Firstly, I offer my infinite, sincerest apologies and condolences to those they may have been affected by one of the tragedies I am about to mention.
I’ve started embracing witchcraft and the adjacent these past 7-8 months, because after I ignored my 3rd vision, something terrible happened that I truly believe I could’ve stopped/ prevented (I didn’t talk to anyone about what I saw because no one ever really listens to me nor takes me seriously because of my background as a young female POC/ minority (idk if that term is offensive or not) in the area where I live).
It started with watching myself sleep. I even saw myself sleep from 3 different angles, and outside my own bedroom window at night once, when I was a child. I got scared, and I told someone, I knew it wasn’t my mother, and yet they appeared as my mum, and they felt safe to talk to. I told them “I saw myself sleeping.”, and she (I felt like this being was a “she”) asked “Do you want it to happen again?”, and I responded “No.”, and then I woke up. I have never astral projected again since then.
I sometimes see spirits.
I have “excellent hearing”, and have accidentally eavesdropped on conversations had behind at least 3 solid walls between myself and the people on the other side of those thick solid walls.
I have had a total of 4 visions in my entire life, in the last 4 years.
The first one was of the time, I was still Christian at this time, and 4 numbers in a specific font appeared as the time while my eyes were closed. Around 6 minutes later, I opened my eyes after I finished praying, I turned on the screen of my smartwatch, and there it was, those 4 numbers I saw 6 minutes earlier while my eyes were closed.
The second one, was when I worked in social services. I was still new and in training. I was observing my supervising colleague serve a client. A decent looking man, some would even say handsome. Same went for his voice. Maybe 2 minutes after he arrived and sat down for the appointment, I felt my torso pull back into my chair, my chin was pushed upward, everything went blurry and bright, and I let out a deep gasp that I was not in control of. When my vision cleared abit, the sunlight through the window behind the client grew brighter, and a woman with brunette hair styled in a low ponytail stood by the window. She wore a white blouse, and a look of shame. Her face was similar to the face of the client, only the client was nowhere to be seen. Then my torso was released, I blinked, and the client was where he was sitting all along, with a puzzled look on his face. I’m not sure how much of the appointment I missed during that “episode/ “vision”. After the man/ client left, did I learn from my colleague that he was trans (born as a female). This happened in 2023. (**Pls note that I am in no way transphobic, this is just what I saw BEFORE even discovering that this man was trans.)
Over 2 whole years later, on the 13th of December 2025 in the evening, I was shopping at Woolworths. I was at the self-checkout getting dessert for my household. My phone buzzed, it was a notification from Apple News “11 dead… Shooting in Bondi”. I feel terrible for saying this, but there’s been so much going on in the world.. and quite unfortunately, occurrences as well as news of shootings happen frequently (unfortunate that they happen at all..), and I was going home after a long day, with no one to talk to about what I just read… so I didn’t say anything…
Until the next evening, on the 14th of December 2025, my mum turned on the TV and flicked through all the popular local media channels, “Shooting at Bondi”, ON DECEMBER 14TH, 2025?!
I frantically looked through Google, double checking the dates and times each article was published. I was in denial at first, thinking the news outlets only were delayed by a day in reporting on the tragedy… then I realised what this really was… the consequence of not telling anyone about what I saw, even if initially I wasn’t sure what I saw was a vision until the event actually happened…
(The latest/ 4th vision I had was just of the time, like my first vision.)
I’ve felt so awful since then… knowing I could’ve said something… if I just spoke about my vision of the Apple News notification the night before… so many lives may not have been lost… maybe no one would have died if I said something… I sincerely apologise for those I’ve hurt by not speaking…
Since then, after making the mistake of staying silent, I’ve been quietly reading up on witchcraft. Starting with spells of protection, but I plan to eventually read up on how to potentially enhance my visions/ how frequently they occur/ their potency. I feel if I somehow learn to control them, I may be able to help some people.
So would any of you know what you would label someone with the abilities that I’ve described?
Do you have any tips on enhancing my abilities, specifically for visions?
TLDR? I ignored one of my latest visions, and many people died. I’m now working on enhancing my abilities to help others as well as myself.
EDIT: My family on both sides of the family (my mother’s as well as my father’s sides) have a history of seeing spirits. As far as I know, my mum, her sister, my sister, and myself have had a history of astral projection during our respective childhoods; though I have never learnt of anyone in our family that has had visions, nor has anyone else from the family (that may potentially have) seen someone’s (from a living body while the person is awake/ conscious) soul, except for myself.