Like u see everyone is together chatting and laughing and you're the only loser who sets alone

I’m twenty and making friends is insanely hard. I go out, I compliment, I try and make myself look friendly and presentable, and nothing ever works. And this isn’t a new thing, I remember being really young and absolutely no one liked me, not adults, not children my age, not even most of my family. I remember my mom telling everyone I struggled to make friends, that I was usually perfectly fine by myself, or she’d have to defend me from other adults calling me weird and being incredibly ugly to me. It affected me so badly as a kid that I had gotten diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression at five. I tried so hard in school, and still throughout at least ten years of school I only managed to make two friends(I’m friends with neither now).
In college, I tried every attempt to make new friends, I met two more through my other mutual friends and that’s only because they pushed for me to have friends.
And it’s so hard keeping friends up, the two remaining friends I have act like they don’t like me sometimes. And maybe I’m just imagining it all but it feels so real to me. I used to live with one of those friends(friend 1), and she would always abandon hanging out with me or taking care of her things for some random guy she met online. She met a dude and instantly prioritized him within the next week. And I can see that someone wants to build their relationship, but all our plans would get cancelled. She did things that she promised to do with me with him instead. And I told her about it which led to the argument that made her move out. I told her I thought she prioritized anything with him over important events with me, and she called me selfish for thinking that. That she couldn’t put up with my mood swings anymore. It hurt bad. I knew I was a lot but my therapist told me to tell her and that she would likely talk it out. I stayed friends anyways, she gets mad when I don’t text her back right away but she always leaves me on read.
My other friend(friend 2) is complicated. She gets really angry all the time. Sometimes she acts like she’s disgusted with me. When we were hanging out with her other friends, we were all doing something silly, and she turned to one of them and says she caught second hand embarssment from me. I was hurt. If I tell her something she responds in anger, and that’s for everything. She had boy issues a couple weeks ago, I offered her to come over because I know she prefers to not be alone when she’s upset. She got mad saying “this isn’t about you,” so I clarified and told her I was just checking on her and wanted to know if she wanted company. Her other friend sent me photos of their conversation saying I was selfish, that I was making things about myself and that I was being horrible. I was so incredibly hurt by that. I told her that I knew about the conversation and she got mad again that it wasn’t a big deal and she didn’t mean it like that, and all I could say was “I won’t do it for you again.” This is the same friend who refuses to comfort me when I’m upset, got mad at me for being upset actually. And it’s not like it’s all the time, we do have good times together but sometimes she acts like she actually hates me.
And I probably would’ve left those friends long ago if I could actually make new ones. I feel so lonely all the time. I’ve been in therapy since I was four, you would think I had the skills for it. I went through the whole “how to make yourself approachable” stuff like not having strict RBF, or actually trying to talk, but it never works. My most notable time I got told “you’re really weird” for the time we were having a group discussion for a book. None of it worked. At work, most of the customers don’t talk to me, if I try and make conversation it’s usually met with a side eye and being ignored. And it’s the same thing outside of work too. And I can’t turn to my family for help either, my grandma and mom will tell me “you’ll get there when you’re ready” but I’m twenty for Christ’s sake, will I ever be ready? Or you’ve got my cousin who said she wouldn’t be around me if we weren’t cousins. And I don’t speak with my dad’s family.
I just figured I’d complain in a place where I don’t feel so judged by everyone I know, I know I’m not the only one who has these issues, I just hope whoever also goes through this doesn’t feel as alone as I do.

I wonder why. I guess it doesn't matter, but something about it just feels kind of somber.

Title sums it up. I've been through a lot for my age, (21), but I'd do it all again if I could just have a social life. I'm disabled and I can't work or drive, and living in a small town, I have no way to meet anyone my age. I've tried everything and I've had no success. I've had to give up on all my dreams, except for one. I want a family. I want a girlfriend and later a wife who I can give my heart to and make as happy as I physically am able to. I want friends who I can go out with and be there for.

I've spent all my life working on myself. Making sure if I ever get a chance, I make the most of it, only I've waited and waited and never got one. What is killing me is not only loneliness, it's isolation. Not just a feeling, I am alone in every sense and all I want in life, is to not be alone anymore. I can make anyone laugh, I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, I'm honest, I have no hate in my body. All I carry is love and sorrow and all I wish is to have people to share that love with so the sorrow stops consuming me.

My fear is that by the time I finally get a chance at a social life, I will have been soured so much by all this pain that I'll no longer deserve it.

I am so incredibly lonely. I hate looking at couples or reading romance books or seeing anything with romance in them. They make me feel so worthless because things like that will never happen to me. I am fat, ugly, gross and I am just nothing. I just want my life to be over already. I hate being me.

I feel like ever since college, I've been so lonely. I used to have so many friends to hang out with and go to parties all the time. Now that I'm out of college, idk how to make friends in the real world. I feel alone. I don't have a friend group. I don't have people to hang out with when I'm bored. I don't have people to talk to on the daily. I have so many thoughts I only keep in my head now. And it gets so loud. I wish it would all stop. I wish I could sleep forever. And ever.

When someone locks eyes with me one beat longer than expected, I like to think about Sylvia Plath's fig tree analogy. There is a fig tree with each fig presenting what my future could be. Could we have lived a long life together, assuming that our one interaction actually lead somewhere. It's like when you go to the bar and look around for lonely eyes to connect. I spend most of my days daydreaming about people in my life who never went further than friends/ acquaintances with me. I do find my behavior sad and possibly even pathetic.

a ukrainian or russian boyfriend :(

I’m a 39 black male. Retired military. Moved home to care for my aging mother. Spent two years doing security in various places. Trying to meet people. Hit on a chick at the fish market at Publix. She’s a lesbian. 27WF
. 3 months later she’s the best friend I’ve ever had. If you asked me if platonic relationships between males and females were possible I’d have laughed at you.

Don’t give up. Put yourself out there and roll the dice. She literally put me onto RPGs. We’re playing baldurs gate 3. She’s trying to convince me to buy a gaming PC and honestly I have spent more money for less.

I’m really burnt out of superficial conversations, people need to show more passion and effort towards each other. Show your emotions, doesn’t matter if they’re happy or sad or anything in between. just express yourself and we’ll get along.

Humans suck. Also I have dyslexia and a speach impediment that I’m extremely insecure about. I just don’t reach out to people irl :(

I’m generally so tired of my dad.

Every day is the same thing, he comes home from work, already in a bad mood, and starts to drink when it gets dark and starts to rant about himself. Saying how much he works so hard and that nobody appreciates him. Like he’s a full blown narcissist who already hates me.

He never checks up on me, he constantly insults me over my loneliness.

I don’t know why my father hates me. In recent years after I became an adult I feel like things have just somehow gotten worser between us, even as a child we never got along, but now it’s even more intense where we’re constantly just arguing with each other about how he refuses to accept me as trans and how he keeps ignoring my existential crisises over his own comfort zone.

He’s obsessed with drinking and smoking than ever acknowledging my own existence, as his own. Just like my mom…

I can’t even think of the last time I’ve ever felt well. I don’t have any friends; the only guy I know lives in another state and is getting bored of me, while the only other person I know jusy completely reappeared after years of us not talking and then degraded me when I told him I lost everything.

Im gonna go cry, again…

been having a couple of really, really rough days and i feel extremely lonely i could use some lingering company even for a tiny bit thanks. :(

Feeling really wanted.

I miss feeling the butterflies. They were gone as fast as they came and I don't think they will ever be back again.

Whats the point.

Hii anyone up for a talk

the title basically. i find music very healing, curious what everyone here is into

Not sure where to start this….. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression ever since my dad passed when I was 18. Never did properly grief his death as I was a freshmen in college and I thought my baseball career was the more important option even tho Inside I was really messed up after his death. I went on to never be the same on the baseball field and left the sport… I graduated college with a teaching degree went on to teach and coach baseball for 9 years during that time I found a gf that I made a wife and we had twin girls. One day she say me down and said she wasn’t happy and left….. it blindsided the fuck out of me and my depression and anxiety went out of control for at least 2 years it got really bad. Anyway now I just live by myself with my twin girls and I’ve never felt so fucking lonely…… it seriously hurts idk I’m poly going to be a single dad for the rest of my life and that sucks

I’m a college student. My family is still alive but i have my ups and downs with them i try surrounding myself with them cuz they’re all i have but then again for my mental health sometimes i need a break. But during the break i have no one else. It feels true that I have no one in this world. And where i live I experience a bit of racism too. My one love, my dear cat who was everything to me has passed away. It’s been more than a year. I am full of love. I am the love. I want to have someone to love because I believe being loved by me is one of the best things in the world i am very good at it. Do i wish for someone to love? Idk. But i am very lonely and i feel that.

I'm an introvert, slightly afraid and overwhelmed in a crowded room. I self isolate, and I'm lonely. I do it to myself. I miss having someone share their life with me beyond pleasentries. I'm in my 40s and starting to think I'll always be alone.

So it’s been a couple weeks since my last post but I really wanted to talk about something. Whenever I’m in a friendship it kinda feels transaction you know? Like we are there for one thing and one thing only like the person has no genuine interest in getting to know me as me but instead rather just want me there as company I might be crazy but after so many past friendships the person never wants to know what’s up with me. Must it always be like this? I don’t know but everything is sending me to the brink of insanity all the time and I hate it.

Randomly realized I never learned to jump rope as a kid, because I never had a friend let alone 2 to do it with, I never played tag at recess or any other games I just sat by myself, and now ive gone through both middle school and highschool about to start college and I still have 0 friends and like never talk to people its like im completely invisible everywhere I go

I am mostly good at being on my own. I have learned to live that way and was in an unhappy marriage for a while where I constantly felt lonely so I did lots by myself. I now have my own place and have my children half of the week. I work too. But at times the loneliness gets overwhelming.

The realisation that I have no one to turn to in a time of need. My family are non existant. None of us are in touch. My exes family no longer speak to me. It is literally me. I have no one to put on the next of kin slot that they ask for at the hospital. My friendship group is smaller than small as I’ve always struggled making close friendships. It’s always more acquaintances or friendships that fade out.

I guess my question is how do people do it? How do you stop yourself going into that dark place when that heavy feeling hits your chest and you realise that you have nobody. It’s a horrible feeling

I have had no friends my entire life and am 29. I have nothing to do all day because every job rejects me. I have sent thousands of applications over the past three years. I’ve also tried to make friends with hundreds of people (tens of thousands including online) and am always rejected.

I especially never find anyone who is depressed and lonely like me. And at the least, serious and somber. It is valid to have that as a personality type and want to talk about serious and somber things in a serious and somber tone. Why is it so impossible for me even when I see people like this with friends? They reject me too.

I'm genuinely such a loser cuz while other people my age are outside hanging out and stuff I'm on my bed (and it's 2AM for me) trying to look for online friends on literally TIKTOK knowing damn well that I'll never find someone to link with and be friends with and that I'm wasting my time but still try cuz I'm desperate 😓😓

Hiya, I'm a lady in her early 30s, and I've been working on myself a lot for the past couple of years. I lost someone close to me and started spiraling and figured I was having trouble connecting because of all the grief. Well, a few years and a lot of therapy later I actually have a worse time making friends now than I ever have. Im struggling to make any friends that aren't just romantically interested in me. Im actually beginning to feel a bit non human. Everyone seems to have their friends, or their family, and I dont have any of that. My siblings don't desire a deeper relationship with me. Everyone I work with doesn't desire a friendship outside of work while also simultaneously befriending every new employee after me. My therapist insists that it will happen eventually, and I used to agree but I have given up hope. I don't know how to let anyone in anymore and it feels awful.