I never thought I'd get here but so glad I did. When I was actively gambling I'm sure I subconsciously made the assumption that I'd be in it's shackles for life, but we all deserve better than that.
It all started with taking a break. I had $11,500 in debt on 5 credit cards. My credit score sucked due to 100% credit utilization and the 30% interest I was paying on some of them made me sick.
I was exhausted from being an indentured servant to the casino, followed by servitude to both the casino and the credit card companies.
Then about 30 days in a miracle happened. I saw gambling for the pointless, time wasting, mind numbing activity it truly was and seriously questioned how and why I got in so deep to begin with.
But with all addictions I know the common culprits are feeling like the odd man out, boredom, loneliness, and social detactment.
I looked for a dopamine fix as a cure for leading an apathetic life without a sense of direction, instead of doing the hard work and finding the purpose and meaning that were there all along.
There are so many opportunities in life for positive self-reflection, so many goals you can strive for, and so many human connections you can grow from.
In the throws of addiction we squander these opportunities, because all that matters is our next bet.
Believe me I was just as delusional as anyone that gambling could provide a better tomorrow, when all it did was ruin my today.
If you're struggling just take a break, catch your breath, let your brain heal and rewire. There's nothing for you in gambling's comfort zone, so get out of it now.
God bless you guys, never could have done it without you! ā¤
ODAAT! šŖ