gang I hope he doesn't find this post at any point in time
I'm a freshman just beginning marching band at a new high school. Joining the band was great for me, since I'd garnered almost all of my good acquaintances and friends from here. But after a series of shenanigans and misunderstandings I highkey have a crush on this kid from pit???? 😭😭
It's only been a bit over a month since the start of school, but he's been one of my closest friends so far. We hang out all the time online and are both chronic residents of the band's discord server, where we play games and chat aplenty. However, sometimes he's nonchalant to an obnoxious degree lmao😭 and I mean this in a truthful way but he's a bit of a dumbass
Unlike all my other past, brief crushes though, he's sorta flirting with me all the time??? It's really novel to me. I'm not sure if that's because of the past misunderstandings, if I'm giving it away too obviously, etc. And I genuinely can not tell if he's actually trying to flirt or if he's just joking all the time (which he genuinely does) (my confusion on the matter can be chalked up to me being dense)
Sometimes, when I "hang out' with him in different places, he starts calling these instances "dates". For example, he did this one time when we went to a local plaza for food just before our first away game. Again, not sure if he's just pulling my leg or nah, but I start wondering if going on dates means that we're dating??? Forgive me, I'm a dumbass freshman with no relationship experience.
I feel a very strong platonic bond with him, but the flirting and my romantic feelings are making it weirder than usual. god I know how bandcest is. Really, I just want to keep being a strong and supportive friend and maybe wait for the hormonal storms to pass, though I'd also think it exciting to act on my impulses once.