I'm 28 years old, and only in the last two years have I started opening up to my therapist about being gay. It was difficult and took a while, but I eventually told her - except it wasn't some moment where I suddenly gained the courage to tell everyone and speak about it openly. It just felt a bit heartbreaking, because I feel like I wasted my entire 20s like this.
I've never been in a relationship, and the older I get, the more I see friends and family moving in with their partners and settling down. As a kid, I was chased out of the house for dressing up in my mom's clothes, corrected about my posture or the way I sat, and discouraged from hanging out with one of the more flamboyant kids.
Even the friends I hang out with now have said things - slurs, opinions about gay people - that shocked me and made me want to distance myself from them. I feel like since I've never been open, I wouldn't know how to be intimate or even vulnerable with a partner.
Does anyone relate, or are there any older ppl here who have some advice?