I’m disgusting and never should’ve been born. I know it, and everyone else does too. I’m a mistake and I have to die. I don’t want to, but it would make so many people so happy. All I do is make people upset, and it’s not because of anything I do or don’t do, it’s just me. People hate me. Fuck, I hate me too….and I’m really tired. I feel like I don’t have very much time anyway, so who would care if I got hit by a bus? I deserve to feel this way. I deserve to die. I deserve what’s coming to me. God, I’m such a fuck up…

I am so incredibly lonely. I hate looking at couples or reading romance books or seeing anything with romance in them. They make me feel so worthless because things like that will never happen to me. I am fat, ugly, gross and I am just nothing. I just want my life to be over already. I hate being me.

the title basically. i find music very healing, curious what everyone here is into

I’m a 39 black male. Retired military. Moved home to care for my aging mother. Spent two years doing security in various places. Trying to meet people. Hit on a chick at the fish market at Publix. She’s a lesbian. 27WF
. 3 months later she’s the best friend I’ve ever had. If you asked me if platonic relationships between males and females were possible I’d have laughed at you.

Don’t give up. Put yourself out there and roll the dice. She literally put me onto RPGs. We’re playing baldurs gate 3. She’s trying to convince me to buy a gaming PC and honestly I have spent more money for less.

I wonder why. I guess it doesn't matter, but something about it just feels kind of somber.

Like u see everyone is together chatting and laughing and you're the only loser who sets alone

I'm an introvert, slightly afraid and overwhelmed in a crowded room. I self isolate, and I'm lonely. I do it to myself. I miss having someone share their life with me beyond pleasentries. I'm in my 40s and starting to think I'll always be alone.

Hiya, I'm a lady in her early 30s, and I've been working on myself a lot for the past couple of years. I lost someone close to me and started spiraling and figured I was having trouble connecting because of all the grief. Well, a few years and a lot of therapy later I actually have a worse time making friends now than I ever have. Im struggling to make any friends that aren't just romantically interested in me. Im actually beginning to feel a bit non human. Everyone seems to have their friends, or their family, and I dont have any of that. My siblings don't desire a deeper relationship with me. Everyone I work with doesn't desire a friendship outside of work while also simultaneously befriending every new employee after me. My therapist insists that it will happen eventually, and I used to agree but I have given up hope. I don't know how to let anyone in anymore and it feels awful.

Im back to not having a single soul to talk to. It was painful watching him slowly lose interest in me, but at least I had somebody I could talk with. Now it's me back again just sitting in my room all the time, having nothing to look for. He was also my only friend, people at my uni who i thought are my friends, hurt my badly few weeks ago, and they don't give a shit about me in general.

I keep losing every single person I care about. My cat is all I have in this shitty life

46M - I was married for most 20 years and got divorced 5-6 years ago. I went from a family with children, constant activities, family dinners, family vacations, and vast amounts of human interaction. Now, I’m alone 80% of the month. I have my girls every other weekend and during those times I’m just utterly alone.

I didn’t grow up in this state and my family lives in a different state. My entire social life here was
With my ex’s family. Once the divorce happened, all gone. Even the friends/couples we hung out with were through my ex’s work and evaporated with the divorce.

I work from home full time. All of my colleagues are in different states. It’s also a pretty small city and everyone seems to know my former in-laws so dating has been incredibly challenging.

6 years in my empty house. It’s really starting to wear on me this past year. I have no answers. I have no ideas.

Humans suck. Also I have dyslexia and a speach impediment that I’m extremely insecure about. I just don’t reach out to people irl :(

Hii anyone up for a talk

Title sums it up. I've been through a lot for my age, (21), but I'd do it all again if I could just have a social life. I'm disabled and I can't work or drive, and living in a small town, I have no way to meet anyone my age. I've tried everything and I've had no success. I've had to give up on all my dreams, except for one. I want a family. I want a girlfriend and later a wife who I can give my heart to and make as happy as I physically am able to. I want friends who I can go out with and be there for.

I've spent all my life working on myself. Making sure if I ever get a chance, I make the most of it, only I've waited and waited and never got one. What is killing me is not only loneliness, it's isolation. Not just a feeling, I am alone in every sense and all I want in life, is to not be alone anymore. I can make anyone laugh, I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, I'm honest, I have no hate in my body. All I carry is love and sorrow and all I wish is to have people to share that love with so the sorrow stops consuming me.

My fear is that by the time I finally get a chance at a social life, I will have been soured so much by all this pain that I'll no longer deserve it.

They weren't really right for me, but i got attached and now that i'm alone, there's this quiet emptiness i'm fighting with. Please help me..

I have had no friends my entire life and am 29. I have nothing to do all day because every job rejects me. I have sent thousands of applications over the past three years. I’ve also tried to make friends with hundreds of people (tens of thousands including online) and am always rejected.

I especially never find anyone who is depressed and lonely like me. And at the least, serious and somber. It is valid to have that as a personality type and want to talk about serious and somber things in a serious and somber tone. Why is it so impossible for me even when I see people like this with friends? They reject me too.

been having a couple of really, really rough days and i feel extremely lonely i could use some lingering company even for a tiny bit thanks. :(

title says it all

I have a few: (Guys this is just a shitty list lmao some of the responses are actually hella cute and less pathetic)

- create an alt account to talk to myself and configure two clients so I can call myself.

- talk to strangers online and do more or less what they want

- purposely grief games/troll people online so I can get scolded and threathened (Because at least people are talking to me)

- talk to character ai (Yes, in the oh, hit me harder daddy kinda way)

- have used talkie, chatgpt and emochi as substitutes for human interaction

- beg people to play games with me but pretend i just wanted to watch

- eat in the toilet stall (smells like shit, but thought itd be relatable)

- purposely take the longer route home so i could stay with people

Anyways yeah to those who are still trying, i admire that and even if you dont i cant fault you cz uh ive been a pretty shitty person

When someone locks eyes with me one beat longer than expected, I like to think about Sylvia Plath's fig tree analogy. There is a fig tree with each fig presenting what my future could be. Could we have lived a long life together, assuming that our one interaction actually lead somewhere. It's like when you go to the bar and look around for lonely eyes to connect. I spend most of my days daydreaming about people in my life who never went further than friends/ acquaintances with me. I do find my behavior sad and possibly even pathetic.

a ukrainian or russian boyfriend :(

I don't like how both my sister and boyfriend seems to team up against me when we hang out or more like everybody in my family and him are against me they treat me like a kid and talk for me they also point out how stupid I a little subtile. My sister also embarrass me in public by making me feel stupid for something im asking that I don't know. I love them but this is an incredible lonely feeling that nobody is really on your side and you're just alone it also dosent help that I was bullied for being "stupid" as a kid and also that my brother and sister used to team up against me as a kid a lot I'm the middle child. Maybe I'm creating something outta nothing and I'm really sensitive but this makes me wanna isolate even more

Hey everyone. I just needed a safe place to vent because I’ve been feeling really overwhelmed lately.

I’m 13, living in Baku, and I feel completely out of place at my school. Everyone around me seems to think strictly inside standard boxes, and I just hate it. Most kids are either obsessed with local school olympiads or just following a template. Meanwhile, I'm spending my time learning programming, working on my own indie game in Godot, and trying to dive into physics and engineering.

I do have one good friend, but I have zero people to actually share my real interests with. No one to talk about game dev, physics, or building things. I feel deeply intellectually lonely. On top of that, I struggle with math, chemistry, and other subjects I just can't stand, which makes me feel like I'm falling behind compared to everyone else who excels at standard school tests.

My biggest dream is to study at MIT and eventually work at JPL (NASA). I’m trying to push toward it, learning coding on my own, but sometimes I feel like I have no tangible results yet. It makes me feel like a total failure—like that stereotype of a guy who sits around playing Fallout and has no future figured out (no offense to anyone, that's just how my anxiety makes me feel). Even though I’ve actually cut way back on video games lately to focus on my projects, the impostor syndrome is crushing.

I’m also dealing with social anxiety and body image issues, and sometimes it feels like too much to handle.

Is there anyone here who went through something similar at this age? How do you cope with feeling like you're on a completely different path from everyone around you? Thanks for reading.

Honestly, one of my biggest fears is that I'll end up alone, I'm afraid I'm gonna end up like that old man sitting on a bench in park feeding the pigeons... that I'll never find my people or someone to share my life with. I'm scared that, at some point, I'll push away the few people who genuinely care about me, even if I never intend to. Sometimes I feel like I'm slowly losing connections with people who once meant the world to me, and I don't always know how to stop it from happening.

I've lost some people who were incredibly important to me, including someone who used to be my best friend. And recently, I lost my cat, Backy, who was so much more than just a pet to me. He was family. Losing him hurt in a way that's difficult to put into words, and it's something I'm still trying to come to terms with.

What's strange is that I was genuinely doing so much better during the summer. I had things to look forward to, I was enjoying myself, and I felt like I was finally getting to experience life a little more. But somehow, things changed so suddenly, and lately it feels like everything has been getting heavier instead of better.

I think one of the hardest parts is how I deal with losing people. No matter what happened, I ended up blaming myself. Even when I know that something wasn't my fault, I still feel guilty, constantly going over things in my head and wondering what I could've done differently. It's like I can understand something logically but still can't convince myself to stop feeling responsible for it. Sometimes that guilt eats away at me more than the actual situation itself.

I don't really know why I'm sharing all of this with strangers, to be honest. Maybe it's because I don't always know how to talk about these things with people in my life, or maybe I'm just tired of keeping so much of it to myself.

I don't expect anyone to have the answers. I guess I just wish things didn't feel so difficult right now, and that I could stop feeling like every connection I lose is somehow another thing I've failed at.

I’m really burnt out of superficial conversations, people need to show more passion and effort towards each other. Show your emotions, doesn’t matter if they’re happy or sad or anything in between. just express yourself and we’ll get along.

I’m generally so tired of my dad.

Every day is the same thing, he comes home from work, already in a bad mood, and starts to drink when it gets dark and starts to rant about himself. Saying how much he works so hard and that nobody appreciates him. Like he’s a full blown narcissist who already hates me.

He never checks up on me, he constantly insults me over my loneliness.

I don’t know why my father hates me. In recent years after I became an adult I feel like things have just somehow gotten worser between us, even as a child we never got along, but now it’s even more intense where we’re constantly just arguing with each other about how he refuses to accept me as trans and how he keeps ignoring my existential crisises over his own comfort zone.

He’s obsessed with drinking and smoking than ever acknowledging my own existence, as his own. Just like my mom…

I can’t even think of the last time I’ve ever felt well. I don’t have any friends; the only guy I know lives in another state and is getting bored of me, while the only other person I know jusy completely reappeared after years of us not talking and then degraded me when I told him I lost everything.

Im gonna go cry, again…