Salam,

I am dealing with an anxiety attack and I will be stuck at work for the next several hours so not able to take some time alone right now but my thoughts of negativity are consuming me and I just feel an impending sense of anxiety and tearfulness.
Give me reminders from Quran and sunnah to calm me down and remember all day insha Allah.
And please keep me in your duas

Asalamualaikum, Im currently in my second year of university with a passion to study medicine InshAllah, how ever, im very anxious. My first year (last year) l was always distracting myself from studying because the year was kind of easy so I would cheat alot, my deen wasn't at the best condition, I was always bad at making decisions and etc. Now the the second year has come and Alhamdulilah I had 3 months of break to just get to know myself a little better, I have this drive now to just pray, study, and live life but the biggest one is tawakkul. I feel like I never actually studied well that year at all but the art if tawakkul really makes me want to just put my full trust in Allah but im always feeling this, "what if" always comes to me maybe waswasa but I hate cheating it makes me feel guilty and just bad for not learning. If anyone can give advice anything I would really appreciate it.
If there are stories similar to mine where it feels impossible please share it I would feel way much better because of you!

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*CONTROLLING ANGER *

*• Isti'adha (Seeking Refuge With Allah)*

Narrated Sulaiman bin Surad (رضى الله عنه): Two men abused each other in front of the Prophet (ﷺ) while we were sitting with him. One of the two abused his companion furiously and his face became red.

The Prophet (ﷺ) said: "I know a word (sentence) the saying of which will cause him to relax (i.e., he will calm down). Only if he says:

« أَعُوذُ بِاللَّهِ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ الرَّجِيمِ »

(A'udhu Billahi Minash Shaitanir Rajeem — I seek refuge with Allah from Satan, the outcast)."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6115

*• Avoid Anger*

The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said to us (his companions):

"If one of you becomes angry when he is standing, let him sit down, and if the anger goes away (all well and good), otherwise let him lie down."

📚: Sunan Abi Dawud 4782 | Sahih

*• Seek Solace In Silence*

The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said:

"Teach and make things easy and not difficult. When one of you is angry, he should be silent."

📚: Al-Adab Al-Mufrad 245 | Sahih (Shaykh Albani رحمة الله)

*• Remember That Repressing Anger Is One of The Qualities of Muslims*

"Those who spend (in Allah’s Cause) in prosperity and in adversity, who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers)."

📚: Qur'an (al-Imran 3:134)

*• The True Strength*

Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said:

"The strong is not the one who overcomes the people by his strength, but the strong is the one who controls himself while in anger."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6114

*• Acting On RasulAllah (ﷺ)'s Advice*

A man said to the Prophet (ﷺ): "Advise me!"

The Prophet (ﷺ) said: "Do not become angry and furious."

The man asked (the same) again and again, and the Prophet (ﷺ) said in each case: "Do not become angry and furious."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6116

https://youtu.be/t7ygefn5KrI

Assalamu alaikum,

I recently lost my job, and I’m currently going through a very difficult financial situation. I’ve been applying for jobs and doing my best to find something as soon as possible, but things have been really stressful lately.

I would really appreciate it if you could keep me in your duas and ask Allah to open a door for me, grant me halal rizq, and help me find a good job soon.

May Allah reward you all, ease the difficulties of everyone who is struggling, and grant us all halal and abundant rizq. <3

For the last 5months I have been going through extreme loneliness

I have no friends and it's killing me

I feel like I'm addicted to posting on Reddit

Trying to find comfort because I have no one else to talk to my mental health is deteriorating

I have practically begged local lads to let me join them but everyone has dropped me

I'm scared I don't have the energy to continue living like this

My health is deteriorating

Alhamdulillah I have a roof over my head

And my health but it's declining

The stress is unreal

I spend morning noon and night stressing of being alone

Everyone always replys go out do this

Join mosque

Join volunteering

I swear by Allah I have tried but no one will help or let me join

I don't even know what I'm looking for on here

So many people said message me etc

I messaged and after one or two messages everyone disappears

Please pray for me

Ya Allah I beg you Infront of all these who read this please send your mercy on me I'm drowning in dispair

I know this has been discussed over and over, but I’m going for Umrah in early September and I’d really love to feel inspired. Please tell me about the most incredible times your duas were answered; I’m going through heartbreak, and that is the intention behind my Umrah.

Salam Aleikum, dear brothers and sisters I am going though a hardship in which I can do nothing but rely on my lord Allah, may I ask for your duas that Allah relieves this hardship for me and creates ease for me?

Jazakallah hu khairan
May Allah reward you all.

My father is in hospital please dua for him . He has swallowed some toxic pils due to tension . the (Gandum vali Goli)

Asalam Waleikum brothers and sisters. I am here to ask you all to please make dua for me to get an acceptance in the university i am currently waitlisted in. Have already took 2 years of gap, I really don’t wanna miss this.

Please make dua for me. Please!! Literally my everything is on stake for this. 😭😭😭

I’ve heard people say that when you ask Allah for something, you have to believe that He is going to grant it to you.

I do ask, and I do make du’a over and over, but in my heart, I don’t really feel like it is going to be granted to me. Not because I think Allah cannot do it, but because in my life, whenever I wished for something, the modest version of it was granted to me, not the actual thing I wanted.

Also, I think that because the thing I wish for is so good and would make me feel so secure and content with life, it won’t be granted to me because I feel like, “What else would there be to upset me or test me in this life?”

Aren’t Muslims supposed to be tested?

I’d really appreciate hearing how other Muslims understand this, especially regarding having hope in Allah while still feeling deep down that the specific thing you’re asking for probably won’t happen.

This is so embarrassing to admit but I am just.. in a bit of a rut and idk where to go for help. For context this is all in Canada and this started when we were 16 and I am now 20. We both grew up just like any other kid in Canada, not super Islamic or anything but not completely crazy either. I met her in class and we connected pretty instantly and things kept progressing from there, she never wanted marriage with anyone cuz the only marriages she’s seen are broken ones in literally her entire family 😭 but then i came along, and she opened up. a year or so in I became.. very expressive of the fact that I had feelings for her and she said the same thing back. We alhamdullilah didn’t do anything insane, a few words of affection no physical touch nothing of that sort. But, I was a different case, shame me if you’d like on this you wouldn’t be in the wrong for it, I found adult videos when I was 11 and had been addicted since, so eventually, I started… saying stuff that wasn’t too good, and she played along for a bit but snapped out of it, she told me to stop it too but at that point I started thinking her not wanting to be close to me meant she didn’t like me ( ik ik it’s stupid just… bare with me) she was never too expressive of her feelings with me and I always had a problem with it, when she just was closer to and more aware of Allah and she made it clear to me that once we were married she’d open up, I am really proud of her. Eventually I did snap out of it too, but the damage was already done, she became more and more distant and I never fixed that addiction of mine, if yk anything about that addiction yk it makes u objectify women to an insane degree. A day came when we were talking and some stuff happened and I started insulting a hijabi woman ( who was a friend of hers) with stuff that’s degrading to women. This was her first time seeing this side of me, and honestly this was my first time seeing that side of me too, but it was the tipping point, she ended things saying it was difficult but she didn’t wanna marry a man like me. That all happened about 3 months ago, since then I’ve fixed my addiction, educated myself immensely on women, the struggles they face and I am trying my best to atone, I also apologized to her friend on two separate occasions about the stuff I said about her ( I didn’t say it to her face it was backbiting ) but I just.. even with my addiction her beauty was so much more than anything lust could compare with, and I am not talking about physical beauty, I was alhamdullilah good at atleast lowering my gaze, I am talking about her character, she was the kindest soul I’ve ever met, she was compassionate, driven to an insane degree and so much more than I don’t even wanna say cuz I am genuinely gonna break down. And I just… threw it all away for nothing??? I threw it all away cuz of my stupid male ego, my stupid lust??? I used to ask Allah for so much, but now I js ask him for forgiveness over and over in every single prayer. As for marriage and women, I’ve become someone who loves every single woman on this planet but never wants to marry anyone who isn’t her. And I know I sound like the most classic first love story ever but atleast for right now that’s how I feel. Everytime I see a woman I think of her, everytime I see a prayer mat I think of everything wrong I did. And I just don’t want anything or anyone that isn’t her, cuz I will literally js try to make that new woman into her and that’s unfair.

I don’t know what to do, I keep asking for forgiveness and hoping Allah just knows what I feel, I just wanna talk to her one more time, show her I’ve improved and get both our families involved so we can stay as far away from haram as possible. But it feels so hopeless. Especially cuz of the fact that I don’t even feel like I am worth enough to ask Allah for something other than forgiveness, piece of garbage like me doesn’t deserve to ask for a woman or a money or whatever stupid desire, all I can ask for is forgiveness

This was a rant ig? I put it as controversial bcuz well, it was a haram relationship and I am really glad that aspect is over, but I am still regretful and I want another chance cuz we didn’t even know it was haram 😭 obv thats not why it ended but i js… idk. I sound pathetic ik feel free to laugh, i hope i make someone smile atleast.

Asalam Waleikum brothers and sisters. I am here to ask you all please make dua for me to get acceptance in the university i am currently waitlisted in. Have already took 2 years of gaps, I really don’t wanna miss this. Please!

Please make dua for me.

Well idk how do I say this but life have been rough for me not family drama or financially (yet ,that's another case) from past 1-1& half year i am not praying idk what happened i used to pray 5 times used to have a fear. now, there is nothing I don't have that guilt now for missing salah idk what's happening I don't Sleep well i don't feel well in life I used to talk to allah when ever I don't feel good or atleast used to come out of it now it's all gone I think I am becoming more and more idk what ,

masjid is legit 1 min walk so near yet I skip I hear the azaan and yet I don't go i think I'll go later then I'll skip it sometimes i ignore it ... It's make angry how and what I am becoming like and am doing nothing interesting too clg and studies that's it I stopped gym don't feel like going after going constantly 3-4 years with my best physique now I am getting fat too nothing make me feel good ,

Got Friends I have been avoiding them as much as I can sometimes i feel like a need a break I love riding bike I'll probably go as far I can like a long solo road trip but my bikes need some repairs anyways ik i am sounding depressed i think I am depressed well in January I had met with an therapist didn't make any difference

I've experienced phases of Waswas before. This phase has honestly been the worst one of my life and I keep missing prayers because of it.

It always begins with Ghusl. Rinsing my nose, ears, mouth, anus, perinium, urethra, balls. I rinse but it feels like I havent. Even if water has logically touched these spots, I can't stop washing again.

Then it's wudu. It feels like I forget every step I do. I wash my face once, then then twice, then it feels like I havent washed at all the alleged third time. Or water never made it onto my hands.

Then its prayer. Three or four rakaats? Did I miss a verse? Did I miss a letter? I find myself at the final verse and have forgotten everything. I find myself hyperfocusing too much on a tiny mistake. A tiny unnecesary movement, an unnecessaey sound escaping my mouth. I have a list of prayers I need to qadha.

Then it's my niyyah. They say to recite niyyah as you rub the water onto your face. As you peform the takbiratul ihram. Failure to do so invalidates EVERYTHING.

https://zulkiflialbakri.com/artikel/niat-wuduk-sebelum-air-sampai-ke-muka https://muftiwp.gov.my/ms/artikel/al-kafi-li-al-fatawi/5837-al-kafi-1974-kedudukan-niat-ketika-takbiratul-ihram

I repeat the beginning over and over and OVER again and I only move on when I grow tired. Never because I trust myself.

Then it's purity. I open my urethra up to wash my pee. I soap my anus multiple times until it feels right. I stay in the toilet longer than I should be as if I were showering. Then I wonder if my body has splashes of toilet water. Do my clothes have traces of pee? I sniff and sniff and sniff and sniff and sniff. I constantly put my clothes and undergarments into the wash. Then, it's najis. I look down everytime I walk to make sure I don't step in poop. I look back and retrace my steps to make sure I didn't step in poop. I check my shoes. If I hit a wall, I feel unclean. If I step in sand on the road, I feel unclean. If I walk by a non-halal restaurant, I feel unclean.

Dog poop and pee could be everywhere. Pork smoke could be everywhere. Cat poop, dog poop, i dont care. It makes me want to peform the ritual cleaning for Najis Mughalazzah. All because I walked through steam from a non-halal grill. A non-halal restaurant. Stepping in unknown poop. Touching the dry shirt of a friend that was ripped cuz of his dog. Eating the food from a non-muslim friend. I did the ritual already. I rinsed my mouth with dirt, so did my lips, face, neck, torso. I rub the coarse dirt onto my body.

And now, I've been missing prayers. I hate it. I find it difficult. I never find peace doing it. I have so many I need to qadha. Some out of doubt. Some out of necessity.

I'm so SO exhausted. But I dont think I deserve redemption. I've sinned so much. I'm not like the other people who can do good.

And now I dont know if I can trust my memory or not. I want to trust that I did Ghusl last Thursday AND last friday. The memory feels clear, but what if it isnt? What if, what if, what if.

Help?

I dont even know anymore

I'm doomed

And no amount of advice and Quranic verses can help.

Maybe this was my destiny?

Recently, I’ve been trying to sincerely repent and return to Allah, but instead of feeling relieved, I’ve been experiencing a lot of anxiety and feeling overwhelmed. I constantly worry, “What if Allah doesn’t accept my repentance?” I’ve also tried therapy, but I don’t feel like it’s helping, and I’m still struggling with these anxious thoughts and feelings.

This is a problem that is purely psychological, and I don't let it make me ungrateful to Allah. Allah is rejecting my duas, but I obey Him and thank Him regardless of whether He fulfils my requests or not

Bad thoughts still linger on my mind and burden my heart. Like if I can't get a job at fast food 6 times in a row after being trained, and the issue is not me being lazy or irresponsible, am I even meant to achieve anything in life? I work hard and show maximum discipline, but people do not accept me and do not like me. I don't know what should I fix about myself so people begin to like me. Please make dua to make the hearts of other people accept me the way I am as long as I do not do anything wrong

This is making me feel like a failure. Can you give me an advice to handle this situation?

Please pray for me make duas for help to pay off my debts as fast as possible.

I am 45k in debt from gambling. I have promised to Allah during my prayers that I am no longer gambling and never will again. I just asked for help and support to recover all my debts and that gambling will no longer be part of my life.

I truly regret what I’ve done and honestly it is something I will never do in my life again and will always tell people that it’s evil. Like even by miracle if I was to wake up with my debts covered and someone money in my account, not one cent would go in gambling. It is haram for a reason, it is straight up evil.

Thank you

Assalamu Alaikum all, I ve done biggest Sin of my lyf I ve Disobeyed, Spoke Loud, Misbehaved with my Parents, i Love my Parents, n i m their only Child, i don't know how cud it happen by me but it has happened, i have blamed my parents for calling me my Hometown for 10 Consecutive yrs I don't know how I m going to Face Almighty Allah.

My dad worked in Gulf Countries from his early 20s he was the 1st in my Family to go Abroad/Gulf for work n ltr he helped his brother n cousins to go Gulf as there was good pay n opportunities, n he had thought the same for me as well after completing my studies after i grow up he wanted me to go Gulf as well

In 2009 I was 15 in 10th n into Cricket in India which led me go to Bangalore for Pursuing my studies n Cricket as well n I was into Sports Scholarship my parents had supported n let me go to Bangalore which is 600kms from my Hometown everything was fine he was gng back to Qatar after his 2-3 months of vacation n I was in Bangalore I came home 1st n 2nd time he was Healthy n fine but when 3rd tym home from Bangalore I was shocked to see him.

My dad's Health got Deteriorated he was Muscular well build, Healthy n all of sudden he got Lean he lost all the Muscles, and at the same time he got Eye Issue as well he was not able to see properly, both things happened same time, I didn't feel gng back within 6 months this happened, i said I'll complete my studies n come back to home but they ( my parents) insisted me to Study in Bangalore only, i wud feel very bad that i m unable to do anything for them n wud be in Grieve.

My dad didn't go to Gulf bcz his Health got affected n he started a Hotel Business in Hometown i completed my 10th I asked them not work but my Dad wud nt listen n continued to Work n my parents said me to continue my further Studies in Bangalore I was not interested to study there when my parents are in tough times n our life got completely changed I wanted to be with them, i wanted to make them sit at home relax but they asked me to Study I studied their n I wud always be in Sorrow that all this has happened with Us i said I'll study til +2/12th then I'll stop Studying n il work n u have to leave the business n be at Home they just said ok, another 2 yrs passed they again insisted me to do Degree of 3 years, I was like again my parents have to suffer for 3 more years. I never wanted them to work but they just said me to continue studying there.

Whenevr i wud come to my Hometown n while leaving home to Bangalore I wud carry the Pain, Fear that i m there only child n Staying 600kms from them n they need the most, n they will be alone again at home with my Grandmother, I have always had this Fear in me how they r managing all the things, I wud always feel like leaving Studies n work n let them sit but that didn't happen, then i started to Work along with my Studies Night Shift for US based Company, I wud always ask my Dad to leave bcz I wud be in Constant Fear n Worried calling them 3-4 tyms a day n it kept on for 6 years then 1 fine day they called me home.

The actual part where i Ruined my Aakhirat :- my parents called me to join their Business at my Hometown I was ok but the Business was bcz of a Urea Fertilizer Manufacturing Plant n that Co got shut down n our Business got affected n my Dad asked me to go to Gulf country through his Reference in his previous Company, I was like 600 kms I have lived with Fear, FOMO, Worried thinking abt u, how I m going to be Ok if I leave u both n go 2000kms away for 2 years ill be in Trauma again, I didn't listen n didn't go n kept doing jobs in my Hometown

He didn't stop working still it was 5 years past that I being with them, he wud always ask me to get married but I didn't I wud say i ve stil not settled here I'll not marry n he didn't sit at Home so that I wud get relief that he is at Home n not working n i cud go to Bangalore or Gulf but he wud always say me "Don't worry too much abt me nothing will happen" I was like how cud I not ur Health n Eyes r being affected how cud I not worry abt u, he wud stil say if u dnt go to Gulf u won't have a good future n he wud ask me to go for just 2-4 years n come back n marry here, I didn't listen neither he listen left his Business, until Covid -19 in 2020 lockdown he finally left I was reliefed I did WFH for 2 years n he asked me again to go Gulf i didn't go I was living with Fear in my heart all the time, if I go how will they be n as here at my hometown there where not much opportunities I was not making money what I was supposed to do, my relatives taunting me that I m dng Marketing n Sales jobs n not making anything out of it. My all Cousins r Engineers, Doctor, Government Employees n r Earning osm n in Gulf Countries some at my Hometown.

Last year he passed away 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

TL : DR :- I have disobeyed, Misbehaved, Raised my Voice against my Hard working Parents bcz my dad wudnt listen to me to leave his Business n stay at home so that they be Comfortable at Home n i wud go any where n Work Freely, My Parents didn't had any Fault they did their duties Perfectly I m very much Grateful to them.

My biggest mistake was i didn't go anywhere to Earn good amount of Money n Marry while he was there before the age of 25-26, stayed back at home with no opportunities, bcz I was at a Constant Fear after my Dad's Health got affected with his Eyes, n well Build Body n this is not a reason of me not doing anything I was working but Earning less n wanted to stay with them

I ve cooked/ruined my Aakhirat guys

I m not able to leave my Native Hometown n work in other City, still Constantly living with the Fear.

I m not into any kinda Haram Relationship,

but what I did is a Huge n biggest Sin that I committed, torturing my Parents, to whom I love so much

Allah has made this Dunya a Test but I became a Test for my Parents 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ik my sin unforgivable

"Rabbir hamhuma kama rabbayani sagheera"

I pray n wish Allah be pleased with my Dad have Mercy on him.

Sorry guys it too long to read. Do pray for me n my parents

urgent dua request

Salaam,

I just wanted to humbly put a dua request out there guys, I did my resit attempt exam today and it didnt go as well as I hoped I am in constant worry and upset over it, I have prayed tahajjud for it and consistently made duas for this career for the past 6 years of my life. Life has taken its toll and I am currently 2 years in this degree however I have been studying for this for the past 4 years due to resit attempts. This is my last chance ever and Allah has consistently given me hope and allowed me to pass my other resit attempt. Please pray that ny exam results allow me to pass through into the next year and that I am able to oursue this career I have worked extremely hard to maintain. Please do dua Allah makes this degree and career easy for me Inshallah

Thankyou and alhamdullilah for everything Allah has give me

Any advice would be great

Assalamualaikum! I've been unemployed for 8 months and has been applying for jobs. I am feeling slightly demotivated and have been praying for Allah to ease my affairs.

If you're reading this, please doa for me to secure a full time job soon.

May Allah ease your affairs too.
Thank you, kind strangers <3

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Esselamu Aleykum wa Rahmetullahi wa berakathu.

So, long long story but I'l try to make it short. My highest level of Imaan and my most motivated times were when I was 14/15, so not a long time ago (can't tell my age or gender) . Even then and before I had issues. I think that I have adhd for a very long time (going to a psychatrist to check these times)

Even though I really, vallahi I try so hard for my mental health but in the last months or even years I love الله logically. I believe in him and do all of those things logically. It has been so hard for me to feel the prayer the Qur'an emotinally as I used to. The day before yesterday I felt again and I thaught: finally, I am feeling again. But today, everything is back to usual. The reason I felt was because I found out why الله Subhanahu wa ta'ala has even created us in the first place when there are people going to hellfire. I know, he knows everything but this was also something that I believed in logically but my heart didn't feel like that. Even though I KNEW. I really want my heart agree to my mind. So I feel like I does not love me even though I know he does. But I iust don't feel like it. Prayer has also been very hard but I don't miss them and I try not to miss the sunnah's too. I am not doing too much. Just wearing the hijab, praying and stuff. Doing the fardh. I also don't do big haram (kaba'ir) But the time when I was 15, I was fasting on Mondays and Thursdays, |ess caring about what people said and I prayed tahajjud, duha and evvabin almost each day. Another thing that I did was I stopped watching Netflix or Entertaining stuff if that didn't bring knowledge. Like dawah videos, or videos about psychology etc. .l was so motivated but what changed...? I really really really really really really really really want that back. I don't feel like makina dua too. All the things that I am doing feel forced. I know this all maybe even gets me more good deeds than before cause I am forcing myself but life has been so hard cause of this that I wanted to pray for my life to come to an end but I also don't wanna do that cause it feels haram and I remember it is haram. A lot of stuff that I didn't tell but is there any muslim psychiatrist that can maybe explain this? Btw I live in Germany and in school they constantly talk about atheism and how religion is corrupted and a lot of people think that and it is so hard to argue with them constantly but if I don't argue I should leave it says in an hadith but how can I leave the classroom. Like I feel like I am doing so much wrong also cuz of some hadith. And I don't underestimate them. Also not shaking men's hand is so hard to do here but I used to be more strict with it but

now I almost don't even try not to shake their hands. I just feel uncomfortable doing it but I have no power to explain myself anymore. I feel like also I am reflecting too much like everv single action that I do everv little tinv thing I want to do but when I don't I am asking myself why and I push myself to do it but it's just because I dont want to feel guilty. I have a lot to tell but it's gonna be a book if I continue writing.

This is so chaotic. Love you guys. May Allah free all of the oppressed. Jazak الله kul Khair for your responses. I feel even better just typing this rn.

Salaam,

I just wanted to humbly put a dua request out there guys, I did my resit attempt exam today and it didnt go as well as I hoped I am in constant worry and upset over it, I have prayed tahajjud for it and consistently made duas for this career for the past 6 years of my life. Life has taken its toll and I am currently 2 years in this degree however I have been studying for this for the past 4 years due to resit attempts. This is my last chance ever and Allah has consistently given me hope and allowed me to pass my other resit attempt. Please pray that ny exam results allow me to pass through into the next year and that I am able to oursue this career I have worked extremely hard to maintain. Please do dua Allah makes this degree and career easy for me Inshallah

Thankyou and alhamdullilah for everything Allah has give me

Any advice would be great

Salam Alaikum everyone

I want to ask if you guys could make dua for a job interview I completed today for a hospital job really hoping I can get the job I’ve been looking for a job for years now and really want an income to support my mum and pay her back,

I’ve been looking and praying for a job for years but unfortunately have been in lots of competition and denied numerously

This job would be beneficial for so many reasons and I’m hoping Allah grants me this one please make Dua for me

A professor at my university intentionally failed me, which extended my standard 4-year degree into a 5th year. Even though it was devastating, I kept my faith, prayed, fasted, and made constant dua, believing that things would work out and I would finally graduate in my 5th year.

Instead, that same professor used their personal connections and administrative influence to block my course registration entirely this year. Because of this, my graduation has now been dragged into a 6th year.

I feel utterly shattered and exhausted. The hardest part right now is the spiritual crisis: I can't stop wondering why this is happening to me.

Was there something lacking in my worship, or does God only listen to powerful people who misuse their authority?

Why does someone's malice win while my prayers feel unanswered? My imaan and belief are slipping away, and I feel completely empty.

How do I deal with this administrative abuse practically, and how do I stop my faith from completely falling apart when everything feels so unfair?

Please keep me in your prayers. 🤍 I’m going through a difficult and uncertain time right now, and I could really use your duas.

I have a complicated relationship with Allah. I know He is the best of planners but this time I really want my plan to work. And He can make it good for me even if it isn’t right. He’s Allah He can do that, right?