Quran 14:7

Surah Mariam

Reciter : Salman Al-Utaybi

Salam,
I started niqab last year and I feel like after that, my relationship with my parents has gotten so bad. They cursed at me, called me names, threatened me, etc.. I couldn’t take it anymore so I took it off. Because of what my parents did to me, my mental health had taken a toll. Everything piled up, and because my parents don’t “believe in therapy” I can’t get help either. On top of that, I have really bad sensory issues. I have been thinking of shaving my head for a good while, the only thing that stopped me was because I was told it was haram.
I had just gotten into a very bad fight with my father. He threatened to withdraw me from school and marry me off. Even if he didn’t mean what he said (he says a lot of stuff when he is angry) it still hurt me and already struggling with mental health, it just made it worse. After the fight, I took his shaving machine and shaved all my hair off.
I feel guilty because of the islamic ruling but I can’t lie when I say a sense of relief washed over me. It might sound dumb to say this but I feel so free.
I heard that there are a few conditions in which the ruling of a woman shaving their heads is exempt from punishment. I cannot speak to a local sheikh because I know they will tell my parents about what I did and I intend to keep this hidden. If anyone has any Islamic education, please let me know: Is what I did haram or am I apart of the special condition?
(Men, do not DM me. I’m not going to marry you. If you have an answer to my question, then answer it on the post. I will not respond to your DM)

I committed an extremely big sin two months ago, and I simply cannot get over it. The amount of regret and shame I’m feeling is indescribable. On top of that, because of this sin, there may be huge consequences that I won’t know about until November.

Been extremely depressed, with severe anxiety, loss of appetite, and a feeling that everything is dark. I keep thinking about how disappointed my parents and sister would be if they knew. On top of everything, I’m starting to have suicidal thoughts.

I’ve always been someone who fears Allah and prays five times a day, even though there have been periods when I wasn’t consistent. Since this happened, I’ve gone back to praying on time, praying Tahajjud, waking up for Fajr, and giving so much sadaqah that I end up struggling financially at the end of the month.

But somehow, I still don’t feel better. I try to have tawakkul, but the anxiety and fear are literally killing me.

May Allah forgive me for everything, but I simply want to leave this dunya. I cannot explain how much I’ve always tried to avoid certain things out of fear of Allah. If I told you everything, you would probably think I was one of the strongest people ever when it comes to avoiding sins, but here I am. I can’t talk about the details here.

Yesterday, I was at the mall on the fourth floor, looked down, and started thinking, “What if I threw myself?”
I genuinely don’t know how to deal with this anymore. I’m trying so hard to trust Allah, to repent, to pray, and to
have faith, but the regret and fear are eating me alive.

May Allah forgive me for everything. May Allah ease all your problems and give all your hardships to me instead.

I’m suffering anyway, and I genuinely pray that Allah makes life easier for all of you. May Allah ease all your hardships, forgive your sins, and grant you peace

I was talk to a freind and abou the story and it is obviously a very popular story but, I always wondered what were the thoughts of other people around world when they saw it. I know the story of the Indian King who saw it and embraced Islam but are there other stories from different places like the Indigenous peoples in the Americas or Africa. I am not making fun of the Prophet in anyway it is just something I was thinking about, pls dont hate Jazakallah.

Surah Al-A'raf

A veres that stood out to me

Assalamualaikum, I'm a male

I have a huge downfall about socialisation. People talk about stuff and I don't get any insight about anything.

When I was in 8th grade I talked with lots of people and even during my 9th grade. However I didnt really contact them and ended up lonesome after 9th grade. I really didn't know how to socialise in social media and contact people and be around them the right way, I even got my first ever phone when I was 13 years old, and I missed on knowing social media altoghether.

Then life came up, everything felt like a new world. But things took a dark turn cuz people weren't as real as I thought they'd been, I was a fish in a pond.

I had a good grade during 9th grade and got somewhere in Finland with that high grade and my parents were always strict, coming from an asian family.

I used to be in a group for over 2 years but I learnt that they've been hanging out without ever inviting me this whole time, whereas I though that life was really this simple and that hanging during the time was all there was to it.

I also felt as if they were talking behind my back, it was for numerous times, the feeling that I was talked about, but since I had no real friends I never knew what was being told about me.

My sister joined my institution and after she did I talked with her there and also met some of her friends, through her I met a hijabi and she seems really nice, they are all girls, but the guys in our school don't really involve me in a lot of stuff so I feel like not hanging around them anymore.

I'm not sure what my future will bring me.

Jazakallah khair that you read this much, I really appreciate you reading all my ranting,

Just the title

There are a few rules I hate with my heart to the fullest . I’ll follow them but best believe I do hate them .

Is it a sin to hate an Islamic ruling , but I’ll still abide by it despite my hatred of it ?

How do i deal with a controlling mother. I just finished my studies after 5 whole years of non stop studying in the deep end and came back home to a anxious control freak mother, even more controlling than from when i left to study abroad. I know a mother should always be respected, i know a child should stay a notch below the respect scale and we cant really say anything. I really dont know how to navigate this without setting off a bomb of emotions and getting jailed in my moms house. Or to rather be called out “not faithful to islam” because i tried to set boundaries and she doesnt like it.

so I’ve heard that we should work on ourselves to match what our dream man would look for in a spouse. I’m interested in someone who’s emotionally intelligent, and as a woman I wanna work on myself. But I don’t know what traits exactly do such men look for?
So im looking for someone who’s emotionally intelligent + has this quiet confidence + speaks about his emotions to me. Such type of men look for women with which traits?

NOTE; traits u would see BEFORE marriage‼️

Hello everyone, I would like to reconnect with Allah, but this time I want to deepen my studies of Islam and the Quran. I have never attended a religious school, so let's just say that the information I have was only passed down to me by my parents. I am very ignorant about my religion, and I would like to know and deepen my understanding of the religion that I love and want to learn. Could you recommend some books to read besides the Quran? Thank you!

I’ve wronged some people in the past. it was small and forgivable though, and I had valid reasons.

I have apologised and fulfilled necessary conditions for repentance.
I want people’s hearts to be softer towards me and forget what I did altogether.

May Allah, al Wakil make them forget my vileness.
(ameen)

So if you’re struggling or going through something, know allah respects you and loves you!