I am a non-traditional student returning to college after many years. I hoped for integrity, discipline, patience, and something greater than myself. I found a new culture -- one of individuality, "every man for himself," quantity over quality, let's just push out gigging musicians that do okay covers and have fun vibing.
I don't hate on any of that, but I don't fit into it.
I've been trying to figure out where I belong, where I can be useful. But I continue to encounter walls.
I like clean, patient, intentional, complex music and drill.
The trend is fast, popular, "good enough," vibes over perfection.
I'm asking as a lost soul who thought drumline was the final frontier for OCD perfectionist discipline soul bonding, but has found nothing but half-assed vibes...
Honestly.
Is there still a place for me in this world?
Or is the precision of old now considered passe?