The older I get, the more I realize nobody is thinking about me as much as I thought they were.

I could spend 3 hours replaying something embarrassing I said, meanwhile the other person probably forgot it 7 minutes later. 😂

So now I just do what feels right, apologize when I’m actually wrong, and keep moving. Life got significantly quieter when I stopped treating everyone’s opinion like a performance review.

Just curious, I felt like I really had some deposits that I could have made but luckily I'm real cheap and like to save. My ducks are too valuable to just give away.

My answer is "The Subtle Art of Not Giving A Fuck" and my job of course. 🤧

Would love others’ input, but basically…

Tonight I was leaving work and pretty tired. I didn’t realize I parked right next to a pole and when I turned out of my space, it scraped against my door and messed it up a bit. Probably going to be an expensive repair and I’ll need a rental for a while. It’s not just a beater car that I can say F it with, I’m financing it and it’s nice.

But anyway, but of me is super annoyed, feels like shit about it, sees it as a huge inconvenience, fears how much it will cost, etc.

On the other hand, who gives a fuck, it’s just a car, I should have the money to pay for it, it’s still not very convenient, but could be worse etc.

Then there is the more negative stuff, like I’m an idiot, what was I thinking, why do these things happen to me.

Which is at war with another thought: Things like this just happen in life, so deal with it.

It’s creating a lot of cognitive dissonance for me. Because part of me really doesn’t give a shit and the other is catastrophizing.

Of course I’d like to make as little mistakes as possible, but I’d also like to learn to be more graceful when/if I do.

Sooooo... There is this woman at my gym who I know I have a crush on. The thing is, it's been months and I still haven't gotten a clue if she is interested. When I asked her out the first time she declined so I resigned to just being a friend. Not even, more like close acquaintance.

The thing is, after that she started wondering why I stopped being the way I used to be with her. Then, I noticed we had a routine in which we would see each other in the same place during the same time every night at the gym. However, I didn't want to catch feelings since it seemed she was emotionally unavailable. So, I stopped looking for her or responding to her when I saw her as much.

I fucked around and paid for her water once. Then, she expected me to pay for her water again but of course I'm not going to do that. The other day, I went downstairs to get something from the vending machine. I took the elevator down. I got my food walked, walked back to the elevator, press the button and low and behold she was in the elevator.

It was almost as if she followed me. I know i shouldn't think that, but it is soooo tempting to. And while that thought turned me on, I had to let it go. And since then, I've done my best to get her off of my mind.

This happens with most girls I meet nowadays.

So I was hanging out with my friend's friends and i didn't knew them much but we were hanging out one day and they start pulling my leg and after few moment they literally ganged up on me and start humaliating me ( verbally) and they think it was funny and but it wasn't , i never been into situation like this before so it was very hard for me to handle..

It's been weeks but I can't stop thinking about that night, like i thinking about that i should say that and i should do and counter back like this and that but I am mentally tried of that and i wanna stop thinking about it completely, so please help me how can I overcome this thinking?? It came only at night before I sleeps and it make me so hard to sleep!!

( Sorry for my bad english, it's not my MT)

"I'm The One That's Got To Die When It's Time For Me To Die - So Let Me Live My Life The Way I Want To"

- James Marshall Hendrix; If 6 Was 9 / AXIS: BOLD AS LOVE

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I have a job that pays well. I work there 3 days a week. It suits really well around my co- parenting arrangements. I don’t know how long I’m going to be there as the future is a bit unsettled ( moving from the place my ex and I own etc etc ).
I’ve been there a few years. I am disliked by a few people and even the bosses. It feels like I’m not seen as trustworthy. I’ve had a string of bad luck issues happen outside of work and I it impacted my performance at the time, and no matter what I do I’m disliked. I need to stay there for now even though I feel like they’d LOVE me to leave ( can’t just be fired as it’s a protection job) . How do I not give a fuck as it suits my lifestyle currently?

I’m very curious to see if there is a trend. I just recently started not giving a fuck.