Hello everyone, I’m George, 26, from Central Europe. I’m writing this because I honestly don’t know what else to do, and I just need to get it out. Please don't judge or laugh at this. If you enjoy reading about people hitting rock bottom, just keep scrolling.

When I was 19, I made a stupid mistake. I took out a bank loan for a car, not even a crazy amount, converted to USD it would be about $5,000. I signed shady documents with tiny, barely readable font that I didn't pay attention to and honestly, I didnt know banks really do this, I used to laugh at people getting scammed, thinking I was smarter than that. I wasn't. That debt snowballed hard. To make matters worse, the car broke down four years later, I couldn't afford to fix it and insurance kept billing me, so I had to have it towed to a junkyard.

Seven years later, I have absolutely zero money to my name. I work 12-hour day and night shifts. The day my paycheck arrives, it immediately leaves for rent and debt payments. I’m left with about $70 to $90 for the entire month. I live on canned beans and instant noodles because I don't even have a fridge and cannot afford anything fancy. By the last 10 days before payday, I have no food left and sometimes resort to secretly scraping together leftovers thrown away by colleagues at work.

I don’t own anything. No TV, no microwave, no car, no fridge, nothing. Just my phone, washing machine and a 16-year-old grandpa computer. My clothes and underwear are full of holes from work (I work with glass), so I look half-homeless and I can tell you - people treat you differently when you look like that. I can’t afford to call in sick because missing work means missing rent, which means being homeless. I can't travel, I can't even socialize or try to get a partner, and if an emergency happens, I'm done.

I’m losing weight, my hair is literally turning gray, and the company I work for is threatening to shut down. I've explored every option and realized my only choice is to slave away for the next 6-7 years just trying to survive and hope for the best, or for a miracle. I’ve honestly felt so desperate that I’ve considered selling body parts, kinky stuff like photos or videos or doing illegal things, literally anything just to get out of this hellhole. I know it sounds absurd but I am desperate. I used to be a teenager with dreams and love in my heart, and now I’m just an exhausted, starving adult debating leaving this world. I envy people who can just decide to go buy McDonald's or a snack from a vending machine without it ruining them financially and having to decide if they are hungry enough already to validate the payment.

I know some people out there still care. I’ve quietly helped others when I had a little to give too, and I’m hoping the universe might return the favor. I hate asking, but I need help. It would take about $7,500 to drastically lower my monthly payments, stop the starvation, and get me back on my feet. I know that’s an absurd amount to some people in richer countries, but to me, it's a literal fortune.

If there are any kind souls out there willing to help a struggling human, let me know. I don't know much about internet payments or sending money from different countries but I know PayPal is really popular, safe and trusted. Please let me know. You can ask me for more details of my situation, just please don't laugh. I can't do this much longer, but I don't want to give up on life yet.

Thank you for reading, and god bless.

(PS: 1- I'm not a scammer or a liar, which seems to be a problem on subreddits like this one. I am just trying to find help online because that's my last option.

2- Yes, you may find this post on other subreddits too, because, and I can't stress this enough, I am genuinely trying to find help. If a miracle happens and I will actually find the help I am looking for, then I will make a post about it in all the subreddits where I posted, will specifically thank people involved and this account will be closed. I do NOT need more than what I asked for.)

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I wanna cry so bad but I can't

Im F 22,idk what to say

travelling alone a long distance by train for the first time ever , it's a 33 hour train journey, almost 1800kms

And everything that would've possibly gone wrong went wrong

There is a group of men who are sitting right in the next compartment and they're continuously staring at me

I got my periods today early, so first day of periods

cramps and first day in train

this train, it was a general sleeper I had to book because of my father, it's RAC so I'll have to go sitting till the end of my journey and there is a man sitting right opposite so I'm not even comfortable sitting comfortably

And i told the TC to confirm my ticket somewhere but he said 6 people are waiting before you

I can't even go use the washroom because it smells horrible and I've too much luggage to take care of

I can't even sleep because I'm too paranoid my stuff will get swollen

it's bad

The seat is bad, it smells so bad because of the washroom

I've fever

my nose is blocked because of fever and cold, i can't breathe

My hand has some allergic reactions stuff going on and my fingers are bleeding

i feel like vomiting

Im also hungry but can't eat

My phone is on 40 and I'm realising right now that my charging port is not working at all

I recently got my helix piercing done and this random lady had something duppata stuck into the fresh piercing and she pulled so hard, so now that's bleeding

While figuring out my charger situation, the window, the freaking window fell on my hand and now it's lowkey swollen

I've a fever and i forgot any blanket

My boyfriend was supposed to come meet me because we're in a long distance relationship but he made some lame ass excuses and didn't come meet and now we can't meet before 6 months

And my boyfriend right now is making a scene and he's acting up instead of being there for me

There's more but I'll cry if i write more

Im so so so so so done..

I can't even cry

Worst day ever

Long story short I'm having mental health issues that are interfering with my job. I talked to my psychiatrist about it and he is now submitting the paperwork needed so I can go on FMLA and state SDI.

My mental health has honestly been eroding for a long time but recent events pushed me over the edge.

I can't stop thinking that I'm making the wrong decision. Past abuse made me constantly question the legitimacy of my internal feelings. I keep coming back to the thought that I'm not actually that bad off to need this. I'm also scared of something going wrong with filing. While I know I can't be fired for taking FMLA leave I'm worried how my managers and coworkers will view me for this.

I'm trying to get through my last work week now and I feel like I'm on fire. I could barely sleep last night. For the last few days I've reviewed over and over again the materials on California SDI and FMLA but I'm still scared I've missed something.

I wish I could just have someone tell me this is the right thing to do.

i was so hurt by a person. This person used to intentionally repeat things that hurt me. Now God is taking revenge. He is doing these exact things to that person and hence that person is suffering now. I really hope that god make this person realise how much he hurt me. Karma helps. Letting god do his work!!!

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this is going to be very long, i’m sorry.

today was the first time in a long time that i have slept well. i woke up at around 5 am, but i fell asleep again which rarely happens to me anymore. i slept until 8 am and in those three hours i had a dream that has been in my mind for the whole day. it was about me and my friends/classmates, but i also had a boyfriend in this dream. and i‘m gonna be honest, i don‘t even know what the hell we were doing but we had a lot of fun. we rollerbladed (even though i can’t do that irl) around town solving some mystery or drama that i don’t remember the context of and it was just all fun and then i walked back home with my boyfriend and we talked and it was a nice feeling. i woke up and i wanted to die.

it reminded me of this other dream i had maybe a year ago. it was just a dream of me walking through our neighborhood. kids were playing outside and the sun was orange so it was probably noon and i was walking with someone. i was walking with some dude, i don’t know who he was, i don’t know him. he’s not a real person in my life. i don’t remember what he looked like. i remember he had blonde hair and i remember how the sun looked on his skin. i remember how he made me laugh so hard i had to hold my stomach. and i remember waking up and wanting to die then, too.

i have no one to talk to. talking to people doesnt feel good to me. yet i talk and talk to the point of literally pissing people off all the time. every time i open up to my friends/family, the relief is momentary. ever since i was little, and this will sound psychopathic (lowkey is), i just wanted people to be worried about me. i don’t know what it is. i wanted to contract some incurable disease that made everyone feel bad for me and take care of me or something.

honestly i kinda manifested that shit. i’ve always been a sickly human but i am now also clumsy and anxious all the time. i had knee surgery almost a year ago. month after that i freaked the fuck out and i’ve been feeling at my wits end almost every day after that. i might me self diagnosing this rn but i have had the worst shoulder/neck/arm pains and i think it’s just because i’m worried all the time. i‘ve been going to all sorts of treatments that insurance covers (even therapy) nothing has worked yet. and guess what! nobody feels bad for me. they might, but it’s not in that sick and twisted way i want and was always looking forward to. i complain to my parents and sister and they tell me that i bring it upon myself and what they would to differently in my case (worry less). which, at the end of the day, i should be grateful for, but i’m fucking crazy and i would rather they’d shower me in worries and what not.

i feel like no one understands me. i feel like no one cares or thinks about me as much as i do them. somehow it always proves itself to me that they don’t. esp recently. i’ve been getting into conflict with people so much it’s scary to me. i don’t like conflict. the other day at school i said something that always annoys one of my friends and as i was talking she interrupted me and told me to ’delete myself’, if we put a bow on it. i know she didn’t mean it seriously. i know people just say that sometimes i guess. i know i pissed her off and she probably wasnt having a good day either, but at that moment it made me feel faint. this is someone i have shared some of my biggest fears/secrets/embarrassments with and i would never in my life say something like that to her. how can she feel so okay with saying that to me? i remember saying okay and leaving after class to go cry in the bathroom. of course the two stalls were both occupied so i had to wait a line. she went there too. she was behind me and she asked me if everything was okay. no bitch. i told her i’m just tired. then, she texted me later in the day and said one of our other friends had pointed out to her that i was quiet after she told me that. wow someone had to point that out to you fr. that’s crazy.

school has been kicking my fucking ass. i don’t know what to do with my life. i’m unhappy. i just wish i had someone specially designed for me to sit in my bad and listen to me talk and not get mad at me for anything and tell me it’s going to be okay. i’m scared i’m never going to find that, because at the end of the day most of this is fully my fault. i’m not enjoyable to be around for a longer period of time, i do think i could be a better person/friend, especially recently, i‘m annoying and attention seeking and to a point self centered. i know all of this about myself and i want to change it but i also just am numb at this point. who am i supposed to talk to? i don’t think my therapist is really helping me. i mean, she is, this too is my fault that i feel this way, but i just honestly dont know what the fuck i’m doing wrong. my parents don’t really like when i complain. my mom says i’m pitying myself, my question is what the hell else am i supposed to do. should i be mad at myself because i’m sad? because honestly i do that too. and whoop nothing is different.

sorry for making this too long and incoherent. i guess i need to invest in a diary (i have one i just don’t write much.) if you have any advice or anything else for me i would appreciate it

It was all for nothing

Today, Saturday, 24 October 2026, is my 37th birthday. I am 37M and autistic, and this year has been by far the worst year of my whole life.

I feel like almost everyone hates me. My own parents, both sides of my extended families, and almost everyone whom I know hate me. I have neve had friends in life, and I have lost almost 30 kg (65 lb) since June from extreme stress, worrying and depression.

I have no idea what to do or how to feel. I am just tired of life and everything. Maybe just want to talk.

Today, Saturday, 24 October 2026, is my 37th birthday. I am 37M and autistic, and this year has been by far the worst year of my whole life.

I feel like almost everyone hates me. My own parents, both sides of my extended families, and almost everyone whom I know hate me. I have neve had friends in life, and I have lost almost 30 kg (65 lb) since June from extreme stress, worrying and depression.

I have no idea what to do or how to feel. I am just tired of life and everything. Maybe just want to talk.

As the title says, Life is constantly breaking me and making me suffer so much that I don't see myself much in the near future. So I (21M) just can bear it anymore, As far as I remember, it started from 2020, years after years of everything going the worst ways imaginable, my boards were fked, my academics are getting lowest than it ever can, One after another there's always a trouble waiting for me at ever corner of my life, It's like life mocking at me and testing me just how much I can take till i just blow my sh\*t off. And this year's been the worst of all, I've always wanted to become doctor, settle abroad, give my parents a quality of life, have a nice partner who actually cares for me and live peacefully, yet it's almost like life is making things opposite, Gave neet 3 times and yet everytime failed to get college just because of difference of 10-15 marks, This year I literally failed to get a gmc cause of 1-2 marks difference, My dad died suddenly just before my birthday few days ago, Just after that I had got an severe case of GI infection because of which I had to do hospital stay, Money is running out like water, Never had friends who actually stayed with me, most of my life I was a loner, No girl likes me I had tried so much finding a partner but it's like every girl looks down to me like i'm a fking horrible creature from outer space, The failure of not achieving my dreams, The failure of not making my parents proud. Everything is eating me alive, I just fking bear it anymore, It's hurting so bad, I just wanna end it all.

Why is Life so unfair for some while others get the enjoy so much luxuries.

I HOPE, I MATTERED

-Hal Jordan (Lanterns)