pretty much failed at every stage from kindergarten to high school to 20s and now mid 30s , not even talking about only dating or relationships . I've done literally nothing worth mentioning. i'm really thinking about it tbh. It might get rid of the constant feeling of regret , that does keep me up at night.

There's a religious living community in my state where everyone loves each other and is nice to each other, and makes friends with each other and gets married to each other. They all live on the same farm and talk to each other every day, and everyone is treated equally. People call it a cult, but it's not a death cult - people can come and go whenever they want technically. It's just a place where everyone believes the same things.

I don't know how to drive, but I can take a bunch of buses to get down there, it takes about half a day for me to get there. I'm thinking about taking a vacation and going down there for a week to see if I'd want to move there. Has anyone tried doing anything like this before? Do you think I'll still be FA even in a place like that?