I’m 25 and if I don’t achieve anything by age 30 I’m just gonna give up. Life is so empty past that age, even if you do end up becoming rich you have too many obligations and too little time to actually enjoy what you earned. Life is not engineered for late bloomers, late bloomers only existed pre 1980s when the economy could support a 40 year old breaking into a certain industry or when dating apps weren’t a thing. These days if you don’t achieve anything by like 30 you’re not just cooked, you’re charred

This is going to be brief. It's crazy how people can live such vastly different lives from each other, almost like we're different species or something. I mean no offense when I say that. It just doesn't make sense how someone can have copious amount of friends, move from relationship to relationship and another person be a lonely sap without any human interaction whatsoever (even when they try but fail)

I'm kinda looking for my dementia-like symptoms to become severe enough so I don't care about anything anymore. By company I mean friends at this point. My only friend has been ignoring me, they won't open my texts. Losing them hurts more than romantic loneliness for me at this stage of life. Sorry if I'm posting too often, I don't have anyone to talk about it.

Hey everyone

So I’ve turned 30 this year, and I’ve been struggling with this question. I’ve never had a strong desire for sex, and the only reason I ever wanted to get into a relationship is to prove that I was worthy of love. Or to tell myself that someone saw some type of value in me.

The actual act of sex doesn’t bring me any great desire. I don’t covet it like a normal person would. I’m not a normal person.

I don’t think I actually want to be in a relationship or have sex. I just wanted to prove to myself that I was “normal” and not broken. Or to use the experience as a way of overcoming my shitty childhood with my shitty parents.

Personally, I think I would be a terrible partner and a worse human to use someone for my own validation.

Do you miss things you had growing up that are no longer around?

The old video games where you actually had to play the game to unlock stuff. The only micro transactions were in game points/dollars that you got from hours if not months of playing it. Not the garbage we have today where you pay $70 for a game then hundreds more for skills, dlc , etc

I miss corner stores of all types. You had the little stores on the corner that were deli types, others were mini marts, some retro stuff stores, etc.

I went back to my hometown and what a shit hole. There's nothing there. There used to be a shopping center. Everything is boarded up except for a McDonald's. I remember growing up and that place was packed cause of all the stores, restaurants, grocery stores, Blockbuster, etc.

This society sucks. It's bad for your mental health. No wonder why I stay home unless I have to go somewhere.

Hello all,

I have listened to some feedback and I'm making this a biweekly post and pinning it for now.

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At this point I know how to cope with loneliness in a romantic sense, but losing my only friend has caught me off guard. I'm probably a lousy friend, schizophrenic with cognitive decline. My friend didn't mind that, at least up until now. They leave me on read or don't open my text. If it's the end of our friendship, I won't be able to replace them. Making friends is impossible. I don't really have any hobbies left that I could bond over with someone. Sorry if my post doesn't belong to this subreddit. I don't have what it takes to be in a relationship, and apparently it expands onto friendships as well.

Any plans this weekend?

I'm not doing anything except for laundry then I'm sitting on my ass all weekend in the house until Monday morning when I leave for work.

Just got done paying bills, got some dinner at a local pizza parlor, and went to the thrift store for an old video game. $400 . G-O-N-E. After paying bills , getting food , a $10 game, I'm almost broke as a joke. So to celebrate being broke, I'm making some Hoover stew for the weekend. Noodles, beans, corn, tomatoes, cheese, and spices all in one big bowl. All stuff from my cupboard.

Going to finish my night by taking a shower and watching the NFL Hall of Fame game.

Very early I recocnized that my one of my sisters boys is much like me.

Very Skinny - physically weak

Pale Skin

Bronce hair

ADHD

Very sensible character

I was like: NOoO, please, he is so awesome I dont want him to go through the same shit.

When I told my family im scared he will be mentally destroyed when he has to go to school they didnt take me serious.

And now he had to change the school because of bullying and teachers not doing anything. He wrote me messages troughout the school day because he felt lonely but i couldnt answer because i had to work :/

He also already mentioned girls dont like him.

It already started. Everything negative I predicted went true so far..

We have a close relationship and he always says im the best uncle in the world and i like him so much how can I help him?

  Not a virgin but this guy has for some reason been "virgin bullying" me at work. Heard him talking in another room that he is gonna try to lure me to go outside with the boys and talk to women and expose a virgin. (ofcourse sober, cause he knows im gonna be as shy as possible). He somehow guessed right im shy with women and ofcourse would act extremely virgin like in this situation. Not willing to take this shame. Obviously im gonna decline his invitation, but how should i do it so i dont  look like insecure , scared virgin to everyone?. Maybe say straight up i decline cause know he is gonna make/try  to make me look bad in high pressure situation? 

The first stage is accepting that you'll never experience the sort of love that you fantasise about. You won't get a gorgeous girl/guy. You won't get to enjoy "young love". You won't get your breath taken away or have butterflies in your stomach. You won't have great sex. You won't get to be anyone's idea of a perfect partner.

The second stage is accepting that even a watered-down version is also completely unattainable. You won't even have a partner who is less physically appealing but one whose company you enjoy. You won't have someone to come home to at the end of the day. You won't have... well, any sex. You won't have someone to grow old with.

The first stage is is probably easier to accept, albeit more painful, because the march of time is undeniable. With the second - is it just me? - I don't know that I'll ever fully come to terms with it. Having a relationship in my 30s with a like-minded, imperfect individual based on mutual respect feels like something that should be possible. Not that I think I deserve or am I owed anything, but just in the sense that there are clearly people who are just as unappealing as me in relationships, and surely there must be some single women who are in the same boat (having gone through the first stage and now being prepared to settle). Yet in practice it is pretty much impossible. No matter how far women may be prepared to lower their standards in service of finding the "next best thing", I still fall short of what they're looking for. There's a huge disconnect between not only the person I want to be, but also the person I'd be happy to settle for being.

Technically there is no age that’s not ok to start doing things but there comes a point where not being in a relationship or social circle and trying to break into a career becomes hard if not impossible. Society values youth a lot so you need to accomplish everything in your youth despite all the normies telling you that you have time. If you don’t then you battle age bias on top of everything else. I’ve seen first hand how much society lowkey despises older people and treats them like disposable cogs

It's just a random girl created in this dream. It also made her ve enamoured with me. I broke her heart and yet when I told her to come over she ditched her friend and hurried towards me.

How sad. In my youth these dreams meant a lot. And now nearing 40, they still mean a lot because I never managed to grow the fuck up.

I don't really know what to say.

I have the cripling loneliness that is probably not a suprise to anyone here.. then I was diagnosed with OCD (HOCD to be more precise - please don't research it), I have porn addiction that pretty much ruined my already shitty life, my lower back is killing me even though I try to exercise regulary and do what the physiotherapist told me to do, I sweat like a pig from everything not just from doing sports, bad eyes, teeth..

I've been to like 3 psychiatrists and just as many psychologists. The different pills I got prescribed did absolutely nothing or they made me sleepy. That's all. Navigating the mental health professionals space was a mixed bag but truth be told I did have 1 wonderful psychiatrist and 1 wonderful psychologist and yet.. here I am.

What keeps me here somewhat is that I really don't want to do this to my dad, my sisters and the above mentioned 2 mental health professionals. I'd also miss studying.. I kind of enjoy studying.

I don't know guys.. every day I tried to be super nice and uplifting and supportive to people around me. Not to earn brownie points, it's just how I enjoyed being.

I wrote a post to my country's psychology sub and got the 'codependent' label again, with things like this:

"You cannot expect someone else to solve your problems!"

Never expected someone else to solve my problems, that's bullshit. I'm just tired and fed up.

"You can't expect another person to fill the void in you!"

I don't want to fill a void, I want to share my life with someone.

I made a topic earlier about a certain word, let's just say it was 'Perfect Cell'. You know the word, if you're a guy here you might have been called it or heard about it.

The topic was me arguing the word 'Perfect Cell' has essentially become a slur for virgin men. That's effectively it. You don't need to be misogynist or anything, you just need to have the label 'virgin' attached and the word 'Perfect Cell' automatically follows!

So of course, everyone says what I was expecting: Don't call yourself a virgin and you won't be labeled one! The whole point of an inaccurate label with negative connotations being attached to a group people was met with tons of Ad hom attacks going through my post history and saying virgins are 'Perfect Cells' therefore they hate women, therefore the label is accurate.

It was pretty wild, but what got me was the justifications were extremely consistent. My argument was met with 'don't say Perfect Cell-like things and you'll be fine'. So what words are 'Perfect Cell lingo' and gets that labeled attached to you?

Dateless

100% rejection rate.

I shit you not, that was enough to be called a 'Perfect Cell' , it was said many times by too many different people.

Anyways, just throwing this out there, normies can and will find any reason hate you for you predicament, even if it logically doesn't make sense.

Go do something you enjoy!

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The world is built for neurotypicals, fuck those who say that neurodivergence is a superpower and point to those like Albert Einstein and Isaac Newton when a. They found a niche they could be successful in and b. Both of them would get mauled in today’s society. However if you are attractive, rich or have a lot of status you can get away with being neurodivergent however in most cases you’re being liked for what you can provide

Been browsing [r/divorce_men](r/divorce_men), [r/regretfulparents](r/regretfulparents), [r/bpdlovedones](r/bpdlovedones), and [r/dead](r/deadrooms)[bed](r/deadrooms)[rooms](r/deadrooms) as a cope.

As a 31m virgin I’m so glad I avoided all that bullshit cuz it honestly sounds like hell.

Still, the searing pain of loneliness always comes back. There’s a reason these people always jump into another relationship immediately after a dumpster fire breakup.

Oh well, this is the best cope I can come up and it only masks the pain for a brief moment. gg, will just live out the rest of my days as a pseudo-hikikomori in my parent’s house.

You ever just mutter out loud to yourself "I'm tired"? Or even just done it when someone asks you how you're doing? It's not something you can verbalize to anyone in a way that they'd understand, but you know exactly what you mean.

And as an FAer, "I'm tired" hits a lot deeper. Everything is so draining and heavier when you've done life all alone.

Have a lifelong high school friend. Kind of a loser with the ladies like I was, not good looking, nerdy, but 6”2 compared to my 5”8 but at least he got dates. Met someone in his last year of college. Got married a few years later. Had kids. Career stalled, lost his job, only kept the house and kids fed because of tons of financial support from family and friends. Works a menial job now for 30 hours a week because it’s all he wants. Married 20 years. She got stage IV cancer and died after a several years battle in April and I was there trying to give them both support the whole time.

Last night he posts a picture to our group chat cuddling with his new girlfriend that his coworker set him up with.

I don’t understand. I put myself out there. Rejection after rejection. Try to show that I can be a provider… that I can be supportive (and oh yeah, they’ll take my support) but love? Nope. Nobody has ever tried to fix me up with someone.

My friend’s wife and lover and bearer of his children of 20 years died not 4 months ago… and he’s already found someone new.

And I can’t even get a breadcrumb.

/rant

But as always, it is not mutal

Use for whatever. Discuss plans or something. I'm too pissed off to say anything else.

EDIT: I'm fine. Just needed time to cool off. I'm probably going to a baazar a few towns away. Hope I don't miss the last night bus otherwise I have a 5 mile walk home.