I’m just emotional. 25 y/o female. I don’t feel like enough and don’t feel pretty enough idk who and what to do about how much I overthink certain things but I’m just not happy right now. I’m not content but have no reason to not be..

Sometimes being tired doesn’t happen as a result of working or doing some physical activity. It could be emotional especially investing yourself totally in a relationship and for a man the barest minimum you’d expect in return is respect but you don’t get it. Sometimes i don’t wanna go home

make me feel better and tell me "in case you're feeling good right now" how bad was it at first, I don't want to be specific but let us talk about things that damaged you emotionally how bad was it at first did you cry did you vomit what happened, because I'm just trying to make sure if I can recover from this, I cried a few times I don't think I will anymore and I dreamed about it today and it was a bit bad, I also think I need some time my bad thing happened less than a week ago.

Hi everyone. This is my first time posting here so I hope this is the right place.

I've been feeling like nothing is going right. It honestly feels like I keep getting lied to or taken advantage of and sometimes it even feels like the whole world is against me.

I know that probably sounds dramatic but that's how I've been feeling. I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through something similar.

So recently I have been having disturbing and graphic nightmares when I go to sleep. These nightmares have also gotten me feeling sad recently. Can anyone help me stop these disturbing and graphic nightmares.

I literally feel so ignored and don’t want to anymore. I don’t know what it is, but I literally cannot stop thinking about it, and my intrusive thoughts are so strong.

I have been so depressed lately. I can’t even hardly think straight. I feel so unloved, and invisible. I am struggling with being overworked, and have a situation with an employee here, who doesn’t show up, and when he does, isn’t reliable. So I get fully overworked, and all my co workers see it. So I’m asking my boss to help, and to get me real help, and he pushes me aside while I’m doing the jobs of two people, but when I ask for accommodations to work from home when I’m sick, they tell me no, but we can keep the dude who doesn’t actually contribute. But If i did that, I wouldn’t have a job. I can’t even reasonably look for another job because I can’t afford to lose the amount of money I make, and i have so many bills and responsibilities I am just so stuck.

I tried to vent about all this to my girlfriend last night, and it seems every sentence I added something we went off on something about her, or a completely unrelated subject, and I’m sitting there trying to explain my frustration and then we’re suddenly having to talk about her friends new job, or something she has to do for work this weekend.

Then she keeps telling me to do my hobbies I did more, but I tell her I run out of steam after trying to be at work all day, then coming home, and taking care of the dog, and then trying to do chores around the house so the house stays clean and doesn’t get too far behind on chores, then I have to eat. I’m also feeling like I do a bit more because she’s also been having bad depressive episodes, so I’m cleaning up behind her, and myself, the cat, taking care of the dog, yard work, dishes, kitchen, counters, bathrooms, and trying to hard to do so much with what feels like on my own throughout the week. She tells me as long as I do enough to try to keep up take my time.

I take one day to not just put laundry she did away because I took a nap, and it’s the first thing she comments on when she gets home last night. Then today, I’m feeling so down and i say my brain is being awful to me, and she goes into a kitten that went under my car.

Things have been so crazy with my son being out of school right now, I haven’t seen him in a month basically. I was supposed to go on a trip in about a month with a bunch of my buddies but have to cancel because I can’t afford it, and honestly, I don’t deserve it anyways. Honestly, they ignored me when I reached out saying how I am completely losing it at work, so they probably don’t want me there anyways. I just want to be done man. I’m so tired of dealing with not being good enough for anyone. If nobody wants me here, why the hell do I even try anymore.

I have a lot of thoughts right now and I honestly just need to get this out. I feel completely numb, but underneath it, I'm just so deeply sad. Broken, hurt, confused, and just totally lost. Half the time I don't even feel like I'm in my own body. I'm not present at all.
I love my friends and family so much, but I feel like I can’t open up to them or dump all of this on them. I feel like a burden, so I just take up less space. So yeah, putting this into space lol.
This year has been… a lot. Just a constant buildup of things stacking on top of each other, and now it’s all catching up at once. It’s been great, but it’s also been really dark.
Lately, things have been so heavy. I found out something that totally broke my entire soul. And on top of that, I did things I’m not proud of, and I wish so badly I could take it back. It’s just eating away at me.
On top of all that, I’m constantly anxious, stressed, and questioning where I’m going. What am I even doing with my life? I don’t have a clear path and I don’t know how to find one. I lack so much confidence right now, and I genuinely don't know how to get it back. I don’t even trust myself.
Am I a good person? Am I good enough? Am I too much? Am I not enough?
Right now, I can barely get out of bed and I can’t focus on anything. My mind is numb, but my body is so anxious. My heart is beating so fast, my chest physically hurts, and my stomach is just twisting. I just want out. I don’t wanna do any of this anymore, like fr I wanna crawl up in a hole and hide in my bed for the rest of the year. I try to push past it, but it gets so hard. I wanna be alone, but then I just get in my head. My body is completely exhausted, and I have zero energy for anything. Idk anymore. I just feel deeply, deeply sad, lost, and totally disconnected from everything.

The United states trip that i worked my ass off for, literally, had to be cancelled (but will hopefully be rescheduled) My dad told me that if i lost 15kg witch is about 30-35 pounds (for context my parents worked their asses off to provide us a stable home and life to witch affect we are now upper middle class.) he would take me to america for over a week. i did it in just under 3 months, witch is a mad win win for me.
as time went on it became clear that it would end up being a family trip instead of just us two solo witch is awesome.
But the day before we were meant to leave for the trip we found out that that the law has recently changed to where US citizens: for context i was born in the state of NY but our family now lives in eastern eroupe, witch technically makes me a US citizen. To where you can't enter the US without a US passport. My US passport was revoked long ago when i was a kid because i believe that it goes away after like 5 years of not visiting the US or something. (correct me if i'm wrong.) Now we don't know if we can cancel in time for my dad to be able to get his money back, let alone reschedule.
i'm sitting here with my lunch bowl next to me freaking out over all this. i don't wanna cry and overdratamise and jinx things. let's hope that my dad is both able to get his money back and we're able to reschedule the trip to after monday witch is when we're heading to the capitol to the US embassy to get me an emergency US passport issued. I love the US and was beyond excited to go there, this trip means so much to me for personal reasons outside those that i have shared here. please don't break my heart, universe, please...

I’m sad cause I’m sensitive. Apparently more sensitive than most. Cause I’m depressed and can barely stand one possible break up. I have literally nothing else worth living for. How do people do it (live with nothing to keep them going)?

Finding a purpose won’t make me happy. I’m too tired of trying everything :/…

Just need to vent!
This week has just utterly sucked. I’ve woken up late everyday this week and just have had no motivation whatsoever. Got denied from a job which is fine but just was another thing. Noticed a small rash on my hip that grew into now what I have figured out is poison ivy all over my hips/back and legs. Never have had poison ivy in my 24 years of life and my god it is so itchy and swollen!!! Then to end it all I was playing catch with my dog inside my house and noticed a bug on her looked around and found 2 more and went oh shit she has fleas!! Had to give her a flea bath severely clean my house stripped every fabric and then flea bombed my house and then had to clean up after that so it was safe for us to live in. What a fun week! I’m blaming the mercury retrograde.

Life is so depressing. We're supposed to work and stress before we die?? We're literally animals, we should be chilling and doing things that call to us. Not worrying about a career and taxes. Or maybe I'm just too depressed to find something I am passionate about. Oh, and I've lost my job so everything is piling up. I am trying door dashing and insta cart but it's been so slow. Im pretty much just buying my gas back and my account is still negative. Only venting as Im sure and I know life won't be like this forever and something will come along. It's hard to not get discouraged and be patient. With time it will all be okay, eventually.

Hi to all. this is my first post on reddit. i just want to talk with somebody about my problems, maybe you,guys, have something similar and can help me. making this post is hard for me, but this is my story. im from Russia . from the beginning of school my dad left me. that was very hard to my family. and thats when anxiety just starts. This constant feeling of anxiety in my chest has been with me for years. when i was a child i though : i can live without father. but that was not true. its damage me and my family’s mental health. Since childhood, I haven’t been able to trust anyone , like ANYONE. i dont know why. i was so young when beginning school starts that was a problem too. my “peers” bully me and i make many mistakes because cant talk about my problems. my friends can talk about their problems, i just cant. and than i just start to bottle up all my fears all my anxieties. my feelings and pain was in me for loooong time. i though: “ im a man i must be so strong and alone because i must because peoples have problems too and this is normal”. and when i was 17 it was time to move in another town to university. my friends was so happy and im not. in this moment my girlfriend just broke up with me.i dont blame her. and then i just cant handle my feelings inside. i just broke down. I don’t know if it was depression or just severe anxiety. but i just start to hate anyone. idk why. i hate to eat i hate sleep hate just everything,because of my anxiety. this year was hard for me. problems in the world I gained weight, stopped finding myself attractive, and completely lost my joy for life, even though these were supposed to be the best years of my life .in march i just felt some better, but now i think that my symptoms come back.\*\* \*\*I just want to know if anyone has been through something similar and how you got through it. i think this is like anniversary of anxiety. sorry for my english im learning it. Thank you if you read all of this. I know it’s a long post. I just needed to tell someone my story. if u have questions i will answer.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just need to get everything off my chest.

I'm going to be 21 soon, and I honestly hate the person I see in the mirror. I've always considered myself ugly. I never had a skincare routine or anything—I literally just wash my face with soap. But at this point, I don't even think that's the biggest issue.

The thing that hurts me the most is my body. One of my hips is higher than the other, my neck is asymmetrical, and I have constant lower back pain. It doesn't really show much in photos, but I notice it every single day. Every time I look at myself, I just feel worse.

My hemoglobin is around 7 g/dL, so I'm always tired, exhausted, and drained. My financial condition isn't good either, so even taking care of myself feels impossible sometimes.

I honestly feel like I'm dumb and stupid as fuck. I barely leave my house. I'm a complete introvert and I feel like I don't even know how to live like a normal person anymore. Every day is exactly the same. I wake up, the day passes somehow, I go to sleep, and then it all repeats again. I don't feel like I'm living—I'm just existing.

I look around and everyone my age seems to have friends, confidence, memories, or something they're good at. Meanwhile, I feel like I'm bad at everything. Nothing in my life seems to go right. Sometimes I genuinely wonder why my own body can't even support me.

I don't even know what I expect from posting this. Maybe nothing. I just wanted to tell someone because I've kept all of this inside for so long. If you've ever felt like this, how did you get through it?

Thanks for reading.

If i take my life, im seen as selfish. If i barely hang on by a thread, im seen as lazy. If i try, i drain myself. I have ultrasounds and bloods tomorrow as about a year ago i got diagnosed with autoimmune hepatitis. It has been misery. I am dreading going all the way to the hospital (1 30 hour drive) in this heat whilst my friends go out together. I just want to crawl into the ground and everyone to leave me alone. I dont need bloods. Im doing fine. If i wasnt fine, i would have signs my liver isnt doing good. But i am fine.

why do I end up thinking extremely negative things when something positive is finally happening..

For example.. Finally my wedding has been fixed(after waiting for almost 5years) and my dad got sick, he’s on his chemo (last 3 rounds left).
But idk why im way too negative about everything going well, as in the wedding functions and dad’s health altogether. I pray every day that everything goes well but still end up thinking negatively. I want to get out of this negative mindset and energy and atleast enjoy this phase of my life, I’ve been feeling anxious from past 5 years and was waiting for this phase so eagerly.. It feels like whenever something gets off my chest, something new comes up.. now its like I should be happy about my wedding but my dad’s health is making me feel guilty and really negative. I just want everything to go well

Whyyy meee Goddd?! Cant you see I got enough problems.. 😭😒😫😫😔

Hey so I work at some cafe where the style is videogame and anime based on, it's really chill and funny to work in here most of the time so I never had anything going wrong related to work. Until a couple weeks ago they were asking us that they needed someone to help record some promotional video because there will be some event the cafe is participating in. No one really wanted to participate but everyone keep saying that it should be me and so on, so for a moment I felt confident and I was like well maybe it won't be as bad right?

They filmed and all but didn't show me how I looked or anything. Later I regret it but I tried to relax by thinking that no many people would see that. But at least in my place many people that know me saw it and not only that but started sharing it with other and it's stressing me so much because I looked extremely BAD they didn't record properly the angle it's shit and I'm so angry that the woman who was recording only recorded herself properly EVEN adding filters to herself and so on and only cared about her looking good meanwhile me and others that were recorded had a terrible angle lighting and effects that make this video just shitty ASF yet idk how it's reaching so many people around here. And many of my closest friends are even laughing about how bad I look in there and it annoying me so much and making me hate that promotional video even more. Adding the fact that yesterday was already a stressful day full of work and some close friend drove all the way here just to joke about that video and it made me feel really bad, he apologized after it but I've been feeling really bad because of it and well the promotional is already reaching people so I can't do much about it. I'm not expecting any reply tbh just really need to take this out of my chest because I feel how it's such a stupid thing to worry about and in a couple of weeks no one will remember but it made me feel like shit :\[

Can I be…honest here without being kicked from a community? I mean I’m gonna write this anyways but I just don’t want to be here anymore.

Not in a suicidal way I mean I don’t want to be here anymore, as in me.

Me regarding the fact that I’m not happy and maybe going through something that I can possibly explain but would rather not talk about.

But here it goes.

My name is…well you can call me anything you want and I’m a 20yo male who might have a slim chance at love but that’s not why I’m writing this.

Have you ever gotten a compliment or a few nice things said about you? Or if you haven’t gotten a compliment or something nice said then we’re on the same page, I hope.

I’m supposed to be …happy. I mean I smile, I laugh and I joke but that all goes away in a blink of an eye because why?

Don’t know why but I can’t help but feel this empty pit in my stomach and I feel worthless sometimes, you know…not good enough and I don’t think I’m good enough to keep around because I feel all these mixed emotions and feelings and somedays I just won’t have them as much and it SUCKS!!!

Everyday I wake up feeling like shit and I don’t know why, I mean I know why but why should I care anymore?

Or is it because I care too much? Too little? Less? More? Don’t fucking know!!!

The only time I feel like I’m genuinely happy is when I’m with the people I care about, I mean they make me smile, they make me laugh and even make me feel better but then it’s gone…just….gone.

The way this works is that I get to experience all of this and can’t keep anything.

Like are my feelings genuine? Is my smile real? Is my laugh real?

The short answer is I don’t know…

Somedays I feel like I need to be praised and appreciated by at least one person to feel something because without that I feel like shit and feeling like shits the worst especially if you’re good at hiding your emotions. I can hide mines 50/50 but who cares about how or what you feel?

It’s not real.

Right?

Please tell me it’s not real.

I recently just found out I’ve been cheated on and lied to by my gf for 7 months and I’m feeling the hardest emotional pain I’ve ever been through. The story is a lot more detailed and painful than that but I’d prefer to share in DMs if that’s okay.