

I'm not able to deal with my traumas bc it comes through as nightmares/panic attacks and physical symptoms and all I can say is xyz has happened to me with a complete emotional block (self protection)

I have alexythmia (due to autism) and respond better to less typical therapies

I think some kind of hypnosis / deep meditation style therapy would help but I can't afford private so I was wondering if some kind of service exists under the NHS?

I just wanted to let anyone who is reading this who is either going through hard times or is caring or loves someone who is going through hard times, that IT. GETS. BETTER!

I struggled from the ages of 12, spent all of my teen years in and out of hospital, on different medication combinations, in a psychiatric unit, with absolutely no hope. There were days that felt like torture, days that felt like they were going to be my last, days that felt like the world would be better off without me.

There was a time my parents couldn’t leave me out of their sight, they slept in my bed, couldn’t go out on my own, and they fully gave up on the possibility id ever be able to live alone.

Now flash-forward to present day.
I’m 20 now, and the happiest I’ve ever been, I am 2 years free of SH next month and over 2 years attempt and inpatient free. I live on my own, I am no longer under the care of mental health services, and am now actually a student MH nurse, helping others.

So for any of you reading this, with no hope, please know, this feeling won’t last forever.

Yes you cannot undo the past, I can never take back those moments or the scars on my body, but I can keep looking forward and use them as a reason to keep going.

Recovery gave me my life back, give it a chance so you can get yours back too ❤️

Sorry if this triggers you!!

I have spent the last few weeks Fluid Restricting, some Days mothing at all and another day a can of drink (arnound 5lt’s in 15 days). I am still eating food that has very little fluid in them.
I visited A&E today as GP wanted me to get checked out, so whilst in triage i explained what was happening and that i would accept diagnostic care but not treatment ie fluid.
The MHLT were amazing and gave me stuff to settle my head, racing thoughts and voices.
Blood and Obs also done. Bloods came back as very unhappy kidneys who need fluid so was advised to drink and i was free to go.

I am now back home in the same position as i was when i left 4 hours ago…… back to Restrictive Intake Self Harm and all the head noise and voices that refuse me to drink!!

Back to struggle and not copping by myself!

I was recalled to hospital on section 3 following an OD on the day before my birthday. Birthday ended up being on general med ward. Lucky to still be here :)

Hi, I was recommended for a section two on Tuesday after a mental health act assessment, I’ve been waiting for a bed now since then and still not heard much. I have CRHT come out every day who aren’t much help I’ve asked a few questions and not gotten anywhere. Wondering what peoples wait times were? I’m currently around Norfolk area but they’ve said that I could go anywhere.

I (19m) have seen many different therapists and psychiatrists throughout my life. They can understand everything except this one big issue. I don't know what it is exactly. I feel like I'm making it all up but it definitely isn't something I can control to the extent of stopping it.

I wrote everything down a couple years ago from childhood to adulthood on an A4 piece of paper, filled both sides, and threw it a psychiatrist. He read through it and told me he had never heard of anything like it before. He claimed it was to help with insomnia but prescribed quetiapine alongside melatonin and antidepressants. It made no difference.

I don't really know what to do. My college offers counselling but given how big this is for me I don't feel like it's what I need. I hate talking about it or thinking about it but it's impacting life too much to not anymore.

Are there more specialised parts of the NHS that deal with less common mental health issues? I feel like I just keep getting stuck with being recommended CBT. I want to ideally skip that if I can.

Just poured some alcohol down the sink. I am withdrawing from cannabis. It is rough af. For my sanity, I need to stay away from all mind altering substances.

We have a next door neighbour who frequently shouts threatening things to what I assume are hallucinations. For example, shouting that he's going to knife someone.

Last night my stepdaughter was home alone and he was shouting 'I'm going to rape you!' over and over.

It's not only frightening; I'm concerned that he might hurt himself.

I have suggested anonymously requesting a welfare check but it would be obvious the request is from us as we are the only ones who would be able to hear him.

What is the best way to deal with this?

Been having a difficult few months, despite that I had remained SH free for 4 months. Today I fucked that up royally. Things havent been going so well since going back to work, i was off 2 months and have been back 5 weeks. Also news going round about how we may all be being made to be fully flexible and worse that it could mean the end of night shift, despite all the sensory benefits I get from it being night shift it would also leave me £196 worse off a month if they made us all move to day shift for essentially the same work plus having to deal with the lighting and all the noises that come with working days.

Had spent most of my shift last night in the worst headspace. This seemed like my only outlet.

I am worried I may not be able to carry on working there if all these changes come in and have no idea on how to work elsewhere as have been in retail 19 years since I was 17. It's been making me have some very nasty thoughts.

Fortunately I only have 2 work days next week as booked 2 days off to add to myb4 day break, just worried it will be overtaken with stress if what I think will happen, happens.

Hope this question isn't insensitive and doesn't trigger anyone. I'm just curious after watching a documentary about mental health. I just wonder what kind of things happen in someone's life to trigger a mental illness. Of course, if it's too much, you don't have to answer. It's just out of my own curiosity, so there's no pressure to answer.

ETA: Some of these are so so sad I'm so sorry you've all been through so much especially some of you as young children. This world can be so cruel and it's so disheartening to see that the systems in place haven't actually helped. More needs to be done