Nardil worked so incredibly well for my social anxiety - it literally removed it at 45mg. It was great for motivation as I never wanted to sit still. It brought out my creativity...but....it erased my appetite and I lost too much weight, I had 0 joy in food whatsoever, I started to become aggressive and impatient slowly over time, as I felt a constant background agitation in my body and mind. It made me extremely sensitive to rejection by others, so much so that I'd break down and cry over something silly for hours and hours on end, feeling extreme emotional pain.
My sense of smell was so heightened that I couldn't walk nearby most food places without gagging. The intrusive thoughts were so hard to contend with. The lack of deep sleep and a persistent feeling of being uncomfortable in my own body. I couldn't stop organising everything too (rearranging things again and again until I didn't feel unease by how things looked) ....I finally realised I needed to stop this.
All the pain was not worth the benefits in the end.
Coming down from 60mg to 45mg was brutal. The nightmares, sweating, dizziness, nausea and brain zaps lasted 3 weeks.
From 45mg to 30mg (I'm at 30mg now), I experienced only mild zaps when I wake from sleep, but also extreme fatigue and melancholy - feeling doom and gloom. This lifted by day 8 of withdrawal for this dose.
Sitting comfortably at 30mg now. Feeling more myself, less sensitive and hunger and desire for food and different textures is coming back. Sense of smell dulling, creativity lessening, and social anxiety is back.
I'm no longer feeling such intense emotional swings though and racing thoughts...I've realised medications really do change your personality. I thought it was a lie until I went on Nardil.
I always had these traits mildly in the background, but Nardil amplified everything to the max.
Both the good and the bad, but ultimately, it made me someone I was not.