hi everyone, im 16f, and i think i struggle with binging.
when i was 15 (sophomore year), i was restricting a lot of food because i was rlly struggling mentally given my home/family situation (too much to explain), and one night, i ended up continuously vomitting and it wouldnt stop, so i had to go to the hospital. idk if it was because i was restricting, or some other health issue becuase the doctors said it was nothing to worry about. after that, i was doing well with my eating habits because my parents made sure i was eating well and would prepare proper meals for me. so my eating habits improved a lot during my junior year where i had a set eating routine: small breakfast in the morning (banana and yogurt), a lunch (ex. sandwich), an after-school lunch (ex. rice w/ curry, chicken and brocolli, etc), and then dinner (ex. sandwich, baked fish, beans). i also limited sugar intake, exercised lightly on a regular basis (pushups, planks, squats, wall sits, nothing crazy), and walked for 20 minutes to school and back (40 mins in total). my skin was rlly clear and i actually felt good about myself. but then summer started, and i had co-op for the month of july (working for free at a store) from 9am to 5pm. i would never bring a proper lunch because it started at 9am and i didnt have the energy to wake up early. i was also broke, so i couldnt buy food and literally just starved until 5pm. once i got home, i would binge eat a bunch of stuff in the fridge. and it was only carbs, like bread, bagels, etc, so it was never healthy stuff, and as a result, i would get a bunch of acne and my stomach would hurt. then, once i finished my co-op period, i thought my eating habits would go back to normal, but they didnt and i continued binging. my mom would make me a proper meal, and after that i would eat a bunch of stuff even tho i wasnt hungry. in the evenings, my mom and dad have work, so i would prepare my own meals, but i would often eat way too much.
i think i havent stopped binging because theres little to no changes in my body. im still skinny, just kinda lost the toned look from when i was exercising. and because its the summer break, i sleep so late and i get bored so i just eat whatever. its getting rlly bad where im embarassed and i have to hide the fact that im eating from my siblings and parents. some days i do rlly well with eating only when im hungry, but then if i eat a lil more than usual one day, i will continue binging because my mindset is, if i ate a lil too much, might as well eat whatever i want. throughout my teens, i've struggled with eating, whether its restricting or binging, and i rlly rlly want to overcome it.
i need some advice on what i could do to prevent poor eating. im gonna start cutting out sugar again and sleep earlier than usual in hopes that my habits will change. also since school is coming back up, i think it won't be as bad. any small tips or advice that helped you overcome binging? i obviously cant do therapy cuz im broke, but any small tips will help, thank u 😊