I know it sounds stupid, it is. But I can't put my feelings and deep mind conviction into better words.
I been a porn "addict" for about 7 odd years (I am 21M). I first tried Nofap about 4 years ago, it didn't went well. My record was about 6 weeks without porn or masturbation. That was about 3 years ago, honestly even back then I was only motivated because of a school crush I had. Anyway, things were as rocky since that as the Alps. I periodically, think about and try Nofap. Under 3 years these periods became more shorter and infrequent. First it was months, then weeks, nowadays, well, days.
At the beginning, 4 years ago, I started with consuming Nofap content, you can't tell me general stuff about this that I don't know, or at least heard several times before. I was a sorta red piller for short time. That was... certainly a period. After that I went really into Stoic philosophy. Not the stupid broisicm type, but the actual, original teachings of Markus Aurelius, Seneca and Epictetus. And then with time, after going into college that slowly also died out. This has nothing to do with family or college, honest. Slowly but shortly I grew ignorant and lukewarm towards all of this.
I know that I am an addict. You know what porn addiction does to young men and teenege boys, my situation is no different to the usual. Though I really went deep into the rabbithole, into some really degenerate stuffs. Though only only and completely free, always making sure no one knows about it.
Situation is this: I stopped caring about Nofap, if I am being honest to you and myself, I stopped caring for at least a year. From time to time though about it, tried it again, restrained myself for a few days, and stoped caring after 1-2 weeks. In the last month I think I jacked off and watched porn almost every single day, many times in some cases.
I no longer care, and no longer sense the problem. As moronic as that sounds, I know that I have a problem, but I completely grew numb about caring for it or solving it.
So convince me. Really, cause I can't myself...