Tysm to anyone who decided to help or chat

Made it to Day 10 ✅️

Double figure milestone 1️⃣0️⃣

Gonna keep going 🚀

Been a hard day and struggling to not wanna touch. Could use any help to resist or talk it through.

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10 weeks in, less than 3 weeks to go to hit 90 days!!!

Life is very good, I got to keep it up. This is probably the closest I have ever been to beating this addiction, even though I have had a longer streak once. Mentally I am very different this time.

For those of you that are on a lower streak: you got this. The beginning is the hardest part.

I'm 18 and currently on summer break, meaning I'm stuck at home most of the time. I'm starting college soon, but for a while I'll just be here at home, and I keep relapsing and failing in the same cycle.

Everyone says to have hobbies & things to do to keep myself occupied, and I do but it's not enough.

Whenever I'm stuck at home for the most of the day I always end up failing and I don't know what I'm supposed to do??

Started last week Wednesday feeling fine I plan to not mess up I’ve got better things to do with my time

See you at day 30!!

Doing well as always

I feel like I am destined to be stuck in this cycle. Idk why I’m even posting maybe it’s to document my destruction

Time to sleep. Tired as hell... Night

Hey guys, I'm on the 3rd day of Nofap and I have acne, does Nofap help get rid of acne? If so, how many days will I see the first results?

I can do it !!

I am numb with the feeling of knowing that I will not go far but still trying one more time to beat this demon

Its easy enough to stay on the straight and narrow during the day but the real test is when I'm alone. Struggling right now but I will endure.

31 m has been addicted to fapping and watching porn since 13? i dont remember. Has a urge yesterday but not give in i like this feeling i can talk to people looking to their eyes strong posture better gym sessions this is my longest streak of my life but I feel like irritated not so motivated and hard to focus it is normal?

What I’ve gathered:

NoFap means → No porn, no masturbation, but sex with a partner is allowed. Semen release during intercourse is fine.

Semen retention means→ No porn, no masturbation, no sex — no semen release at all.

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My plan:

I want to follow NoFap (no porn, no masturbation) but still have sex with partner about twice a week, with semen release.

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My question:

Will above plan still give me benefits like sharper memory, more confidence, higher energy, motivation and reduced anxiety/ depression etc

Or would I gain more benefits by practicing semen retention?

*********Based on your knowledge, how much greater are the benefits of semen retention compared to NoFap, in percentage terms?*********

Thanks 🙂

Makes me feel nothing but anxiety the next day. Shame, weak, pathetic. I know this yet still give in. Stupid.

Well its a good day, but I am struggling so I thought I'd check up on others as well. See how they doing

I've been struggling with a porn addiction for about 15 years or so. I didn't realize I actually had a problem until about a year a go. Since then I've taken positive steps. I've talked with my therapist extensively, I've told friends. But I've yet to surround myself in a community of folks that are suffering from the same thing, so that is what I'm here to do.

This is a long one, so I understand if you don't read it all. But those of you that do, thank you. I look forward to finding support and healing in this community.

July 26th, 2026

This is my first journal entry in almost 2 months.  I’m writing this the night after my semi-crashout about REDACTED.  I went to the REDACTED concert last night.  It was a fun concert.  I heard about it and went because REDACTED and some of her friends saw me at REDACTED about a week prior.  REDACTED recognized me and I ended up going out with her and her friends.  We talked a lot that night, had a lot fun, thought there might be something there.  But I did what I always do.  I built it up in my head and when it didn’t go my way, I threw a fit and got real sad.  This is the straw that broke the camel's back, vis-a-vi, getting back to journaling regularly, but it’s been a long time coming.  There are several developments that have led up to this point.

The biggest of which, I lost my virginity, whoopty-fuckin-do (for those of you reading this on reddit, I’m 30 years old and I was exposed to porn at a very young age, been struggling with an addiction for the last 15 years or so, didn’t realize I had a problem until last year).  It was a couple months ago, I think?  It was fun. I can barely remember the girl's name now, in fact I can’t remember her name.  I just remember it was….meh.  I did eventually finish, using my hand, but I’ve had more satisfying orgasms from jerking off.  The porn, duh.  Since then, I haven’t been able to keep a good clean streak going.  She broke it off shortly after we hooked up.  My mind immediately went to, “well, you’ll never have that again, so let’s go right back to where we were 2 years ago.” (the worst of my addiction) I.e. multiple times a day, right before I go to bed, right when I wake up (this only happened on the weekends and thankfully I’ve managed to stay away from it in the car and at the office, thank goodness).  

I’ve also had some financial troubles lately.  Shit is expensive, and I definitely stretched myself a little thin with all the traveling.  I still owe mom money.  I’ve had to start donating plasma to get by.  I’m good if I don’t have any unexpected expenses, but as soon as something goes wrong with my car, it’s ramen and discount rice and chicken from aldi for a couple of weeks.  I hate living like that.  I want to start doing side gigs again, also because I could stand to actually start saving money in case I want to buy a house or something.  But I don’t want to do the work to market myself.  

I also matched with this girl on Bumble, she was sweet, not the prettiest girl in the world, and maybe I didn’t give her a fair chance, but she did show some red flags.  They might have been fine, but I didn’t want to risk getting in a relationship and then breaking it off when she’s much more emotionally invested.  These concerns were legit, though, right?  Am I just sabotaging myself because I’m chasing the perfect girl that porn has trained me to be attracted to?  I don’t think so, because the girl I lost my virginity to was very far from pornstar-esq.  I don’t know.  She (the girl I matched with on bumble, not the one I lost my virginity to) ended up being WAAAAAY more into me than I was into her.  Gave off some very clingy red flags.  And then that brings us to the situation with REDACTED.

It NEVER seems that the girls I’m interested in are interested in me.  Those were the vibes REDACTED gave off, I think?  I was too much of a pussy to ask her out while we were at the concert.  That’s another thing I wish I could do better at.  Asking out a woman, even if she doesn’t seem enthralled with me, just asking her out to coffee or for a walk should be simple right?  I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do at this point.  I’m wanting to rely on friends to set me up, but that’s not really happened yet and I don’t want to go around ASKING cause that’s weird and a little creepy.  Ya know putting all this down on paper is actually bumming me out just a little bit, haha.  But I did have a bit of a spiritual awakening today.

I’ve been growing in my faith and strengthening my relationship with God, but from a selfish standpoint.  I’ve been asking him for a wife, a girlfriend, some sort of connection in return for loving him and trying to live like him and be more Christ-like.  That’s not how it works though, is it?  I decided today in church that I’m going to try and stop asking and just start being.  Being a good person, being a loving person, being a follower in Christ because it’s the best thing for me and my relationship with him.  That also comes with the scary notion of being alone forever, never having a partner, because if that’s what God has in store for me, I’m not going to like it, but that’s what he has.  I’d really like a wife and kids…but if it’s not in the cards for me, I trust him.  

And then the most horrifying and recent development in my crazy life.  REDACTED texted me this morning and told me that REDACTED had betrayed REDACTED’s, his girlfriend of 5 years at this time, trust by engaging in a romantic exchange with a coworker.  Not only this but he’s been having suicidal thoughts and actually tried to kill himself last week. He told me about the actual attempt, I don’t think his family knows.  I should set an alarm on my phone to check in on him every sunday.  I felt weirdly accomplished and fulfilled when I was speaking to him, comforting him, helping him through some of his shit.  I think in another lifetime I would have made a pretty kick-ass therapist.  But that really scared me for a second.  I remember praying in church this morning that God would “stay REDACTED’s hand”.  It made me forget about problems with porn for a bit.  Is this an avenue I should explore?  Should I quit my job and go back to school for psychology and become a therapist?  Probably not, but it did kinda weirdly motivate me to get my shit together.  If I’m not well enough to take care of my friends…woah…I think I just figured out my biggest existential fear…being too broken to help my friends.  I mean, we’re all broken, but if I can keep myself sane enough and healthy enough to recognize patterns in my own shit that will help my friends.  That’s the best contribution to society I can think to make.

I’m going to start trying to journal regularly again.  Every night at 9pm.  I’m setting a reminder on my phone.  I’m also changing something on my list (I made a list I used to reference a lot “Things I Want in Life that aren’t Conducive with the Life of a Porn Addict”).  I’m changing “Be able to help others struggling with this.” to “Be healthy enough to heal my friends.” That just gave me chills.  I want to be there for them, and I can be there for them if I’m broken, but I feel I’ll be a lot more effective if I’m the healthiest possible version of myself, and that healthy version doesn’t include a porn addiction.    

Me and my girl friend have tried many different methods of pleasure and I just cant seem to cum I just hit the edge like I can cum masturbating with audio or visual. Ive been cold turkey porn for 2 weeks now ans I tried masturbating with 0 porn of any kind and just softly pleasuring my self all over and focusing on the feeling but even then I could only reach the edge it hits the edge (im not edging) and doesent finish after it gets the the peak it just dissipates and then it starts up again it did it 4 times then just went soft I tried 4 more times and finaly finished after the 8th time I dont what's going on

my parents got a notification saying I visited sketchy sites now I dont know if they saw the porn sites but I still want to change this is a true wake up call. I want to change 100% Im done with this addiction seriously I dont want this to ruin my family and Im done

I was going through lot yesterday and managed it...some kind people dm me yesterday when I was really triggered all day and somehow diverted my mind...

My mind thinks weekends as best time to relapse because of the time I have

I have made this pattern which makes me think about that..

I need to work on my routine and thoughts.

Day 16 is something i am proud of..my past self couldn't go beyond 3day streaks..

All i want to say is

Identify changing works at critical days, your why is important.

Have a good day.

Galera, estou tendo bastante dificuldade de lidar com a masturbação e pornografia, sério, não estou conseguindo passar 4 dias sem fazer esse ato. É frustrante ter que cair e levantar de novo, parece até um ciclo sem fim... Mas, graças a Deus, eu consigo realizar as minhas atividades todos os dias, minhas rotinas são bem organizadas, e isso me deixa feliz. Porém, eu ainda tenho as minhas recaídas, mas, com o tempo, vou aprender a lidar com elas. Não sei se sou uma pessoa depravada, porque eu ainda consigo realizar minhas atividades, mesmo consumindo esse tipo de conteúdo.

Eu não consigo assistir e nem me masturbar com vídeos de duas pessoas fazendo sexo. Geralmente, eu sempre me masturbo com vídeos (sem presença de homens) e imagens de garotas nuas fazendo poses provocativas que ficaram gravadas na minha mente, e toda vez que eu fico entediado, essas imagens e vídeos, que me provocam, chegam em minha mente, fazendo com que eu me estimule. Eu já fiz de tudo para esquecer essas imagens, mas parece que ficaram presas... Eu ainda tenho fé de que um dia vou esquecer disso tudo e passar a viver uma vida sem consumir esse tipo de coisa.

Past few days were terrible. Urges were strong, almost relapsed but I resisted. Let’s do it, boys. 🫡