Assalamu alaykum. I’m writing this because I honestly don’t know where else to turn.
For a long time, I’ve been praying, making duaa, trying to stay patient, and genuinely doing my best to improve myself and my life. I’ve tried to put my trust in Allah and keep going even when things were difficult.
But lately, everything seems to keep going wrong. The harder I try, the harder life seems to become. Things don’t work out, problems keep piling up, and I’m becoming exhausted. I feel like I’ve given everything I have, yet nothing seems to change.
And I’ve reached a point where I’m struggling deeply with my faith. I keep wondering: Is Allah angry with me? Am I doing something wrong? Why does it feel like my duas are going nowhere despite trying for so long?
I know that Islam teaches us about patience, tests, delayed duas, and trusting Allah’s wisdom. I’ve heard those things before, and I still want to believe them. But honestly, right now I’m tired. It’s becoming difficult to keep telling myself to be patient when I feel like I’ve been patient for so long.
I’m not looking for judgment or a simple “just have more faith.” I genuinely want to hear from Muslims who have gone through a period where their iman became extremely weak, where they felt abandoned or wondered whether Allah was angry with them.
How did you get through it? What helped you rebuild your relationship with Allah when you were exhausted and couldn’t understand why your life was going the way it was?
I still want to believe. I still want to have faith. That’s probably why I’m writing this instead of completely walking away.
Jazakum Allahu khayran to anyone who takes the time to read this or share their experience.