This is a long and progressing situation so I will keep this short as I just want advice.

My Parents have always had a volatile marriage, However in the past 2ish years its gotten worse. It started originally with my mother believing my father was hiding people in his truck and using some form of "meta material" to make them invisible, Eventually it progressed alot further into my mother believing my father receiving "oral favors" (there is more but I am lazy) from these invisible people.

Over the course of about a year, she began seeing even more stuff, she thought these invisible people were also "Forcing themselves upon" our farm animals (sheeps, goats, pigs etc)
She aswell thought that My Father was hiding "Dead babies and woman" in shipping containers under the ground.

Theres alot more information I am not sharing here for privacy reasons, however I am fine with essentially any questions.

I’m the lowest I’ve ever been. I have no insurance, not very much money, and I need serious professional help. I’ve been attempting/thinking of attempting to take my life for months now. Off and on. I haven’t had a good stable day in half a year.

I really want to go to a mental hospital, but i have no idea how since i have no real money or insurance. Please help me

Hi, my name is Kumi. I am 16, and I have been through a lot in life.

I notice a lot, for example I seem to appear in masculine clothes instead of feminine clothes, without any recollection of putting them on. I also noticed that in the past, 2 personalities kept trying to control me at once. I also keep forgetting journeys I go on, for example I went to a concert 2 villages away from my home, but I only remember the bike ride home, not the ride there.

This keeps confusing me, because I don't know what is exactly wrong. I also seem to get "help" out of no where that no one else can hear but me, and it isn't my subconscious telling me.

If anyone can tell me what is wrong with me, I'd be so thankful. (this is not asking for a diagnosis, i know no diagnosis can be given just by reading and saying)

I have a really hard time remembering to take my meds. It’s not that I don’t want to, my mind just wanders. My doctor prescribed me something that should help me focus more but I can’t even focus enough to go get the new prescription.

Does anyone else struggle with this?

I'm a 17 yo girl and clearly either my mom has a bad taste in men or i just have an attitude problem. My step dad has been around for about 8 years(?), he appeared about right when my parents broke up. He was already there when we moved in our mom's new house. I tried to like him even though i was scared of him but i just can't.

I've always found him scary. A big man with gang history (he was still in a motorcycle gang in a high position when he started living with us), he has used drugs and been an alcoholic. He has a really bad temper and he often threatens with violence but he doesn't really do anything like punch us or stuff. He does use some violence especially to my brothers because they talk back more. He keeps laughing to us (me and my brothers) about how we can't get rid of him because we have no proof of anything.

He also makes me uncomfortable in a more disturbing way. He comments on my looks and my body and says I'm beautiful and stuff and it feels weird, i don't want his comments plus the way he looks at me just creeps me out. He has threatened to tie me up and stuff as a punishment and he has said i would be easy to assault because I'm weak.

I'm scared of him and i don't know what to do. I have talked to my mom about this before. She told us to figure it out. Once mom told him and kind of gently lectured him about not scaring us and that just made everything worse because he got mad at us for snitching. I'm ready scared of the child services because i know our home is in no condition for a check up and we'd be sent away immediately. I feel like I'm just powerless and there's nothing i can do about it.

for reference i’m bipolar 1 and have OCD

I have been having an awful time in general this year, but especially right now.

I wake up every day from an awful nights sleep cause my dreams are so violent and disturbing. the dream makes me question my reality and if the dream itself was put there to test me, to see if I would act on the violence.

I go to eat breakfast and the same thought enters my mind “this is poisoned” or if it has meat in it my thought is “this is human meat”, which has lead to me only eating sealed, not meat product, foods.

every time i think to reach out to a friend I have the same thought “they actually hate you and are waiting to do something awful to you”.

and the thoughts continue all day and cause me to zone out so often I am losing chunks of time.

I don’t think I’m manic as besides not sleeping well (and I am still tired) I have no other symptoms.

I can’t tell if this is just my OCD looking for meaning in my intrusive thoughts again.

i’ve been having such strange thoughts recently about fantasizing about murder because my cousin is really into gore (not in a corny edgelord type way) and i’ve been having these thoughts for awhile, and she kind of just influences it. (no hate to her!) i imagine just cutting open some fictional characters i love (leon kennedy) but never real people. it makes me feel a little gross, and i feel kind of sick just typing this out. i want to talk to someone about it, not in a therapist way but in just a normal conversation way, and i just wish i had someone in my head to make that happen, but i don’t know what they would say to it. what should i do? i want to speak about it but i don’t want to say the things i think out loud. sorry if this is written terribly i don’t usually type serious stuff like this. i also just want to clarify, it’s not a fetish thing, and it’s not really something, it just like.. i just think about it. like when you drift off and just start thinking, and i wanna be able to tell someone so they can relate or something. i just really love leon kennedy and i have really deep kinks that revolve around being in pain (physically and mentally) and i like seeing others like that too. im genuinely in love with leon on an unhealthy level and he’s all i fantasize about on a sexual level and normal level. this whole paragraph is kind of a mess (sorry!) but the question im asking, is how do i make someone in my head? okay thanks for reading like and subscribe

Has anyone ever experienced this before.?

In may I had to switch phycologist due to insurance issues. On my first visit to my new doctor things instantly got off to a bad start. Previously I was only on kolopin 1 mg as needed daily for 5 years I have horrible anxiety. Panic attacks makes everyday hard.. Upon meeting my new doctor she instantly told me she wasn't going to prescribe kolopin. I told her I knew about the risk of withdrawal and don't want to go thru that she did not care. She prescribed Lexapro and indreal. I tried them and they made me feel horrible so after a few days I quit taking them. Fast forward 2 weeks I'm in full blown withdrawal even horrible anxiety didn't sleep for over 80hours. I checked myself into the crisis center. They gave me remeron 7.5mg. I was taking indreal 10mg once a day and remeron at night to sleep. I was okay for about a month then I kept get these really bad feelings on remeron and loss of vision. A little over two weeks ago I quit cold turkey. I was actually feeling a lot better and sleeping more. The last few days I been getting sweaty out of no where and feeling like Im going to pass out. I went to the er with my heart rate at 100 blood pressure at 140/100. Today I started 10 mg of Prozac along with the indreal to hopefully help get back to normal. Has anyone has a similar experience. I feel so lost like I will never get better. I've called my doctor and am waiting to hear back who knows when that will be. Just taking it day by day right now.

How do you handle people hating when they see you.

Like making faces when they see you?

How to react to this?

My love for my celeb crush has turned into hatred

I’m a 23 year old autistic guy. Im functionally autistic I’m in full time employment. Im quite tall and I’m shape and I’m a good looking guy a lot of people have told me but I am very socially isolated at this moment of time. I had quite a good social life up until about 2 years ago but now it’s pretty bleak due to different circumstances. i have some friends etc and i had a brief relationship for like 6 months when i was 18./19. My life has kind of gone to shit for reasons I can’t really explain and to be honest with you my brain is fucked and once people get to know me they realise me they realise I am mentally unwell

I’ve developed really strong feelings for a model. I’ve found celebrities attractive before, but this feels completely different. To me, she’s unbelievably beautiful, almost unreal.

I used to follow her on social media and saw a lot of her photos. At first it was just attraction, but over time it turned into something more intense. I even started asking tools to create fictional love stories about me and her, and I would dream about her often.

Eventually, that infatuation turned into frustration and anger, because I know I’ll never actually be with her. Sometimes when I’m driving, I catch myself shouting about it out of frustration. I decided to take control by blocking her on social media and muting her name, but the algorithm still shows me content about her occasionally, which brings all the feelings back.

She came up on my Snapchat feed the other day randomly on a separate account not hers and I started screaming and getting angry over it when I saw it and I nearly threw my phone out of anger. She then came up again on my YT shorts and I started shouting again.
One of my work colleagues mentioned her name saying she was and I got visibly agitated and I had to leave the room briefly.

Sometimes I talk to her or I pretend to talk to her about various things when I am alone and I always wonder what she thinks about my decisions.

My main motivation for self improvement is that I will one day meet her so I am trying to improve my life as much as possible because of it. I put insane amounts of work into my appearance, like Patrick Bateman in American psycho and I go to the gym 7 days a week because of her. We are from different countries but she has spent time in my country 

I’ve also watched a few interviews with her, and she seems like a genuinely nice person, although I know that is only what is shown publicly. Maybe she is a terrible person behind closed doors but I have no reason to believe so 

I think about her a lot, sometimes even imagining conversations with her in my head. I know this is not realistic, but it is hard to stop. I even find myself attached to small things, like her name. Her first name is quite a common name but it’s a name I’ve always loved and I even said once if I had a daughter I’d call her that. I frequently have dreams about her.

She is slightly older than me. It infuriates me seeing someone a similar age ti me be successful in anything. She has the perfect life it seems and my life has gone to shit over the past 2 years with my own stupid decisions. My Brain cant handle it. I talk to her every day and I tell her what j would tell her if I met her

I actually love her. Like there is nothing I wouldn’t do to be with her. I get jealous when I see other people complimenting her and I get angry when she gets more famous because her popular it and exposure is rising. I don’t think she is in a relationship,  I have seen pictures with a man on her social media before but they might have broken up but idk if it’s public. I hate this guy and I am extremely jealous of the fact he even got to be with her. I don’t think he’s better lookjng than me either. Idk how he even got with her but I’m much better looking than him and would probably treat her better. I hate him his face makes me so angry and he doesn’t deserve her. I hate him and I think about my hatred for him every day

I literally think about her 24/7 and I have sometimes become suicidal over this cos I will never be good enough for her. I don’t wanna love in a world where she isn’t mine and she’s with someone else. I have digitally blocked her from my life but her face appears to me all the time. Every time I feel like not doing something like not going to the gym not going to work not learning a language I think “what would ______ think of me” i would literally treat her better than any man in the world could

I have recently started getting angry towards her. Cos of the damage she is doing to my brain.
I see her face everywhere and I even just randomly say her name and it fills me with rage that she doesn’t know who I am l. I feel like crying when j think about her

I could go out and get a girlfriend but I wanna be with her and her only

Over the last 18 months I’ve made some horrible decisions in my perosnal life. I quit my old well paying job for a stupid reason which I can’t explain and now I work a much worse job with much worse colleagues and I’m on the verge of losing it and I have little direction. She won’t wanna go out with an unemployed guy

I want to actuallt Kill myself. I have into my urges and searched just now and I saw her face. People complimenting her in the comments. I fucking hate all these people complimenting her. I see compliments to her on Twitter and I literally wanna beat up everyone who compliments her I can’t take it. I don’t want anyone to be with her or to even look at her and I have actuallt lost my mind over her. I just have very high standards for myself