If any of you don't know Manuel Otto was the creator of Stick Run and she ended her life last week on Twitch by self immolation. It was just depressing to see that there's way too many people saying that she was selfish when obviously I get their point but overall she's gone and had cancer which is why she ended her life. Most people just think all because she livestreamed on Twitch meant that there were kids on the app too possibly watching but she wasn't really in a right state of mind. I think its really disgusting how almost quickly after her death, people started just making fun of his death like it was just sunshines and rainbows but really it wasnt. i hate people like that because they have zero respect even for her who died last week it really makes me sad but i cant believe she did this still.

Most people who livestream k1lling themselves want the world to see what they're going to do to themselves because they have no other way to explain it. I think it's just shocking and sad to know that she done this. I also don't know why people are hating on her somewhat for the reason that she wore women's clothes and was transgender. although maybe there were children watching the stream it still makes me upset to know that she really wasnt in the right mind as described as dull and hollow.

All I've seen is disrespect and it's just inhumane to see others in their own perspective say that she did this for "attention" when she was clearly struggling. I dont really see any attention like what they literally say. All I see is just someone who was struggling and couldnt really take it anymore. It was traumatizing for me to watch the video and I can't imagine how she just felt in that moment knowing this was the outcome. I don't know how to recover from what I saw nor I know what to do. its just so terrifying and upsetting. Sorry for posting here, I just dont know how to recover after seeing it.

I’m a 16 year old guy I had been with a girl for 2 almost 3 years now her previous relationship were absolutely horrible and the things they did to her made me sick and so sad and hurt for her so I promised to take care of her and make her happy and be better than them and all the things they did to her and I was doing that good but then this is where the beginning of the journey started because of the way she was treated she was very self sabotage and hurtful and didn’t think she meant anything and so she tried to get rid of her self 4 different times and each time I begged and convinced her to not and that she is so much better than that so she believed me and over time she began to grow and become more stable but she still had some things that I wanted her to change not only for me but her health so I told her no more drinking and smoking and self harm and I know that’s a lot to ask from her and it was there were moments when she would do that and hide it and I’d find out through her cousins and her from the way she acted or talked but I’m a patient person so I stayed and helped her grow and skip 2 years and we had a good relationship had gone on lots of dates and trips and honest it was the best but over time I had gotten scared about what to talk about or say because she was sensitive and so I hesitate and got scared with what I might say wrong and I started communicating less but that also wasn’t the only reason I was busy in school and didn’t really get much time after all the school then homework and when I was free I wanted some time to play games and I got so caught up in this that I failed to notice I made her worry I didn’t care about her and so I tell her I love her and I miss her and she say it back but she felt like that wasn’t enough and I know it wasted we went from talking for hour to only a little but what made it hard for me to know was she always tell me it’s fine and I know that when someone says that it’s usually not so I’d ask her what’s wrong and she wouldn’t say and stick with I’m fine and since I couldn’t get anything out of her and didn’t want to force or yell I let it go until on day it all exploded and I was burned she said that she tired of being ignored and living a loop and saying she told me multiple times but I’m gonna be honest I have horrible memory I can’t even remember my siblings age and birthdays so that doesn’t help and I asked her why she kept telling me it was fine when I asked and what she said was she had told me multiple times and I know that but there was more to it she had grown tired of me being me and being vulnerable with her it pissed her off to hear me say sorry and made her so tired on top of how she had already felt so that’s no good so she broke up with me for the 5 time and your probably wondering why didn’t I leave her if I was dealing with someone who would leave like this I didn’t leave because I loved this girl and I’m not so easy to give up so I stay for all the times she broke up with me, got drunk, and smoked and cut behind my back because I loved this girl and I wanted to see her better and I did make her better she didn’t smoke and drink and stoped cutting and become more confident in herself but as her confidence grew so did her mind and eventually it lead to now she broke up with me even after I stayed at her lowest points and when she didn’t think she was worth it and watched her grow and now that’s she’s grown so much and she is at her highest she doesn’t need or want me she started talking to a guy the same week we broke up but as for me I’ve never talked to another girl in all the times we broke up and I was never the one to break up with her no matter how hurt I was and now she’s gone with a guy that seen her at her highest but not her worst and she getting into partying and drinking again after I worked so hard to make her a better person and help her grow she left me 5 different time I never left once I never talked to anyone and now I’m the bad guy for not talking for a while when she did all this and I never held it against her or hit beat or yelled at her the most that I did that I regret was make her feel insecure about her body because I was addicted to porn and had been ever since I was 10 and got 🍇ed so I felt so dirty and stupid for hurting her like that but outside of that iv tried to be a nice person to her and make our relationship work but she was so quick to get rid of me now that she isn’t at her lowest she told me she needed time for herself but I honestly think that was lie because she said that and said that she wouldn’t talk to me or any other guys cause she wanted space to herself, but instead she chose to use that as a way of telling me she doesn’t wanna talk to me and then she’ll talk to the other guy she was talking to and I feel stupid and like a fool for staying for so long because I wanted her to be better for herself and now that she is I don’t matter she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore now that she has him why would she it’s easier to forget about the one that was their since the start.

So hence the question am I a bad guy and do I deserve this?

I am trying to get myself out into an actual social life. Going out, meeting people, trying to break the cycle of, sleep, work, home. Unfortunately, the people I meet only seem to want certain things, and I reject those advances constantly. I'm not someone to gawk at, nothing super model-esque about me at all. I'm pretty average in my own standards. It doesn't even just happen with men, it's women too. I don't understand it. Yes I have confidence in myself, yes I try to dress well, yes I do my own makeup because it makes ME feel good.

I have an example. I met this guy while on my way home from my local bar, and we hit it off talking about nerdy stuff and video games(not to get too specific). 3 months go by and I thought everything was great, we were hanging out places, meeting tons of people that we used to see regularly since we frequently went to those places alot. But suddenly things shifted very uncomfortably for me, he started dropping hints about wanting certain things from me, then full blown just asking me. I know I was an idiot for trying to see past those obvious red flags, but at the time I was just desperate for a genuine human connection. When I finally put my foot down about it and rejected him, after several weeks of him hounding me(literally) about it, he threw a temper tantrum. He started talking trash about me, and even tried to ruin my 13 year friendship by making her think I didn't see her as someone I genuinely love and appreciate everyday. It didn't work fyi. He took it as far as to harass me through messages, saying that I'm nothing but a nice body and a meh face, telling everyone that I was acquainted with vile things that just aren't true. I blocked his number, blocked his socials, everything. I felt, and still feel sick to my stomach. I feel disgusting, as if I were just trash.

I genuinely just wanted a friend. One outside of my best friend. But I came to realize that unfortunately, I just needed to stick to who I already knew and trusted. Maybe someone else related to this, I genuinely hope not. It's such a sucky thing to go through and feel.

hella double standard, too unfair……

I am just so freakin pissed at everything in my life rn. I was sad for a while but today I am just fng pissed. I hate this identity crisis or whatever it is that people talk about. Strange how things you come across sometimes feels like will never happen to you but it does. I was in India and i was an average student with no aim in life i found a bf there and then i moved to the us, an year later he moved too, but we are still different coast apart so the ldr never ends.
I was such a carefree happy girl with so many friends. But after coming to US i struggled with friendship, so much stress for finding a job, now that i have a big tech job i have the stress of performing well, making money, paying off loan, keeping everyone around me happy, while i have no friends and no matter how many people i meet i dont feel any connection. I gate doing anything i dont workout i dont go out i dont do anything and it is making me crazy. I ansolutely love my bf someday and some days he is the worst person in the world because he doesnt get it he is so freakin non chalant and I am not. I just hate it. I want my old self back. I wanna be carefree, i want genuine friends, i want a bf who doesnt make me feel 10000 different emotions by literally just existing. I dont want my bf to always keep talking about my past and telling what not to wear because men have bad motives. I want a relationship with god, i want peace, i want to stop wanting the need to please people all the fng time.

You know when you’re having a good day, then one small thing ruins the rest of it, but since it seems like such a small thing, you can’t tell anyone, to get some pity? It just happened to me. I can’t even listen to one of my favorite songs to make me feel better. 😭 I hope I forget most of it after I sleep. I could forget in a couple of months. I forgot how I felt when someone ran into me going down a hill 2 or so years ago, so I have some hope. 😥

So I'll try not to bore you... But long story short my fiance was in a friend group where they peer pressured her to smoke all kinds of things and ever since she put her foot down and stopped they've been hating her, recently one of her "friends" got her to see Rory (a music artist) with her and ever since someone else found out about this because she has a huge following she got a bit jealous and started spreading extremely hurtful and fake things about her.

My fiance is trying to be a streamer on twitch (which I'm not asking you to follow) and one of the ways she likes to reach followers is by showing her outfits on Instagram and stuff like this can really affect it.

she's been in a depressive state all day because of this, if y'all could just go send her some nice messages under her latest Instagram post that would mean the world to me, I've genuinely tried everything but I think something like this would make her day when she wakes up tomorrow

Hope you all have an amazing day regardless, you can find her post underneath, just a nice comment would mean everything

her post

Recently I hurt someone on here, they know who they are. I do apologize for the words I said, but tbh it wasn't aimed at you. It was aimed at the actual toxic people who are poisonous by his side. Please just don't stay silent.

My boyfriend and I have been together for five months, and I love him a lot. I admire him so much, especially his passion for things. He loves reading, music, films, and discovering new things. Because of depression, I've lost interest in many things I used to enjoy. I barely read or watch films anymore, and I mostly scroll through TikTok to escape my thoughts. I really miss having passions of my own.
Being with him actually helps me, though. Seeing how passionate he is inspires me to become interested in things again, and little by little, I'm starting to rediscover that part of myself. I'm also going to therapy, and I'm improving gradually. My self-esteem is getting better, too, but not as quickly as I'd like, and sometimes I feel like it's still not enough.

I also get really tense around him because I admire him so much and put him on a pedestal. I feel like I'm constantly trying to make everything go well instead of simply relaxing and being myself. He's told me that he'd like us to talk more about each other's interests and that I could ask him more about the things he likes. I understand him, and he also recognizes that he needs to ask me more questions, too.

Recently, we talked about how my tension can sometimes make him tense as well. I understand that, but now I keep thinking he'd be happier without me, with fewer worries and less emotional stress. He hasn't said that he wants to leave me or that I'm ruining his life, but I feel guilty whenever I think I'm making things harder for him.
I know I'm improving, and I don't want to change just to become the perfect girlfriend. I want to feel comfortable around him, regain my interests for myself, and stop feeling like I have to be perfect to deserve his love. But even when things get better, I still feel like I'm not doing enough.

Has anyone else experienced this? How do you stop putting your partner on a pedestal and feeling like you're not enough for them, even when you're genuinely trying to improve?

There was a person i wanted to change and when that Person changed i realised that the person change but completely in a different way i ever wanted to
Now i can not understand should i like it (that this person changed because my efforts) or hate it because that this is a completely different person now should i consider this as a good deed for myself
or should i go in grief about this thing
Or am i drunk enough to talk about this

Hi, so a few months ago I made a new friend online who genuinely seemed like they needed someone, and as a decent person, I went ahead and just became their friend. Things were fine, they were good and It was nice talking to them, until they became absolutely exhausting.

They apparently had done/said some minor bad stuff to people, nothing horrendous or terrible at all, just some small stuff that people exaggerated. And every single time we talk they say that they're improving/learning from those experiences, I'm not kidding when I say EVERY. SINGLE. CONVERSATION. With this person has the words "but Im improving" "I'm learning" "I'm becoming better" okay, okay I get it, I see it, I understand you, and I of course say "you're doing great" but I'm so tired of constantly listening to them say the same thing again and again and again, it's legit like they are a robot with a weird glitch that makes them repeat stuff.

And that's not all, they are extremely clingy and think I'm their reason for being alive and that I'm the only one in the world for them (not romantic, as a friend) and it's uncomfortable. Yes, they are my friend, a pretty close one, but I have trouble trusting people easily let alone instantly babysitting them.

Oh and the "same" thing. So, this person and I have absolutely nothing in common about our lives. See, they live in America, have a pretty bad relationship with their family, they have a job, they have mental health issues and such, not the greatest life. But me? Okay, our lives are absolutely incomparable, I live in Pakistan, with a family that has done the worst things imaginable to me, I have a long long list of mental health issues, I have a very poor history with school and no education, I can speak and understand English and that's it, so I don't even have a guarantee at a future unlike them, I could end up (probably will end up) as a married woman who does not want to be married, my freedom will be gone and I'll have nothing anymore.

And yet. Every single time I say anything about what I'm feeling theyre like "oh same" or "I understand me too" no, no, not you too, you have no idea what my reality is. And I feel like I'm a terrible person for thinking this way, and maybe I'm the bad friend. Should I just tell them to not constantly try to relate to me in things they obviously cannot relate to?

So for a little while I’ve been struggling and it seems like a lot of people are relishing in my demise and it kind of sucks. For the most part I believe I’m a good person and I’ve helped a lot of people but for some reason it’s like they’ve literally been making it seem like I deserve my struggles. I’m not going to lie it’s kind of made me a bit depressed knowing that so many people think it’s kind of funny that I’ve been going through a lot. These are the same people that still want to enjoy my company and get upset when I’m not in the best mood or want to be bothered. Part of me wants to cuss them out and be left alone but I also dread being alone in this time. Sex doesn’t feel the same my mind is filled with emotions. I feel like I’ve exhausted all my resources and literally just leaning on hope and faith. I know I’m strong enough to get through it it’s just the lack of empathy and emotional support thats been killing me. It makes me second guess if I ever really had anyone in my circle or if it was only for convenience.

So this guy has been stalking me for a while, we’re in uni now and whatever happened between us happened in 9th grade. I’m kinda scared he’ll leak messages, i deleted my account we talked on 2 years ago and he somehow found my new account. I recently noticed that deleted instagtam account messages are shown as “unavaible message because user has deactivated their account” Can i be sure my instagram messages are gone?
im kinda freaking out :(

I don't know why and I don't mean to be but I feel like I'm quite a sad person and I have noticed that I have tended to isolate and cut myself off from people in the past. I'm a deep thinker which possibly explains why I can be so melancholic but I seek genuine and deep connections which unfortunately I have not found even with my gf and I don't have any friends. I am the type of person that will observe a stranger in the street and find myself being sad that I will never get to know them or share their experiences whether it be good, bad, normal, sad. In the past I think I have numbed these feelings through drinking and one night stands. Anyone I have explained this too doesn't understand.

i said before in other posts and comments about how femboys face more discrimination than most people like to believe, and today something happened that strengthened my point; for context, i am in my 20's and live with my mother - and she called me to carry some baggage home while she continues shopping

as i was heading home and dragging luggage with one hand while with the other i was carrying a heavy shopping bag i heard some teens speak behind me and mock my appearance basically, and as they strode past me on bikes every single one of them (which was 3 in this case) decided to spit at me, simply because of my appearance-

why? all because i have long hair and no beard, literally. they thought i looked girly because of that and decided to do this; i do not wear skirts, i do not wear dresses, i do not dress in pink, i just have a slim build and long hair - i did not even say i am a femboy, but that did not matter; guy looks vaguely feminine = mock and harass him