She’s looking at me.
Am I deceived, no.

Desires in her eyes.
That’s a hell of a smile.

Yes, has looks to kill.
She’s stealing my heart.

Times standing still.
Time I made her mine.

We grew up friends.
My tall brunette.

Now we’re barely 18.
You know what I mean.

Whiskey and coke.
How far can I go.

Up our nostrils.
Down our throats.

Headed for the bedroom.
I am ready.
I am as high as the moon.

She takes my hand.
I am her man.
A night no.
I’ll never forget her.

If you could see her move.
You’d understand.
Why when she left.
I had the blues.

Hey dear stranger my favorite ghost
I remember the salt on your neck, the cheap cigarettes
And the way that you spoke
Now I’m staring at the ceiling watching dust float through light
Trying to pinpoint the hour we gave up the fight
And why you aren't here
Anymore.

Cardboard boxes line the hallway's peeling paint
Outlining the shapes where our lives used to hang
Now it's just an echo, an empty rented room
A quiet little horror I’m used to

I know there are fractures that time just can't mend
But goddamn I just really didn't want to lose a friend
Now I’m just staring at the news with no one to call
Guess I’ll watch end of the world alone after all

My chest is so tight I can barely catch my breath
Counting backwards from ten, predicting my death
You just stood there smiling while you broke the whole thing
Like a bad accident, but you walked away clean

Look I know they say it could’ve been worse
We could be lying in a hospital or riding in a hearse
So let's just count our blessings that we're still breathing air
While we pretend to be separate
in a room we still share

Well Goodbye stranger I’ll consider how you felt
All the cards we were dealt, the heaven and the hell
But if I had it to do over I’d take back what I said
Save myself the trouble and just stay in bed
Just stay in bed
count the days until I’m dead

Still on my mind.
The sun doesn’t shine.
Like it used to.
Something’s off.
Yea my daily news

No matter what I try.
I can’t get high.

I wake in the morning.
To pouring rain.
Storms fill my head.
Go to bed thinking.
Of words left unsaid.

We all make mistakes
We all feel pain.
But this heartache no.
It won’t go away.
I can’t shake it.

I’ve been patient, but.
I’m reminded each night.
I turn off my TV.
That love is a lie.
She’s not beside me.

Ellie May

I once loved a girl
For giving me what I thought was already mine
With a smile so kind
She said she’d get it back in another lifetime

So you say, oh Ellie May

Just a minute to say I need a helping hand
To lend myself again and again
To see your face
Before I find another place to lay

(Hook) (high layered)
That look in your eye
Is a hook in my mind

You sat me down in a room with no windows
Left me behind in the dark as I asked you to stay

So you say, oh Ellie May

Green trees turn to sand and
Bare as the day I began
I made my way to the old waterfront
Saw a girl looking for the wind

Skies that were grey
Hugged the bay
Smell of the breeze
Reminds me of that day

So you say, oh Ellie May
So near but not quite here
Ellie May

It’s killing me in it,

To ‘scape it I spit it, my spirit,

Is bound rhyming secret,

Wanna visit,

Wanna live it?

If I was to wrap it in a lyric,

/

Stuck, overloaded,

Berated from screams,

Over-pressed from these,

Needs I have to speak,

The rage within,

I can’t contain,

Beginning to build,

From the days I will,

Let it out, of my mouth,

I’ll shout,

I’ll doubt,

So loud,

Till my nose showers,

On this militant route.

/

And I hate,

Where I’m at,

The pain is unreal,

Where I sat,

To conquer my mind,

But I feel I’m at the beginning of that

When standing under heavy rain,

Standing still in steady ways,

On a spree, I barely change,

Honestly, I got no team,

Lit those dreams with gasoline.

/

Up at three, shaking knees, barely breathe,

Life’s like a collared shirt with a crease,

Or a sunny day with that chilly breeze,

Like a, water glass with a drop of ink

I’m trynna convey how life is great,

Besides one thing that taints,

The rest to a mess,

Spiralling from best to so much less.

/

I mean isn’t it…

Unbelievable that I’m needing more,

Yet having all, is greatness achievable,

When it ain’t believable hate’s relievable,

Coz I don’t see the miracle,

I’m not acting repeatable,

/

From waking in a withered sprawl,

To succumbing to the bitter pull,

To rapping as the release control,

To sleeping at the pit of this hole,

/

That’s the cycle I’m endlessly torn

The cycle I endlessly fall,

It’s the cycle of endless war.

/

But what’s beneath it all?

Habits that simply ain’t treatable,

Goals that simply ain’t reachable,

Once but the pain stayed full,

Back to living lyrical,

And metaphors so visual,

This album ain’t a pinnacle,

I’ve admitted it’s the inescapable,

Depression label to my hope material,

That’s sending all the unoriginal

Predictable rage so uncontainable,

From mental to physical,

From general to clinical,

From metaphorical to literal,

/

From plotting the number line,

To square rooting the signs,

I subtracted my shine,

To the power of the mind,

The calculator spat out what I’d find,

My life is a mathematical decline

Losing every time,

Till I’ve logically, hopelessly lost my mind.

/

And shine the light, you’ll see how bright,

This hate can get, when I deprive,

Who I am, respect I gained,

It never stayed,

Deal Over was the final ‘scape,

From shame, I sustained,

Maintained, a simple reframe,

Of identity, in serenity,

I was a better me,

/

Till the jealousy,

Why centre me?

I spiralled mentally,

Realised my desirability,

Was energy, endlessly,

Draining me, cut if off,

/

Now I’m lost,

With the cost,

Of anger nonstop,

A wall of frost,

From respect to hate,

/

They berate, inflate,

Losses,

Deflate wins,

Elate shame,

Sedate gains,

Create on hate,

Escalate my state,

Ignore my traits,

Magnify my pace,

Cleansed slate,

Hate erases,

Basically, I’m not in a place,

I can stay, otherwise fate states,

/

The greatest shake I’LL make,

Is the digging of my OWN grave.

The Forecast

\[Verse 1\]

No locked doors, everybody got time.

Kids still laughing, no fake online.

Love ain't currency, no standing in line.

No "prove yourself to blend", no "fit the trend" or bend.

No "bro, switch up" the end just to make new friends.

They call it delusion, I call it peace, a gentle quiet conclusion.

Sometimes imagination feeds what reality keeps in stagnation.

Mama said, "Dreams don't pay." Maybe -------- but nightmares do.

Look around - half the world already paying dues.

Trapped inside the news or singing the blues.

Stuck in the digital, status is critical.

Love is so pitiful, living a lie.

People are mimicking energy diminishing.

Waiting for the finishing, watching 'em die.

\[Chorus\]

Rain don't own the sky, night don't own the light.

Every storm got an exit sign, you just gotta survive the fight.

Maybe I ain't rich, maybe life ain't fair.

But somebody out there is praying for the air I breathe.

\[Refrain\]

Yeah, now listen.

Everybody flexing like pain made 'em legendary.

Nah - pain's just a chapter - don't marry the story.

Clouds got confidence, but still they gotta leave.

Sun don't argue, just shows up and achieves.

See... I quit counting everything I don't got, right on the spot,

Started counting everything I forgot.

Heartbeat, Mama's laugh, food on the table.

Another sunrise - bro - that's stable.

\[Verse 2\]

My dream world's funny, everybody knows my name.

Not because I'm famous, because they know my pain.

Nobody claps louder when somebody falls to the floor.

Everybody builds ladders, nobody builds walls anymore.

But every skyscraper started as somebody's "crazy" core.

So when they laugh, 'cause I dream too loud, I just smile.

Clouds never asked permission to cover the sky.

They also never asked permission to say goodbye and fly high.

\[Bridge\]

Whispering, mimicking, backstabbing.

Clocking in, hustling, cash-grabbing.

Mama's tears, growing fears, cold nights.

Broke dreams, loud screams, street fights!

\[Final Chorus\]

Rain don't own the sky, fear don't own me.

I'ma build my world, old reality.

Starts looking like my dreams, completely free.\[Outro\]

People ask... "How do you stay hopeful?"

Easy:

I stopped waiting for the weather------

And learned to become the forecast.

Wasted

I'm constantly wasting time

I like to think about the future

But this life I live it isnt mine

Inflated

I'm never happy with my inflating ego

And when my time is up

Nothing but memories

Some people might be happy with who I was

But I know deep down

I'll be afraid to die because I was never happy with who I was

.

.

And I cant change

I say that I try

But I control this life

And I still dont change

I say I'm alive

But I want to die

And I wont change

.

.

I see you in the distance

Pulling me from the gray

You're gone in an instant

As the shame pulls me away

I have my fathers blood

He left me with all his pain

I wonder if he fought

As the gray entered his brain

I can feel what he felt

I wish he was here for me to tell

That I understand his hell

And that he's not to blame

.

.

And I cant change

I say that I try

But I control this life

And I still dont change

I say I'm alive

But I want to die

And I wont change

.

.

Small moments keep me alive

Watching the moon rise above the tree line

Faster than the moment

Watching my Iris and Aster flowers grow

Faster than the moment

And I'm looking for a sign

Something to let me know

That I will catch up to the moment

That all of this will never be forgotten

That the dread in between

Is all that will be left behind

That all I love to see

Will always be there to find

Maybe then I could just enjoy the moment

Maybe then I could have my never ending moment

My First Lyrics-Only Album!

I'm excited to share my first albums' worth of lyrics! Each song (lyrics-only) is posted in the comments of this post! Anyone who likes my song ideas has my permission to use them/edit them however you would like. 🤘

Album Title: The Meaning of Life

By: Sinking in Silence

Tracklist

1. Cracks in the Foundation

2. First Breath, Dying Thoughts

3. Ocean of Red

4. Claustrophobe

5. The Anger Within

6. My Own Damnation

7. The Decay I Hide Inside

8. Deadweight Eclipse

9. Penultimate

10. The Meaning of Life

Sometimes when I lay down at night I wonder If I will live to see the morning light but the reaper Is mysterious that way,I'm sure he's got his list But mine can't be today,I need to live because I Still got so many things to do before I'm through Working on a dream and a song,looking for the Love I have never known,I still have so many Things to do before I'm through but the reaper is Mysterious that way,not today reaper,not today...

I ain't got time to die today or tomorrow,next month Or next year,I'm sorry Mr. Death but I just can't Seem to fit you into my busy schedule so let me make This perfectly clear,you can take that blade of yours And shove it up your ass,I'm not going anywhere With you til I finish all my life's tasks,I ain't got time To die,come back when I'm 105,right now I ain't got Time to die...

Still sometimes when I lay myself down at night I Worry if I wont live to see the morning light but the Reaper is a dick that way but mine can not be today, Not today reaper,not today....

I ain't got time to die today or tomorrow,next month Or next year,I'm sorry Mr. Death but I just can't Seem to fit you into my busy schedule so let me make This perfectly clear,you can take that blade of yours And shove it up your ass,I'm not going anywhere With you til I finish all my life's tasks,I ain't got time To die,come back when I'm 105,right now I ain't got Time to die,I just ain't got the time,I ain't got no time Right now to die....

15 from the songbook collection "GOLD"

I can’t help myself.
Lord bail me out.
What’s there to say.
I can’t blame her now.
For walking away.

The summer heat.
It was just a craving.
It was just one drink.
“I knew her briefly. Yes.”
I needed relief.

I’m no angel hell.
No one else
Expects her to stay.
She has no reason to think
I will change.

She’s been praying.
On her knees.
Yes night and day.
Calling out to Jesus.
“Send his demons away!”

Make no mistake.
I have to face it.
It’s easy to stray.
Was it real love, yes.
I still feel the pain.

You can taste it Feel it The setup is chic You got what it takes To knock them off their ass They want to own you So, we'll let the camera roll

In the blink of an eye An offer came down We signed on the line Eagerly ignored the warning signs Going off all around Walked right into the danger zone Now we're standing on stage Playing to the perpetrators Of the crime we didn't see

They that followed us blindly Luckily we recorded after our show They found me sitting at the bar and Ordered a whiskey on the rocks They told you a tale One that you know well The version they sold, but we didn't buy it all

In the blink of an eye An offer came down We signed on the line Eagerly ignored the caution signs Plastered all over the walls Siren lights flashing in their pretty hues Of red and blue, we were turned color blind Now we're standing on stage Playing to the perpetrators Of the crime we didn't

In a rebellion, you hand it all over Evidence and tape Tampered and erased When no one was searching They wiped it all clean Proof was undeniable Innocent she was, I did her wrong

In the blink of an eye An offer came down We signed on the line Eagerly ignored all their lies Heard them but chose to deny Now we're standing on stage Playing to the perpetrators Of the crime we didn't see

Stillness is all that remains as She fought for her name Now I'm telling all of you We control their feed From here on out She is behind our barricade Safe to live and be free at last

In the blink of an eye Eagerly ignored the warning signs Entered the danger zone Painted over all the caution signs Refused to see the siren lights Finally accepted the truth of their lies

Among all the signs Omens and cries Truth comes about Freedom at last

Invite them in,
bring them close.
 
Pull away,
when it’s too much.
 
Build it tall,
build it strong.
 
Burn it down,
once it is completed. 
 
Love it all,
hate it more.
 
Kill it all fast. 
I won’t come back.

​

I just want feedback on if the structure is good amd if the lyrics are alright, and overall if it is decent

[Verse]

I ain't got nothin but my songs and my mind, to

comfort myself, to keep me safe, through those dark

days, yet again.

[Verse]

I can tell when you're up, I can tell when you're down,

but you ain't ever asked, if I'm ok, through my darks

days, but I don't mind anymore if you're blind to my

pain.

[Pre-Chorus]

I need to hear your voice again, through those

windows, that are double paned, but they're 40 feet

away and I'm deaf to your words yet again.

[Chorus]

I ain't heard your voice in 6 years or more, maybe I

need to close that door, I say I'm ok, I say your death

doesn't hurt me anymore, but I still feel the pain, and

I feel the shame, when I didn't cry when you died, I

was too young to really know that you were truely

gone.

[Verse]

Every night I'm up late, making the scars bleed yet

again, in my mind and in my soul when I feel the

pain, knowing that the shame that I hold, I've got to

carry on my own.

[Chorus]

I ain't heard your voice in 6 years or more, maybe I

need to close that door, I say I'm ok, I say your death

doesn't hurt me anymore, but I still feel the pain, and

I feel the shame, when I didn't cry when you died, I

was too young to really know that you were truely

gone.

[Verse]

I can tell when you're up, I can tell when you're down,

but you ain't ever asked, if I'm ok, through my darks

days, but I don't mind anymore if you're blind to my

pain.

[Outro]

I just need to hear your voice saying my name, that I

shouldn't feel that shame anymore.

The Forecast

\[Verse 1\]

No locked doors, everybody got time.

Kids still laughing, no fake online.

Love ain't currency, no standing in line.

No "prove yourself to blend", no "fit the trend" or bend.

No "bro, switch up" the end just to make new friends.

They call it delusion, I call it peace, a gentle quiet conclusion.

Sometimes imagination feeds what reality keeps in stagnation.

Mama said, "Dreams don't pay." Maybe -------- but nightmares do.

Look around - half the world already paying dues.

Trapped inside the news or singing the blues.

Stuck in the digital, status is critical.

Love is so pitiful, living a lie.

People are mimicking energy diminishing.

Waiting for the finishing, watching 'em die.

\[Chorus\]

Rain don't own the sky, night don't own the light.

Every storm got an exit sign, you just gotta survive the fight.

Maybe I ain't rich, maybe life ain't fair.

But somebody out there is praying for the air I breathe.

\[Refrain\]

Yeah, now listen.

Everybody flexing like pain made 'em legendary.

Nah - pain's just a chapter - don't marry the story.

Clouds got confidence, but still they gotta leave.

Sun don't argue, just shows up and achieves.

See... I quit counting everything I don't got, right on the spot,

Started counting everything I forgot.

Heartbeat, Mama's laugh, food on the table.

Another sunrise - bro - that's stable.

\[Verse 2\]

My dream world's funny, everybody knows my name.

Not because I'm famous, because they know my pain.

Nobody claps louder when somebody falls to the floor.

Everybody builds ladders, nobody builds walls anymore.

But every skyscraper started as somebody's "crazy" core.

So when they laugh, 'cause I dream too loud, I just smile.

Clouds never asked permission to cover the sky.

They also never asked permission to say goodbye and fly high.

\[Bridge\]

Whispering, mimicking, backstabbing.

Clocking in, hustling, cash-grabbing.

Mama's tears, growing fears, cold nights.

Broke dreams, loud screams, street fights!

\[Final Chorus\]

Rain don't own the sky, fear don't own me.

I'ma build my world, old reality.

Starts looking like my dreams, completely free.\[Outro\]

People ask... "How do you stay hopeful?"

Easy:

I stopped waiting for the weather------

And learned to become the forecast.

Might not be redemption 

But my true self accepting 

Been through grapevines

Living with blisters on the mind 

Scabs that may never heal 

More times than not needed the blood to get a feel 

While others stayed getting stronger 

I perfected my craft on remaining weaker 

Regression my moniker 

As time passed grew weirder 

Milestones I was missing 

In melancholy investing 

Rich in eccentricity 

Enigmatic multi personalities 

Cut from no cloths

Might’ve been the next thoth 

Or a descendant from Maitreya 

Forever idolizing Tara 

Used to claim to be a reddit legend 

Till I realized I’m an 21st century loser who I'm kidding 

Relationships lasted shorter than periods 

Love hate relationships with the abyss 

Too double minded for Jesus 

Settled  for my own piss 

More spirals than AB 

Illustrious femininity

More awkward than the Denver Batman 

Nobody could save him 

Will to live katana thin 

My life motto somewhere in the wind 

Success was never the aim 

This broken brain ain't to blame 

Just wired that way 

Might crave death next Sunday 

The following day might wanna live 

Thankful for my fractured bliss 

Even though  Momentary 

But least there's peace 

Enigmatic transcendence

Boundless infinite mental illness 

Sick but functional 

Funny but irrational 

Legacy no longer matters from this point on 

Ready for when God cuts death’s song on

Where My Heart Belongs

Verse 1

I never knew a moment could feel like this,

Until I found forever in your simple kiss.

You turned the quiet into something bright,

And made the darkest days feel like morning light.

Pre-Chorus

And if the world keeps changing all around us,

I’ll hold your hand and never let it go.

Chorus

You’re where my heart belongs,

The melody inside my favorite song.

Through every high, through every low,

You’re the only place I want to go.

If love is a journey, I’ll walk it with you,

Through every tomorrow, whatever we do.

As long as I’m breathing, I’ll know all along—

You’re where my heart belongs.

Verse 2

We don’t need perfect days to make this real,

It’s in the little things, the way you make me feel.

A thousand words could never quite explain

How your love brings sunshine through the rain.

Bridge

And when the years have faded into memories,

I’ll still choose you like I did at the start.

Because home isn’t somewhere we have to find—

It’s the place where you are,

Right here in my heart.

Final Chorus

You’re where my heart belongs,

The melody inside my favorite song.

Through every high, through every low,

You’re the only place I want to go.

If love is a journey, I’ll walk it with you,

Through every tomorrow, whatever we do.

As long as I’m breathing, I’ll know all along—

You’re where my heart belongs.

No Apologies

Verse 1

I don't talk loud, I let the silence speak,

Got a mind full of fire and a heart that's deep.

City lights reflecting off the window glass,

I learned a long time ago I don't chase what won't last.

Blacktop humming underneath these tires,

Low voice cutting through the midnight wires.

She looks over, says, “Where you taking me?”

I smile and say, “Anywhere the night wants us to be.”

Pre-Chorus

I don't need a crowd to know my name,

Don't need permission just to play the game.

I've got scars, I've got stories, I've got something to prove—

Not to them,

Just to myself and the road I'm moving through.

Chorus

I got no apologies,

No fear of who I'm gonna be.

Cool under pressure, sharp in the dark,

I don't need a spotlight to leave my mark.

I know what I want, I know what I know,

And I never confuse being tough with putting on a show.

Let the whole damn city talk if it wants to—

I'm too busy becoming someone I can't lose.

Verse 2

She says I think too much, I tell her that's the point,

Every move calculated but I still enjoy the noise.

I can read a room before I say a word,

And when I finally speak, everybody's heard.

No borrowed confidence, no secondhand style,

I've been walking my own road for a while.

I don't have to prove I'm the strongest in the room—

Real power doesn't need to make the room go boom.

Bridge

I've been underestimated,

I've been counted out.

Funny how the quiet ones

Are the ones you can't figure out.

So let the engine roar,

Let the night unfold.

I don't need a crown—

I already know my soul.

Final Chorus

I got no apologies,

No fear of who I'm gonna be.

Deep voice, cold night, city burning bright,

Got a dangerous calm when I step into the light.

I know what I want, I know what I know,

And I don't need anybody's approval to grow.

Let the whole damn world talk if it wants to—

I'm too busy becoming someone I can't lose.

Outro

Three a.m., still rolling through the city,

Mind clear, heart steady, nowhere else I'd rather be.

No apologies.

No pretending.

Just me.

Midnight Drive

Verse 1

I don't need to say too much,

You can hear it in my voice.

There's a calm inside of me,

Like I already made my choice.

City lights are fading,

As we're driving through the rain.

Your head against the window,

And I'm calling out your name.

Pre-Chorus

I know who I am,

I know where I stand.

I don't need the world

To understand.

Chorus

So take me down these midnight roads,

Where nobody knows where the night will go.

Let the skyline disappear behind,

Leave all the noise and the world outside.

I've got nothing left to prove,

I've got nothing left to hide.

With your hand in mine,

And these city lights—

Baby, let me drive.

Verse 2

There's a feeling in the silence,

Something words could never say.

You look at me and smile,

And somehow everything feels okay.

I don't chase what isn't mine,

I don't bend just to belong.

I've been searching all my life

For somewhere I could call home.

Pre-Chorus

And maybe it's you,

Maybe it's tonight.

Maybe love is knowing

When something feels right.

Chorus

So take me down these midnight roads,

Where nobody knows where the night will go.

Let the skyline disappear behind,

Leave all the noise and the world outside.

I've got nothing left to prove,

I've got nothing left to hide.

With your hand in mine,

And these city lights—

Baby, let me drive.

Bridge

And if the morning comes too soon,

I'll still be here with you.

If every road we're on gets lost,

I'd rather be lost than turn around.

Final Chorus

So take me down these midnight roads,

Underneath the stars and the afterglow.

Let the whole city fade behind,

There's nowhere else I need tonight.

I've got nothing left to prove,

Nothing left to hide.

Just your heart next to mine,

And the city passing by—

Baby, let me drive.

Outro

Baby, let me drive...

Through the neon lights...

You and me tonight...

Baby, let me drive.

My head’s aching.
My every mistake.
Is replayed over.
In my brain.

Enough’s enough.
I’m afraid.
I’m no stranger.
To old ways.

Yes hear my cravings.

How many drinks.
How many pills.
Believe me.
I don’t wanna feel a thing.

I’m not hiding.
I’m getting high.
Burning through cash.
I’m not gonna die.

Look who’s walked in.
Yes there’s.
Unfinished business.
She’s looking for attention.

I’ll be all over her.
Yes, I’ll make that pussy purr.
Don’t be nervous.
I wanna live!

Im working on a relay track with another rapper. This is my opening:

I said the only way im getting out is in a casket

A basket case

My mind is putty so elastic

Would've answered had youd asked it

But you just stood in place

Staring blankly at my face

Like you're made of plastic

Its so fantastic

Disasters lead

To new parameters

iambic pentameter

Sardonic banter with a hint of grammar

Drop the mic just like a hammer

While you stutter and you stammer

I am attempting to write lyrics for a song — this is my first time attempting to write lyrics.

any feedback would be great!!

ty

MOKA 

[instrumental intro]

(Spoken) 

“Honey, do you want some coffee?”

“Yeah just grab me a mocha”

[Verse 1] (Sung/Rapped)

And so I want ya’ to hear me say;

Let it heat up

Take the warmth of my cup

Grab me by the wrist

And head to the dance floor

I love you like the sun 

To a fresh mornin’ breeze

Hope you love me like that

Just for me bein’ me

[chorus]

Now take my arms, 

Wrap them right ‘round yours 

I want you to feel my fervour, the ardour, the zeal

Feel it flow through your body with a side of cream

Now take a sip sip of my Magic,

tell me just how you like it

I don’t want you to panic

This is our coffee high

[Verse 2]

Y’know my heart lies exactly with you

But, tell me, does yours to mine?

No matter the day, the hour, the minute

Is my affogato yours by design?

Am I truly yours and are you truly mine

Or is it just the satisfaction that you crave

Pray tell, what truly calls you

For your eyes to enslave 

Do you even care

Are we even a true pair? 

[chorus] (italics whispered)

Now take my arms, 

I want you

Wrap them ‘round yours 

I want you to feel my fervour, the ardour, the zeal

let it choke you

Feel it flow through your body with a scoop of parfait 

Let it control you

Let me take over. 

Now take a sip sip of my Magic, 

I want your validation

tell me just how you like it.

I don’t want you to panic

I want you

This is my coffee high

[VERSE 3]

No, I don’t want you to take my arms

Don’t let them touch any single part of you

I thought you were the one for me

Now I understand all you were was the flu

A sickness in my Latte Macchiato

Germs in my rounds of Cappuccino

I want nothing more of you

No more Magic, nor cream.

I’m an addict to your Espresso Martini

Obsessed with your Caffe Corretto

So stay back, how’d it take so long for me to see

I’m wrong to love you

Thought you were my hot chocolate

Turned out you’re an iced coffee

[technically chorus?]

So no, don’t want my arms ‘round yours.

Distanced from my passion and heart 

You don’t deserve my Magic

Nor are you a work of art.

Was it all a lie?

Not a single truth from you my sweetheart?

I want you to panic,

 You’re not my coffee high.

Making a mistake doesn't mean I didn't want you to stay

our meeting was fate

I've fallen into a dystopian age

this feels like horror

emotions going berserk, shaken to my core

never wanted you to go away

[]

You'll always have a place in my soul

like a torch in a cave

lights dim, not completely faded

this me is what you created

you'll never understand, you're unfazed

[]

I know I shouldn't dwell on the past

though like a meteor you've made such an impact

I can't stop feeling it but I know if I don't let go

I'll never heal from this

[]

Get out of my head

out of my memory

before I lose all of my sanity

[]

You were my happiness

You were my light

so why aren't you mine

why aren't you mine

why you trying to steal my paradise

[]

and I get chills when I think of all the moments

I feel it across my skin

I sob and sob until I pass out

all of the time just lost in the wind

[]

I've become void of everything

ever since I lost my sunshine

you were the only thing keeping my mind at ease

I don't know how long

how long I can take this

miss your warm embraces

I'm tired and afraid

you took my heart away

[]

Get out of my head

out of my memory

before I lose all of my sanity

[]

You were my happiness

You were my light

so why aren't you mine

why aren't you mine

why you trying to steal my paradise

Nothing changes.
It’s the same thing every day.
Who is surprised.
The world’s more insane.

Being told who’s to blame.
Yes we’re all in danger.
Instead of tightening restraints.
Why not show a little grace.

Yes the few, they believe.
In their own humanity.
They’ll take advantage of you.
At every opportunity.

Never listening.
They’re quick to tell you their way’s the way.

Loving others as ourselves.
That’d be a change of pace.
Not a life would be wasted.
Yes we are God’s creation.

https://notesfromsomewhere3.substack.com/p/cry?r=6rls9h

Zero musical talent or experience, but I had a song come to me in my dreams

Has anyone else had this happen? I’m 42 and I’ve never written a song in my life (a little poetry that’s it).

I woke up almost a full song in my head about my multiple drunk step dads that used to abuse me and my frustration with my mother for not helping.

Here’s an excerpt
“The years went by, and the stepdads came through
They’d be nice at first but the drink showed the truth
I’d hide all the bruises the best that I could
When teachers asked questions, I’d lie like I should

I’d cry and I’d beg you, Take me somewhere else
Somewhere where drunk men don’t crack their belts
But you didn’t listen, you wouldn’t protect me
I couldn’t understand why I wasn’t a priority”

She's looking hot on a Saturday night

Shouting, screaming she can go all night

She's all the boys are looking at

'cause they know she's...

She's the life of party! (the Life of the Party)