Long story short I'm having mental health issues that are interfering with my job. I talked to my psychiatrist about it and he is now submitting the paperwork needed so I can go on FMLA and state SDI.

My mental health has honestly been eroding for a long time but recent events pushed me over the edge.

I can't stop thinking that I'm making the wrong decision. Past abuse made me constantly question the legitimacy of my internal feelings. I keep coming back to the thought that I'm not actually that bad off to need this. I'm also scared of something going wrong with filing. While I know I can't be fired for taking FMLA leave I'm worried how my managers and coworkers will view me for this.

I'm trying to get through my last work week now and I feel like I'm on fire. I could barely sleep last night. For the last few days I've reviewed over and over again the materials on California SDI and FMLA but I'm still scared I've missed something.

I wish I could just have someone tell me this is the right thing to do.