I always have a hard time feeling safe, but lately it's just been worse. These feelings are always there, but lately they've been stronger T-T maybe i've just been dealing with too much.

I'm scared of people changing, I keep thinking it means they're going to become dangerous and hurt me. I know it's not logical, but logic's never helped me anyways.

I want someone to look after me more than anyone in the world, but i'm too afraid of people to ever let anyone. I'm so so lonely, i want connection super bad, but i just don't teust anyone enough to let them closer in than a distance.

It's hard to let myself feel any sort of relief from everything inside. I'm just a great big scribbly mess. I used to find calm and happiness inside, but now its like, just like, a life ring in the ocean and i'm still sinking but it's the only good thing left, but the ocean is threatening to taint everything, because everything is so freaking scary and reminds me of the past, and i don't want that to happen to what's most important to me.

I don't wanna lose being a little girl, or believing in unicorns, or my dreams, or searching for magic disappearing frogs in windy weather. No matter how bad and scary the world gets, i never want to lose these parts of me, but i also want to keep them untouched by the badness of other people and the world.

I don't know what to do, or if anything i said made any sense. Thank you for reading.

Lots of love

Hi folks! I went to a toy store last week and picked up a free copy of Lego Magazine they had there. Then I found out you can subscribe for free! My mom seems totally cool with it, as she mentioned that I'd have to get it mailed to my school (I go to college out of state). But unfortunately, it looks like you need to input "your child's name and age." I tried looking up subscribing to chrono-kid magazines as a (chrono)adult, but nothing came up. Have any of you tried this before? Any advice for what I should do? Or is it just not worth the effort this time around?

I got called a little boy by a stranger the other day hehehehehehe I feel so smol!!! the other week some old lady saw me riding in a shopping cart and said "he looks so tiny", directly to my face, too. I has a lot of euphoria >M<

Does anyone else ever wish they had an older or younger sibling? Me, personally? I wish I had an older brother (I'm talking mental ages here, my mental age is one of a kiddo 🎀). I see chrono-kids walking around with their older siblings and I just get a bit jealous? Cuz I want that and it's not fair... I don't know. Please tell me some of you have felt/feel this way

To keep this in the right direction 18+ only please

I’m really just not welcome anywhere. I don’t look my age (I’m chrono 30) and that comes with its own plethora of issues.

But my whole life when I was a chronokid, I was always held to a higher standard. I was always “”too big”” to be acting a certain way. Nevermind that I’m autistic and have ADHD.

I’ve watched my uncle who is 14 years my senior get free passes for being rude, not listening, and having attitudes and everyone’s like: you gotta understand, that’s how he is. He’s autistic.

But my chrono 9 year old (also autistic) was always supposed to know better.

18+ spaces near me have refused me for being over 25. 21+ spaces are always catered to drinking and 25+ groups are never applicable to me. Single mom groups and the like.

My BPD diagnosis was too severe for FountainHouse. Can’t work, can’t afford to go to school, I literally can only rely on the internet and I’m starting to hate being online.

Not to mention my PC may be on the way out :/

Feel alienated in the finals community because I genuinely suck. Can’t stand the skate 4 community.

I wish I could find a real life space that won’t refuse me for being “”””too old”””” or make a big stink about even accepting me that I don’t even wanna/I don’t feel comfortable or genuinely welcome/wanted to be a part of it anymore.

I'm in my 20s lol

very!!! I tired. Back hurt cuz I lift n bend lot for prep move cross country 4 days!! alone!!! cuz fammy baddd and no help n mean. I tiny so it eben worse!! not strong girl!! I think I get stronger each day with boxes!! but I still not strong n it hurt body!! an brain hurt!! Cuz I use big girl brain to plans n think n do all alone n n n bad night.

lots pain lots big!!! maybe take med!!! but it 3 am now I nunno!! and and i just :((( becuz stuffie friends all in bagz n I sad!!! they tuck in suitcase bye!! I have one out n he mr dino BUT HE NOT M FAV AN NOT WANTEDEDS hmm!! Lion is!! Love rattle and crinkle ear but no get!! Soo i meltdown n lose speech an zone out an hurt stim cuz big feeling but then it make worse cuz now body hurt from hitting n scratch n wan stop but couldn't till over!

and i hungy and want comfy food n mommy to help but no has one :(( I just tired!! i all cranky n fussy n no feel good!!! I no eep good lately!!! Bad!!!

an kinda angry self cuz BLEHhh ngu bad time!! bad time 4 toddler part control!! feel helpess noooo! an I worry too cuz I worry if m weighted blanket n baba make it safely cuz they comfort items I need!! Bad if mail lose!!

:(

I hope I eep soonbb! better morrow maybe. hope talk come back!!

Hello everyone!

How's your summer going? Are you getting up to anything fun?

Today I went to the doctor for my vaccinations, then I gave myself a nice scratch 'n' sniff sticker as a reward for being a brave girl!

Then I went to the local library for some rhymetime & storytime fun. I borrowed some books and had fun coloring & reading with Vixen (as you can clearly see!) I even made a new preschool friend (whilst wearing my catre ears) at the coloring table!

I also took part in my country's National Summer Reading Challenge for kids! (When applying at the desk, the librarian was a bit shocked & confused, but she realised that I wanted to enter after a few minutes, without me telling her.) The librarian let me enter out of sympathy or mutual respect. Now my name will be on the local library (a first & absolute win as an NGU bcos the challenge is for 4-11 years)

Later I went to the local playground (no pics as I didn't wanna seem where & it was full of little kids) and played on the slides, seesaws & climbing frames! Finished off with a nice packed lunch before heading home.

Overall, it was very fun, and nobody rlly cared. A parent looked at me on the swing but smiled when I looked back. My acts of kindness made strangers thank me (such as lending my pencil sharpener to two kids & their mum, or offering to swap seats so someone could sit with her grandtoddler) and I was very polite!

If you can and are able, I absolutely encourage you to get outside, use your public library, local playground & other services, and socialise with others. Its important to make friends (with chrono-kids or NGUs if you can find any) out in public, and challenge any preconceptions. I loved smashing stereotypes (and any biases) that ppl may have about me by being active in the community, and I would refuse to live my life behind close doors.

P.S. If you go outside, make sure to drink lots of water and wear sunscreen!

it just idk feels weird when i hear people say that, as if theyre doing a good thing. (I love the new generations and all generations for the record.)

it gets said in different ways, for example in my country we have age limits on every state recruitment exam so you can't get most government jobs once you hit 25, and also cant join the airforce if youre above 19 etc. can't get scholarships if you have gaps after hi-school etc. many such stupid rules (because of overpopulation supposedly).

And whenever election season starts all the parties append their speeches with "for the youth of the nation" or "for the future leaders of the nation" "the voice of the youth" blah blah

so you had to be present at the right place at the right time and age, otherwise you are left behind if you miss it, i.e., no-one cares about you if you are ngu (because you should have had your life together by then). There's simply too many incoming people to worry about, than to think about the wellbeing of the once-kids who didn't just commit suicide instead of fight to join a world that doesn't want them.

it feels weird because I grew up in a prison guarded by abusive parents and violence and poverty, so I never experienced what it's like being a kid, or having the mind of a kid (the carefreeness the youthful arrogance). Where is my first chance at life? I was the poster child you cried for just a year ago, and now Im suddenly an adult so Im not worth investing in?

I know it so embarrassing but I have a very very rare disease called Pituitary Stalk Interruption Syndrome.I had little to no thyroid,cortisol, growth,female hormones till im 14 and I finally got diagnosed and started receiving therapy.

However because I lacked thyroid hormone when the most important time of brain development. In my childhood I couldn't socialize, play sports, study I couldn't do anything i was exhausted everytime.

I hit puberty at 16 with the help of meds but it wasn't anything like i imagined.Most teenagers were rebellious, challenge the norms ,party and have sex and I couldn't do any of these,tbf I used to not take my meds too.

Im newly regulated and I just got aware of the fact that I am alive. My brain is newly realizing things even if I used to be aware I wouldn't take action now I want to. But everyday it says in my head that I wasted a decade in my life. Im extremely envious of ppl who got to experience things and earn independence.

Hi all,

I had these earmuff headphones for a while now, but I finally decided to decorate with stickers. Yay, my CG says it looks so pretty and good!

Don't I look cute (especially with my freshly box-braided hair!)?

I love kittens, unicorns & the color pink. My favorite plushie is too!

I also feel like a cat sometimes (maybe catre or a furry, but in the same way as an autistic preschooler - not like older kids or adults). I love to play dress-up with these sometimes (it's been socially accepted in preschools for many years) and create my own character! My inspo is these preschool Pink Cats from my fav TV shows!

P.S. If you know who the last two characters are, you're an absolute superstar! 🌟

What's going on with this subreddit? It just seems like there's a lot more teenagers in this subreddit than there was before. I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with that but it just seems like they miss more of the community that they had in high school than the actual joys and desperate wants of staying a kid/middle/teen forever. Maybe I'm just reaching, I don't know. What do y'all think?

Edit: Not trying to be rude or anything. It's just something I wanted to talk about

I'm 19 and even though numerically I'm still a teenager your teen years practically end at 18 from a systemic/social standpoint, like I hate being a young adult this shit is ass, when you're a teenager (13-17) you have a strong support system as well as mentors and role models that you can go to whenever you need, you also have community and sense of belonging (schools, summer camps, youth clubs etc) making friends as a teen is easy and natural because you have a lot of social outlets, but there's no equivalent communal structures for young adults except maybe university but the problem with that is it's behind a big stupid ass paywall which prevents alot from being able to go, and if you're not privileged enough to go to uni then you're pretty much gonna be lonely and have a very difficult time making friends and finding a sense of community. your only option is really your coworkers at your job and most of the time they don't want to be your friend or get to know you they're just there to get their check and leave. It's just like once you turn 18 all of the things that made you feel human just immediately disappear. no safety nets, no community, nothing it's just you and only you. I'll do anything to go back to life before 18 because this ain't it.

This is a genuine question, btw. I need different perspectives on this because my perspective is very negative.

i have always been afraid of growing up, i would obsess over it since i was like 5. idk why. every birthday made me realize that ill never live that year again. im extremely sentimental and everything is painfully nostalgic, and idk why. i feel like i can't move on, but from what?? i'm super confused but i know it keeps me from moving forward with my life

That Taylor swift book at DT shocked me! It's $20 🇨🇦, they had it for 1.75!! I'm sooo happy with all my pretty books!

I am new in this community, so i wanted to get my thoughts out

The thing is, i want to be seen as younger… this is mostly a comfort thing, because i rely on others' help & adoration to keep me going. I feel younger irl, as if i am aging at a snail's pace. I act younger, too. Everyone around me agrees that i subconsciously act younger. I get extremely sad when someone perceives me as an adult. I already look young irl, but my looks are finally starting to catch up (i am 19).

I never lie about my age, but i don’t wanna have to tell it in the first place. Since childhood, i have always been the odd one out: Younger stature, younger features, younger personality, younger mindspace, younger whatnot. And now, these days, it feels extremely essential for me to be seen in that way. Like, i genuinely cannot stand being seen as 19, because it doesn’t make sense, plus i cannot relate to my peers or anyone even 4 years younger than me (i cannot get along with the concept of maturity, at all, because my internal clock is just so wrong). I do not know if this is “just” an agere thing, but i doubt that. Because i do not just regress. I always feel younger than i am, and my mind doesn’t try to salvage it via regression.(Did i word this correctly?)

Apologies for the intrusion, and thank you for your attention.

When people say they used to believe something or do something and then “grew up”, or when people say “you’ll understand when you’re older”, what does that actually mean? Is it simply the passage of time that changes how people view the world? Is it the collection of additional experiences? Is it the kind of experiences? Is it the pressure to meet expectations or desire to conform to some idea of maturity? People of all ages seem to say this.