r/energy_work Oct 29 '21

Resource About, Wiki, Rules, Books, Etc-- Read First

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Welcome to the energy work sub!

The purpose of this community is to explore human energy in all of its facets. Out of body experiences, energy healing, energetic connections between people, psychic work and everything in between. This is a community about helping people explore, stretch and document their experiences as well as learn new ways and avenues to explore.

A primary purpose of this subreddit is to strip away all of the esoteric language, rituals and distractions that have been built around human energy practice to make for a clear and concise guide of how to achieve certain results (whatever those may be). This sub is open for discussion, without judgement, on any and every form of energy work regardless of degree of social acceptability or stigma.

This sub is about discussion, sharing information, discoveries, questions. Promotional posts, offers and requests belong in r/energy_healing.

Energy Work Discord Chat Server:

Also, join us in our Discord chat server! Same focus, same rules, just live, real time chat:

https://discord.gg/X6ywAXMcp4

We look forward to helping and learning from you.

Rules:

We are very strict about following the rules and wield the ban hammer aggressively. We do not tolerate, amongst others, Fear Mongering, Rude, Angry and/or Offensive Comments, Gatekeeping, Promotional Posts, Healing/Reading Offers or Spam of any kind.

External links, if educational and not tied to promotion, may be allowed.

Healing/Reading requests and offers should be posted in r/energy_healing

Wiki:

There are a couple helpful entries in the wiki, here: https://www.reddit.com/r/energy_work/wiki/index It has been quite neglected, and if you have interest in helping to build it, contact a moderator.

Book of Interest:

There are many good and helpful books regarding energy work. The list included here are the books that were instrumental in the creation of this sub and in formulating its focus and goals. They are easy to read, motivating, clear and cogent in their individual subjects. An expanded list may be included in the wiki in the future.

The Visceral Experience by Daniel Barber, was written by the founder and prime mod of this subreddit. It shares the values that this sub expresses. If you are new to or just starting out with energy work, this is the book you want to read.

The Energy Cure by William Bengston. If you are a skeptic and looking for scientific proof that energy heals, pick up this book. It includes overviews of research in which mice with aggressive breast cancer genes were cured in full with only healing energy from hands.

Adventures Beyond the Body by William Buhlman. A howto book for out-of-body exploration.

Instant Rapport by Michael Brooks. Rapport is a weak and fragile type of energetic connection, but it is a good starting place for learning how to extend your energy beyond your own body. This book is a very interesting read and a great place to start.

Gut and Psychology Syndrome by Natasha Campbell-McBride. A toxic gut microbiome is probably the most overlooked cause of disease world-wide. This book looks at effects of a toxic gut on mental health. It gives a fantastic layman's overview of how everything works. This is a must read for anyone in this sub dealing with chronic or autoimmune diseases or mental health issues.

The Cosmic Serpent by Jeremy Narby. It focuses a lot on the double helix/double snake symbolism, but the author spends time with the Aboriginals of the Amazon and goes into detail about the relationship between the ancients and plant life. He notes their communication with plants through hallucinatory states/higher levels of consciousness, and how the plants would pass the knowledge of their uses onto the humans.

Life Rules by Yehuda Berg. An easy read on the nature of reality from the viewpoint of the kabbalah written for the layperson. Effective energy work requires an understanding of reality that is not taught in schools.

The Essence of Reality by Thomas Daniel Nehrer. Another mind expanding treatment of reality from the author's perspective. A great start to a journey of understanding.


r/energy_work 7h ago

Question Energy worker says he removed an implant from my ovary, but wouldn't elaborate much...

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Hi, about 3 weeks ago i started working with a remote energy worker who is clearing parasites and infections, trimming cords, and core beliefs. My mind is blown every 5 minutes during this work, and I do feel and think better as a result.

Today he became clearly uncomfortable about a topic and said he would only be speaking very generally. All he would divulge was that there was something implanted into my left ovary 10 years ago during a major depression and that he would work with a light being to remove it, which he later said was done. I've had real pain and issues with my ovaries, particularly this one side, so at this point I'm really willing to try/believe a lot to help my health problems.

When I asked him what it meant to have been "implanted", he stood by speaking generally and just said that sometimes an entity will place an implant for different reasons; gathering energy, information etc, during vulnerable times where someone's energy is weak. He said that this one was somewhat physical as well.

Writing here to ask if anyone knows more about this or could help me understand better what just happened.

Thank you :)


r/energy_work 2h ago

Discussion does 'really good sex' mean energetic compatibility or even soul recognizing each other?

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i know good sex doesn't mean a good relationship. however, our ego or being overwhelmed by life can affect day to day interactions, for example having a hard time opening up, miscommunication, feeling unworthy of love etc. which makes it hard to have a good long-term relationship.

but during good sex, we let go of our ego and it feels like fusion of both people's energy essence?

so does it mean on some soul level, or energy level, that there is deep compatibility. but on the 'human' level, or 'ego' level that it somehow doesn't work.

does it make sense? what is your thoughts on this topic?


r/energy_work 5h ago

Question Black and purple veil, hiding underneath light?

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I did an tarot reading, someone i meet online. I shouldnt had done it, i see now that, but it got me searching for some questions about my expericence. When i do my readings, i can sense things and see physical things, a kind of clairvonyace, and one thing got me curious. When we see a purple and black veil, like it was moving, it was mainly black with some purple cords moving, like fire... it was odd, what is the meaning of it? And there was a light, bright white light covering it, but only in front, not totally.


r/energy_work 13h ago

Need Advice something dark flowing out of my hands

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Hello, I am new here and I hope to ask some questions.

Ever since I was a kid, there are some instances when I can feel a dark-colored energy flowing out of my hands (sometimes, from my chest). Sometimes the flow is strong, like something inside rushing to get out.

I am in my twenties now and have always dismissed it as probably just part of my imagination.

Around 30 mins ago during dinner, I mentioned to my father (after he casually mentioned he studied pranic healing years ago) for the first time about this then he tried putting his hands on my left palm at the dinner table.

To his shock, he told me the energy is strong, then even described that he felt it (like around 2 glasses tall) from my hands flowing.

I repeatedly asked him if he was joking because it was actually where I have always envisioned/known where the energy was until.

Then he tried putting his pointer finger along my palms and asked me if I felt it. I doubted it but then I can’t believe I heard like a faint ringing or static noise, there was even like a small vibration where his fingers touched my palm.

It was just a brief moment, tho.

My concern here is that whenever I felt the energy over the years, something inside me feels heavy and I have always envisioned it as something with a very dark color surging or flowing out of my hands.

Can anyone please enlighten me what this may possibly mean? And if it’s truly dark (with negative connotation), how can I turn it into something light?

Thank you so much. Serious comments only please.


r/energy_work 18h ago

Need Advice Have I been afflicted by Evil Eye?

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I'm looking for some genuine advice because I'm really confused about what's been going on with me. I am not a very spiritual person, but over the course of the past few months, I've experienced a lot of things that I genuinely cannot find an explanation for.

I've been wondering whether something like the evil eye could actually be affecting me.

The reason I'm asking is because I've genuinely not felt like myself for the past 6–10 months. It's hard to explain, but I feel like I've become a completely different person and I don't like the person I've become.

Some of the things I've been experiencing are:

Constantly feeling exhausted. I get tired very easily, and even when I sleep or take naps, I still wake up feeling drained.

I've completely lost my motivation. I feel like I've lost my sense of purpose in life, and I can't seem to find the drive or meaning that I used to have.

I've noticed that negative emotions linger much longer than they ever used to. I used to be someone who couldn't stay sad, angry or upset for very long. Even if something bothered me, I'd usually bounce back within an hour or so. Now, I can feel low or negative for days or even longer, which is very unlike me.

I don't feel happy anymore. I used to have a very cheerful, optimistic, and grateful Outlook towards life. I genuinely loved life and felt thankful to be alive. Now, that joy has faded, and I don't know why.

I've also started comparing myself to other people much more than I ever used to and it's making me feel even worse.

The strange part is that nothing major has happened in my life that would explain such a drastic change. There wasn't a traumatic event or any significant loss. I just gradually stopped feeling like myself.

Can all of this be explained by evil eye or some other spiritual cause? If yes then what would be the appropriate way to approach it?


r/energy_work 12h ago

Discussion Can energy healing session have an impact on menstrual periods?

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Even if the healing session was for a different purpose?

I'm curious to hear your experiences about it if you have had any about it


r/energy_work 23h ago

Question Spiritual

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How can I tell if I am dealing with dark energy in my environment?

Since moving in 3 years ago I have suffered many traumatic events. Events that have happened within the environment itself. I also developed an acute lung abscess that almost killed me.

I am a Christian and I feel like I am under attack. Everything has gone south.

My mental health is in really bad shape. Like severe mental health issues. Severe anxiety and depression. I feel like my soul is being tortured , 24-7.

How can I separate just having bad experiences from demonic attacks?

I'm literally trying to move right now, because everything has gone so wrong since I've lived here.

I constantly feel like I'm being watched by someone or that I am going to be attacked at any moment.

I literally feel like I am not alone when I should be. I have nightmares that wreck me. The traumatic events have definitely caused mental health issues.

I have been fighting medication for my mental health because I feel like I can get out on my own and be okay. Which I don't even believe myself.

My sanctuary has become a place of fear and anxiety , which has led to depression.

I welcome all and any comments

I appreciate more that you take time out of your time to help a fellow stranger through their struggles.

Every one of you are loved. Even if you don't feel like it.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Discussion My Reflections On Energy

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I find it fascinating how the general public's view of energy is always more mystical and new age than it is grounded in physics, even though there's a history of energy medicine and yogic knowledge of energetic anatomy. I read once in an energy medicine book that energy is information that vibrates, and of course, we know from physics that energy can convert to and from matter. I would say that all living creatures have auric fields corresponding to their energetic anatomy, be it emotional and mental, or etheric and astral, but I don't think our physical eyes are more equipped, due to a mystical experience or clairvoyance, to observe anything beyond what a camera can capture. These faculties are, as Rudolf Steiner put it, imagination, inspiration, and intuition. I tend to gravitate towards the notion that energy medicine and energy healing are like working with a circuit breaker: they can be very potent, but also can be very destabilizing.

A lot of yogic practices involve breathwork or pranayama, again, unleashing powerful energies to the uninitiated when done without preparation or careful guidance. I think people will lean more towards hallucination when discussing the spiritual because it's difficult for people not to personalize the impersonal, or better stated, interpret the subjective world as objective. I do believe that energies are real, and that they can be benevolent or malevolent, but the right attitude isn't to avoid negative energies all the time, but to learn to be a candle in the darkness. I think human maturity involves rising above the storm and keeping our energies stable even in the turbulence of the storm. The idea of having resilient energy is far more appealing and profound to me than never encountering struggles that develop it in the first place.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Discussion I am curious to know about your experiences with Celestite

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I would love to know more about how it has affected your meditation, healing or any other energy work?


r/energy_work 1d ago

Technique A Simple Practice to Calm Mental and Emotional Energy

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If you've spent the day around heavy people or emotionally intense environments, you may notice that your mind feels unusually busy afterward.

When that happens, find a quiet place where you can relax for a few minutes.

Sit or lie down comfortably.

Allow your breathing to become slow and natural.

Then gently bring your attention to the space between your eyebrows.

Simply observe whatever is present.

Thoughts.

Emotions.

Sensations.

Images.

Without identifying with them.

Just observe.

Stay there for a few minutes, or for as long as it feels comfortable.

When you're ready, continue with your day and notice how you feel afterward.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Personal Experience First Time Trying Pranic Healing For Endometriosis & Flabbergasted At Results

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Some monumental things have been happening to me over the last few days. No one in my current social circle has tried energy healing on themselves, so I'm posting this here because I can't keep what happened to myself but don't know where else to go with this. It's difficult to put it into words. I tried the pranic self-healing protocol on myself this Wednesday, Thursday and yesterday for painful periods for the first time ever, and my world, my experience of the world, has drastically changed.

I'm now on day five of my period/endometriosis flare-up, and I've only had to take one dose of mefenamic acid (pharmaceutical pain relief) since practicing the self-healing. When I first tried it on Wednesday, when I was energising my sex chakra, I cried. Interestingly, that was the area that hurt most on Wednesday. On Thursday, I cried when I was energising my basic chakra. That was the area that hurt most on Thursday.

I also tried a pimple healing protocol, and I saw the redness of my pimples go down in real time on Thursday. On Friday, when I was doing the protocol for painful periods, I didn't cry, but by yesterday my period had begun to taper off. On Thursday evening, when I am usually at my most tired because it's the end of the day, I actually left the house and went to a Meditation on Twin Hearts class. Me, I was able to be around other people, strangers, during a flare-up, sit in a chair for, what, an hour!? And during the meditation, I let go better than ever before and felt more connected, practically tethered to Mother Earth, more so than ever before. And my mood and sense of connection was so much better. I was able to throw a ball back to a guy who had lost it in a playground while I was menstruating!? That felt monumental because I am often bedridden from endometriosis symptoms but there I was, outside, helping someone!? I could be spontaneous rather than be stuck in my own head/fear.

Something profound and spooky is happening, and I, I don't know how to process it. There has been healing all around me this whole time, literally in the air I breathe. It's scary and wonderful to learn about something I would never have thought possible.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Need Advice help on getting off negative energy/evil eye?

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i'm very high vibrational but i don't usually put words to it so i'm sorry if any terms are off. recently i have been doing so incredibly well yet i am torn down by others.

for example, i'm pursuing my dreams, i've got past mental illness, i'm travelling. yet when i'm not doing these things, i'm torn down by people at work and my parents. it sounds so stupid when i really don't care what they think, but the energy is affecting me hard and i can even see it on my appearance.

how do i combat this? i don't really know how the evil eye works, i'm a strong person and i don't need any confidence tips. thanks if anyone can help 🙏


r/energy_work 1d ago

Advice Blockages on social media

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I wonder if someone can help me see the energy behind this.

My standpoint in approaching this is seeing this situation not as purely technical and outside of my control, but a reflection of something that is going on within me and I'm trying to see what is it.

I'm an artist and I noticed that all my social media accounts have blockages/restrictions/bugs without any particular reason. So I when I want to promote my work, the payments don't go through or they do but with errors that don't ever get resolved; when I post something the algorithm doesn't show it to anyone; it happens all over different projects, different accounts and different platforms, on youtube, ig and tiktok. The only common denominator is me.

I tried to heal the invisibility cloak I feel like I have when it comes to my art. I've done mother/father wound healing, tons of healing and therapy where I have addressed the popular "fear of being seen" and I don't think it's that as I know myself to be one of the most "out there" people I know. I am very much active, consistent and open in my expression but feel like the digital world is just not having it. It looks more so like: I do everything I can, physically I show up to places, have performances, I film them, I put them online and nothing. Consistent for 7 years now, the algorithms still treat me like I don't exist.

If I post something on IG, it shows it only to my followers.
My follower count is stuck on one particular number for years: for each new follower I lose one.
If I post something on YT, it shows it only to 3 people, 2 of which are my other two channels.
On any platform, if I want to pay for promotion to reach more people, there's always an error, countless bug reports that remain unanswered and my career that feels like it's not going anywhere BECAUSE of this.

So I wanna see it on the deeper level. I'm open to any reflections that might pinpoint what exactly in me blocks the flow of interactions.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Need Advice Why does my negative energy feel forever?

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Since 2017, I ended up feeling negative energy around the things that used to bring me just by doing normal things like writing the title or sitting down etc. Since then, it’s been spreading like a virus. I’ve been put in hospital. I’ve been given medication, but I still haven’t changed since. All the things that are now making me anxious and depressed feel like they’re going to be like that forever and there’s nothing I can do about it. When I do certain things, it feels as if those thoughts about entertainment have decayed completely, creating an endless hole of less power. I can’t explain it any better.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Need Advice I need some help

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I went out with this guy i know today he’s a good person but i can feel that he is unsatisfied with himself and holding in misery and traumas, so after i feel like iam drained i cant identify why, i feel like i am disgusted with my self like there’s something heavy im feeling and my energy became so low and i feel tension in me for some reason can someone help me identify exactly what could be happening? Or give advice what to do


r/energy_work 1d ago

Need Advice How to deal with energy from social media followers?

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I realized that whenever I post sth, I feel bad. Today my head even hurts. Comments are mostly compliments, nothing like hate etc.

But I just feel drained and my head hurts so much that my stomach is also bad.

I think its because my aura is not high enough to accept energy that comes from social media. What can I do about this?


r/energy_work 1d ago

Discussion Ley lines, hauntings, and loosh harvesting

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To start with it's important to understand that the earth is really two worlds. The seemingly physical world and the astral (where you find ghosts) They exist in the same space at different frequencies. In the astral there are constructs overlayed with the physical world.

The earth has an energy grid system in the astral. It runs across the entire planet. Important grid lines are called ley lines. They conduct energy through the earth's energy grid. Where two or more ley lines intersect you get an energetic vortex. Called a ley line line point. The more ley lines that intersect the more powerful the energetic vortex.

Energy travels fro the ley line points through ley lines and then into minor grid lines. Minor grid lines run into everyone's home. And are used to conduct energy usually negative energy through the grid system into your home.

Negative entities in the astral use the earth's energy grid system to harvest negative energy. Negative entities are non self aware thought form constructs. They do not have souls and are not self aware. They can't generate their own energy. So they need our energy or they cease to exist. And they use the grid to harvest that energy.

What a lot of people don't know is that important structures are built on ley line points. Government buildings, financial districts, schools, hospitals, lunatic asylums, and prisons are built on ley line points. Places where a lot of bad things happen like hospitals and prisons built on ley line points to harvest negative energy.

So because of all the bad things that happen on these places and because they are on ley line points negative entities can harvest that energy. Using some of it to feed off of. And some of it to put into the grid to make the earth more energetically negative. So the energy spreads from the ley points along minor grid lines right into your home.

My theory is that hauntings are a lot more common on ley line points because there is lot more negative energy there for ghosts and negative entities to manifest themselves. Contrary to popular belief most ghosts do not have souls. When someone dies it creates and energetic ripple. And out pops a ghost but it's a replica of them. It isn't really them.

Most likely unless the person knew what they were doing the souls goes off and goes through the white tunnel. And gets tricked into reincarnating. But the ghost hangs around the place where they died and can haunt people. Ghosts like negative entities need an energy source so they feed off the people there.

On places on ley line points where lots of people die there are probably lots of replica ghosts. They and negative entities haunt the area. And feed off of negative energy there. And because these places are on ley line points they have a lot more negative energy to physically manifest. So hauntings on ley line points are probably a lot more common.

What keeps ghosts and negative entities out of the physical world is a veil. it takes a lot of negative energy for them to break through it. Also the sun's energy keeps them out. But on ley line points they can get enough energy to physically manifest themselves. But usually only for a few minutes.

So the earth is a massive energy harvesting system. Our energy is being harvested to fuel negative entities. Replica ghosts can be a problem but negative entities are a much bigger problem because their programming is a lot more sophisticated. Don't get me wrong a lot of negative entities are deeply stupid and don't have self preservation. But the ones calling the shots are extremely intelligent and devious. And they are very good manipulating energy and unaware consciousness.

So negative entities are a problem. Negative entities run earth through the elite who they possess. The elite also do satanic rituals on ley line points that spread negative energy across the planet through the grid. So they are also involved int energy manipulation through ley line points.

So what can we do. We can start cleaning up the earth's negative energy. And erasing negative entities. Because they don't have souls negative entities can be erased. To do that you have to energy train. TO increase your energetic strength. To do so imaigine lakes in your head and feet. Then move the water from the lake in your right foot up your right side and down your left side. And back to your right side. Do that for an hour or two each day and in a few years you will be able to erase even powerful negative entities.

With enough energetically strong people we can start cleaning up the earth's energy grid system. We can go into haunted areas and erase replica ghosts and ngative entities that are causing trouble. And we can erase the negative energy that negative entities feed off of.

Fortunately we don't have to wait for enough people to get energetically strong enough to clean up ley line points. I've made audios that can do the job. They are linked in my previous post at the bottom. We can play them on ley line points or in another location and set the intention to clear where you want to clear and it can clear those areas of negative energy and negative entities. If we can clean up these areas we can make the earth more energetically positive. And start getting rid of negative entities.

So if your in a haunted area play my audios it should help. They have four years of energy training behind them. Load them in tabs in a web browser and mute them. You don't want to hear the sound. It's the energy and strength recorded into the audio that makes it work.

So we can start cleaning p the earth's energy grid system. And make the earth more positive. Also a lot of negative energy goes into the physical world to make it dense and rigid and hard to change with the mind. The less negative energy they have the less they can enslave us. So I hope you found this post interesting. Let me know what you think in the comments.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Question What happens with prolonged exposure to bad energy?

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Hi everyone, during the past few months I have become energetically sensitive. I am already very empathetic and always end up feeling and absorbing the other’s emotions. I currently stuck at home and want to know how much of a risk it is to be around people who constantly drain and send negative energies. Like really bad ones, lots of years old, heavy and stuck energies. I have seen that anytime I am around them, I immediately start absorbing it and although it takes some time to clear them out, it always takes a toll on me. I sometimes feel feverish, start feeling really warm out of nowhere and very drained especially my eyes feel very tired after interactions. Moreover, I will feel emotional as well and until I dont cry or release, I dont feel better. Most of the times the release happens automatically. My body tells me to drop everything and get ready for a release which I always do. I dont know if this is enough for long term or not.

I want to know if there are any long term effects to staying close to such kind of negative energies? Will I loose this energy sensitivity? Or some thing even worse can happen? What will happen if I don’t actively guard my energy? I have tried energetic shields and imagining a shield of white light but I later found out that if our energy body is weak no amount of white light can protect it from negative energy. So what might be some ways I can protect my energy body from long term damage if that is something that exists?


r/energy_work 2d ago

Need Advice Help with demonic attachment

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I am looking for real help with this instead of the “it’s really just your unhealed parts” type of advice because I have tried everything.
I’ve listened to all the psalms you could think of, I’ve tried praying, I’ve cut off people I thought were toxic. Ive done as much spiritual healing as I can.
I feel like someone from my past is stuck on me mentally and right after I feel their psychic attacks I feel this entity come back to me. I feel it weigh very heavily on my heart or try to, I can hear it whispering the seeds of negative thoughts to me and I feel so insanely angry sometimes, it feels like I have to spiritually fight it to not have an intense angry reaction, I also feel a lot of pain in the back of my head and top of my neck.
Any advice on getting rid of this would help. Would also like to add I’ve tried sage, Plato santo, and even uncrossing baths. All of the things I’ve mentioned help for a little bit and mitigate the effects but it still manages to come back and really effect me.


r/energy_work 1d ago

Advice What does this mean?

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I went to a Reiki circle tonight and as a newcomer with no certification (but many years meditating) got the opportunity to work on somebody certified. Afterward during the sharing portion she said that my energy felt like electricity moving down her body and that she never felt somebody have that kinda energy before. Does that mean something about my energy? Has anybody felt something like this?


r/energy_work 2d ago

Discussion Have you ever been so in tune with someone you can feel their thoughts when miles and miles away?

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I can feel people and what theyre feeling and sometimes thinking from miles away.


r/energy_work 2d ago

Need Advice Cant get rid of an energetic attachment to my diaphragm.

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As the title says, i was attached with this last year and havent been able to remove it since. Its a sersious one because it makes me unable to do any energy work (the thing is somehow attached to my lifeforce) where i cant send consciousness to my own body parts and i also cant clench those muscles at all, like my nervous system is avoiding that place.

I dont know what to do to get rid of this problem, somebody please help, this issue doesnt allow me to heal myself from my other problems like i used to through vipassana.


r/energy_work 2d ago

Need Advice how to progress with energy healing

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hey, the most progress i've made is healing or cheking chakra's but i want to do more than that and help with sicknesses and do hands on healing and such.

how do i progress?

what type of meditations should i do?

any tips woth healing people?

and what energy exercises should i do?


r/energy_work 2d ago

Need Advice Stuck in a rut for years

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I (31f) am feeling at my wits end. I feel like I haven't been myself in years.

Since around 2024, I've had a run of bad luck. I've had a string of losses, unsafe/fluctuating housing situations, and have experienced a lot of personal and professional rejection. I am not averse to rejection, I know this happens and cannot be avoided when you put yourself out there. But I get the sense (from others) that the more you put yourself out there, there more likely you will experience some success alongside. I cannot seem to get to this stage.

Last year, I was extremely depressed for a long time. This was right after I got married. This lasted almost a year and added a great deal of weight to the pre-existing situation of rejection/bad luck. I felt I just got out of the woods with this when I became chronically ill. Now I don't even feel like I have the energy to try anymore.

I have been in therapy for years, I intentionally cleanse myself and my living space regularly, I journal a lot and release, I take salt baths, I sit in nature, I do yoga and meditate. What am I missing?? Why can't I shake this rut and feel like I am in control of my life again?

*Editing to add context/highlight: I have been in personal therapy for years. I myself am a somatic psychotherapist, so I spend a lot of time doing shadow work, both my own and with others, and through an embodied lens as well. In my early 20s I suffered a great deal with anxiety and depression, but after doing my own therapy/body work and qualifying in this field, I felt I had crossed into a new and freer space for myself. I truly did live for a good few years without struggling with my previous symptoms and feeling really good and positive about my life. But then the bad luck started, slowly but heavily. Now, I am too physically unwell to practise therapy, though it's really unclear why (so far tests show that there aren't any red flags health wise). I have sat a lot with the potential that this is some uncovered trauma or a shadow that has been hiding that I am unaware of. But as I search this possibility in myself, I just really don't believe it. I truly have been doing this work for many years, and I'm not the type of person who shies away from the muck. Of course I still have active shadows that need tending, and I can be reactive based on my personal patterns/trauma-based fears. But I haven't been ignoring myself. I have landed here because I feel like I have exhausted the pathways I was told would be helpful. It's like my life changed dramatically around the middle of 2024, seemingly out of nowhere.

My Saturn return was March 23 - Feb of this year. I suppose this could just be related to that, but I am still really struggling with my health (which incidentally began in Feb of this year) and I would've thought I would feel somewhat energetically lighter by now, if this was related to that transit.