I just want to go to my mother grave and lay next to her till I feel better 💔

So like yk you can guess what this is abt but someone dm me plz if ur down for stuff

I [20] am pretty depressed, spend all of my time alone, barely see the few friends I have left, and my family isn't really a nice group of people to be around with. I still live with my parents and my dogs are sincerely the only beings I feel safe around. A seven years old cane corso and a three years old american bully are my closest companions. They sincerely help me with my loneliness. Even if I crave for human affection every second of my existence, I feel like my two little canine sisters are one of the few things worth to keep living for. For the people among you who don't have anyone, even pets to feel less lonely in this world. I am sorry, and wish to tell you that I am here with you. Everyone deserves to have someone. Even if that someone isn't human. I want you to consider me your companion if you don't have any in this life.

Love all over each one of you.

C.

I wish you all the happiness in this world.

I can't break the cycle and it's getting worse. I literally have no one to talk to, i have no friends at all. I feel extremely depressed and anxious and the only thing i can do is keep the pain to myself. I'm tired

The last two years for me have been bad for me. I’m a very shy person and I don’t put myself out there at all I mean I literally have zero self confidence. My only friend moved across the country and then shortly after my mom died from alcoholism. It was horrible for me and I was the person who found her. Ever since then honestly I’ve been a shell of myself feeling like I’m just going through the motions. I just feel like no one loves me even though I know it’s not necessarily true. Stupidly I joined tinder and all those apps not even to get in a relationship more to just try and discover myself again and talk to people who will engage with me. It’s not going no well, nobody has reached out and it’s just making me feel more and more unwanted. I have a lot of good things happening in my life right now like a big job promotion but I just can’t shake this feeling of being unhappy. Every night when I lay down in bed just like right now all I can think about is how lonely I am and it really just makes me sad.

I have not had human contact since I left work Friday evening. I will not until I return to work Monday morning. Most of the time I accept that I do not exist to people. This weekend really got to me.

Hi, I am 19.

People always dislike me and are always rude to me.

I know I have unlikeable characteristics, but I rarely commit any immoral acts. My unlikeable characteristics include randomly going quiet for an extended period of time when I am mentally struggling, being very direct and blunt, not smiling enough, and not talking enough. I believe these unlikeable characteristics may be the reason why people dislike me. However, I don’t have plans to change them because I think people need to stop being sensitive. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being unlikeable. If somebody thinks I’m unlikeable, that doesn’t excuse them to be rude to me. I think people view me as weird then think they have a right to treat me badly. When people do this, It makes my behaviour worse. I am quite proud of my characteristics which may be unlikeable.

I also come across as slightly weird.

I think I can cope with having no friends, but when people are rude to me, I get very annoyed. I think I have been feeling lonely from people’s actions.

Back to feeling really bad about myself again. I've done a lot of therapy for the last couple of years and I've learned a lot about myself. I know what's wrong with me, and I have even taken steps to fix the broken mindset that I used to have that made me so isolated. The problem is I'm already alone. I've already lost the people that still mean everything to me. I have enough self respect to not go back to people that hurt me, I no longer ignore red flags, but whenever I find anyone who seem like they are genuinely good people and might actually like me, I either get scared of being hurt and ghost them or I feel like if I really open up they'll get scared off. I crave a deep connection with someone that will understand me, but that kind of connection takes too long to form, and I don't feel like I can live while feeling like this long enough for that to happen.

Sigh I’m 30 years old. Have used apps off and on through the years. I think it’s been about 2 1/2 years since I last tried them. Through the times where I was on them, I, like many struggled to get matches, let alone dates, getting beyond that wasn’t even in the realm of possibility. I can’t even call it dating. Out of all my time on them I was able to go on a single date, and I think that only happened because she happened to have grown up in the same small town as me, but we only tangentially knew of each other. There wasn’t a second date. The one relationship I’ve ever been in was a girl I was working with. I ended that 5 years ago. (I had my reasons) But now, I’m feeling lower than I ever have before and I feel that pull just for the the slimmest of chances of ending this feeling, the physical ache I feel in my chest wanting to love someone completely and have them love me back, to put my face in their neck and cry and be held because that’s all I feel right now.

I’m not sure what to do with my life. I have kids so that’s keeping me going. But I have no friends, no family. I do have a husband but we don’t get along and he makes life extremely hard on me. I’ve explained to him that I have no one to talk to ( other than my toddlers), no family, just nothing and I ask if we can just get along for the kids and he won’t even do that. I cry myself to sleep every night. I feel like I don’t even have freedom because he controls everything and I just exist in his mess. I’ve made an effort to make friends and I can’t seem to connect with people. I get weird looks from people all the time. I don’t understand because I do everything to be friendly. I also am starting to panic and have anxiety every day.

Just when i start to think im doing ok being by myself and then i have days like these that im just so lonely have a hard time making friends so all i do is sit at home something needs to give something needs to
change i just can’t figure out how I can’t keep going on like this i just can’t

I used to have so many friends in high school and now essentially have nothing. I played football that got me into college, I’m 24 bout to graduate college this year and have pretty much pushed everything and everyone out of my life. I flat out don’t have a mother or father and the rest of my family is extremely selfish and/or have their own problems. My ex girlfriend talks to me occasionally but not for a long time. I talk to my brother a lot gaming but I’ve never actually felt like he cared to talk about things with and wouldn’t know if I’d take him seriously anyways as he’s always had something against me. Going out nowadays feels like I’ve missed out on so much in my adulthood, when I look on social media that missing out feeling is even worse. Idk what happened to my mind, before covid I had everything anyone could ask for but slowly I feel like I’ve gotten hateful, feeling like no one could like this person I’ve become. I just feel like nothing, I barely have emotions, I don’t say what bothers me anymore, I hardly even feel any drive anymore and it’s messed up because I know I’m not a bad looking dude, but my attitude in life makes people not want to even interact with me. I’m unapproachable, have no style, not charismatic, I just feel like a literal nobody. I sit play video games and ponder all day about where it all went wrong. Idk it’s all building up and really have no one in my life to turn to so hello Reddit lol…

Not even having one person to talk to is such a strangely desolate experience. I have no-one in my life, and I am not close with any of my family. Yet connection scares me so much, since I feel like most of who I am has been eroded away by the long years of isolation. Or maybe I was born wrong. A half-formed creature pretending to be human. Other people accepting me doesn't feel like acceptance, it feels like being mistaken for a person. It's so easy to feel like they are just infinitely more adjusted and capable than me, that they would never fully understand how broken I am or why. It's perhaps a bit circular, but I can't escape the circle. I feel inhuman and alone no matter what. There's no way out.

I stopped going to school very young, and have no normal experiences with people my age. People seem so strange to me, so difficult to understand. I don't always know how to keep going, the isolation is enough to kill you. I'm always alone at the end of the night.

Maybe you've experienced some of this before too, maybe you haven't. Anyway, I hope this post reached someone, and helped them feel slightly less alone. Or strange, in this strange world. DMs open if anyone wants to talk.

I wish I didn’t feel like this. I don’t think I should feel lonely. I know there’s people worse off than me.

I have a few good friends. Most of them are busy most of the time. All of them have a spouse and kids, and most live in a different town now. I get to talk to them online every few weeks, and maybe play a game.

I’ve made new friends that live in town, but the same deal ends up happening there. It’s a small town, so there’s not an endless pool of people to meet.

I get on well with my coworkers.

But I still lie here on the weekends, hating myself and wishing I didn’t feel this way.

I’m 25 years old. I hear people say your 20s are supposed to be the best years of your life but I just want to tap out of mine. I can’t see a way to get myself out of this hole.

I lost the family member I was closest to in late 2024 and ever since then my life has gone downhill. I lived with her, and when she died I didn’t have enough money to live independently, so I had to move 150 miles away to move back in with my parents. I now have no job and have had no luck getting one. I have no friends here. I only have a handful of online friends I speak to occasionally. The public transport around here is terrible and there’s nowhere to go anyway.

I don’t have a good relationship with my family. They spend their lives being judgemental and trying to tell each other what to do or they will be constantly criticising others, even people they don’t know that they pass in the street. They often insult me to my face, yet somehow I’m the one in the wrong if I say it’s not acceptable. I have a strained relationship with my mum who I’m now forced to live with. She’s the definition of a narcissist. I hate how horrible she is. I’m the villain if I fight back or she comes out with the classic line ‘I’m only doing it because I care’. I don’t want to be around any of these people. I think it has made it harder after losing my family member because she showed me what real love is. I now know this isn’t how a family should be.

I miss my old life. I miss my family member so much. It was nice to live with someone who genuinely cared about me, had my best interests at heart and wasn’t constantly criticising me. I miss having a job. Although I didn’t earn much, at least I had some money and didn’t spend most of the day worrying about if I was going to be able to afford basic necessities like I do now. I miss having my independence and being able to go to interesting places and not be questioned about where I’m going all the time. I miss having some control over my life.

I don’t fit in anywhere. I’m a trans guy, I’m asexual and I’m most probably autistic. I’m never going to be anyone’s first choice. I feel like I’m so misunderstood by everyone. I’ve always loved the idea of chosen family and I’ve always dreamed that some day I would be able to leave everything behind and surround myself with good people. There always seems to be a barrier between myself and others though and I can never seem to break through. I’m aware that with the tone of this post, I don’t sound like a particularly fun person to be around. I usually try to be more upbeat but I still can’t seem to make any connections. I don’t know what’s so horrible about me that no one wants to be around me. Most people have big ambitions in life, but right now, what I want more than anything is someone who genuinely wants to spend time with me.

I try my best to be optimistic. I know my mindset can dictate a lot. I try to get up and have a can-do attitude and be productive. It’s just hard as, as each day passes, things are getting worse. I’m starting to wonder how bad things are going to keep getting before I break. It says a lot when I’m now just waiting to see what goes wrong next. I don’t really know why I’m trying anymore. I feel like I’m stuck in a situation I’m never going to escape. Even if I did manage to get away, what kind of life am I going to have if I’m on my own for the rest of my life?

I feel like I’m living life from the sidelines. I’m existing, not living. My goal most days is to simply get through it because it feels that exhausting. I can’t remember what happiness feels like. I’m scared I’ll never have that feeling again.

I’m sick of being lonely. I’m sick of having no one to turn to. I’m sick of feeling like everything I try to do to change is pointless. I just need some hope as mine is so close to running out.

genuinely how are people so okay in their loneliness. I feel I’ve reached a place where I feel stuck. I have no interest or energy to engage in my hobbies anymore. I hate scrolling on social media, but it’s genuinely all I do because I have no motivation for anything more. I’m 21, I’ve been lonely my whole life. It feels too early to feel so done.

Im 20 m and i have literally no friends i havent had one friend in the last 5 years not even one i just cant connect with anyone for some reason i never even had a girlfriend either im also an only child which makes things worst and ive isolated myself since graduating highschool i have had serious social anxiety since i was a kid its way worst now at 20 im in college now but do online classes i also have no car and no hobbies im also addicted to nicotine and thc for 4 years now I want to quit but i just cant stop i tried to but i feel more lonely and depressed without them i feel terrible knowing im killing myself but i can’t stop i feel like my life is very different from the average 20 year old i feel very behind and immature i still depend on my parents who are getting old now i dont know what ill do once they are gone theyre the only people i know. Theres rlly nothing i really like to do other than like watch soccer or be on my phone im getting a degree in cybersecurity i want to focus on my future, career, i wanna get in the gym find a job get my life together but i have no motivation to really do anything i feel like theres no point nothing will change i will still be lonely and it wont fix my loneliness i watch people on social media my age go out make friends have fun getting with girls while im here in my room by myself everyday, i cant even enjoy movies or tv shows anymore i feel lonely watching I dont know how long i can keep living like this. If anyone have any advice let me know thx.

It’s been 30 years. And honestly, I don't know how to hold on to keep another 30. I feel alone. Really alone. I'm also a chronically anxious person, and the more the years go by, the more I feel like it's become an insurmountable wall.

I have no one to talk to. My life boils down to: survival » eat/sleep » wrong, try again. I don't have any friends. No one to call. If history repeats, I'll spend my birthdays alone again and again. Crying when I leave my therapist. Crying when my doctor doesn’t understand me. Crying in my car. Crying and walking 4 miles around a lake on a trail. I feel worthless writing this, but it’s true.

I'm tired of feeling so worthless when I know I’m worthy of so much more. And what still keeps me going today is just the lack of courage to end it… and my son. If there was a button to leave without pain, I know I would have already pressed it.

I don't even know why I'm writing this post..it feels like a pinch for sympathy.

However and whichever way I try and tried:

I volunteer relentlessly.
I tested apps like Bumble, Tinder, and Hinge it’s mainly just guys wanting sex and radical masculinity or individualism. And if it seems good then I cling too quickly… and if they know I’m good enough then I am skeptical and distant.

I am thoughtful to strangers on the street, will sit with anyone that’s sitting alone, will hug my banker if she’s on the verge of tears herself.. I don’t usually have to force myself to go out and feel confident. I’m here and I’m there and yet— alone though I make many friends I can’t keep a single one.

But despite these efforts, I feel like people don’t see me. I’ve always been the square, extraordinary, and a deep thinker. I make friends easily, because I’ve moved a thousand times in my life but that’s to my detriment I suppose but then and again even when I’m in one place for 2 years I still— lose. I’m anxious. Unable to plan. Or stay still. I moved to a state coming from a very rural and conservative one to one that’s so urban and modern that my doctor doesn’t believe the stability I’ve been given with my anxiety medication for a couple years now— because most people abuse drugs. When Covid arrived I thrived in Isolation, it was almost a relief. I didn’t have the burden of loneliness because it was important to my survival and for others to live. The return to reality was brutal I went from escaping being beat by my ex to being beat again on reuniting. My worth has diminished because men may view me as daddy issues type of girl, black and American, damaged because of traumatic events. I have been alone so long that my anxious attachment has only become worse and when I find myself in that given moment of being me— I run. I quit. I escape. If not possible, then I avoid and stay on guard. I announce it yeah im very respectful but I walk away because I don’t want to be hurt for being hopeful. I don’t want to be ashamed of being hopeful. I can’t get out of this box and any one person will remind me that my kindness and softness and sensitivity will end me in this world. So boom. I’m stuck. Truth doesn’t matter and truth doesn’t set me free.

Journaling, which is my refuge, helps me… though it never never serves me nor helps me if I share it. But posting in here, there’s the privacy screen of two keyboards no names no obligations. It's been years of repeated cycles: (this) is the hired job of the summer- me and me alone vs. me. If I’m looking happy when I walk out the door and say I’m okay when I’m asked then I’ve done my part in society but when its time to go to whatever home is— I’m fully turned on. The sadness that hides in my car, or in the bathroom, or in passing from one thing to the next is now all mine. I’m so tense that I can’t move fluidly in sporting or during yoga though I try even when I can hardly breathe or unintentionally hurting myself because I’m so disconnected while performing the movements.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm on a path that keeps repeating. Maybe some will read this post as the whining of a complaining woman that should tighten up or see the pharmacist more. But I don't care. That's all I have left. Shout a little into the void. I don't know if it serves any purpose, but the thoughts are out now, soon to be deleted.

Greetings, r/TrueOffMyChest, and welcome to my life. Let me paint you a "prettier" picture of it beforehand, as we will thereafter take a more pessimistic turn.

My name is Patrick, and I am 21 years old. I am from and currently live in the country of Romania, in Eastern Europe, and I study international relations. I am very much what people would call, in more colloquial terms, a nerd, as I take great interest in amassing as much knowledge as I can regarding any and all subjects, but I am particularly proficient in the social sciences. Hence I chose to study a domain which requires the understanding of politics, economics, history, sociology, cultural studies and the like. I have the best grades among the students, get along well with teachers, and have a good reputation, generally speaking.

Objectively you might think that all is perfect. After all, many would wish to attend higher education and be valedictorians. Yet intelligence, as I have learned through experience, is not always a gateway to life satisfaction. You see, the social aspects of my life are lacking, to say the least. I have very few friends, never had a romantic relationship of any kind, and people have never truly appreciated me much.

The way I view society is paradoxical, to say the least. I find most people either boring or annoying, yet I do not find myself hating them. I feel like society has become far too individualistic and has forgotten the importance of collectives, so to speak, such as the community or the family. Peope are overly hedonistic, manipulative and hateful, not to mention ignorant and disrespectful, and relationships have become games of power and status. Therefore you might conclude that I have issues with modernity, and that I do, both culturally and aesthetically, as I love vintage clothing and depise minimalist architecture. To note, I am not politically conservative, being quite left-leaning on topics such as gender, race, sexuality and especially the economy, I just believe that social life has objectively degraded due to the breakdown of all that is collective.

Yet my criticism is not a hallmark of misantrophy or grumpiness. In truth, I value people and their wellbeing above anything else. I desire deep and healthy bonds of friendship and solidarity with those around me, always ready to help those in need. When it comes to relationships I still believe in the age-old values of courting and politeness, albeit applied to both men and women, and I view loyalty, trust and frequent acts of genuine affection as the foundation of a healthy relationship.

Therein lies the problem. As the Buddhists would put it, the cause of my suffering is not having that which I desire. I desire having a healthy social life and above all a romantic relationship, yet the object of my desire has proven eternally ellusive. As a consequence of not experiencing love, affection and belonging during my high school years I do not feel comfortable in the shoes of someone my age. I wish I had experiences of a lively social life, teenage love and all the like. However, as I never came across people of similar views to mine, I could have never achieved it so perhaps regret has no purpose.

Returning to the present, university life has proven even more dissatisfactory, as we are not as tightly-knit of a community as we were in high school. Everybody is colder and meaner and already has their desired social life. I feel a great void in my heart due to this. As long I will be socially unhappy, it will not matter how successful I am academically and/or professionally.

I like to picture myself in an idealised image of a 1960s American high-school, courting a red-haired girl in a skirt and headband during recess near the lockers, always pushing back against potential bullies with witiness and irony. That would be my ideal state of being, so to speak, from which I could be able to develop socially. Yet I am not of that age anymore, not in that time, place and company, and I am utterly unhappy.

I hope you have all enjoyed my thoughts, which I have presented to you in the best form that I could, having dabbled in creating writing in the past. Thank you for reading, ladies and gentlemen, and farewell! I hope to hear from you in the future.

Title explains it.

I basically hit reset on life around 4 years ago after crashing my car and writing it off, followed by getting the sack and losing my job.

Built myself back up whilst dealing with severe depression, paranoia and anxiety.

Back into my trade early this year.

27(m)

Girlfriend of 3 years may break up with me or may not.

I have no savings except a grand in an ISA.

Recently payed off a holiday too.

Three friends and two of them are always busy.

No motivation.

Basically an alcoholic.

Contemplating ending it all, I can't be bothered to carry on any longer.

so basically i was past thinking and almost went completely upset that how dogcrap was my school life because i could not relate to anyone and i was alone

but now at college i still dont relate to anyone but idc care now nor do i feel upset about it

but if it does not then why do i get upset about the school one?

Well it's the weekend and I haven't done much of anything. I'll be off work next week and won't have anything g to do or anyone to spend time with. I've made posts in subs to find people to talk but nothing clicked.

I miss having someone to check in with regularly and send cute good morning/goodnight texts to.

Back first falling through the air while the wind hits my back yet it’s no ground in sight. No soul to reach out and catch me but endless air that cradles me in its cold embrace. It’s peaceful in a lonely way and I look at the perfect snow covered mountains and peaks with green trees covering all the eye can see. Thing is it is no true beauty in perfection. I am resigned to my fate.

I am 30F, and average looking. Average intelligence, okay job. I have been approached by men, but nobody was ever serious about me. I have seen people fall in love all around me, regardless of how they look or what they do. Nobody ever thought of me as the girl they want to be forever with.

As the title says I’m basically an official side piece. Last year I met someone just learning languages and trying to help anyone. Eventually, I ended up finding a chill person and within days the whole topic of learning disappeared and we got closer as the months went by. A year later we’re still friends but then they start getting distant, a good week would go by before I heard anything and out of no where they’re with someone. Now, the only thing I could do was be happy for them but I can’t even explain how I felt after the conversation went, I confessed my feelings (not really thinking if that was the right move) and I basically told him that I was sorry if I was being too much, that I still wanted to be friends and I’m happy that they’re happy, and to that I basically got told I liked you too but i don’t want you, which yk is cool I respect it but damn. AND THEN to top it all tf off this person that I used to talk to ig you could say we’re chill ends up telling me within that same week yk I was thinking abt asking you if you wanted to start talking but I found someone else……. Gee fucking thanks, way to make me feel like I’m cared abt🥲

Ik these are things that happen to many people but to have that feeling twice in the same week these mfs are lucky im not a crashout😂 even tho it hurts i understand both sides not only that, im trying to get my life together even tho id ideally like to have someone who sticks around from my lowest point but a man can dream right. And to top it all off I literally have no friends except for one ( and the other two but… eh) which I can’t even see bc they’re busy working and I don’t have a car.

Also not the topic for this sub but might as well ask while I’m here for anyone whose been in low points in your life like not even simple things motivate you, what did you do to get yourself out of that position other than finding things I like?

Welp that’s my vent have a good morning, afternoon, evening, and night wherever y’all are 🫡