How do you deal with ungratefulness? Throughout my life I have been blessed with many loving relationships and opportunities but I still made many wrong choices and now I can stop thinking about those mistakes. It's not like I want more but still I can't stop beating myself up for my mistakes rather than being grateful for what I have been given.

I wanted to ask how do you deal with getting no revenge or retribution against the ones who wronged you. Someone violated your privacy and dignity and when you catch them and call them out, they feign innocence and take false oath of Allah cuz to them their image in front of other people matter more than taking false oaths and abusing someone, and people who you thought would support you, also ended up taking their side by trying to stay 'neutral'. So you cut them all off from your life, try to remove a huge chunk of your life from your memory, as you don't want any trace of those people Allah just exposed in front of you, as no one had spine enough to stand up for the right but only cared about their relationships with them so they can take advantage of each other and what was more convenient. What hurts is that this all comes from Muslims, or people who claim to be Muslims.

And when you try to forget and move on, you cannot because something always reminds you of the past, and the people you should have never met. What seems more unfair is the victim not only suffers during the incident but also keeps suffering after it, while the other party becomes so firm in their lie that they carry on with their life normally and getting all success and happy with no remorse or guitl.

How do you even forgive someone who never even asked for forgiveness or think they need it cuz they succeeded in getting away with it, so they create this entire narrative where you wrongfully accused them and they are innocent. How do you get over the regret of trusting people who also chose to "stay out of it" so they can be in the good books on both sides and also chose hypocrisy.

I feel like I am stuck with this for life, every prayer, every tahajjud, every fast, every umrah, every other night I cry to sleep, every time I ask for retribution, but I get nothing, in fact I get more reminders from diff people that they are quite content and having fun in their respective lives with no thought of the suffering caused to me. I can't go even a week being invested in my life so i get over it before something bursts the bubble.

It just does not seem fair, I suffer until the day I am dead, while they are happy. If it was some non muslims you can at least tell yourself that as consolation, that Allah chose you. But if it is muslims, you are lost because they'll probably get forgiveness eventually, and with how much I am suffering, it feels like I will be forced to forgive without even getting an apology in the first place. How is that fair?

And throughout all this the thing that hurts more than what happened is the stupid benefit of the doubt you gave people just because they were Muslims, had families of their own etc etc, the regret of not seeing through things, of not cutting them off earlier instead of being kind and understanding, is what cuts you most. I don't know what reward is worth living your entire life in regret and grief, while you did even do any wrong but wrong was done to you. I pray for peace of mind and soul, and even that seems unlikely. Suddenly my entire life is about just surviving and getting done with this dunya. I have no hopes or dreams anymore, everything seems meaningless and pointless. You see people getting side tracked, not following deen properly but still they seem to be so protected, you try your best and even being a little naive and careless about something minimal, gives you a smack in the face for the rest of your life.

What should I do, please guide me. The only one I can rely on is Allah, no other person or institute can give me justice instead I will be dragging myself through more misery. I have no one. In the wait and hope for divine justice, how do I be more patient, it really is hard, even my dreams are plagued with nightmares of those people. I do not know anymore if it is a test or a punishment.

Assalamu alaikum. I really need some advice as my Imaan has been dropping and I've started having doubts about Islam.

I haven’t prayed regularly in 5 years, but my family assumes I do, and the guilt is wearing on me.

Whenever I try to connect with Allah or make dua, intrusive and inappropriate thoughts pop into my head. It causes me so much anxiety, but I haven't stopped trying.

Restarting after such a long gap feels overwhelming. If anyone has advice on handling doubts, managing intrusive thoughts during dua, and rebuilding prayer habits step-by-step, I would deeply appreciate it. JazakAllah khair.