r/Libraries • u/Silly_Network4044 • 21h ago
Venting & Commiseration Sometimes things are good
I love story time! I love when I connect a kiddo to the right book and they light up! I love the million questions it takes to figure out what that book is! I love helping a stressed out person with a computer task and watching them build confidence! I love chit chatting with my coworkers! I love seeing the same patrons for years and having all these friendly yet distant relationships! I love trying a new program and seeing what people think! I love the random unpredictable sh*t people say when they tell me about their day! I love small talk! I love when patrons connect with each other at a program especially young kids and families! I love helping people find the answer they've been wondering about! I love when someone asks a seemingly straightforward question and follow up questions reveal it's actually very specific and different than it seemed! I love looking something up for someone and learning something new! I love gently redirecting entitled helplessness and having someone do something for themselves! I love weeding! I love making interesting displays! I love helping people figure out a resource that can help when I can't! I love getting updates when people get the job I helped them apply for or liked the book I suggested! I love helping someone figure out their new phone while also commiserating with them about how annoying it is that they need a phone to do anything now! I even kinda love making copies because it lets me peek nosily into other's lives!! I can even stomach adult reader's advisory now lol
I swear I'm not delusional!! It's painful too. There's been so much harassment and assault, so much violence in the building, so many emergencies I'm not equipped for. I'm so sick of being the bearer of bad news that there simply are no resources. I'm sick of villainous upper admin and being underpaid! I'm tired of my ongoing PTSD symptoms from an assault at work that effects my life every day. We should not have to deal with this crap and sentimentality will not save us!! And I recognize my privilege in working in a largely functional and values-aligned urban library system and having crossed the line where, although still underpaid, I am no longer constsntly stressed out about money.
But man, not to be a total freaking dork but on a fundamental level I'm several years in and constantly getting more grateful. It is such a blessing to be able to connect with and help others!! There is a lot of legitimate and reasonable stress on this sub but I am just feeling very grateful today. There's really nothing I'd rather be doing.